Hi, so happy knowing that you are liking this emison mini story :D ! Sorry for not update sooner as I promised but a lot of work came in a rush ^^… anyway, like I told you before, this 4th part of the story will be central on Alison; so recap: in 2005 the girls left Rosewood, Alison stood in town for Charlotte, then in 2006 the girls broke all communications with the blonde, Alison just tried to keep in contact with Emily, sending her letters, she wrote her a love letter but without a reply she just stopped trying to reach Emily. Two years apart and in 2008, Wayne died and in his funeral, that was the last time that both girls saw each other. So keep that in mind for this chapter ok…
Enjoy ^^ and as always any review is welcome ^^ thanks!
Into the dream – Part IV
(Christmas's eve, 2012 NY)
It was a cold night in NY; all the families were getting reunited in their homes in order to celebrate the holidays, just being grateful for all the good and the bad; yes, even the bad because at the end the only that matters it was that they had each other.
It should be a holiday to cherish, to celebrate with friends and family but... what to do when you don't have any of that? What to do in a day like this when you don't find any reason to be grateful or to celebrate? When you find yourself alone? Without family or friends around you... without love or even worse, remembering what love was, what it felt, how much you liked it, how much you enjoyed it and how ephemeral it was... how easy it went away... leaving you behind... leaving you completely empty and crushed...
They said that you can't live without knowing what real love is, that even once, you should have felt it... yes, that it would be the advice from most of the people in this world... from all at exception of one particular blonde that was sitting in a bar, alone, drinking without stop, with a huge sorrow written into her face, in that face with red eyes for so much crying, that face that was a complete mess… yes, this particular blonde would never advice you to chase love, to try it, to really let it in your life... because she had done it... more than once... she had felt it, she had really let it in twice and both times, she just ended crushed, devastated… with nothing else than just a huge sorrow and emptiness that not even the best tequila in the world could fix...
Yes, Alison DiLaurentis, the Queen Bee... she would never encourage anyone to look for love... not if you want to end like her... drinking alone, in a bar, in xmas's eve… with the only company of one bottle of tequila at your side... just trying to forget, to don't feel... just trying to drown away that kind of pain that just destroy your soul...
You might wonder how it's that our Queen Bee ended like that... in that bar... alone... drowning her sorrow on alcohol... well... I can tell you how... I can tell you why... but are you sure you wanna know? Are you ready for it? Because ones you know, you can't unknown it... Ok then, I will tell you but for that, let's back on time...
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(Rosewood, 2008)
After seeing Emily in the funeral, Alison drove herself towards the mental institute where Cece was staying. As she was driving, she just groaned of disgusting at the memory of seeing Paige's lips all over the face of Emily, it was disgusting for her but even worse, it was heartbreaking; yes, once again, she felt pain in her chest and once again it was because of one particular brunette.
Since 2006, after not receiving any reply from the brunette; Alison had been trying really hard to rip Emily from her heart; she had done everything in her power to do it... redecorating her house, especially her room... throwing away each photo, each piece of clothes, of furniture that could reminder her Emily.
Alison had done all that she could for the last 2 years but nothing had worked because Emily was still present in her heart, popping up into her mind like some kind of constant reminder... a reminder that was telling her that 'she was the one', that she was 'her happy ending'... her charming killer who would run to her rescue, to her no matter what... Alison sighed hard everything that reminder popped up in her mind, because for her it was just a big lie, a fantasy that would never happen because Emily left, the brunette cut her out without saying good bye or telling her why... Emily excluded Alison from her life like some kind of a leper and that rejection just crushed the blonde more of what she will ever admit and that's why her sweet Emily just became bitter as the time came by…
After a long ride, Alison arrived to the mental hospital, it was an unexpected visit but it was more unexpected what her eyes caught by accident... Alison caught Cece making out with Dr. Rollins but that wasn't what really shocked her, what really shocked her, what really hurt her, it was what she heard… her 'supposed big sis' plotting with Rollins, a scheme in which Alison's heart would be used as some kind of toy; the plan was simple actually, Rollins would pretend to love Alison and then once he had Alison's heart on his hands, he would use it as his please, he would convince Alison to sign documents in order to take away everything from her and he would use her too in order to get Cece out…
Alison hided and kept her mouth quiet as she listen each sentence, each word of the two lovers, plotting on use her as a doll once again and after hearing their entire conversation, Alison couldn't do anything else besides running away…
The blonde got into her car and started driving without direction; she just drove and accelerated as tears were blurring her beautiful blue eyes and as she was feeling so overwhelmed by all, she just started laughing, shutting mocking laughs, Alison laughed about herself, she mocked of how cruel was the world, of how stupid & naïve she was…
Alison yelled as she was driving. – "Ha-ha! Really Alison! Could you be more stupid?! Did you really believe that Cece loved you?! That she cared about you?!" (Breaking voice) "That anyone could care about you?" (Tears and breaking voice) "No one cares… no one loves you… no one…" (Tears) "Why?! Why God?! Why fate?! WHY?!" (Breaking voice) "Why should I continue with it…?" (She started accelerating) "Why don't just make it stop?" (She accelerated even more) "Why should I still trying to make it better…? To be better if no one cares… everybody hates me so why don't just stop it… just ended it… once and for all…" (Sighs and tears) "I just want it to stop…"
Alison continued driving fast, she took off her belt seat as she was determined to do the unthinkable, to cut the crap, once and for all, to send all to hell and herself in between… but all her will of ending her life, it just flew away from her mind as soon as she saw at the distance a crashed car in the middle of the road; the car was flipped out but there was definitely someone inside and Alison was a lot of things, a liar, a manipulative Queen Bee, a pretentious arrogant girl, a heartless Diva… yes, she was a lot of things but never a cold blood killer… so she just decreased her speed in order to avoid any kind of collision with the car and then, she just parked close to the crashed car.
She wasn't sure of what it came to her in that moment; she just left her own body moved by itself and before knowing, Alison was already helping the injured that was inside the crashed car; she called 911 and then she just crawled inside the car in order to help the person inside…
Alison. – "You need to calm down… please stop moving, I'm trying to get you out from here but I can't do it if you continue moving like that…"
The exalted girl said. – "Oh GOD! Did I kill the deer?! Oh GOD, I'm a monster, I'm a murderer!"
Alison. – "I don't see any deer… so please relax and stop moving…" (Sighs) "Really… a deer? You put your life in danger just to save a deer?!" (Mocking little laughs)
The exalted girl said. – "No, no, no… I'm bad… I'm a monster… I…"
Alison sighed. – "Stop it ok! Look, you're just in shock and your emotions are heightened right now but you need to calm down… and stop caring about that fucking deer!"
The words of Alison weren't reaching to the other girl, that was also a blonde; Alison got no other choice than cupped the face of the injured blonde with her hands and shook it in order to put a little of sense on her; the girl just wildly opened bigger her eyes and locked her look on the ocean eyes of Alison.
Alison. – "Look at me! Just look at me! Look at my face and breath!" (Exhales) "Just like that… see… it's not hard and it will help you to calm down… come on… just breath… deep…"
The injured blonde calmed down as she mimicked the breathing exercise of Alison.
Alison. – "You need to stay calm… you're gonna get through it… you're strong… you need to tell yourself that ok… that you're gonna get through this…"
The injured just shook her head, trying to say 'no' with her head and showing huge terror on her eyes; Alison just caressed her cheek in order to give her any kind of comfort…
Alison. – "Don't think 'no'… think 'yes'… yes you're gonna get through this… no matter how bad it may feel right now; no matter how much you want to just give yourself over, you've to fight it off, yes you have to!"
The injured blonde asked with tears on her face. – "Why?"
Alison froze with the question 'Why?' Just a few minutes ago, she was going to throw the towel, to end her life… so, was she really the best person to say anything at all? How could she found the perfect inspirational speech to keep another person alive? How could she convince another person to grip on life when she couldn't convince herself to do it? How?!
Alison. – "Why?! Well…" (Deep breath) "Because the pain that you're feeling, it only can heal by living… you've to keep on living… it's that the only way, the only way…"
Alison continued repeating over and over her words, she wasn't sure who she was trying to convince, the injured or herself… Alison zoned out for a moment as she was repeating her advice on her head; she just came back to reality when she felt the hand of the girl just gripped Alison's hand. Alison turned in her direction and smiled as she noticed that the girl just smiled to her too; the injured squeezed Alison's hand and Alison just brushed the messy hair from the girl's face as she asked…
Alison. – "What is your name?"
The girl said with an unsteady voice. – "I-I-I'm…. Sam… Samara Cook…"
Alison smiled and squeezed Samara's hand between her hands and put Samara's hand close to her face; Samara smiled as she felt her cold hand getting warm by the human contact of her blonde savior…
Alison. – "Ok Samara, calm down, I called 911 so the help is in its way so just hold on ok… but I think that I should get you out of here…"
Samara. – "I'm scared…"
Alison. – "I know… me too… but don't worry; I will not let anything happen to you… you will be ok…"
Samara. – "You promise?"
Alison nodded. – "Yes… I promise…"
Samara smiled again and both girls were looking at each other when…
Samara. – "What is that smell?!
Alison took a deep breath and smelled it too; it was gasoline… Alison crawled quickly out of the car and with big eyes, she noticed how sparks were starting to appear in the car… she wasn't a genius on chemistry but it was obvious what was going to happen when the sparks and the gasoline would mix… Alison crawled again inside the car and started to struggle with the belt seat of the girl.
Samara. – "A lot of gasoline is gushing… it's dangerous… don't risk your life and just let me here and run away from here…"
Alison. – "No…"
Samara. – "Don't you get it?! You can die! Please… I don't want any bad happening to you because of me…"
Alison didn't put attention into Samara's words; she was determined to save her no matter what… Sirens were heard in the distance when a big explosion was heard too and then just silence filled the scene… The paramedics ran fast towards the car in fire and they were thinking the worse until they heard the voice of Alison calling them from the edge of the road.
That night, no one died and as the injured blonde didn't stop thanking Alison for the help, for being her savior, Alison smiled, feeling something warm on her chest as she heard all the recognition from the girl and the paramedics… They didn't know but Samara wasn't the only one getting rescued that night, Alison was too… she got rescued from herself, just by giving her a little of kindness and recognition, just enough to push her on following her own advice and grip on life, keep living because the world wasn't ready to exist without Alison DiLaurentis in it…
(2010, in a big building in NY)
Assistant. - "Ma'am please you can't come in just like that!"
Alison huffed annoyed by the noise coming from the hallway; it looked like there was a commotion in front of her office; normally she should show up and said something, after all she was the boss; yes, the blonde became a successful business woman; without emotional attachment to anyone or anything, it became natural on her to be a cold blood woman.
Money and power became the best friends of this blonde and God! She was good on making both. It was surprising how far she had made it just after 2 years of work. Without Jason in the picture, Alison took over the family business and in just 2 years, she had made it in an empire that could impress anyone... she moved her head office to the big apple, NY… And Alison was typing on her laptop when someone entered into her office without permission...
Assistant. - "Ma'am you can't get in just like that!"
Alison looked up and saw who was the person that was making the commotion; she just laughed with a mocking tone...
Alison smirked. - "Well, what do we've here... you really have balls after all..." (She waved her hand to her assistant and said to her) "You can leave; looks like you're useless after all so clean your desk..."
Assistant begged. - "But boss! I tried to stop her..."
Alison. - "And you failed so if you aren't able to do even that... you're not worthy to work for me..."
The assistant felt offended and she just left slamming the door at the end…
Alison huffed. - "Immature...' (She turned her head towards the other woman that was in front of her and said with a big smirk on her face) "So 'auntie', what is the reason of your visit?"
Mary yelled. - "Who do you think you're?! How could you?!"
Alison. - " How could I?! How could you be so damn stupid?!" (Smirks) "Tell me something it was all idea of Cece or yours? Did you really believe that l would ever fall for someone like Elliot… a loser like him! Oh sorry his real name is Archer right?! Please I'm so out of his league..."
Mary gulped as she was finding out that Alison knew the real name of Dr. Rollins and her pale look just made Alison's smirk bigger…
Alison. – "Are you really shocked?! Damn… I'm really a good actress after all…" (Smirks) "I should receive some kind of award by my performance of these last 2 years don't you think?! I mean, after all, I played –A like my fucking doll…" (Big smirk)
Mary. – "So you planned it all?! From the beginning?! It's your fault that Cece ended dead!"
Alison stood up and yelled to Mary with a lethal look. – "I didn't kill her! I just played around, making them believe that I was in their hands and they didn't notice it until it was too late, when I had all the evidence in my hands about their plot against me… they tried to run away as cowards when the cops were close and it's not my fault that they killed themselves on the road by doing it…"
Mary. – "My kid is dead because of you! You didn't give her another choice besides running away! She only wanted to be free!"
Alison said with a bitter voice. – "Yeah… free at expenses of me! Well, she should have known better! No one mess with me! NO ONE!"
They discussed for a while and then Mary noticed that she had no chance to intimate the heartless blonde that was in front of her so she ended giving up and just leaving. The dead of Cece didn't affect Alison at all, some tabloids tried to use the news to stain Alison's reputation but because Alison didn't put attention to them and she continued doing her job as nothing had happen, the scandalous news didn't go further and soon everything was like Cece never existed in the 1st place…
Alison was making the interviews for her new assistant; during the last 2 years, there had been no assistant that could handle the temperamental blonde for more than a month; yes the records of Alison on keeping an assistant was that, just a month; the assistants just came in and left and as they did, the reputation of Alison as a heartless girl just increased. Being called 'Ice Queen' or "Heartless Boss' didn't bother the blonde, in the contrary, she felt proud of it; after all, she had finally got it, being free of any kind of attachment or feeling for anyone… Alison was planning to live her life simple, without complications; just focusing on her and only her, yes that was the plan but you should know that life's never as we plan it, it surprise you when you least expect it…
Alison was biting a pen as she was reading some curriculums, she didn't notice when her next appointment came in, until the girl started to talk…
Samara smiled. – "I'm so happy to see you again…"
Alison didn't recognize the voice; she just looked up and raised an eye brow as she was trying to recognize the blonde that was in front of her, talking to her so casual…
Samara chuckled. – "You don't recognize me, don't you?"
Alison smirked. – "Why would I?!"
Samara. – "Well, I was hoping it… after all; I have never forgotten you…"
Alison smirked. – "Well, I can't blame you; I'm unforgettable after all…" (Big smirk)
Samara nodded with warm eyes. – "Yes you're…"
Alison's smirk fainted of her face as she felt the warm look of the girl on her; Alison stared to the girl, and she made Samara blushed. Alison didn't recognized her but she definitely felt something weird, some kind of connection that she couldn't understand so after a lot of thinking and looking to all the curriculums, Alison hired Samara as her new assistant.
Time came by and for surprise of everyone, Samara broke the record of all the previous assistants; month by month, the rest of the staff made bets on when Alison would fire the other blonde or when Samara would break and decide to leave but for shock of everyone, that never happen.
For the 1st time in years, Alison found some kind of support in someone else; she wasn't an easy boss, she had really bad temper and she constantly snapped on Samara when someone else made her mad but no matter how hard, how rough she was towards her assistant; the girl never complaint neither leave, she just continued showing up, each morning, with a big smile, just always smiling to Alison and looking at her with warm eyes and that constant affection just made Alison to feel uneasy because feeling that kind of loyalty and kindness… it was new for her and terrifying… One night, both girls stood until late working on the office…
Alison. – "You can leave if you want…"
Samara. – "I'm not leaving you alone with all this work… besides, I really love expending my nights with you" (She blushed when she realized what she just said) "I mean… working at night! I…"
Alison just laughed, amused of how red Samara was and how hard she was trying to fix her words… Alison chuckled each time that Samara did that kind of stuff, she found it adorable…
Alison. – "You know… by staying here, you will just increase my reputation of 'heartless boss'…"
Samara. – "You're not heartless…"
Alison laughed with a sarcastic tone. – "Yes I'm…"
Samara approached and she took Alison's hand on her own, Alison looked confused with the closeness and Samara just chuckled as she noticed the confused look on Alison, she chuckled because she found it adorable…
Samara said as she put Alison's hand and her hand all over Alison's chest. – "Can you hear that? Can you feel that? You do have a beating heart so you're definitely not heartless…"
They were very close and for some reason Alison glued her eyes on Samara, she felt definitely something as she looked at the other girl and Alison scared of what feelings was producing the girl on her, she just pushed Samara away…
Alison. – "it's really late, we will end it tomorrow…"
Alison walked away and left the office; she stood in the parking of her building for a while as she was trying to erase from her face the blush that Samara's touch provoked; once she felt more calmed down, she just got out of the parking from her building and from the inside of her car, she noticed that the girl was on the bus stop; Alison didn't saw any bus so she just gave her a ride to her home. Alison drove Samara to her house and when they were in front of the door of Samara's house…
Samara. – "Would you like to come in? Maybe eat something?"
Alison was going to reply but she got interrupted when Samara's mom opened the door…
Ms. Cook. – "OMG! You're here! You're really here!" (She turned her head towards the inside of the house) "Richard! Come in! She's here!"
Samara blushed. – "Mom! You're embarrassing me…"
Alison looked confused and she got more confused when a big man just came out and hugged her with a lot of affection…
Samara blushed. – "Dad!"
Mr. Cook said as he was hugging Alison. – "Thank you so much! Thank you! I always wanted to say it in person and finally I have the chance to do it…" (Big warm smile) "Thank you so much for saving my baby girl…"
It was in that moment that it hit her; Alison finally remembered Samara, the blonde that she just saved one night, the girl that got in her path and made her change her mind on throwing the towel, on giving up. Alison was still in shock because of the unexpected revelation and before knowing she was already inside the house of the Cooks. They had a lovely familiar diner, something that Alison has never had before but she would lie if she says that she didn't love it. The Cooks already knew a lot about Alison since it looked like Alison was the only topic that Samara had been talking around for the past weeks; Samara just blushed as her parents where revealing how much she talked in home about her savior boss and Alison just chuckled, amused by the other girl blush…
The next morning, Alison didn't show up for work; she sent an e-mail, reporting herself sick. After a lovely night with the Cooks, Alison was definitely not ok, she was conflicted with herself, with the feelings that were waking up in her; she was just on her apartment when someone showed up in front of her door…
Alison said as she opened her door. – "What are you doing here?!"
Samara smiled as she showed up a plastic bag between her hands. – "I brought you some medicine, soup, your favorite magazine of Vogue, also some movies, if you want to do a movie night…"
Alison. – "I don't do that… movie nights… I don't do that…"
Samara. – "Oh well…" (She tried to get in but Alison put her arm in her way and seeing the defensive action of Alison, she just made a step back) "Can I come in? At least let me warm up the soup for you…"
Alison. – "I don't let people in…"
Samara. – "Yeah… I can see that…" (She grabbed Alison's hand and put on her hand the plastic bag that she just brought for her and then she took Alison for surprise when she cupped Alison's cheeks with her hands and forced her to look at her into the eyes as she said) "I can see that you don't let people in; that you have put huge walls around you in order to avoid anyone to get close to you but that's not reason enough for me to stop trying… I will not stop trying… I'm gonna do everything in my power to prove you that I'm worthy to get in…"
After saying those words, Samara left a speechless Alison... yes Alison was speechless because for the 1st time in years, she found someone trying to get in… to get in her heart and she found it really difficult to just completely trust someone and let someone in; it was really hard to get the walls down but as time came by and with kindness and affection; Samara just made the impossible, she became the 1st person in years that Alison didn't see as a threat, the 1st person in years that had produced some kind of warm feeling inside Alison, and before knowing, Samara got in Alison's heart, without warning, without asking permission, she just got in and even if it was terrifying, Alison let her, she let her in and she let the butterflies flew free on her stomach…
(Christmas's party, 2010)
It was a good year for the company and Alison surprised everyone with a huge Christmas party and with a big Christmas bonus for all; the employees were so happy, they never believed that the 'heartless boss' cared a thing for them but it was nice to see this new face of their boss; it was like something was changing on the blonde and it was…
Alison was surrounded by people, people saying thank you, hugging her for the bonus and the party, she was shaking hands and smiling to everyone and then, her look just got glued to a blonde girl that just appeared on her sight; Alison smiled as she saw from the distance how beautiful Samara was looking with a white dress that she bought for her…
A lot of guys were around Samara, trying to hit on her and even if Samara was declining their invitation to dance, they didn't walk away until Alison arrived; the blonde just glanced at them with a lethal look and then took Samara's hand on her own and dragged her out towards the dance floor…
Alison. – "You're dancing with me…"
Samara didn't say anything, she just nodded and blushed, trying to hide her big smile but she couldn't… she was extremely happy by holding the hand of her savior… they started dancing and as they did, they just locked their look into each other… with their eyes glued on themselves; they started talking…
Alison. – "I see that you found a nice dress…"
Samara blushed and chuckled. – "Magically, I found it in front of my door" (She hugged Alison's neck with her arms) "Do you've any idea of who could have put it in there…?"
Alison smirked. – "Who knows… maybe it was a xmas miracle…"
(Chuckles)
Samara. – "It was really sweet from you to give us that big xmas bonus…"
Alison. – "It's weird for me to show up kindness and that's because of y-…"
Samara asked as she noticed that the words didn't come out from Alison's mouth. – "Because of…?"
Alison changed the topic of the talk. – "Did you read the book that I lent you?"
Samara nodded. – "Yeah, I'm still reading it… I haven't finished it…"
Alison. – "And… what do you think about it until now?"
Samara. – "Well, I like it a lot, I like how conflicted is the hero of the story… how he feels everything so deeply… I must admit that I had let out more than a tear when I read it…"
Alison. – "Really… why?"
Samara. – "Well, right now I'm in the part that he's trying to move on from his 1st love, but he's really struggling with it, every time that it looks like he has moved on, there is this part on him that just can't seem to shake her from his heart…"
Alison. – "It's normal, they were in love; she was his 1st love… that doesn't go away just because he declares that he's moving on…"
Samara. – "Oh… so how is he going to move on then?"
Alison smirked. – "I'm not spoiling you the ending…"
Samara. – "Please, just give me at least a tiny sneak peek of what it will come…" (Puppy eyes) "Please?!"
Alison chuckled. – "Ok..." (She made Samara turned and then she put her closed to her and both girls were so close that they could feel the breath and the beating hearts of each other) "Well, someday, he will meet someone new and then he will just fall madly in love and he'll have moved on not even realizing it…"
Samara. – "Can that really happen? I mean, we're talking about his 1st love… the one… his soulmate…"
Alison. – "Well, I think that she was and she will always be the epic love but contrary to popular belief, I'm starting to think that there are actually multiple ones…" (Smile) "But the only way to find another is to let go, move on and give it a chance to the new…"
Samara. – "Do you really mean that?"
Alison didn't reply, she just leaned on Samara's face and kissed her in the lips…
(NY, 2011)
Alison was happily opening her eyes when she felt the sunshine coming inside her apartment; her smile got bigger when she noticed that once again she was using Samara's chest as her pillow… it was surprising how happy, how incredible happy Alison had been feeling over the last months; since she decided to let Samara in, Alison has been finally getting love, happiness and all kind of feeling that just produce happy thoughts on her head. It had been months since they became officially together and even if Alison hadn't found the courage to say 'I love you'; Samara was a patient girl and she knew that eventually, Alison would be able to say it… she just needed to wait and be patient…
Alison rubbed her cheek on Samara's chest and said. – "Thump… thump… thump… that's a good sound… I like how your heart sounds…"
Samara chuckled and hugged Alison tighter against her own body… as they were in bed; they just stood there for a while, hugging each other and just enjoying their company, loving each minute of it…
Alison said as she intertwined their fingers. – "I feel amazing…."
Samara chuckled. – "Me too…" (They looked at each other and she leaned for a kiss and then she said) "I love you… I love you Alison…" (Kiss) "I love you and you're my everything…"
Alison smiled. – "You're my everything too…" (She caressed Samara's cheek and said as she looked her into the eyes) "I… I will be able to say it one day..."
Samara chuckled. – "I know…" (She leaned their front-head together and caressed Alison's cheek as she whispered to her girlfriend) "I know that Emily was your 1st love, your epic love… but I'm planning to be your last one… so… take all the time you need, I'm not going anywhere…"
Alison smiled and she just kissed her, she kissed her deeply, with a lot of love; yes, Alison hadn't been able to say the 3 words & 8 letters but she had definitely showed up how important Samara was for her and how deeply she was falling for her….
Samara chuckled. – "I'm pleasantly numb after that kiss…"
Alison chuckled. – "Well, maybe you need another thing to stay awake…"
(Kisses and chuckles)
Alison stared at her beautiful blonde girlfriend and smiled. – "This is the 1st time I've ever really felt this way…"
Samara. – "What way?"
Alison smiled. – "Just like I've always wanted to… like a normal girl… falling asleep in the arms of her special one…" (Smiles) "It's just perfect…"
After a lovely morning; they went to work; Samara was still her assistant and it was lovely and cute how they worked together; it was like some kind of a dream, a happy dream for Alison… a dream that she didn't want to wake up, like never…
Samara's birthday was approaching and Alison was planning a huge surprise for her; with the help of Ms. Cook, she just choose the perfect diamond ring for her… yes, Alison was thinking on proposing on her birthday, everything would be perfect… a lovely dinner with the Cooks and then, Alison would propose and finally said to her the 3 words and 8 letter that Samara has been craving to hear from the lips of Alison… yes, everything was supposed to be perfect, like some kind of fairy tale… the girl, getting her happy ending with her savior; yes… everything was supposed to be just perfect… but nothing is perfect… and just as unexpected was to find love again, just as quick it came into the life of Alison, breaking all her walls, well, just as well it came by, it also went away…
On Samara's birthday, they were going to have diner in a nice new restaurant that was on the outside of NY; Alison was happily driving the birthday girl towards the restaurant at night…
Alison smiled and said as she turned her look in direction of Samara. – "Yeah… this time it will be different, this time I will definitely get the girl…"
Samara wasn't sure of what she was trying to say or what was the reason of the huge smile on Alison's face, she was going to say something but her thoughts got interrupted when she saw a deer crossing into the road…
Samara screamed. – "Alison! Watch out!"
And that was it, that was the last thing, the last sentence, the last words that Alison heard from the girl that was supposed to be her last love, her happy ending, her wife… after the accident, Alison was in shock, in completely deny; she couldn't believe how cruel was the world with her, how cruel was to just find love again, to let it in and then just without warning, without asking permission, just ripped it out from her heart… yes it was cruel, it was heartless, it was awful…
With a plastered arm and dragging her IV line with her; Alison got inside of the hospital room where her lovely girl was lying down; she just gulped hard as she saw Samara with the ventilator on her mouth, with all the artificial support that was keeping her alive. With tears on her face, Alison just sat on Samara's bed for several minutes in silence…. Just contemplating her… until she found some courage to talk…
Alison said with breaking voice as she gripped on the hand of Samara. – "Hey… I know that I haven't been easy on you but you need to wake up… you have to…" (Tears) "I understand that you might need time to heal… so like you said to me once… take all the time you need, I'm not going anywhere… I will wait… I will… and when you're ready to wake up… I will be here…"
(Christmas's season, 2012)
For more over a year, Alison had been expending each day in the hospital; just holding Samara's hand, talking to the sleepy girl and just waiting… waiting for some kind of miracle… just waiting to get the chance to heard the sweet voice of that sleepy blonde… The Cooks had been kind with Alison, don't ripping her out of her bubble but they knew as well as everyone else in that hospital that Samara will never wake up, that she had been brain dead for so long and that it was time to just let her go…
Ms. Cook. - "Please Alison! You need to understand!"
Alison yelled. - "Do you know what you're trying to do?! You're killing your daughter!"
Ms. Cook. - "She's been gone for months Alison… we need to let her go... please Alison... I'm begging you... let her go... let her rest in peace..."
Alison gulped hard and said with watery-eyes. - "She's not dead..."
Ms. Cook. - "She's brain dead..."
Alison shook her head with tears. – "No no no... she's breathing!"
Ms. Cook. – "It's the ventilator Alison..."
Alison said with breaking voice. – "No! She can wake up... she will..."
Ms. Cook. – "Alison..."
Alison kneeled in front of the woman and begged with breaking voice and tears. – "Please, she will wake up! She will! Please! Don't disconnect her..." (Tears) "Please! She's all I have... she's my heart... I can't... I... I… I never had the chance to say her that I love her…" (Tears) "I was planning to marry her…" (Tears) "Please! Don't ask me to let go my only reason to live... please... I don't want to be alone again…"
Ms. Cook felt crushed by the heartbreaking blonde that was kneeled in front of her; she just kneeled too and hugged the girl tight… as tight as she could….
Ms. Cook. – "Alison you're not alone... even if Samara it's no longer with us... you will always have us... you're like a daughter for me... for Richard and me..." (She cleared the tears of Alison's face) "Alison, this is also hard for us but it's the right thing to do…" (Deep breath) "She need to rest in peace… so we need to let her go…" (She put a soft kiss on Alison's front-head and then said) "We're going to disconnect her this afternoon… take all the time you need to say your good-byes to her…"
And just with that, the deadline was fixed and even if it was painful to accept it, Alison needed to face the truth, the truth that once again love was going to leave her alone… with all the sorrow that she was feeling, she found the enough strength to walk inside Samara's room for one last time…
Alison sat in Samara's bed, she caressed her face, she touched each cm of her face and as hers fingers were mapping Samara's face, just tears started to drop from Alison's eyes…
Alison said with heartbreaking voice. – "I love you… I really do… I love you and I regret so much don't telling you that before…" (Sad chuckles) "How silly is to say it now right?!" (Deep breath) "There is a confession that I need to tell you… you were wrong all this time… thinking that I was the one that saved you… you were wrong… you're wrong because you're the savior… you're the one that saved me… you saved me… you crossed into my path and stopped me on throwing the towel…" (Chuckles) "You saved me and you changed my life… you were at my side when I needed a friend, you made me laugh, you made me smile… you showed me that I wasn't heartless, that I was able to love again…" (Tears) "So thank you… thank you for saving me... thank you for loving me... thank you for letting me love you... thank you for letting me feel love again... and even if I didn't tell you... I really, really hope that you knew... that you know… that I love you too..." (Tears)
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(Christmas's eve, 2012 NY)
So that's why, that's how, our Queen Bee ended in a bar, drowning her sorrow on alcohol, because once again, she was alone, just feeling heartbreaking again as love just left her again… without saying why, without saying her good-bye…
After a lot of drinking, Alison left the bar and started to walk in the middle of the cold night… she was walking with a blurry vision, she was definitely more than wasted and as she looked up to the moon, her hand got inside the pocket of her coat and then she took out the little box that she had been caring the entire year… she opened the box and a weak sad smile appeared into her face as her eyes stood glued to the diamond ring that she was supposed to give to her dead girlfriend…
The private silent moment of the girl just got interrupted when she heard something coming from a lonely alleyway; she approached and saw some teenage boys arousing and trying to rob an old woman; Alison tried to help and in the middle of the struggle, her ring box dropped out into the floor and one of the boys tried to get it…
Alison yelled. – "NO! That's mine!"
She wasn't going to let go the ring and she didn't, not even after feeling the stab in her abdomen; the sharp cold knife got inside of the blonde and as soon as the girl showed blood coming out from her, the boys ran away as cowards; the blonde just fell on the cold snowing ground and the snow around her, just started to become red…
The old woman said. – "Oh God! I'm going to look for help… hold on…"
The woman left from Alison's sight and it started to become really hard to keep the eyes opened; Alison looked down to herself and she just chuckled as she saw the deep wound on her body; she was putting pressure at first but then she just pull away her hand, letting the blood just flow… without stop…
Once again, the blonde was deciding to throw the towel, to give up on life… but once again, life would surprise her…
The old woman found a girl on the street and that brunette girl just approached in order to help the blooding blonde…
The brunette screamed. – "Oh my GOD! Ali?! Alison!"
Alison was over the point to past out and the other girl just took off her jacket and put pressure on Alison's wound and continued talking in order to keep Alison awake…
The brunette. – "Ali! Please! Hold on! Hold on!"
The blonde wasn't sure of what she was hearing; she couldn't believe what her blurry eyes were watching….
Alison mumbled. – "Emily?"
Emily smiled as she noticed that the blonde recognized, even after 6 years, Alison recognized her and that just gave hope to Emily, hope that just started to vanish when Alison lost conscious and faint…
Emily screamed with heartbreaking voice as she tried to wake up the girl. – "Please Ali! Open your eyes! Please hold on! Please! Don't let go! Please! Don't leave me!"
So it took her 6 years but she finally made it, the charming killer finally showed up, running to the rescue of her precious Queen… but had she arrived in time? Or it's too late to make it into the dream?