Chapter 518

As Your Own

Cameron went over everything with John and John Henry. They were unable to determine anything other than what her files showed. John again told her he would still like to be with her, even when she's damaged. That seemed to bother her even more. She decided to leave instead. She didn't want to be with him in that condition.

She understood what he wanted. For his pleasure everything would feel and work the same. He might not even the feel the sutures that held everything back together down there. It wasn't the way she wanted it. There were other ways for her to pleasure him. They would all escalate. He would always want more until he could dominate and use her body. She didn't want his 'deposit' yet. It was time to go.

Cameron left the Command Center to return to her base. There were a lot of unanswered question in her mind. She wondered where she'd been for two days. She hoped to find her bloody and shot up clothes at her base. She didn't have any recollection of going there either, back to her base. She wasn't even sure which vehicle she'd arrived in. Why were there so many blank spots? It nagged at her at what else might have happened. Cammy quietly told her there was no strange or unknown DNA inside her private areas in the front or the back. That was a relief to know. Then again if there was, Cammy could have lied to her. Now she wondered even more. She was sure she could only trust Savannah. She could trust Vanna too. Their love for her was strong.

She was aware she did tell Savannah what she wanted to tell her. It was what she now wanted. It was what she'd wanted for years. It was hard to create Cammy for Savannah. She wanted it to be her not a clone that was with Savannah. She wanted Savannah and Future Allison. The two women she'd 'created' in her own image. The two human women she wished she could be. Instead she would forever be a scary robot from the future. She could never be real. It seemed unfair.

Cameron was also aware that instead of taking Young Allison into the past, she should take Young Allison and Summer into River's future and make both of them in River's image with her same enhancements. With those enhancements like River's and under her upbringing they would be the perfect women, literally perfect, for John…. She wanted nothing but the best for him. The best wasn't her. She was painfully aware of that.

Something interrupted her thoughts. Cameron wondered why everything at her base was different. She looked around and was surprised where she was at. She remembered leaving to go back to her base. She was sure she did that. Instead she was still wondering around the Resistance base. She hadn't even left yet. For some reason she thought she left earlier and was at her base. How was that even possible? She began to run some tests. It seemed she was emotionally overwhelmed at this point. It was very disturbing.

Riley approached Cameron.

"Do you have a few minutes of free time?" Riley asked.

Cameron was surprised to see Riley there all of a sudden. She didn't realize that Riley followed her around the base three times.

"Yes." Cameron said as she looking around.

She was sure she was at her base but she wasn't.

The two silently hugged and Riley led Cameron back to her room. She'd followed Cameron earlier. She thought Cameron was looking for something or someone but she never stopped. She just kept walking so she followed Cameron to make sure she was OK. Cameron finally stopped and that was when she approached her.

Cameron welcomed the embrace. She scanned Riley and could feel her heartbeat. It allowed her to know what was real or not. Riley was real. She could 'feel' that Riley was a little apprehensive. She didn't know that was Riley's concern for her as she wandered around the Resistance base.

She wasn't sure what was happening. Maybe she'd created some problem she was unaware of. If she said or did anything to Riley, she knew that was going to cause a bigger problem.

Cameron long ago made 'peace' with Riley in her mind. She knew that Riley wasn't Future Riley even if she was. She wasn't in this case. It was much the same way she protected Young Riley in the present. There was no contact with the family but Young Riley was always watched over by one or more Terminators. They remained in the background. It was the same treatment afforded to Young Kyle and Young Derek. The Reese brothers didn't want their younger selves associated with the Resistance before it was necessary. They wanted them to have a 'real' life, especially Kyle.

Riley led Cameron to her room.

Derek waited there for them. He looked rather glum. As soon as he saw Cameron he smiled and gave her a hug as well.

Riley sat Cameron down.

Derek and Riley sat across from Cameron. They faced her as they held hands.

Cameron was unsure what she was about to face. She was afraid she may have offended them in her damaged condition and retained no recollection of it. She searched her files but there was nothing.

She thought maybe she should apologize first. She already started to do that with the others. She figured that she might as well get it out in the open and over with.

"If I did something to offend or hurt either of you, I'm sorry." Cameron said. "I was damaged…."

Riley and Derek looked at each other. They both teared up.

Cameron thought maybe she'd offended them worse than she'd thought. That thought bothered her even more.

Riley felt terrible to hear Cameron say that. That wasn't what this was about. It was about so much more. Cameron always tried to be there for her. That act of fellowship meant a lot to her.

"No, Cameron." Riley said. "You've never done anything to offend or harm us. You've only ever shown us friendship, respect and love."

Cameron tilted her head slightly.

She quickly reached out to scan Riley. She was afraid something was wrong. She didn't notice anything wrong when she'd scanned her earlier. She wanted another check in case she'd missed something. Maybe she wasn't back to one hundred percent yet as she'd thought.

Riley was used to being scanned by one of the Metal girls about every hour. She actually looked forward to the contact with them. She felt it made them closer. Sometimes she tried to have as little on as possible when she knew they would be around. A few times she was naked when one of them arrived. She liked how they looked at her. She knew they made a visual scan of her as well.

"I'm fine, Cameron." Riley said. "Cam and Cammy have both been by about once an hour. Everything checks out good."

Riley knew Cameron was worried about her. She didn't mind. She knew they all tried to help her and care for her. The attention was nice too. They all made her feel better when they interacted with her.

Cameron was at a loss as to why she was there.

Riley took Cameron's hand and gently kissed the back of it and placed it on her belly.

Cameron became worried. She started to scan Riley again, everything seemed normal.

Riley could see that Cameron was somewhat distressed. That wasn't her intention.

"Cameron, you have done so much for us and for everyone." Riley said. "You're the backbone of the Resistance. YOU are the one who makes everything work."

Cameron went to pull her hand away but Riley held it firm.

Riley looked deep into Cameron's questioning eyes.

"Cameron…." Riley started. "Cameron, I want you to have this baby for your own, as your own."

Cameron tilted her head slightly again.

"We both talked it over." Derek said. "We both agreed that you should have this child as your own child, Cameron. We wanted to do something for you that showed how much you mean to us."

Cameron tilted her head slightly the other direction.

"It is what we both want for you, Cameron." Riley said. "It's a gift to you. It is OUR gift to you so you may have your own child."

Cameron was unable to respond. This was something she'd never expected. She was aware this may be Riley and Derek's only chance to have a child. They were, No, Riley was, willing to give up her only baby to her, a machine. A machine that wanted to kill Riley in every timeline she'd been to. Cameron knew she wasn't worthy or deserving of such a 'gift'. Not when she'd wanted to personally terminate Riley before. The sense of guilt and remorse flooded her. The very thought of that act repulsed her now. She wasn't that Terminator anymore.

Derek and Riley exchanged glances. Cameron seemed to have shut down. Her face was expressionless. She didn't move or say anything.

Derek thought of calling John or Savannah.

Suddenly Cameron burst out crying….

Savannah cried after Cameron left her room. She knew what SHE wanted and she knew that Cameron could only do so much. Her programming held her back. Her directives didn't allow Cameron to be who she now was. They were killing her instead. Her directives and programming were 'strangling' her. They caused her great internal conflict and stress.

She stripped and looked at herself in the mirror. Her body was almost back to 'normal'. She did have a few small stretch marks on her abdomen. The flab was gone and she was mostly fit and trim again. She worked hard to get her firm body back for Cameron and John. She wanted to make sure she was at her best when she 'shared' with them. Her breasts still hadn't returned back to their 'normal' size. She wondered if they would stay larger but she'd thought that the first time too. They went back to their 'normal' size. She actually preferred that smaller size. Her clothes just seemed to fit better.

Savannah thought about the future. She wanted both Cameron and John and they both wanted her. How was all of this supposed to work? She saw it work in the future. There it needed to work, there were no other options. They all needed each other. It made the stress of the future easier to bear for all of them.

She went and looked at Cameron's wedding dress. Should she wear this dress or should Cameron? She decided to put it on. Cammy asked her to try it on every now and then. She didn't know that Cammy did that at Cameron's insistence. She didn't know that as soon as the dress fit properly that Cameron wanted her to be married to John for real. Very seldom did she try it on, on her own. She looked at herself in the mirror.

The first time she tried it on was when she heard people say Cameron was gone and wouldn't return. She believed Cameron would come back. If Cameron didn't, she needed to be ready. She'd promised Cameron she would wear the wedding dress for John. It was still too big for her back then. Her body hadn't developed much yet. She understood that wouldn't matter to comfort John. That was the function of the female body, at least parts of it. It was in her head somewhere.

She was intelligent and knew what comfort John would seek from her. She was ready to explore that path. She was aware there would be pain at first and maybe always since she was still young. It didn't matter. She promised Cameron and she would allow John to seek pleasure with her to comfort him. She expected to be pregnant in the first two months as she offered herself to John every night to soothe him. She was sure it would cause a problem with Sarah and Vanna but she would do it anyway.

Savannah knew she needed to wait. It was OK with her, because she knew Cameron would be back anyway, even if the others didn't. They didn't understand that Cameron was invincible and eternal. She did. She believed it. Her love for Cameron would not allow her to believe anything else.

She wondered if anyone would ever want her.

Savannah wanted to wear this dress for John originally, now she wanted to wear it for Cameron. She wanted to wear it for BOTH of them. She wanted to wear it for herself.

She adjusted her hair and made herself look Tight. She did everything Cameron taught her, her makeup was perfect. She knew she wasn't the one to judge but she thought she looked presentable.

Savannah heard some talking in the hall and thought Cammy was on her way back. She would ask Cammy how she looked. Savannah went to open the door for Cammy.

As the door opened, John stood there with his hand raised about to knock. Sarah appeared to have just walked away from John. That must have been the female voice she'd heard. Cammy wasn't in sight.

John and Savannah both stood there speechless. John slowly lowered his hand.

Their eyes locked. They could both feel it. It was happening. It was time….

'I Saw Her Standing There' by 'The Beatles', flashed through John's mind….

Savannah silently took John's hand as it slowly lowered and led him into her room. She closed and locked the door behind them.

John watched her lock it. He knew what THAT meant. She wanted him.

Savannah led him to the mirror and moved next to him. They both faced the mirror. Neither spoke a word. Words were unnecessary. Their bodies would do all the 'talking'.

John could feel the moment build. It was like it did with Future Riley. The tension was always in the air. The question was never asked but the answer was always right there between them. The night in the truck it finally happened. Now it was the same thing. The wedding dress seemed to say it all.

"You're beautiful, Savannah." John said once he finally managed to speak.

Savannah smiled.

"You're very handsome, John Connor." Savannah replied.

They both turned away from the mirror and looked at each other.

Savannah glanced at her bed and John followed her gaze. They both understood….

Savannah looked back into John's eyes.

The words just slipped out of her mouth.

"I do…." Savannah said.

John was a little confused. What did she mean? Was it what it sounded like?

"I do?" John asked.

John was unsure of what just happened. He knew that events here were rapidly spinning out of control. He knew this is what Cameron SAID she wanted. He wondered if Cameron was behind this. He still thought about his options when he realized Savannah started to remove his shirt.

Savannah slid it off his chest bare. She turned and he slipped her out of her wedding dress, his pants seeming to be removed at the same time.

They were both in their underwear. Savannah turned slightly and John unhooked her bra and slid it off. Savannah turned back and faced him again.

John took in her perfect figure and her ample breasts. He really got a good look at her super pink nipples since they were right in front of his face. He really wanted her virginity. He wanted to be her 'first'. He wasn't Riley's first and Cameron was sure she'd been 'used', even if there was no proof of that. He was aware that Cameron kept Savannah isolated to insure he would have her 'first'. The fact she delivered two babies didn't matter. She'd never been with a male before. That was what he wanted.

Savannah really couldn't stop herself. It was time to get 'popped' even if there was nothing left to pop down there. Young Jesse and a dozen females took care of that. That was without the two babies. It was time she became a woman. She was old enough now. She was a little worried about how tight she still was. She asked Cam and Cammy to 'check' with Vanna and let her know if childbirth 'stretched' her. She read in Cosmo that seemed to happen to some women. She didn't think it would matter too much on their first coupling. It would be driven by excitement, love and lust. John would finish in less than two minutes on their first time. She didn't expect to finish herself. Ninety percent of the females didn't finish on their first time. She was aware that about thirty percent of females never finished at all. She was glad that she'd learned how to finish at such a young age. She never knew it was Cameron that 'conditioned' her as she slept to begin to 'explore' herself and what her body could do for her. There was a voice in her head that always 'told' her to keep going and follow the feeling past when she thought that she 'needed' to stop. That allowed her to finish. From then on she knew how to follow the feeling until its climax. Cameron wanted her to always have the 'desire' for 'more'. It worked without out her ever knowing how or why. She was very promiscuous with all of the females.

John and Savannah were being swept up in the moment. It was all happening so fast and naturally. It was the 'Natural Order' Cameron always spoke of. It was beautiful….

Each slid the other underwear off. They joined the pile of clothes on the floor.

Savannah pulled the bed covers open. It indicated to John what she wanted, what THEY wanted. There was no question about it.

Savannah held John and pulled him down with her, on top of her as she lay on the bed. She didn't need any foreplay. She could feel her body respond and she was ready right now.

She wanted to tell John she was technically still 'unspoiled'. She knew already having two children, HIS children, would have left no 'proof' of that….

Savannah briefly wondered if she was in the window to get pregnant again. She knew she should wait a few more months but it was happening and it was happening now….

Whatever happened - happened.

Savannah was ready and she could see John was too….

John couldn't stop himself at this point. He knew it was going to happen. His body responded and was ready for the coupling. He wanted to get Savannah 'warmed' up but there was no time to do that.

He was already positioned over her. She urged him on. He was just about to the right spot. He could feel some smooth slickness. It was clear Savannah was ready for him. He would still try to take it slow at first since she wasn't used to that type of sexual activity. Maybe she was. He knew that there were plenty of 'marital aids' out there. He also didn't want to finish in thirty seconds. That was about where he was headed right now if he didn't slow down.

John was ready for the interaction.

Savannah was ready to become a woman.

John and Savannah both knew that their bodies were about to become 'one'….

As Your Own

There are many things in life
That one will collect
Not everything that is obtained
Will one be able to protect

It is the accumulation
Of many material things
That when one loses them
It hurts and stings

Some acquire another person
They treat them as a belonging
To be so cruel and callous
Will soon leave them longing

Nobody wants to be a possession
That's not a way to share
One needs to be open and caring
They need to take the dare

When two work as one
The seeds of love are sown
Through respect and trust
They treat each other as their own

Nobody