Author Notes : Hey people...more coming now...I not one to drag on before the plot line unless it's needed...Just letting everyone know...I'm gonna be gone from Sep. 27th - Oct. 2nd ...but I'll be back...
Rating : M...
Chapter Four : Ice Soul
It was done, everything was returning slowly back to normal, Ayame seemed a lot happier, although he was now living with the ice king Hatori. Yes, Yuki was the ice prince...but no one could outdo Hatori's icy composer, the fact that he never really cared about others...yes, he was the ice king. Now there was something about Hatori that Ayame had always found himself attracted to. The fact that he admired Hatori so much...the only way that he could show his admiration and love for Hatori was to obey everything he said and actually listen to him other then babbling on like usual. Sure, he and Shigure used to flirt and joke...but Shigure was now with Ritsu, and Shigure had known Aya's feelings by now...he just knew that Hatori was "straight", which he doubted significantly, do to the fact that Hatori still hung around two gay men all the time...he seemed more of the bisexual type instead of queer like Ayame, or gay like Shigure...
(AN : Queer - eccentric homosexual... Gay - homosexual that is not eccentric.).
But Ayame was trying to do the impossible at this point, to make Hatori actually think about him as more then a friend...yes he had been the main person to comfort Hatori during his times of need...now Hatori was frozen, and although he doubted he could make Hatori as happy as Kana had...he still had to try. It was two weeks after the entire event had taken place, Hatori had been driving Ayame to and from work since Ayame was still living with him. But everything was...semi-normal. Ayame would go to work and come home, be his old self as much as possible, and yet Hatori still wondered at times why he could not kick Ayame out, it was like some force was keeping them in the same house without Hatori killing Ayame. But it was now a Saturday and the whole family was going to attend a ball in celebration of Akito's birthday...and yes Akito wanted everyone to attend to this ball. Hatori was already dressed in a tux and standing at the punch bowl, the entire Sohma estate had been transformed into a ball room. Akito was there in a tux, with Kureno who was also in a tux and they were actually dancing beautifully. Yuki had been forced into a dress by Shigure who was indeed laughing hysterically, because he had also forced Kyo into one...(he blackmailed them with baby pictures to show to the entire school.)., Yuki was with Haru, in a lovely lavender evening gown, with Haru was in a tux that had the collar undone. Kyo was in a long red evening gown with Momiji his boyfriend who was in a lovely yellow evening gown, Kyo was trying not to trip...Momiji was helping him walk and dance too...Shigure was there with Ritsu, Shigure was in a tux, while Ritsu was wearing a purple evening gown. Hatori couldn't help but fell a bit lonely at the punch table, he didn't know why, but maybe he was learning to enjoy company because of being around Ayame so much, his eyes perked up as he heard footsteps coming his way.
"So, what do you think?"asked Ayame.
Hatori was shocked at how lovely Ayame looked. His hair was up in a bun with a few strands hanging down perfectly curled and some left straight with blue pins through it, a long dark blue evening gown upon his slender frame, dark blue gloves that were long and went to his elbows with dark blue ribbons and sheer dark blue cloth hanging from them, Ribbons hanging from his bun as well of a dark blue color. Ayame smiled lightly and looked to the ground, blushing a bit as Hatori stared, now Ayame was not one to be bashful or ever blush, but he loved Hatori and wanted Hatori so much that he actually felt quite bashful for the moment.
"Lovely...beautiful...you look amazing tonight."said Hatori.
Ayame was not expecting such a reaction and had been caught off guard and was in a bit of shock.
"Well then, would you like a dance?"asked Ayame.
They went out to the floor, although Hatori wasn't the best dancer he kept up smoothly, looking down at the beauty before him, he wanted so badly to be with Ayame for some reason...he knew he had never been straight, but Ayame of all people? He knew that Ayame had always been there for him...but did Ayame have feelings for him? He sighed gently as a slow song started and they began moving slower as Ayame rested his head on Hatori's shoulder.
"Ayame...why did you want me to dance with you?"asked Hatori.
"You really are dense Hatori, why do you think I dressed so beautifully, took all the time to put my hair like this? All for you..."said Ayame.
"Ayame..do you like me?"asked Hatori.
Ayame began to tense and he punched Hatori's shoulder as tears poured down his cheek.
"You are so dense Hatori...I have liked you for so long, but the only thing you see is this dress...all you ever see is the annoying friend...Hatori...I have liked you since I hit puberty.."came Ayame's choked voice.
Hatori was shocked...since when? Had he ignored Ayame this whole time?
"But you never noticed it because I wasn't a girl, because I could never be a girl. When you got together with Kana, do you remember the dress she wore on your first date?"came Ayame.
'A blue dress...just like this one.' thought Hatori.
"You see her tonight don't you? The only reason you call me beautiful or even acknowledge me is when I remind you of her. You ignore me unless I cause a ruckus, ruin your life somehow or remind you of her, isn't that right? I don't know why I admire so much about you, why I love you...but I do Hatori...but you see me as a shell of the woman you lost."cried Ayame.
It was true...the truth of those words hit him like a ton of bricks...he'd never called himself straight...bisexual to be exact...but he'd ignored it because he always saw himself with a woman.
"You are the ice king Hatori, even before Kana, even before all of your troubles and heartaches, even before you hit puberty...you were cold to me, only when I made a ruckus, or acted out would you notice me. And after her, even after I sat by and watched you crumble, and tried to help you...even after everything...even after I told you, you deserved happiness...I suppose it's selfish...but I have loved you for so long Hatori...and only now do you notice me...because I remind you of her..."said Ayame, he was sobbing now.
Hatori felt horrible...he had always been selfish about his breakup with Kana...about the way he had used Ayame for support and never helped him out with his problems...how he had been so cold and dense...
"I suppose you're right Ayame...I'm sorry...but I don't know..."came Hatori.
"Answer me this Hatori...do you have any feelings for me?"came Ayame.
"I don't know Ayame...I don't know."came Hatori's cold reply.
Ayame ran at that remark, sobbing his eyes out, the entire family looking at Hatori in shock, how could anyone be so heartless and dense...they'd all seen it for quite a while...Shigure had run after Ayame and Yuki went up to Hatori.
"You truly are heartless"came the cold remark from Yuki.
T.B.C.
Author : The angst...
Hatori : Holy crap...
Yuki : Not even I'm that heartless!
Kyo : O-O...
Haru : Wow...
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