Chapter 289

Get Back

Cameron needed to work on several problems and issues. It was time to get the ball rolling. None of this got done thinking about it. She knew what she wanted and she knew the people to help her achieve her goals. Everyone needed to perform THEIR function as did she. It was time for everyone to step up to the plate.

She met with Jesse and Vanna. Gail approached her as well. She discussed her plans with Gail and the girls and left. Everyone was ready for more.

Cameron met with John. It looked like he was on his way back from the Command Center. They entered the room, which she only saw as 'John's room'. They stripped each other. John fondled her a lot. That seemed to excite him so she allowed it. It actually sort of irritated her. The mating process itself seemed more like an 'attack' on the female body to her in reality. Once they started to kiss she was able to get a little more into it.

She 'started up' John. He wanted her to keep going until he finished that way. Normally she would do that to please him but not today. She wanted a little more and she wanted his essence where it belonged. She tried to participate as much as possible this time. It was different this time because there was a purpose. She didn't run her programming and just tried to be 'herself'. John really seemed to enjoy her this way. They spent a few hours together.

Cameron felt new motivation this time. This was to be a special sharing event for her. She made sure John was satisfied multiple times. She would always start him up and mounted him or got on her knees. In that position she needed to remind him to use the proper receptacle twice. She told him he could use the other one next time. She gave up reminding him that there were no pleasure receptors there. He never listened.

She'd stayed with John until he could perform no more. He was like a wet noodle at this point no matter what she did. He seemed very satisfied. She was too. They were both satisfied for different reasons. He fell asleep. She dressed and departed after a stop in the bathroom. She carried a small vessel.

Cameron met with Gail again before she went out with Sarah and Kyle. Gail and her exchanged a long silent look. She handed Gail the vessel. Gail thanked her. She kissed Gail on the cheek and she thanked her…. Things may be about to change.

Later that night Cameron and her Metal girls conducted a raid against a new drug operation and tracked down another future Gray. Cameron scored a bounty of weapons and equipment as well as hoards of cash. Sheila was a little upset they didn't take down any sex traffickers. She was told to put her knife away.

The next evening she went out with Kyle and Derek against another Gray target and concluded everything successfully. Derek and Kyle were pleased to stay in the action and not go soft. They asked to go with her soon and do it again.

The night after the last raid, she went out with Derek and Riley and shared a good time with them. They were both so happy to spend time with her.

Riley especially enjoyed any time with Cameron, even if Derek was along. She really thought Cameron was the greatest.

They all could see that Cameron was so different when she was away from Skynet related operations. She really seemed like any other person. She was more human like than the humans were.

Cameron wanted to give John a surprise in the morning.

The next morning John woke up to find Cameron next to him in bed and naked. It indicated what was to follow.

"I'm surprised to see you here again so soon." John said.

Cameron was turned off by his statement right from the start. She was there for a different reason otherwise she would have collected her clothes and walked out of the room naked. She would have dressed in the hall or in one of the girl's rooms. That event occurred more than a few times. She did that to avoid the fight that was sure to follow. She tried to remain calm.

"I'm full of surprises and unpredictable." Cameron stated. "I'm here now so let's make the most of it."

John wondered what was up and how long Cameron would be gone for the next time. He figured he'd better take advantage of this bounty of booty.

"There is nothing like a spontaneous love making session." John said. "It sure beats 'Rosie Palm'."

Cameron didn't like his tone. The mood immediately soured more. What did that make her in his eyes? Now when John touched her she would just lie there as usual and let her mind run other calculations as he savaged her sheath. When he was done she would wordless leave. She would let John have what he wanted. She would not be a part of it as a participant but only as a 'recipient'. Once again, John made her feel she was good for little else…. It was not a good feeling. She tried to keep it together.

"We're ALL here to protect the future from Skynet and try to save a few billion lives while we're at it. I know everyone loses sight of the goal from time to time." Cameron said. "I know I have gone to extreme measures to achieve this goal sometimes."

Cameron really wondered if John thought her only function was to provide him the use of her chassis like some 'silicone love doll'. There was a war to fight.

John felt his next words might make the difference between Cameron using some caution or following some reckless endeavor.

"I'd say so." John said. "I don't like it but I do understand. I know this is about more than you and me, I get it."

Cameron felt justified in her actions to do whatever was necessary to fight Skynet. She didn't need any 'second guessing' or speculation on how something could have been done differently. She was the one on the ground and in the fight. She was the on who took the risks to keep all of the others as safe as possible. Shouldn't that matter to them?

"John, please try to understand that I do what I can and I'm always trying to protect you and the future." Cameron said. "It would seem because I have apparently done this before that I must know a little about what I'm doing, even if it doesn't seem like it. I apologize for all my errors and shortcomings."

John thought that was new. Cameron didn't offer much in the way of apologies. It made him feel a little 'bad'. She was the one on the front line.

"Cameron, stop." John said. "I get it. I don't like it but I get it."

Cameron was tired of it all too. The war was destroying their relationship. She did want to be with John but the setting here and now was not right. If they were out of this war with Skynet things could be different. They could be better.

"John, we can go into the past fifty or a hundred years ago and try to live a normal life as husband and wife – only." Cameron said. "My TDE is functional and only Sheila is allowed to touch it. I'm ready to walk away from all this if you want to do that with me. None of this will matter. We will be a couple in love. We will be free from our past and our future."

John really needed to think about what Cameron just said. She was serious. She offered him a way out and they would not be under the eye or scrutiny of anyone. Could he really leave everyone behind to just be with Cameron? That was sort of what he did when he went after her chip into the future. He left it all behind to try and get 'Cameron' back, even if it was just her chip. He felt pretty guilty right now about a lot of things….

"So you really do love me?" John asked.

Cameron smiled at him.

"I love you, John, and you love me." Cameron said.

John loved to hear those words and know Cameron meant them. He would need to think about what Cameron offered earlier. Could he do that and turn the war over to this mother, father and uncle? Would his happiness lead to their terminations in his place? It was a heavy trip to contemplate. He figured he'd better stick to the present.

"I love you, Cameron, and you love me." John replied.

That pleased Cameron to hear John say that. She decided to be with John as herself and share who she truly was. The very thought of being able to go back in time and just live a life with John as her husband excited her. Now she would give John a little programming in the love making. She wanted to make John happy. She now felt aroused and very excited. This would make tomorrow even more special…. This would make the creation of life, out of an act of love.

Cameron tried her hardest to please John. She did everything the way he liked it and he delivered where she wanted him too. It was a special time for both of them.

"It can be like this every day in the past." Cameron said. "It will be us alone and together, all of the day and all of the night."

It was really something that John needed to think about. He also picked up on the reference to the song by the Kinks.

Cameron started John up again and climbed up on top. She rode him hard. Even when he finished she stayed with it and increased her intensity. She could see how it drove him crazy. That thought alone made her finish.

John was sure he would be insane before the day was done if Cameron kept this up. Maybe the intensity would kill him.

'What a way to go….' John thought.

Later on Cameron drove to Palmdale. She called Holly before she left and went over everything again with her. Holly and Allison were good and everything was fine at the Young residence. She was pleased to hear that and looked forward to seeing Young Allison and Summer as well as Claire.

It seemed that Claire was a 'happy person'. She didn't find too many people like that and she was around even fewer of them. Maybe Savannah was the only one she was around at the base that was 'happy'. She knew the future and the past weighed on all of the rest of the others. Claire made her feel good inside and she'd become quite fond of her. She knew Claire was attracted to her. Then again, who wasn't? She did think of one who wasn't – Nobody.

On her drive to Palmdale, Cameron reflected on her earlier conversation with Vanna. She was highly disturbed and agitated by it. She was unsure what to do and Vanna was very unhappy. Vanna's future well being seemed to be in question.

"Cameron, I want to go into the future with you when you go to look for our Duplicates and my mother." Vanna said. "I know the risks and accept them."

Cameron knew right away what Vanna 'said'. She was willing to perish in the unknown rather than live her life here and now.

"Your place is here to protect the future." Cameron said.

"Cameron, I'm lonely…." Vanna said. "This life here is 'not good enough' for me anymore."

The 'not good enough' words struck Cameron like a blow. It was a terrible feeling. Vanna just really said she wanted to die without saying it. She wanted her death to count for something if possible. It was a feeling that she knew well. She'd experienced it enough on her own. Maybe there was something else she could 'offer' Vanna. Maybe she needed what Jesse and Allison shared everyday.

"I can have Ally, Hanna or Sheila here to make you feel 'less alone'." Cameron said. "Do you have a preference?"

"I do." Vanna said as she looked at her. "It's the other one you didn't mention…."

Cameron knew right away what she wanted. It was no surprise really. It was what Vanna always wanted from their first conversation when she was stuck in a metal box. Vanna wanted her.

"That's - me." Cameron said.

"I know you have a clone ready to go. I want her." Vanna said. "I NEED her."

Cameron looked at her for a long time. She could see how desperate Vanna looked. She was on the edge right now. If this conversation did not end well, it would not end well for Vanna. Vanna's woods cut into her deeply. They cut even deeper when she heard them again.

"PLEASE." Vanna begged. "You know we BOTH want it. I NEED this, Cameron, PLEASE."

Vanna moved up and took her arm.

"You can say it's - Ally…." Vanna whispered. "Nobody will know…."

Cameron didn't plan for things to go forward like this. This new kink wasn't something she planned on or factored in to her desires. The desperation of Vanna kept grinding into her. She would try to convince Vanna that there could be other ways to get around the problem.

"Cameron II hasn't been activated." Cameron said. "I have other plans for her…."

"Send her to the future and I will go with you – with her." Vanna said. "It's what I want. You stay here where you belong with John. I know we won't be coming back…. Savannah will continue to mature and take her rightful place in the future, here. You KNOW it will be Savannah and not me at John's side. She has your wedding dress. You know it's her and she's the one. You have always known it was her…. Savannah is the 'Chosen One', not me."

The gravity of what Vanna wanted was too much for Cameron. It was a death sentence for her. A glitch impulse shot through her hand.

"I will not kill you again. I got you killed once." Cameron said. "It's a one way ticket. I can't endanger you. I can't do that to you again."

The look on Vanna's face said it all. She was on the ropes and finished. He body was still alive but her mind was almost gone. She could tell that Vanna thought about dying. Her request was a form of 'suicide' without actually taking her own life. It was a way to die with some dignity. It was surely a doomed mission into 'some future' and the unknown. That was a journey for her to take, not anyone else.

"But you can endanger yourself?" Vanna asked. "What about the rest of us? I've been loyal to you and served you always. I've loved you from the first time we 'met'. You know I can't get pregnant. My Duplicate tried and failed. I'm damaged…. I know what you feel…. I feel worthless too. Cameron, you owe it to me…. PLEASE. I love you, Cameron. I love you."

Vanna's words cut her the bone or actually to her Coltan laced hyper alloy chassis. She was very aware of the place that Vanna was at right now and it was not a good place. There were few positive or productive choices made at that point.

"I'll think about it." Cameron said and walked off.

Vanna was always there for Cameron from the start, her love and devotion never wavered…. Vanna was the first person to be her friend and love for who she was and for WHAT she was - a machine. That all counted for something. That love mattered….

'Get Back' by 'The Beatles', echoed through the empty room.

Get Back

Daily life goes on as always
Sometimes it fades to black
Why must every moment
Seem like it's an attack

Each new challenge
Turns into a drawback
When is one given a break
When is one cut some slack

Do moments of happiness exist
In only a fleeting flashback
Maybe to question the norm
Leaves one feeling like a quack

Maybe the reality of love itself
Is something one can only hijack
For surely in the end like always
It will dictate some type of payback

The mind may buckle and split
The heart will wither and crack
Words of love seem like a hack
No one wants to hear another yak

One can take life's blows
Absorb the endless forms flak
Maybe things are easier with a full rack
Everything else is only a setback

Does one forge boldly ahead
Or only retreat and fallback
Maybe everyone is only a snack
When one gives, what do they ever get back

Nobody