Ellen smiled as she looked at her blackberry. Patrick had sent her a text that NY was a go! They were going to be traveling together to NY for some press and more work on the winter line for NY and Co. That meant six glorious days together in NY, away from their other halves. Sure she felt guilty.. very guilty. But you don't feel what she felt with him all the time, some people never. It was almost as if Shonda had written out their life.

She had never really had a problem dissociating from her roles, but the whole situation was so damn ironically like her grey's character that sometimes she did wonder who the hell she was. Of course Meredith was too nice and sweet and moraled to have an on-going affair with a married man, but Ellen couldn't help herself. Even if she wanted to stop, she couldn't.

She had recently begun to phase Chris out of her life, he had even started staying at one of his friend's most of the time. They had been together for quite awhile, but had started to grow apart a while back, and it was surprisingly easy to see less and less of him.

There was no way she was going to tell anyone who she was seeing, so it was good to keep him around casually to take to the press outings. The more uninvolved with her sexy co-star she seemed the better. She definitely did not want to be the next Brangelina!

It was hard on the set, to act so casual with him. They had such a hard time keeping their hands off each other, that it was a damn good thing Meredith and Derek were pretty much back together now. Imagine being paid to pretend like you like to kiss your lover. Never more did she enjoy coming to work, now that they were having so many scenes together, so many late nights taping. It made it a lot easier for Patrick to spend time with her. Where were they heading with all of this? She had no idea, and she didn't even want to think about it. He had a family, a child… and she ended up spending more time with him anyways with work, and the ability to travel together.

Not to say that all they did was have hot sex in bed… they truly enjoyed each other. Patrick's wife didn't have that much of a sense of humor, and he was a very funny man who enjoyed laughing. They could sit for hours talking and laughing and enoying themselves. Ellen got the impression that Jill kind of put a damper on Patrick's lightheartedness a lot, and as a result she purposely made herself relax more so that she wouldn't remind him of his wife, and she found that she was much happier for doing it.

She pulled into her driveway and went inside to pack and get ready.