Hi, so PLL is back and I don't know you but I just wish that the Emison moments will be a little longer! Anyway, So like I said before this is a mini emison story (finally, it will be done in 5 parts ^^), this is the 3rd part of this story entitled "into the dream"…
Now, this 3rd part will follow immediately after the kiss of Alison & Emily (last scene of last part)
Enjoy ^^ and as always any review is welcome ^^ thanks!
Into the dream – Part III
The kiss, it really took Emily by surprise but she immediately blushed and smiled feeling the soft lips of the blonde on her. The brunette wasn't sure of what she should do or not but when she felt the lips of Alison pulling away, she couldn't control the actions of her own body and she just put her hand on the back of Alison's head and pushed her again against her lips; the blonde smirked under the actions of the brunette; the blonde let a little gap between her lips and as soon as she offered an opening on her mouth, Emily took it and got in.
Emily's tongue just got inside Alison and Emily just melted, touching each cavity of her mouth, the brunette curled her fingers of her hand on Alison golden hair as she deepened the kiss; both girls moaned, feeling dizzy under the kiss; Emily stopped thinking and she just got lost on the kiss, with one hand locked on Alison's head, her other hand started to roam Alison's body, Emily moaned as her fingertips touched the blonde and she just felt herself aroused when she squeezed the butt of the blonde…
Alison pulled away and said. – "Ok… that was intense… but you know that we don't do that in front of the kids…" (She smirked and whispered on Emily's ear) "But definitely we will continue it at night…"
Emily chuckled and bitted her lips; she really wasn't sure of what it came to her to do that boiled move. The brunette blushed and smiled looking confused when Alison grabbed her hand, intertwining their fingers as she guided her inside the living room…
Emily asked. – "What…?"
Alison turned towards the brunette and said. – "You might miss the pancakes mermaid, but the girls and I… we didn't want to open the presents without you, so we're going to open them now that you're here… you spent six hours putting those bikes together…" (Smile) "You deserve to see the look on their faces when they opened their gifts…"
Emily wasn't sure of what to say, she just let the blonde guided her towards the living room, for surprise of the brunette, her mom, Pam was already sitting on the sofa of the room, with the little boy on her lap. They opened presents and Emily felt something tingle on her heart by just seeing the big smiles of the girls; they had a lovely familiar Christmas, and for Emily, it was the 1st Christmas where she really felt happy since the dead of her Dad.
It looked that in that 'glimpse', Wayne was also gone but it didn't feel as heartbreaking as it was on Emily's reality, maybe it was because of the love that she could feel coming from her 'family', the brunette couldn't avoid feeling the butterflies flying inside her as she saw the girls playing, smiling, her mom playing and giggling with the little boy and off course, seeing the gorgeous blonde that in that moment was her wife, her wife; the brunette continued repeating that sentence on her mind over and over, still not believing it, how could that be possible? How did she get the 'girl'? The Queen Bee, the heartless blonde, her 1st love, the one that always wanted but never really had it… how they got there? Together… Married… happily married with kids… it didn't make sense on Emily's head and she thought that If that is what she needed to figure out, she was definitely going to look at it…
At night, Pam left and Alison put the kids on bed; Emily just stared from the distance how Alison sang a lullaby to the girls and to the boy that was on her arms; she just melted hearing the voice of the blonde. For the 1st time since she got in that 'dream', she wasn't sure if go back to her old life was what she really wanted; Emily, conflicted with what she just was feeling, she walked to their master room and lied down on bed, staring at the ceiling; she just wasn't sure of what to do, what to feel, all was so strange but then again, it felt so right… Emily was completely lost on her own thoughts that she didn't notice when the blonde got inside the room and locked the door.
Alison smirked. – "The kids are asleep, Em…"
Emily just sighed still distracted, seeing to the ceiling. – "Well, I guess that's just great right? Those little monkeys can be a real handful…"
The brunette just turned her head towards the blonde when she felt Alison climbing onto the bed, onto her with a seductive look on her face…
Emily teased. – "Wait a second… you want me… don't you?"
Alison nodded. – "That's the general idea… yeah…"
The blonde started kissing and sucking on Emily's neck, the brunette just shut her eyes with a moan getting out of her mouth. Alison pulled away and Emily pouted with the absence of contact; the blonde just chuckled finding it adorable; as Alison sat on Emily, she slowly pull off her clothes and Emily just bitted her lips as she watch the gorgeous naked body of the blonde, she couldn't avoid to stare at her….
Emily. – "God! You're beautiful…"
Alison chuckled. – "Thanks Em…"
Emily sat on bed and having Alison on her lap, she just had a better look of Alison's face; the brunette took a deep breath and she caressed Alison's face, she stared to the blue eyes of the blonde…
Emily. – "You've really grown into a beautiful woman… you're so, so stunning, so beautiful…"
Emily continued staring at her, entranced; Alison blushed and said…
Alison. – "How can you do that?"
Emily asked nervous. – "What?"
Alison smiled. – "Look at me like you haven't seen me every day for the last 6 years…"
Emily froze, there was love in their eyes but Emily wasn't sure of how to act on her feelings, 'love' was off the table for a reason, she made that choice a long time ago and she was ok with it, she was fine until now, because right now, having Alison on her arms, so close, looking at her with those beautiful ocean eyes, those blue eyes which reflected so much love for her, so much passion; she just couldn't find the way to just once again, walked away from it and Emily was really thinking hard on how handle the situation until the blonde hugged Emily's neck and started to talk with her…
Alison. – "Mermaid… you're acting weird… what is wrong love?"
Emily sighed. – "Sorry… I just… ahmmm… all of this… it's just… it's kinda of new to me…"
Alison caressed Emily's face and said with a soft voice. – "I know what you mean…"
Emily raised and eye brow and said. – "You do?!"
Alison nodded. – "Off Course, Em… I didn't exactly grow up with the best example of a normal healthy familiar relationship… It's kind of amazing that we've made it this far; mostly because I'm not good listener" (Chuckles) "I know that sometimes it's overwhelmed, the kids, the bills, everything but I just know that we're gonna be fine and you should think the same Em…"
Emily. – "How can be you so sure that we're gonna be ok?"
Alison smiled. – "Because…" (She cooped Emily's cheeks with her hands and leaned for a kiss as she continued talking) "We found ourselves in each other mermaid… you're the one for me… the thing I'm sayin' is I love you, I always did, I always will…"
Emily looked at her, smiling, blushing; she looked at her with fascination, delighted of what she was seeing, feeling and hearing; before knowing their lips collapsed into a soft lovely kiss and when they broke the kiss and locked their eyes on each other, Emily finally speak out a truth that she has been stubborn enough to deny it for so long…
Emily looked deep into her blue eyes and lost in her said. – "Oh my God, all this time…. I never stopped loving you… I love you…" (A tear) "I love you so much… I always have and I always will… and right now… there's nowhere I'd rather be than here with you…"
Alison smiled and kissed her deeply, pushing her against the bed and they made love, love that Emily had never feel before, love that she was sure it was real, it was the realist thing that she had ever felt before, a love that she was sure, that she could no longer live without it…
Time came by and even if it was terrifying to become a wife and a mom overnight, it was truly worthy; Emily felt happy, truly happy, all time smiling, playing with the kids, having familiar meals, movie nights, curling with the entire family on the sofa under a warm blanket… all that, it was just perfect and in a short period of time, Emily just let herself be in that life, forgetting why and how she got in there and just enjoying it, embracing it, loving each second, each moment of it…
One day, Emily was cleaning the mess of the girls, they left toys all over the living room and Emily started to put a little of order in the room; by accident she let drop down some books and when she grabbed them, she noticed that inside one of the books, there was an envelope opened, she examined it and looking to the address and the calligraphy on the envelope, Emily realised that it was one of the letters that Alison sent her when she was in California…
Emily murmured. – "Wh…"
Alison interrupted her thought and she made Emily jumped of surprise when she hugged her from behind; the blonde chuckled when she saw her wife jumping and shaking; then Alison just turned her view towards what was on Emily's hand and she took it…
Emily pouted. – "Hey!" (Smirks) "I believe that is mine…"
Alison chuckled. – "Yeah it is… God… it has been years since I wrote this…" (Chuckles) "I remembered how terrified I was when I did it, how scared I was of the income of it…"
Emily. – "Why?!"
Alison. – "Why?! You know Em… at that time, expressing my feelings was just not in me, I never did it… until you appeared in my life…" (Smile) "You changed me Em… you made me better…"
Emily chuckled nervous, not knowing what to say but definitely curious of what was written in that letter…
Emily. – "So… you wrote your feelings in that letter…? Really?!"
Alison raised an eye brow. – "What?! Don't you remember?"
Emily babbled. – "Ahmmm…"
Alison chuckled, seeing the nervous look of her wife, so she just took the letter that was inside the envelope and she started reading it as she was face to face with Emily…
Alison reading the letter. –
"Dear Em,
I'm a coward… I should be saying this to your face and not writing this letter but saying what I need to say, being honest with you and myself face to face, looking at your beautiful chocolate eyes, it's just too overwhelmed and I'm terrified that I would not have the courage to say it in person and just do what I do best, run away. So that's why, first of all, I'm sorry for not having the courage to say this sooner or to say this in person…
The past few weeks, you've been avoiding me, not taking my calls, my texts, not replying my e-mails… I've sent you letters, handwritten letters hoping that maybe my words will reach you in a way or in another…"
Emily gulped hard and closed her fists tight, feeling heart broken by the memory of her own actions, she felt sick with herself, how she did that? How she just cut all communication with her without even saying why? Emily gulped hard and with watery-eyes, she just continued hearing the letter that she never had the kindness to read…
Alison continued reading. – "I don't blame you for it, really, I'm conscious that knowing me has caused you so much pain and I hope that one day, when you're less angry with me and less upset you will see not just that… the bad… I imagine that right now, you're living the dream in California, living a really good life, a better life, than if you hadn't met me and really I don't wish for anything else than that mermaid, I prayed for your happiness, for your well-being, for your bright future…"
Emily swallowed hard, she felt like she was going to throw up, she couldn't believe what she was hearing but more than that, she couldn't believe that she never read it before…
Alison continued reading. – "I know that you can have a great future without me but Em… I love you… I'm so in love of you… my heart bounces from the heavens to the earth in a dizzying pendular motion for you… you're scored on my heart, you, from the 1st day you walked in my life, you… you with that smile, you with your complete inability way to hide a single thing you felt, you mermaid, you changed my life so much over the years, you made me a better person… you're the only person that has made me feel 'love'…"
Emily started crying in silence, looking pale under the love confession of the blonde, she didn't know, she didn't know that Alison wrote her a love's letter; she didn't know that she loved her, she didn't read it… Emily's eyes didn't stop throwing tears as the blonde continued reading…
Alison continued reading. – "All the time I spent with you was blindingly bright, I enjoyed every day and the memory of them just made me fall for you even more… I fell for you Emily Fields, I fell in love… you're my 1st love and I fell and rolled towards you without rhyme or reason, just as Newton's apple did… I fell… with a force greater than the once exerted by the earth on the apple… you make my heart beat… thump… thump-thump...
I love you Em, mermaid, my killer, I love you, only you and I miss you, I miss you so much… when I look at our pictures where we're together, it feels as if you will just ran out from them and hug me and yet it pains me to know that such a thing won't happen… That's why I'm bringing this up, because today seems like the right day, because you're so blindingly beautiful, because it's true that you are my first love and really want you to be my only one… so here it's me… asking you… do you love me? Do you think that you could love me? Can you give me a chance to love you? To be with you? Would you become my bride one day?
After you reading this, you can do with this letter whatever you want, a reply it will be nice…" (Chuckles) "But please know that no matter what you might feel or not for me… I really hope you've a great life… the best… the happiest… because mermaid, you're an amazing woman, an extraordinary and unique human being and my best friend and I just wish you the best…
With great love…
Alison…"
The blonde ended reading the letter and Emily just continued crying, blaming herself for not reading it before, blaming herself for all the wasted time, for all that she could have and she just let it go…
Emily cried. – "I can't believe that I didn't read it! God! I'm so stupid! So, so, so stupid!"
Alison hugged Emily and said. – "What are you talking about Em? You did read my letter…"
Emily. – "What?!"
Alison chuckled and blushed as she remembered. – "I still feel so happy remembering that day that you appeared in front of my house, with my letter in your hands; you came back for me mermaid, you gave me a chance to love you… you came and never left…" (Big smile) "And here we are… with three beautiful kids… I couldn't ask for more…"
Emily chuckled with sadness. – "Yeah… me too…." (Gulps) "We really have it all… right?"
Alison nodded. – "Yeah… and I would not change it for nothing in the world…"
Emily hugged Alison very tight and said. – "Me neither… I choose us… I do… I really do…"
Alison smiled and hugged her back; they continued hugging and they didn't break the hug for several minutes, as Emily was really scared, scared of breaking the hug, of letting her go from her arms and maybe lose her forever because the brunette finally figured it out, what she just let go, what she just ignored, what she just let seal all these years… her happily ever after… and Emily cried in silence, hugging her wife, realizing that the 'glimpse' it just showed her what could have been her life if she just had the courage, the kindness of reading the letters when Alison just sent them.
That same afternoon, Emily was on the garage, looking for rock salt for the car and the snow; she was looking for the bag, trying to remember where she put it and then she completely froze, she stopped moving as she heard it… the sounds of the bicycles bells… ringing, echoing through her ears… a shudder passes through her body and as she turned around, she noticed her girls at the open garage door, sitting on their bikes, ringing the bells…
Emily gulped. – "What are you doing?"
The girls. – "Ringing our bells…"
Emily gulped and she could feel it... she was anxious, terrifying of the meaning of it. As she didn't find the salt, she went to the closer convenience store and when she got out of the store, she jumped of surprise as she saw the little nerd there…
Emily. – "You! What are you doing here?!" (She yelled) "You're not sending me back!"
The nerd smirked. – "It's nice to see you too Emmy…" (He looked at the bag of salt and smiled) "Look at you… all domestic… you really figured some things out… huh?"
Emily gulped and gripped on the bag of salt. – "I'm not going back… this is my home… I belong here…" (She raised her voice and said) "I'm not going back! Do you understand me!"
The nerd looked at her with compassion and Emily just started crying as she understood why he was there, why she heard the ringing bells before…
Emily cried. – "You can't do this! You can't keep coming in and out of people's lives and messing things up!" (Sighs of frustration) "I've kids! A wife! A family that loves me and that I love! You can't take that from me! You can't!"
The nerd. – "You know what the word 'glimpse' means right Emmy? It's by nature, an impermanent thing…"
Emily approached to him and she pointed him with her finger on his chest as she said with a lot of determination. – "I'm going home… with my kids and my wife… and I'm staying with them… because I choose them…"
The brunette walked away and left him behind; the little nerd followed her with his eyes and with a proud look… as soon as Emily left of his sight, the little kid transformed himself, showing his real appearance…
Wayne. – "Yes you're… you're going home Emmy… and I really wish you will make it work… let's hope it's not too late…" (A tear) "I love you Emmy… I did this for you… I'm always watching over you and I will never stop doing it…"
Wayne started to walk in the opposite direction of the brunette and he just vanished…
Once back on the house, Emily just put the kids on bed; she told them a bedtime story and they fell sleep; Emily slowly put Josh on his crib and as she caressed his red cheeks, she gently kissed them and then walked towards the room of her girls; she was standing there, looking at them and one of them woke up, feeling the gaze of the brunette…
Ellie, stirring, groggy. – "Mom… is it morning yet?"
Emily approached and sat beside her into her bed and said. – "No honey, it's not… go back to sleep ok…"
The little girl did as instructed and closed her eyes again; Emily looked at her and sadness was reflected all over her face as she put a soft kiss on her sleepy girls. Finally, she turned to her bedroom, where she found her wife, already on bed, under the sheets, wearing old fashion glasses as she was reading a book: Alison put them off her face as she noticed the brunette walking in and sat on bed, in front of her…
Emily said with watery-eyes. – "Ali… I need you to remember me… how I'm right now, what we've… this right moment… I need you to put all our memories of the last weeks in your heart and keep them with you no matter what ok…"
Alison. – "Are you ok Em? What are you talking about?"
Emily. – "Please, just promise me you'll do that… you've to promise me… please Ali…" (Tears) "Because if you don't, then it's like it never happened and I don't think that I could live with that…"
Alison looked confused but looking at how heartbroken Emily was in that moment, she just hugged her wife and then clear the tears of Emily's face as she put a soft kiss on her lips; Emily weakly smiled with the kiss…
Alison said as she was caressing Emily's cheek. – "I promise, mermaid…"
Emily gripped on Alison's hand and asked. – "Promise me again…"
Alison. – "I promise…" (Kiss) "Now, come to bed ok…"
Emily nodded and stood up, heading towards the dresser. The brunette lifts the covers and climbs into the bed next to Alison; moving closer to her, putting an arm around the blond, drawing her in… Alison fell asleep on the arms of Emily as the brunette was refusing on closing her eyes, afraid of what could happen if she just fell sleep; Alison nestled in Emily's embrace and Emily smiled, savors the feeling of having her so close, so lovely close to her and how they lay there… side by side… together as one… without wanted it, Emily closed her eyes and fell asleep…
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Emily opened her eyes when she heard the ring bell of a door: she jumped on the bed and looked sad really sad as she realised that she was back, back to her penthouse in LA; all was a dream, a fucking dream that just mess with her heart, that played with her emotions, that was what Emily was thinking…
Emily. – "A dream… just a fucking dream… nothing was real! Nothing!"
A 'glimpse', what a joke, Emily thought, she was really upset, mad but mostly heartbroken of what she had, what she felt and the just memory of that 'glimpse' just produced tears on her: she was trying to control her tears but it was in vain, they didn't stop.
With snobs and red eyes, she opened the door and she signed to the mail men that brought her some packages: she recognized one of the boxes, by the logo on the box, it was the gift that she brought for her mom; she put it under the tree and she was going to do the same with the other box, but when she noticed that there was no label or indication of origin; she just thought that it will be better to open it…
Emily opened the mysterious box and gasps of surprise let out her mouth; she smiled as she grabbed what was inside; it was the snow globe of Alison, no longer broken, it was just like new and the letters of Alison, all of them; Emily didn't hesitate anymore and she opened them, one by one, she read them and she cried as she did because, in each letter, she could feel how Alison was really doing an effort, opening to her, expressing her feelings.
Emily was sat on the floor, close to the Christmas tree, reading the letters and then when she reached to the last letter, she stood up, her jaw dropped open as she was reading the last letter of Alison, the same letter that the blonde read for her in the 'glimpse', in the dream that she just had…
Emily. – "It can't be… It can't… it was a dream… nothing was real…" (Sighs) "But… if it was a dream… if it wasn't real… then how it's that I dreamed this exact letter?! I never read it before… I didn't know… so how it's possible that this letter, this same letter appeared in my dream?!"
And that's the moment when it hit her, that's the moment when Emily finally figured it out that she didn't had it all, that she was far to have it all... but the hell she was going to kill her ass on getting it. Emily finally found the courage, the determination to do what she should have done a long time ago… she ran out of her penthouse, with just one goal: find Alison, find her love, find the blonde and get her back, get her family, her perfect life… Emily went on her search for Alison, hopping, wishing, that it was still possible to make it into the dream that she just had one night of december…
Hi, so that was 'the dream' the goal for Emily is got back into the dream, to make it a reality…
Next part, we will see the side of Alison and found out what happen with her over the years
So what do you think happened with the blonde? Do you think that she's waiting for Emily? That she will receive her with open arms? Or that maybe, it's too late for the brunette?