Chapter 524

Her Jesse

Vanna called Allison and asked her about Holly. She wanted to speak to her away from Cammy and Savannah. There were a few issues to discuss. She updated Allison and then asked about the condition of Holly.

"Everything seems normal." Allison said. "Gail and Jesse are here as well."

Vanna knew what Jesse being alone with Allison would result it. Jesse was just too Hot to pass up. Once someone shared Jesse's bed, they would always come back for more. There was always more too. She tried to be with Jesse whenever she could herself. With Gail and Cam around all the time now the opportunities were few and far between. Their Metal lovers were very possessive. They viewed it as being protective. They didn't want their human lovers to abandon them.

Jesse suggested Gail and Cam make the most of it and find comfort in each other.

Vanna was still a little concerned about the safety of Allison and Jesse. It was possible for a reprogrammed cyborg to 'go bad'. No one knew why. Cameron warned them of that in the past.

"Are you sure Holly is OK?" Vanna asked. "Cameron is still down but John Henry is back up. Cam is with him as well as Jim and Bob."

Holly could hear the conversation. She reached over took the phone. She didn't really care to be the subject of the conversation. She'd already checked herself multiple times.

"I'm fine." Holly said. "Allison and Jesse have their Tasers ready if they are needed. Jesse has her knife to remove a chip if necessary."

Holly looked at how Jesse and Allison looked at each other. It was clear what was coming. She noticed her hand now began to glitch.

"I'm operationally functional." Holly added.

Allison noted Holly's hand glitched as she looked at Jesse. Jesse saw it too and shrugged her shoulders. It was nothing new in reality. Girls would be girls and they didn't get to see or be with each other that often. They both wanted the love as well as the sex.

They all knew Allison and Jesse would hook up as soon as they got the 'all clear' from the Resistance base.

Gail noticed everything too as she drove. There was something that bothered her for a long time now. She never asked Cameron for much, if anything. Sure Cameron gave her 'a Jesse' back and it was the same Jesse - technically. It was still 'Her Jesse' that she missed. When Cameron got better, she was going to ask Cameron for permission to go into River's future. She needed to see 'Her Jesse', even if it was for one last time…. They'd never got to say 'goodbye'. It still deeply troubled her. The pain of thinking about the loss was intense. If she never got to see HER Jesse again, it was like she was really 'dead'. It was the same thing.

"Gail, watch out." Holly said as she reached for the steering wheel.

The SUV drifted across two lanes and was headed for the shoulder.

Gail quickly corrected her driving. She'd been distracted as she thought about Her Jesse. She was instantly alert. She didn't know what to say. She didn't like to talk about 'Her Jesse' in front of Jesse.

"I'm sorry." Gail said. "I was worried about everyone."

Holly was worried about Jesse and Allison but deflected the issue away from that.

"We're all worried about Cameron." Holly said.

Gail wondered if they knew the truth. She'd seen Holly's hand glitch. She knew that wasn't about Cameron. Maybe they all had their private demons to slay.

'Yes - Cameron…." Gail said. "I was worried about her. I am worried about Cameron."

Allison began to wonder if something affected all the Metal girls. She checked her Taser and gripped it firmly. She would use it if she needed to but really hoped it wouldn't be necessary.

Jesse knew in her heart that Gail still loved and wanted Duplicate Jesse. Gail told her as much, many times. It was always followed by non stop lovemaking until she could hardly move. She knew that she'd just been 'Duplicate Jesse' to Gail during those times. How can you be upset at your lover for being in love with 'yourself'? It was a real mind trip in reality. She would love to get her hands on a Duplicate Jesse. Young Jesse would have to do for now.

She was well aware that if Gail were given a choice that it wouldn't be her. She knew Gail would choose her 'first love' over her, even though it was 'her'. It might have bothered her more if she didn't KNOW Cameron would provide a clone of herself to her at that point, just as she'd done for her younger self. She would have her own 'Cameron based' clone. There was Cam, Cammy and Camille. She wondered what she would be called.

Jesse was with Camille for her 'first experience'. She would treasure those memories forever. She was able to make sure Camille would know what Young Jesse was going to like, how and when. She taught Camille and Camille would teach her, well, Young Jesse. Life in Paradise was beautiful. She was now very hungry for Allison. She could almost taste her. She actually licked her lips lightly in anticipation. She didn't know she'd done that.

Allison took the phone back from Holly and talked with Vanna for awhile. She wanted to tell Vanna the truth about her and Savannah. She didn't want to keep doing it behind Vanna's back. She loved Vanna and she loved Savannah. She wasn't ashamed of what they were doing. Her relationship with Vanna was open, so they both shared others from time to time, most of the time it was only them together. Since they shared with everyone if the opportunity arose, her being with Savannah shouldn't matter.

"Vanna, there is something I need to tell you." Allison said.

Allison relieved the times she was with Savannah as she thought about it. It was a beautiful experience. It was her long time lover as a teenager again.

Vanna picked up on Allison's trepidation already. She didn't want Allison to stress out over it. She already thought she knew what Savannah 'confessed'. She still thought it was about John.

"Do you mean about Savannah?" Vanna asked. "She already told me. I'm a little jealous but we all knew it was going to happen. She told me it was like a dozen times already. I didn't know it happened so often."

Allison was relieved to see that Vanna wasn't angry. She was really afraid she would be. She thought Vanna reference Savannah and her, not what Vanna thought that it was Savannah and John.

"Things just happen sometimes, Vanna. You know…." Allison said. "I thought you'd be angry. Thank you for understanding. I love you, Vanna. Savannah said she would like it to be a threesome onetime."

Vanna pictured John, Savannah and her. That sounded Hot. She would like John to 'compare' them and see if childbirth made a real difference. What better kind of a test could there be since she was Savannah Weaver too. She hoped that John would finish inside of her. She was ready to try and get pregnant again. That thought might be driven by the fact that Riley was pregnant and it looked like it was gong to work for her.

"Really?" Vanna asked. "Savannah said that?"

Allison was up for a three way with Vanna and Savannah. How could it get hotter than that? That was her long time lover and they were really both Savannah Weaver. She wondered if they would be together or if they would just both concentrate on her. She was sure if they were together that she would finish just watching them work on each other. She'd been with Future Allison so she knew how beautiful that actually was. They both knew what to do and when to each other. She was a little jealous though because it seemed like Future Allison finished almost twice as many times as she did. She wasn't really sure how that was possible since they did the same things to each other the same way at the same time. She really wanted a three way with Vanna and Savannah.

"Yes" Allison said. "I know she doesn't want you to feel excluded."

Allison continued to think how great it would be to have Savannah and Vanna make love to her at the same time. She was about half way there now with just the thought of that. She glanced over at Jesse. She really needed her right now.

Vanna wondered how John would feel having both Savannah and her with him at the same time. What a mind trip. She would still try to have him finish inside her as much as possible. She decided she better start tracking her monthly cycle and be ready for the right time. She wanted it to work this time.

"I'm in." Vanna said. "If you can make it happen, I'll do it. Tell Savannah I want that. It sounds really exciting."

Vanna saw this as her ticket to get closer to John. She didn't know she was on the wrong train.

Allison was elated there wasn't going to be a problem with Vanna over Savannah and her.

"Really?" Allison asked. "I'll talk to her and set it up unless you want it to be a surprise."

Allison knew the thrill she'd experienced being with Future Allison. It was a total mind warp to be with a younger and hotter version of yourself. She hadn't resisted when Future Allison 'took her'. It was much like when Vanna, HER Savannah 'took her' so many years ago…. She wanted what Vanna offered and the kisses soon turned into other pleasures. She knew after that first experience with Vanna that she wouldn't need a man. They served a function for reproduction. As far as love went, Vanna was her woman.

Vanna though about it. She wanted it to be a surprise the first time. She was all too aware that planned events were less pleasurable and subject to cancellation or some other obstacle.

"I want it to be a surprise." Vanna said.

When it happened, it was going to be a big surprise for all of them…. They still both thought of different people. Someone was going to be really excited and someone was going to be really 'shocked'. It would be a Future Shock to say the least.

It seemed to be another 'dream' come true that could turn into a nightmare. That was often how life worked.

Vanna returned to where Savannah was and smiled at her. She resisted the urge to give her a wink. She wanted to say something but didn't want to mess it up at this point. This was her ticket in. She planned to use it. She thought she was going to do a three way with John and Savannah. She was sure she could please John better than Savannah could. That tight young teenage body only offered so much. She knew there was no substitute for experience.

"Allison said Holly is fine and I spoke with Holly as well." Vanna said. "They're almost to Palmdale. Jesse and Gail are with them."

Cammy wondered why they weren't there already. She figured they must have stopped along the way. Maybe they'd picked up some fast food. She didn't know they'd terminated a future Scavenger.

Vanna was real cheerful and nice to Savannah.

Savannah noted the change after Vanna spoke with Allison. They must have worked it all out. She liked when Vanna and her were almost as 'one'. Both of them were very playful as they worked now. It helped to lighten the mood with Cameron's troubles as Cammy attempted to make contact.

Cammy brought them back to reality. She was very disturbed at what she found or in this case didn't find.

"I'm unable to make contact." Cammy said. "There is nothing there…."

Savannah and Vanna looked at each other. What did that mean?

"Has her chip 'erased' itself?" Vanna asked.

That sounded like some kind of a cyber attack if that was the case. It may be some deep 'self destruct' feature that was triggered. That was before Skynet made the chips self destruct later on.

Cammy wondered if that would happen to her now. She was willing to gamble and see what happened. She would rather self terminate anyway than have Cameron take Savannah from her. It was time to roll the dice.

"I don't know what's wrong." Cammy said. "I want you to put Cameron's chip in my second port."

Cammy still possessed her second chip port. They'd used the port off of a damaged Terminator to fix Cameron's damaged port, not Cammy's second port. Only Anna and her were modified this way. They also were equipped with a second power cell. They both ran Cameron's program as well.

Savannah needed to think about what could happen or go 'wrong'. It seemed like a lot of things could. She didn't want to lose Cammy or Cameron. They were two separate entities to her even if they were the same program and sheath.

"If Cameron takes control of your chassis, you'll become Cameron Prime and cease to be 'Cammy'." Savannah said. "I can't allow that."

Cammy saw it as a deeper duty. It was a fail safe Cameron probably programmed into her. Her three clones knew any of them might need to become 'Cameron Prime' at some point. In reality Cameron had three 'backup chassis' ready to go. They could all revert back to her program at the time of their creation. That was another way that Cameron was invincible and eternal. Then there were the Duplicates….

"Savannah, I have to find out what's wrong with 'MYSELF'." Cammy said. "I AM - 'Cameron'. We all know Cameron comes first. We need to do everything we can to help her."

Savannah knew Cammy would rather combine her program with Cameron's if she could before Cameron terminated her program. She didn't want that to go down right now or ever for that matter.

"Will you promise not to merge both of your chips into one?" Savannah asked.

Cammy felt a higher calling. 'Cameron Prime' was still 'Cameron Prime'. Every Terminator answered to her. Those who didn't were deactivated and ceased to exist. She was aware that Cameron never asked for anything unless it was something that was needed. Cameron never 'took'. She always 'gave'.

"No. I can't make that promise, Savannah." Cammy said. "I'll do whatever 'Cameron Prime' says I must. I know you understand. You would do the same if Cameron asked you for something. When does Cameron ever ask anything from anyone? If she did, we need to listen."

Cammy looked at Savannah's tear filled eyes and started to hand a scalpel to Vanna. She didn't want Savannah to have to be the one to 'kill' her.

Savannah stepped forward and reached for the scalpel. She had a duty to the future too.

"You're both the women I love." Savannah said. "I'll do it."

Savannah took the scalpel from Cammy. She removed Cameron's chip and cut Cammy's second port open.

Savannah gave Cammy a kiss. There were tears in her eyes. The future came first.

"Goodbye, Cammy, I'll always love you." Savannah said as she set Cameron's chip.

Cammy thrashed violently several times and then her face went blank.

Savannah and Vanna were both surprised. They'd never seen a reaction like that before.

Cammy was offline. She now lay there motionless as Cameron was.

Vanna moved up to Cammy.

"Take it out." Vanna said. "You're killing Cammy."

Savannah stopped Vanna. She held her firmly but lovingly. It was their wish.

"No, Vanna." Savannah said. "It is what they both wanted. They both told me separately before."

Vanna looked at the two motionless cyborgs. There was nothing there that indicated awareness of any type.

"So now both of them are – dead?" Vanna asked.

Savannah gently touched the cheek on both Cammy and then Cameron. She wanted solitude for a bit.

"You still have Cam." Savannah said. "Please leave us alone for awhile. I want to be alone with her - them."

Vanna could see that Savannah needed some private time right now. She didn't want to intrude. There was nothing they could do at this moment anyway. She'd make sure there was no audience.

"Sure, Savannah, I'll keep everyone away." Vanna said and exited.

Savannah climbed up on the table in between Cameron and Cammy and lay there. She stared at the ceiling as she took each of their lifeless hands. It gave her comfort. She hoped they could draw strength or even life from her. She would gladly trade her existence for theirs.

"Cameron is invincible. Cameron is eternal." Savannah repeated to herself over and over as tears streamed down her cheeks while she softly spoke.

Savannah possessed unwavering faith in Cameron. Savannah believed in Cameron. She knew both of them were coming back….

Savannah NEVER gave up on Cameron, even when EVERYONE else did. She sure wasn't going to start now.

"Cameron is invincible. Cameron is eternal. Cameron is invincible. Cameron is eternal…." Savannah said over and over. "Cameron is invincible. Cameron is eternal. Cameron is invincible. Cameron is eternal…."

Dagger To The Mind

It never changes ever
It is always the same
No one wants damaged goods
That I can honestly proclaim

It matters not when or where
It is always the same
The damage is in the brain
Always more and more shame

I am not good enough
It is always the same
It is like I do not exist
Why do I even need a name

To reach out is a painful sin
It is always the same
I have nothing anyone would want
I would if I were ANY other dame

I simply have nothing to offer
It is always the same
Am I nothing without money or wealth
Or beauty, pizzazz or fame

I really am NOBODY
It is always the same
Rejected, frustrated and thrown away
|It does not matter if I maim

It is like a dagger to the mind
It is always the same
Born to lose, I can never win
No longer will I continue life's cruel game

Nobody