"But I'll tell you, man, if I ever get back there and hear someone saw Viet Nam was worthwhile or it was our obligation- I'll hit him right in the face." -Private Thomas Kingsley "Tarzan"
Mom,
I knew it's been a few days since I last wrote, but we went on a two day patrol. We were nearly at the LZ when we came under fire. There must have been a scout when we landed the day before and he alerted his unit. They were lying in ambush.
For my first time actually in contact with the enemy, I believe I performed all right. I didn't freeze up, but after a few minutes of heart thumping panic, I started firing my M-16. I don't believe I actually hit anyone (of which I am quite glad) but we killed four NVA, two with a single grenade. If possible, the guys would have taken their valuables as treasures of sorts. They are quite the prize around camp. I met a fellow who had eleven NVA belts, all from officers (lieutenants, captains- nothing to high up). Some men have watches they've taken off dead NVA, and one has a pen from an officer. Such things are usually engraved and of great worth. I hope I'll never do something as barbaric, but at the same time, I fear I will. My greater fear being that I will being to take some absurd pleasure in it. If I ever do begin to enjoy this killing, I hope I do die, for I could never live with myself.
Fortunately, we suffered no casualties and soon made it back to the LZ, only a couple scratches to show for our effort.
Back to slightly more civilized things, if it is not too much trouble, could you please send a package with some snacks? Also, some books would be nice, as there are many short periods of time in which I find myself bored, hunting around the tent for one of the other guys' books. Also, perhaps a picture of you and Bernie, as I've lost the other on a patrol. I hope to hear from you soon, seeing as I've had nearly a week with no mail, though I doubt it's because you haven't been writing.
I've got watch tonight, so I might as well catch some sleep before dinner.
Your loving son,
John