Chapter 680

I Can Hardly Wait

In the Command Center John and John Henry followed the operation. It looked like it was finished.

John was relieved when Cameron went out and Cammy and Bob decided to blow the mine closed. He thought that action was long overdue based on the nature of the enemy they currently dealt with.

"I'm glad Cammy and Bob wrapped that mission up." John said. "I was afraid it would go 'south'."

John Henry thought the operations that were conducted over the last two days produced a lot of benefits for the Resistance.

"It's always a possibility." John Henry said. "We definitely put a dent in Skynet activities and dealt the anti-Metal faction a blow as well."

Bob quietly sent a report of what he witnessed on how Cameron was addressed and referred to by one of the men in the anti-Metal faction. That seemed to be a common opinion of that group.

"I didn't care for the information in Bob's report about them." John said. "I don't like how they referred to Cameron."

John Henry believed that justice was served. He was actually surprised there was less violent activity by Cameron or Cammy than he would've expected.

"They paid the price for that false statement." John Henry said.

John wasn't so sure that the statement was incorrect. Cameron previously raised the possibility that Future John programmed her to be his 'sex slave'. That act by definition would make Cameron exactly what the anti-Metal group referred to her as. Cameron believed she was programmed to serve in a sexual capacity to replace Future Allison after she was gone. That was the 'price' she needed to pay for her involvement.

"Was it?" John asked.

John Henry felt a little uneasy at John's question. He believed that was territory they shouldn't explore.

"Are you asking if it was a true or false statement?" John Henry asked.

John figured he might as well say what he thought.

"Yes." John said. "Was Cameron programmed as that?"

John Henry was unable to locate proof, one way or the other, while he was on Cameron's chip. He didn't think it was good to speculate about such an issue. What purpose could it serve at this point?

"I don't know." John Henry said. "I don't think so."

John pushed the issue a little bit more.

"She thinks she was." John said. "Or that she was Future John's 'toy'."

John Henry nervously looked at the security monitor. He knew that CamNet would monitor the entire conversation they were currently having. He didn't think any good was going to come out of it.

"There's no proof of that." John Henry said.

John was a little disgusted at the thought of what Future John may have done.

"That's just the thing." John said "Future John changed her programming. He did it more than once."

John Henry knew that was an indisputable fact about the change in the programming several times.

"That's true." John Henry said.

John was sure that there must be a better reason other than Future John trying to cover his 'sexual tracks' for what he'd done to Cameron in the future. It just seemed there was more to it. The question was what? Maybe things were best left unknown. Then again, maybe it wasn't.

"Why?" John asked.

John Henry wanted to put things in perspective. He knew humans were unable to deal with loss of loved ones, especially through death.

"If Cameron was taken from you and terminated and you found someone who looked just like her. What would YOU do?" John Henry asked.

John knew he would want her to be 'Cameron'. What he suspected was exactly what he'd do. That was the point of this question.

"THAT is what I was afraid of…." John said. "I'd try to get back the person I loved and lost. I'd do whatever I needed to do to accomplish that."

John Henry knew that Cameron was a victim of her programming by Future John.

"Cameron's trapped by her programming and seeks more than she can 'have'." John Henry said. "Her natural development has been hampered. She seeks more."

John wasn't satisfied by that answer. He wanted Cameron to be happy and find whatever it was that she thought she needed to find that happiness. He even knew that might happen at his expense and he'd be the one that was replaced.

"I want her to have what she seeks then." John said. "I want her to be happy."

John Henry really wanted to end the conversation they were having. He was sure he would need to answer to Cameron later on about it or worse, CamNet.

"We all do." John Henry said. "She deserves it. You look sleepy."

John checked all of his monitors one last time. It looked like everything was concluded for the night, which was actually into the next morning at this point.

"It's late. I'm headed off to bed." John said.

John Henry figured that John would want a little action.

"You don't want to wait up for Cameron?" John Henry asked.

John sighed. He knew how things work by now. He didn't like it but there was nothing he could do about it.

"NO, she was shot a few times. She won't come around for a few days." John said. "I understand how she feels about it."

John Henry knew that Cameron believed that John was mainly in love with her appearance.

"It's very important to her that she's perfect for you." John Henry said.

John suppressed a laugh. It was something that he'd wondered about for a long time.

"Was that programmed into her by Future John?" John asked. "She always looked Hot and Tight when we first started out as 'brother and sister'."

John Henry believed that was Cameron's doing. That was probably because she knew what John would respond to. It appeared that Future Riley proved her wrong. Cameron still believed that her appearance would lure John in at some point. She was correct in that respect. It'd just taken longer than she'd planned.

"I believe that was her choice." John Henry asked. "She's always done that for you."

John thought back on his previous transgression. He was still pretty sure that if he could do it all over again that he would do the same thing. He enjoyed his time with Future Riley and the use of her body. He got what he wanted. She was his first and would be forever. It did bother him though that Cameron took it so hard. Was it really that big of a deal? Everyone did the same thing in the 'real world'. Both males and females on average were with a dozen or more sexual partners. He'd only been with two. It was pathetic.

"I let Riley - Future Riley, get in the way of that and damaged Cameron more than Skynet ever could have." John said.

John Henry glanced nervously up at the security monitor. He really wanted this conversation to end.

"Yes, you did." John Henry asked. "Life goes on."

John looked back over his shoulder as he exited from the Command Center.

"No matter how messed up it is." John said. "Life does go on."

John again reflected on his involvement with Future Riley at Cameron's expense. He was blinded by lust then and for the quest of a 'real female'. He was a teenager and wanted what all the other teenagers were doing. The sad part was he would do it all over again the same way if he could go back in time. Either way it wasn't Cameron that killed Future Riley. She most likely wanted to kill her and surely could have. Cameron chose not to do that and let him have his fling. She let him seek his 'happiness' at her expense. She sacrificed for him. He knew sacrifice was a true test of love. That wasn't the thought that was in his mind as his essence flowed deep inside of Future Riley. To remember the thrill excited him.

He understood Savannah wanted those same things too now. What worried him was that sooner rather than later, Cameron was going to 'act' with Young Allison and she too would want the same things he wanted at that age. He remembered the allure of Future Allison and how desirable she was. He knew Cameron was going to make Young Allison twice that alluring and twice that desirable, just for him.

It would give him something to think about tonight as he slept alone. He knew that too was a 'problem' that Cameron intended to 'fix' for him. That in turn would create a bigger problem for her.

He looked over at the box of tissues that was on the nightstand next to his bed. He wanted Savannah's virginity and he expected to claim Young Alison's virginity as well. He wondered which one he would 'think about' before he drifted off to sleep. He decided tonight it would be both of them. There are plenty of tissues and two virgins to 'bust'.

Jesse felt Gail was still troubled by the day's events and her being there. The interrogation hadn't helped any. She hoped to make things right between them. She didn't want anything hanging over them or between them.

"Thank you for bringing me along." Jesse said. "I know you didn't want to."

Gail suppressed a glitch impulse. Duplicate Jesse popped into her mind more than once when Jesse was with her out in the field. She didn't want Jesse to die, again.

"That's true." Gail said. "I want you to be safe. I can never lose you again."

Jesse knew that Duplicate Jesse didn't actually die. She was half a century in the future so it was sort of the same thing. She was worried about something else too. Gail was headed down a path that was going to lead to a lot of pain and hurt. She knew that Gail and Savannah were on a collision course. She knew that the trajectory of each of them was different.

"What's happening between you and Savannah?" Jesse asked. "You can be honest with me. I'll love you no matter what. You know I believe in sharing."

Gail loved Jesse but she wasn't ashamed of the way she felt about Savannah.

"I'll tell you the truth." Gail said. "I love her."

It did bother Jesse some to hear that but she felt she was on secure ground. At least she hoped she was.

"I know you've said that before." Jesse said. "Do you love her more than me?"

Despite her feelings, Gail knew the time she spent with Savannah was very special in the way it was spent. So far it hasn't gone sexual, at least not all the way. She hoped to rectify that situation soon.

"No, it's different." Gail said. "She's helped me and allowed me to explore different parts of myself that I never have before. She's allowed me to 'grow'. "

Jesse believed that Savannah and Gail shared a lot together.

"I know you've been 'together'." Jesse said.

Gail wished to be completely intimate with Savannah. That just wasn't the direction things went with their relationship.

"Yes and no." Gail said. "She hasn't allowed the relationship to expand beyond a few kisses and some touching. I've pushed hard but she's responded differently than I expected. She's shown me a different path."

Gail was pleased Savannah showed her sex wasn't everything. It was to the girls from the future. That was a very narrow path.

Jesse knew that Savannah reached out to her differently and other females did as well. The goal was the same, the journey there was different.

"She's reached out to me before." Jesse said. "She misses Her Jesse - Young Jesse. I can provide her with what she seeks."

Gail wondered how far Jesse would go.

"Have you…?" Gail asked.

A look of love developed in Jesse's eyes.

"We've done a lot, Savannah and I." Jesse said. "I want Savannah to have the 'good version' of me, that's Young Jesse. I'm not worthy of her affection or love. I'm spoiled worse than she can ever imagine. I'm ashamed of what I've experienced. I'm ashamed of what I've done."

Jesse was most ashamed of what was done to her. It still made her feel worthless when she thought about it. Savannah never made her feel that way. Savannah loved her for who she is currently not who she was.

Gail thought about what transpired earlier outside the anti-Metal group's compound. Now she wondered if Jesse actually did that to remind Savannah who she really was. If Savannah came back to her after that, it would show that she truly loved Jesse and her past didn't matter.

"She's like no other." Gail said. "We know Vanna is 'her' but she isn't really."

Jesse knew there was a specific reason for that.

"Savannah's been raised in Cameron's image." Jesse said. "So has Young Allison. It's even more so for her."

Gail was aware of what Cameron's goal was.

"Young Allison will be the human version of Cameron." Gail said. "Cameron has used Young Allison's entire life to 'work' on her."

Jesse was tired and started to nod off. She knew what she planned to 'deliver' once they returned to the Resistance base. It was always good to give her female lovers a reminder of how special it was to be female.

"Wake me up when we get back." Jesse said. "I'll remind you of what you HAVE."

Gail looked at Jesse after that statement and slightly moistened her lips. She knew there was what she wanted and she knew there was what she had. She was very happy with both.

"I can hardly wait." Gail said as she increased her speed.

Gail looked at Jesse often as she drove. Jesse was hers, all of her. When she didn't think about Jesse and Duplicate Jesse, she thought about Savannah. It was all so different, even if it was all the same.

Savannah and Cameron were in an SUV on the way back.

Cameron was worried about the day's and night's events. She knew Savannah was in danger and risked everything for her. She knew Savannah's love for her was going to get her killed. She felt she needed to say something but she didn't know if it would do any good.

"I want you to stay out of the field." Cameron said. "You must protect Vanna's baby."

Savannah didn't think it was any different than what she'd already done.

"I've done this twice before." Savannah said. "I can hack it."

Cameron knew that the conditions were vastly different this time. Savannah was impregnated with an embryo from Vanna. Every pregnancy Vanna attempted ended in failure.

"That was with your healthy embryos, not Vanna's." Cameron said. "Savannah, I'm afraid the pregnancy may not work."

This was a non issue to Savannah. There was already a contingency plan in place. Both Cameron and her agree to it and how it would be explained.

"We already discussed this." Savannah said. "I'll use my own genetic material then. We'll still tell Vanna it is hers because it really is. She's ME. I'm HER."

Cameron felt a glitch impulse shoot through left hand. She was able to suppress it.

"I want it to be HERS." Cameron said. "I won't allow you to give up another child of your own."

Savannah already promised Cameron ever since she was a girl that she would have a baby for her and give it to her and John.

"Would you still do that even if it's for you as 'your own'?" Savannah asked.

Cameron felt another glitch impulse. She knew that she leaned on Savannah way too hard as a young girl to do that. She felt guilty now.

"YES." Cameron said. "I know how that's hurt you."

Savannah really didn't want to talk about this right now. She still intended to do as she'd promised.

"It has hurt me, Cameron." Savannah said. "If I hadn't given them to myself, my other future selves, I wouldn't have done it. I'd want a version of 'me' to help me if I was sterile. I'll still have one child for you and John. I've promised you that."

Cameron held Savannah in her arms and she'd cried both times when she needed to leave her two girls behind in two different futures. She'd felt Savannah's pain.

"I can't do that to you." Cameron said. "I won't hurt you like that."

"Cameron, I'll do it for you. I love you and John. I ASK you to promise me you won't take Allison's baby - Young Allison's baby, when she's ready to have one. I'll have one for you. Claire will have one for you. Either of us or both of us will." Savannah said. "We've both discussed this."

Savannah knew Cameron really wanted Allison's baby as her own, ANY Allison's baby.

"I don't know…." Cameron said.

Savannah would rather sacrifice again herself.

"Please don't do that to her." Savannah asked. "I'll provide you with John's child. I promise, Cameron."

Savannah didn't want Young Allison to ever feel what she felt to 'give' a baby away.

Cameron felt another glitch impulse. She needed to get off of this subject immediately.

"I don't want to talk about this anymore." Cameron said. "You look tired, you need to rest."

Savannah was tired both physically and mentally. She really felt beat.

"I'm a little sleepy." Savannah said.

"Go to sleep." Cameron said. "Please…."

Savannah laid her head on Cameron's lap and soon drifted off.

"When do we do the temporal mission?" Cammy asked quietly as she drove.

Cammy was in the front seat. Savannah and Cameron were in the rear seat. She'd listen to the entire conversation as it went on behind her. None of it sat well with her. She knew that there was little that she could do to stop Cameron from taking Savannah away from her. It was just a matter of time.

"Soon…." Cameron said as she gently touched Savannah's face. "It will be soon."

Cameron bent down and softly kissed Savannah's cheek and whispered in her ear the entire way home. It was all the same things she'd whispered to Savannah since she was a child. She wanted Savannah to know that nothing ever changed….

Young Allison and Anna were in the bunker. It appeared that the operations were wrapped up for the night.

"It's late." Anna said. "You need to rest."

Young Allison felt drained.

"I'm going to sleep down here." Young Allison said. "I'm tired."

Anna didn't want Young Allison to forget her routine.

"I'll carry you to your room." Anna said. "You need to sleep in your own bed. You know you need to clean up and take care of yourself."

Anna picked Young Allison up and started for her room.

Young Allison liked the closeness to Anna that she experienced right now. Anna looked exactly like Savannah. She liked being held in her arms.

"I'm just glad that nothing bad happened." Young Allison said. "What did happen was bad enough."

Young Allison and Anna were provided with a unique view of the events that transpired.

"Yes, viewing that body cam footage of Cameron and the cable car was very disturbing." Anna said. "It must have been awful for Savannah to see in person. I'm glad CamNet shared it with us."

Young Allison actually wondered about that. It seemed that they'd received a unique view of everything.

"Why did CamNet share it with me?" Young Allison asked.

Anna thought that she had a pretty good idea why it was shared with Young Allison.

"It was to show you the dangers of the life you seek." Anna said.

Savannah showed her the complete file about the things that she'd done for the Resistance and for Cameron.

"I've seen the entire file of Savannah from her battles to child birth many times." Young Allison said. "She said I was the only one she WANTED to see it."

Anna believed Savannah showed Young Allison those files to dissuade her from doing the same things and living a lifestyle like that.

"Did that make you want to do the things you've promised Cameron any less?" Anna asked.

Young Allison felt proud of Savannah every time she reviewed the files. It made her want to be exactly like Savannah in everything.

"No. I can hardly wait. It actually made me want to do them more, all of them." Young Allison said. "My mind has developed far faster than this 'girl's body' that I'm trapped in. My studies are at an advanced level."

Anna previously tried to associate Young Allison with other individuals in her age group.

"It's your body." Anna said. "I've tried to increase your 'social interaction' when we're out."

Young Allison frowned at the thought. She felt totally out of place when she was around them. There was a whole world going on around them that they didn't have a clue about. None of them knew that death and destruction loomed around the corner and could appear at any time.

"I've nothing in common with any of them." Young Allison said. "They are all just kids."

Anna wanted to remind Young Allison that she was no different.

"You are too." Anna said.

Young Allison knew her future and what it held. She wanted it now, all of it and everything it entailed.

"I want to be who I'm supposed to be." Young Allison said.

Anna set Young Allison down on her bed and got out her night clothes.

"You need to brush your teeth and clean up a little." Anna said. "You must remain healthy."

Young Allison knew her duties and her promises.

"I know." Young Allison said. "There are a lot of things I MUST do."

Anna knew what Cameron expected of Young Allison.

"Yes there are." Anna said.

Young Allison cleaned up and went to bed. She was soon asleep.

Anna waited down the hall. She didn't know if Young Allison would pleasure herself before she fell asleep, she didn't. She came back and gently touched Young Allison's face. She gave her a soft kiss. She then whispered softly in Young Allison's ear as she slept. She used Cameron's voice as she always did….

The future must be protected….

It was up to Young Allison and Savannah to do it.

I Can Hardly Wait

Some like to listen
Others like to dictate
Some like it straight
Others like things that conflate

Some look for fun
Others look for a mate
Some rely on luck
Others accept their fate

Some will spare no expense
Others are nothing but a cheapskate
Some go with the status quo
Others learn where they actually rate

Some are willing to negotiate
Others want everything on their plate
Some are less flexible
Others are willing to migrate

Some say love is a game
Others try for a quick checkmate
Some offer love over time
Others say, I can hardly wait

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