AN.: Being ground on your birthday sucks but it gave me time to update!
ok so thanks 2 my reviewers I was told I was spelling Sesshomaru wrong sorrii if it offended ne of his strong fans it was an honest mistake I SWEAR! Ok now 4 da 3rd chapter! Oh yea I don't own them (wish I could afford 2 buy them ,)
Kagome's P.O.V
I guess I should go to the dining hall now for dinner. Hope I won't get lost like last time, sighing I start walking down hallways that I could remember.
Why does this seem familiar?
Groaning I try a door, praying that it would be Sesshomaru's office I open the door. Letting out the breath I was holding I see him sitting at his desk.
Thank Kami I remembered something
I walk over to his desk, but he doesn't look up so I clear my throat. He then looks up at me and I smile sheepishly "Uh I kind of forgot the way to the dining hall."
He nods towards the chair near his desk for me to sit in and wait for him. I sit down and look up at the ceiling noticing there are no cracks to count as in my room while I wait. I then turn to the floor trying to find something to occupy myself with. After 2 minutes I am yawning with boredom. Deciding to get up I walk and stand behind Sesshomaru and look over his shoulder. He stops writing as I look over it though. Without looking up at me he says "You do know that's very disrespectful to me" I sigh and walk back to my seat with my head down in defeat. I look up to see a bit of amusement flash through his eyes before his eyes go back to the soul piercing stare
. "What are you doing?" I ask giving up on doing anything to NOT disturb him. "Filling out paperwork", he replies.
"Oh about what?" I ask trying to get more than one sentence at a time. "Naraku", saying even less than before I frown. For some reason that name, that vile name, makes me feel disgusted and with the need to be sick. Looking up at him again,"Who?" I ask.
"The hanyou that you killed when he almost killed Inuyasha", he answers still not looking up. I think about who Inuyasha and I fought with no name Naraku coming to mind
"I don't remember a Naraku." He looks up at this, "I doubt you will for awhile since you just remembered Inuyasha and me."
" I have to go home soon ya know", I say when he goes back to work, "my mom is most likely worried sick since I haven't seen her ever since the well incident"
This brings he eyes back to me, "Just how long do you think you have been on this side of the well?"
"Well……… I was with Inuyasha for a week…….demo……I don't know how long I was out for," I answer watching him look from his paper back to me. He gets up as I am saying this and his stare gets colder and colder with each word I would say. "You lie," he states. I look to him eyes wide "I would never………..I'm not "he sits back down "I am hoping this is from your memory loss but I must tell you. You have been on this side of the well for 3 years chasing an evil hanyou for the shards to the jewel around your neck." I feel like an 18-wheeler just ran me over "3 YEARS!" I shake my head "no….no…that can't be because that would mean that I have forgotten the last 3 years of my life"
He looks at me very intently, "I don't know what caused this to happen but I do know now that you really don't remember because of your reaction just now"
I look at him with tears in my eyes "Tell me why you brought me here! Tell me now!" He gets up at this and all I see is a blur as he appears before me with his hand around my neck "You will watch how you speak to me, Miko. Otherwise you will come to highly regret it" I choke for air as he lets me go, looking up at him he begins to tell me how and why he brought me with him to his castle. (A.N: if you don't remember it's his flashback in the beginning)
I look at him shaking my head "So you brought me back to life? But why?"
"I had my reasons but now we must work on you getting your memories back and find out why you lost them in the first place"
At dinner no one seems to want to talk so we all ate in silence as we finish dinner I find my way back to my room amazingly. Trying to digest what Sesshomaru had told me is hard. To believe that for some reason I forgot three years of life was just out there but then again up to 2 days ago I couldn't even remember my own name let alone up to falling in the well. Why me! First down the well now this, this damn memory loss! Kami when will my life be normal. Laying down I try going to sleep but since I wasn't even tired I get up groaning. I sit up and cross my legs but without realizing it I start to meditate.
"Kagome"
I look up to see a waterfall and a woman standing before me.
"Who are you?" I ask still sitting.
She sits down next to me "That's not important at this time I need to tell you that you must look into your heart to understand why all this is happening to you"
'Nani! My heart?" I feel confused. She chuckles. "Yes your heart. The pain and sorrow that you have gone through was something I never imagined happening to you. Your heart so pure and clean no matter what life puts in your way. I could bask in your light for all of eternity,"she smiles at this thought,"Helping you though is what I can do for now"
"My memory loss?"
"A form of protection your mind used to keep you pure and not taint the jewel", she explains.
Grasping the jewel it glows. I gasp as I see Inuyasha before me falling from an attack from Naraku. I quickly open my eyes not wanting that memory back anytime soon.
The woman looks at me worried "Before you try to get your memory back you must be stable in mind, body and soul. You must love, endure and learn"
At that I open my eyes. I cry thinking back to what the woman said to me.
So I was protecting myself from myself. Or was the jewel protecting itself from my pain. What did she mean I have to "Love, endure and learn" to gain my memory back. This is even more confusing than when I didn't understand what happened to me.
Sesshomaru's P.O.V.
Is she crying over that useless brother of mine she has done so many times before or is there a different reason to it? Controlling the urge to go and comfort her I leave from by her door. Soon enough I can smell her tears getting closer and closer until finally I can sense her just out side of the door. Why hasn't she come in yet?
I listen very carefully as I hear her whispering " I know you know that I am out here so just invite me in already please." Surprised by her request I tell her to enter. As she comes in I search her face to any signs of what she was crying about. Nothing damn. She sits in the chair. "I know why I forgot everything that has happened these last 3 years." she states. I try to urge her to go on without saying anything fearing I might say the wrong thing to her. "I was trying to protect myself from myself" I stare at her. She can't be serious! I never knew humans could forget their lives to protect their selves from their pain.
"The pain was too much for my mind and it decided to forget what had caused me the most pain and sorrow. Which in this case was Naraku. The pain that was inside of me would have tainted the jewel even more than he would have himself", she says looking at me now. Inwardly I sigh and groan at the same time.
"So do you now remember everything?", I ask curious but sure that I do not show it.
"No, this woman, I think who was the originator of the jewel, told me all of this."
I nod my head. "Did she tell you when you will remember everything," I ask then.
"Yes. When I 'love, endure and learn'", she answers looking more than before. Thinking through what she just told me I come to a realization. Fate is working my way for once.
To the reviewers:
Ilikewhitetigers- thanks for the review n yea Sesshy n Kagome all the way!
iNuYaShAsweet- that advice helped so much A BIG THANKS! glad u like it so far too
ka1080- omg I can't believe I hav been spelling it wrong I feel so dumb lol well thanks for da spell check n review. Also to ur questions I guess u'll just hav to keep reading to find out huh? Hahaevil laugh
laters ppls I am goin to bed now! Got stupid testing 2morrow! It sucks too.