One Curious Night
Chapter 8
Authors Note: I know I haven't updated in a VERY long time, sorry but I've been busy with my other fan fic "Till I get over you".This chapter has been floating around in my head for a while so enjoy it!
Spencer's POV
Its been only a couple days since that night of overwhelming hormones. I decided to start dating Ashley, but as soon as I stepped foot at school hand in hand with her, my guts started to twist and nervousness started to settle. I couldn't do this, I already wanted to stop seeing Ashley just because of the confused judging stares. But it would be horrible to put Ashley thought that roller coaster of wanting her, well only for sex anyways, and leaving her. I felt terrible trying to act like I wanted to be with her, but she could see right through me the first week we starting seeing each other publicly, she met my parents and everything, well not as a lover but as a friend but she understood that I wasn't ready to come out yet. Uh why did I have to sleep with her? It just dug me a deeper hole, especially because I could tell Ashley really, really liked me, it broke my heart knowing that I would have to break hers. "Um is there something wrong Spencer?" I heard Ashley say on the way to my house after school.
"Um no nothing why?" That was a stupid question of course she knew why I was acting so weird. She saw right though me, and I don't know how she did it."Don't lie to me anymore Spencer, do you want to be with me or not? I can tell you don't like me like I lov- like you". What? was she about to say LOVE? Well it was now or never I don't think I would have to guts to tell her the truth on my own but she's asking for the truth and if I wait any longer she's just going to fall in love with me it was either now or be unhappy and make it harder for both of us."Im sorry Ash..." I said with a long pause. I couldn't look at her I knew the look on her face would want me to stop what im about to say.""Ashley, this really hard for me to do, but, but, I-I can't do this anymore..."" . Is all I could manage to say. ""You mean ''us'' "". She replied. "" yeah"" I said so low it was a whisper, I could literally hear her heart break, God Spencer you such an idiot! Just digging yourself a deeper hole. ""Why not"" Ashley replied I wasn't even sure if she even said it, it was so quiet. ""I thought I was ready, but, im not, im really sorry to put you though this roller coaster of a person that I am"". Was all I could say.
Ashley's POV
What was she kidding me? Again, thank God I didn't say I love her. "So, were through...for good?" I asked not really believing she was going to do this to me again. "Sorry...". Was all she replied. "I know its completely cliche to say it but I still want to be friends, if its alright with you" . What? Be friends, when I wanted something more? But I guess that's all I could settle for."Yea sure whatever you want" It was always about what she wanted, im done with her and her excuses. That''s when we pulled into her driveway. "See on Monday" I said ignoring her and how she was staring at me. "Ashley im really sorry, I didn't want it to be this way." " Yea me neither." I spit out. That's when she did something unexpected she leaned over and hugged me. I wanted so much to hug her back but, I thought I would never let go, plus she needed to know how much she hurted me. "Maybe we can hang out this weekend" She said as she pulled away. " I don't think so, Im going to be busy" She looked hurt, good. "Okay then I ll call you" She replied. "Whatever" I said trying to sound as non interested as possible. "okay, bye" She said finally getting out the car. As soon as the door shut I quickly reversed out of her drive way making a loud peeling out sound with my tires which made her cringe. I was pissed and I wanted her to know. When I got home I decided I wouldn't l let her get to me, I was going out tonight and taking advantage of my freedom.
Spencer's POV
I was worried about Ashley a lot, I know she was mad about the whole thing, I would be to, but I just couldn't be with her anymore, I know im fine when I have sex with her but a relationship, its scary. That's when I decided to call her it was about 9:35 that was enough time for her to cool off and maybe we could still try and salvage a friendship. Riinnnggg. Riiiinnngg.Riinnnggg.Riinnnggg. Hi you reached Ashley's cell you know what to do. Uh she was avoiding me. I thought to myself " Hey Ashley, its Spencer listen I just want things to be okay with us, I know im asking for a lot but I cherish our friendship and I want you to be able to have some on to talk to, and I want to be able to talk to you, but just call me back, please. Bye" Was the message I left. I was extremely tired so I decided to take a shower and just watch some TV until I passed out.
Ashley's POV
11:49. Was the time I think I saw when I looked at my phone Spencer called but I didn't answer I don't think I can handle hearing her voice, I was drunk and could barley make out the numbers especially with this girl all over me. "Hey do you want to come to my house?" Was what she whispered in my ear. " Yea whatever, but I cant drive my car, im too drunk." Was all I said to this girl I met at the Gray, she was new to this, obviously the way she was looking around self consciously when she approached me and she seemed very inexperienced when I came to hitting on girls, but she was trying. "That's fine, we'll take my car and ill give you a ride back here to pick up you car in the morning" She replied as she eagerly grabbed my hand and brought me out to her car. I didn't say a word during the ride to her house, but she kept talking about herself which I wasn't listening to, all I was thinking about was Spencer which is what got me into this drunk mess in the first place. But who cares? Im going to enjoy my night out even if its not with her. " Is everything alright?" The girl asked, what was her name, like Lexi? I don't know. But I needed to get Spencer out of my mind. "Yea im perfect" I said as I leaned over to the driver's side of the car and kissed her at the red light. She looked taken back. " Okay, just a little longer". She replied with a big smile. "Great".
12:03
She lead me to her room and asked me to be very silent, I guess her parents were sleeping upstairs. " You don't mind do you?"She asked. "No that's fine" I said when she asked if having her parents home bothered me, when it actually did but it would do about anything to keep what's her name off my mind. We entered her room. When she turned on the lights I had to squint from walking thought her house in the dark. "Ha ha sorry" She said to my reaction to the bright light. "Its okay we don't need the lights" I said as I turned it off and walked toward her. She was standing very still as I wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed her lips. As we were kissing I started to glide my hands up her shirt, her stomach was flinching, yea it was her first time. It painfully reminded me of Spencer. Uh I need to get her out of my head. Her hands were tangled in my hair, I stopped kissing to pull off her shirt, by this time she was breathless " I've never done this before-" was all she managed before freight filled her eyes when she was interrupted by the voice as what im guessing was her mom " Lexi? Honey are you home?".
Frankly I was too drunk to care but she was flipping out. "Oh my God holy shit! um , shit- shit" She said while franticly pacing around her room re applying her shirt. "Hide in here!" She said as she heard her moms footsteps getting closer. Next thing I knew I was thrown into her closet on the floor in pitch black darkness. Why was I here? I thought to myself. I don't have to deal with this bullshit, with some girl who's to afraid to come out to her parents, now im stuck inside this closet forced to be completely silent. That's when I heard someone enter the room. "hey honey your home, what time did you get in?". Im guess who is her mom said. "Um yea just a couple minutes ago, but im extremely tired so im going to crash out" Lexi told her naive mom. "Ok honey goodnight" With that I heard the door shut. That's when I drifted back to Spencer, it feels like im back with Spencer hiding our relationship funny is that IM the one in the closet now. I guess this situation isn't very different from the one with Spencer. Everything I was running from just caught up with me faster. Wow im an idiot. Why am I here? That's when the door creaked opened. " Im so sorry I didn't think she'd wake up" She said grabbing my hand roughly.
"Well its ok-" I said but she cut me of "Look im really sorry but you have to leave I cant risk it now that my mom is awake, and I cant leave to take you to your car, but I can cal a cab or something". What was she kidding me? " No, no its alright I need to clear my mind, I can walk to a friends house she live a couple miles from here" " What? Are you sure its no problem, I can call a cab"She replied in a hurry. "No I need to walk my drinks off... " I said as I started to walk towards the door. "NO! through the window!" She said as she grabbed my arm. "Right" I replied not really caring about what the hell I was doing anymore. I finally made my way through the window. She shut the window before I could even say bye. Eh whatever screw her, I guess im not worth the trouble of coming out. After ten minutes of walking my drunk ness started to subside but not enough. Which was good because it made the long walk go by fast. I wasn't aware of where I was walking too, all I was aware of was how cold and dark it was.
That's when I felt sprinkles of water fall on various parts of my body. No, not now. Anytime but now. Luck was not on my side that night, before I knew it, it was raining. The saying could not fit any better "When it rains it pours" I told myself. I was freezing , my tank top was soaked along with my pants and brand new boots. Why did it have to happen to me? Me feet lead me to this familiar place that made me feel warm again. Spencer's house. Why am I here? God I just wanted to hold her. I missed her so much. Oh no I felt some of the vodka I downed at the Gray crawling up my throat. That's when I let it exit though my mouth on her neighbors lawn. About ten minutes later I felt some what better and decided to call Spencer. Once I realized what I was doing it was too late her phone was ringing. I heard her groggy voice answer "Ashley? Hello? Ashley are you there I've been calling you" I froze and hung up my phone. the raining subsided but I was still cold to the bone. I started to walk up to her house but felt that familiar feeling over come me. I lay on the cold ground and I pray that something picks my up and sets me down in your warm arms. The last thing I remember was drifting to sleep on Spencer's wet lawn with throw up all around me. "Ashley, Ashley? Oh my God!" Was what I woke up to. It was still dark outside where the hell was I. "Spencer?" I said sounding more confused than she was. "oh my God get up come on" She said pulling me up. Bad move, I felt sick again, I miserably pushed her away. "No just leave me alone, I've had enough of your games" I said not realizing that tears were falling from my eyes. "Ashley, are you drunk?" She asked shocked. "Yea trying to forget about you!" I said a little to loud. "Ashley im so sorry, listen just come inside your freezing you've been out here in the rain?" She asked "Yea" I said giving up fighting, all I wanted was to be some place warm. Now it was Spencer that did the carrying the drunk girl up the stairs. "Your right, I understand why you wouldn't want to be with me, im a fucking mess".
"Shh Ashley we can talk about it tomorrow because most likely your not going to remember tonight" She told me as we entered her room. I could barely stand, she was un-dressing me, throwing my wet clothes on the floor but all I wanted to do was go to sleep. I felt warm clothes fall over my body. What a relief. I fell on the bed. The familiar smell made me the happiest I've been in a long time. "Better?" She asked as she pulled the covers over my body and started to rub my back. "Hmm" was all I managed to mumble. " Go to sleep" She whispered as she kissed my cheek which made me smile. I felt her get into bed next to me. I turned over and held her close. She didn't refuse or shift away uncomfortably she just held me, for a second it felt like nothing changed.