Part 7
Connor approached Tully who had been sitting be the waterfall, remembering times when he used to laugh with Catlin....Connor looked at him...Tully looked back, Connor sat next to him. "I'm sorry Tully. I really am."
"I know you are Connor." said Tully.
"I miss her." said Connor.
"I know. But you have to understand that this wasn't your fault."
Connor looked towards the waterfall. "I wish I could believe you. I just didn't have the chance. I waited too long."
"For what?"
"To tell her how much I cared for her." said connor.
"She knew you did. We all knew. You didn't have to say it to her."
"I did. I should have. Maybe she wouldn't have kept Molly's betrayal a secret." said Connor.
"Connor, I'm going to tell you something.....you know where we are sitting here now?"
Connor nodded his head.
"This is where Catlin and I used to have our conversations...we would talk about everything, including what was in our hearts. She talked about you a lot Connor...you were the first person in years that showed you cared for her...you saved her life....she loved you very much...she wanted you to be happy...even if it wasn't with her. Everyone here in the sanctuary knows what she meant to you...especially Fergus..he knows what you went through with Claire, he hates to see you go through it again. Everyone knows that she was more than just a friend, we understand your pain...Catlin brought light to this place...with her belief in her God...apart from that...she cared for everyone...she never would want anyone to suffer because of her. Don't blame yourself Connor. No one else does, why should you? You loved one another, isn't that what is important?"
"You're right." said Connor looking at Tully, "but it still hurts...in some ways, I can still feel her..I can still hear her...my mind refuses to believe she's gone....when we were being held captive...I gave her my ring as a sign of hope for us."
"Did she know you gave it to her?"
"I don't know...she was so weak." said Connor fiddling with her fingers. "She did tell me she loved me, that she would love me always, remembering that makes the pain so much clearer. I had her Tully...she was there waiting for me."
"You still have her." said Tully, "In your heart. You'll always have her."
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Connor approached Tully who had been sitting be the waterfall, remembering times when he used to laugh with Catlin....Connor looked at him...Tully looked back, Connor sat next to him. "I'm sorry Tully. I really am."
"I know you are Connor." said Tully.
"I miss her." said Connor.
"I know. But you have to understand that this wasn't your fault."
Connor looked towards the waterfall. "I wish I could believe you. I just didn't have the chance. I waited too long."
"For what?"
"To tell her how much I cared for her." said connor.
"She knew you did. We all knew. You didn't have to say it to her."
"I did. I should have. Maybe she wouldn't have kept Molly's betrayal a secret." said Connor.
"Connor, I'm going to tell you something.....you know where we are sitting here now?"
Connor nodded his head.
"This is where Catlin and I used to have our conversations...we would talk about everything, including what was in our hearts. She talked about you a lot Connor...you were the first person in years that showed you cared for her...you saved her life....she loved you very much...she wanted you to be happy...even if it wasn't with her. Everyone here in the sanctuary knows what she meant to you...especially Fergus..he knows what you went through with Claire, he hates to see you go through it again. Everyone knows that she was more than just a friend, we understand your pain...Catlin brought light to this place...with her belief in her God...apart from that...she cared for everyone...she never would want anyone to suffer because of her. Don't blame yourself Connor. No one else does, why should you? You loved one another, isn't that what is important?"
"You're right." said Connor looking at Tully, "but it still hurts...in some ways, I can still feel her..I can still hear her...my mind refuses to believe she's gone....when we were being held captive...I gave her my ring as a sign of hope for us."
"Did she know you gave it to her?"
"I don't know...she was so weak." said Connor fiddling with her fingers. "She did tell me she loved me, that she would love me always, remembering that makes the pain so much clearer. I had her Tully...she was there waiting for me."
"You still have her." said Tully, "In your heart. You'll always have her."
***Thanks for all your reviews....IÕll try and post new chapters as soon as possible...enjoy!!