Here is a short update. Told with Naruto's view. Somewhat. Now I really must update my Chopper fic.
Present
"Tell me what I need to do to make you love me." His voice barely over a whisper pleading, breaking Kakashi's already shattered heart. All Naruto's usual energy and spark disappeared. The silver haired jounin wanted nothing more than to disappear once more from the younger man's sight. Naruto's light ghostly touch stayed him. Gently he took the blonde in his arms, drawing him near.
"Give up your dream on becoming Hokage." He knew the request was an atrocious one to make. To demand Naruto give up his life long dream was selfish of him. Time passed slowly. Would Naruto give up anything for him? Did he even have the right to ask for such a thing?
"Yes." Naruto's answer was muffled as he pressed his face into his former sensei's chest. Kakashi, shocked and upset, pressed the boy closer leaning his forehead against the other's crown. Finally he pushed Naruto away and slapped him.
"Then I could never love you!" He spat with more venom and harshness than he meant. Tears sparkled in his own eyes. Naruto pressed a hand to his stinging cheek. His mind churned. He was torn. Since the first kiss Kakashi gave him he had been wanting more. That kiss had changed his life. He had never kissed a girl. Not even during the years he was gone.
His first kiss was from Sasuke. His second kiss from Kakashi. He wanted his last kiss to be from Kakashi as well. Naruto chuckled dryly. Life was such a mess. He wanted the villagers to love and respect him. He had to become Hokage for that. He wanted Kakashi to be his. He had to give up Hokage for that. He felt Kakashi grab his hand and he looked up into his visible eye.
"I don't want you to give up your dreams, Naruto. Not for me. Not for anyone. Ever! He pulled Naruto back into a strong embrace. Burying his face into the kyuubi vessel's blonde hair. "I'm not worth it."
"But you are! I would give me life for you. My dreams are meaningless without you there to help me dream them!" Naruto protested, shifting his head till he was once again looking at the scarecrow in the eye. Their faces just inches apart. He knew if he gave up becoming Hokage, he would die on the inside. But right now in this moment, that did not matter. Kakashi leaned forward laying a soft kiss on Naruto's lips.
"We can not always have what we want. Sacrifices need to be made. I made mine a long time ago." He deepened the kiss then forcing the younger man's mouth open with his tongue. Naruto groaned leaning into the kiss. Both men drenched from the rain, yet neither caring at all. To them the only thing in existence was the other's lips, tongue and scent. Naruto's grip on Kakashi's shoulders tightened. Kakashi's left hand fingered the waist band of Naruto's pants. Their bodies pressed against each other's. Begging, pleading, wanting, and needing.
Finally the kiss was broken leaving both gasping for air. Naruto bent his head down, staring at the rain water pooling around his feet. Kakashi crouched down to look him in the eye.
"I don't think I can stand losing someone important to me again. Especially if it were to be you, I'm sorry Naruto. But I don't think I can do this." And once more Naruto was left alone. This time to fall hard on his knees into a puddle, rain seemed so appropriate at this time.
Three Years Ago
He laid there in agonizing pain. He tried to get up and move. He tried to follow Sasuke. But his body refused. He was too weak to even summon the Kyuubi's charka. Silently he thanked whatever God existed that he was cursed with this strange blessing. For without it, he knew he would have been six feet under long ago. He was so tired. More than he had ever been before. It would be ok to close his eyes, just for a minute right? After all the Kyuubi would ensure their survival and heal him slowly. He barely felt the person cradle his body gently. He barely felt the pressure on his lips. He thought perhaps he was dreaming. That even it may have been death coming for him. He refused to die yet, he was not Hokage. He opened his eyes, hoping to muster up enough strength to fend off death.
"Ka…Kakashi?"
Present
Naruto shivered, the icy rain finally becoming needles on his skin. Mud seeped into the knees of his pants.
"Bastard!" He screamed out. Tears mingling with the rain, he felt like an idiot. He should have known. He should have known. All his life he had been unloved, why should now be any different. He squeezed his eyes shut forcing his tears to stop. Ninja's are supposed to be strong. He was weak. Ninjas were not supposed to show emotions. And until now he had done so well.
"It's just hormones." He whispered trying to convince himself that it was the truth. Slowly he stood as the sun began to peek over the horizon. With zombie-esque movements he trudged back to his apartment. The rain finally letting off.
His clothes clung to his body as if they were a second skin. He shivered and began to peel off them. A hot shower sounded like heaven right about now. He threw aside his last sock and stood nude in the middle of the room. His hair dripping droplets of water unto his finely tuned shoulders. The droplets of water coursed down to his chest were his solid abs stood. He slid a calloused hand over them, wiping away the water. Then let his hand explore the rest of his body, sliding smoothly to his stomach. His abs chiseled to perfection. His was the body of a God. His hand explored lower down to the region that declared his sex in the eye of society. Man. And man he was. He pulsed hard with need, aching for release.
The rest of this chapter has been cut, due to it being too hot for this website. You can find the rest of the chapter. on under the same name.
Thank you everyone who reviewed. Next chapter teaser : Sakura and Shizune pressed their ears to the door, wincing as they heard glass shattering. No doubt Tsunande's sake glass breaking as it hit the wall.