Hi guys, so I see I left you with a lot of question with chapter 3, so, here this, it's short but, it's something ^^
To reply some questions: The last part of the previous chapter was pure lust. But from this weak moment of lust, it will bring them to talk, what will happen next, I'll no tell, you will need to stay and watch ^^
Concerning why Alison hook up with Emily even if she has feelings for Samara? Well, Samara, she's super nice and Alison is no used to have that in her life and somehow, deep inside her, she's still pending on Emily to be her solid ground, even if Emily is too messy with her own feelings to realize that. Hope it's clear now, please leave a comment if you have the time! See U!
Go Big or Go Home – part 4
*** Emily's narrative ***
At some point, you've to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So, you can waste your life drawing lines, or you can cross them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross and if you cross them wrong, then, you just fuck your own fate…
(Alison's classroom)
Alison lies down against her desk, all her papers fall to the floor; the blonde tries to suppress her moans but, Emily knows how to touch her and where, Alison reaches her climax and her orgasmic climax is so loud that someone walking on the hallways hear them…
Paige gasps in shock. – "OMG?!"
Emily turns around and a wave of guilt fills her body.
Emily. – "Paige! No… I…"
With sorrow on her eyes, Paige walks away and without hesitation, Emily runs after her without looking back. Everything passed so fast and, one moment, Emily was inside her and then she was gone, leaving her alone after what they done.
Alison looks at her messy make-up, at her wetness between her legs and she stares at the empty room because the brunette just left. This moment brings back old memories of the past. Alison recalls the night they spend together so many years ago in her bed and she recalls too how easy Emily walked away without ever care.
Feeling dirty and used, Alison cries in silence while she collects the papers and clean the mess.
(In the parking of the school)
Emily. – "Paige, wait, Paige, please!"
The brunette puts her hand over Paige shoulder but, the other girl just pushes her away angry.
Paige. – "Don't you dare to touch me with that hand!"
Emily presses her lips together, she feels a huge shame for her own actions…
Emily mumbles with sorrow. – "I'm sorry…"
Paige. – "Why you asked me to stay?! Why I stayed, even if I knew…"
Emily. – "You knew what…?"
Paige looks at Emily and she just gets angrier when Emily doesn't dare to realize her own feelings…
Paige. – "It has always been her…"
Emily. – "What?!"
Paige huffs angry and opens the door of her car but, Emily puts her hands on the door, trying to avoid them to close.
Paige. – "Let me go, Emily…"
Emily panics. – "No… please I…"
Paige snaps. – "You what?!" (Sighs) "This is no the 1st time you cheat on me…"
Emily gulps hard while she recalls her dark days in California
Emily. – "Back then, I was in a dark place because my Dad passed away, I wasn't myself…"
Paige says angry. – "And today! What is your excuse?!"
Emily presses her lips together since she has no excuse for her lame behavior. Paige gets inside her car and says before driving away…
Paige. – "The position in California is still open, I will take it…"
Emily. – "Paige, I…"
The brunette drives away and Emily just stays there in the middle of the parking alone. She stood a long period of time spacing out and, so consumed by her guilt and shame that she never thought about coming back inside to check in the other girl…
*** Alison's narrative ***
How many times have you been heartbroken? How many times have you left someone break your heart? How many hearts, have you break? How many times have you break someone? How many times someone has broken you? Really broken you… how many is too many? It must be nice to love someone who lets you break them more than twice… but it's not…
(In Alison's house)
Samara walks inside the house and gets concerned when she hears the sobs coming from the bathroom.
Samara. – "Ali?"
She knocks but without a reply, she hesitates on walking away or step inside.
*** Samara's narrative ***
Nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have changed your life. That's why you need to choose wisely, because we don't get unlimited chances to have the things we want…
Samara slowly opens the door of the bathroom and her heart breaks in pieces when she sees Alison, just covering her wet body with a towel, crying on the floor.
Samara says while she approaches. – "Ali… what happened? Ali…"
The blonde counselor tries to touch her but Alison snaps…
Alison. – "Don't touch me!"
Samara steps back and Alison says with a wrenching voice. – "Don't touch me... I'm dirty… I'm disgusting…"
The English teacher is a mess and she can't stop crying. Samara doesn't know what to do but she decides to sit beside her, with a little gap between. They spend hours like that, till Alison's sobs calm down…
Samara asks. – "Can you tell me what is wrong? Why you're like this?"
Alison. – "If I told you that my heart hurt so much sometimes I want to rip it from my chest with my own little hands… it would be that enough?"
Samara. – "No… it's not enough, that just makes me more worried…"
Alison chuckles with a bitter tone. – "You're too nice for me… I really don't deserve someone like you in my life… you deserve so much better…"
Samara doesn't like how low Alison thinks about herself, she doesn't care what the hell happened, she only wants to hug the blonde and shows her how much she cares about her but, the moment she tries to get closer, Alison looks at her and stops her…
Alison. – "NO!"
Samara. – "Why? And don't say again you're dirty or disgusting or…"
Alison cuts her off. – "I had sex with Emily…"
Samara stays speechless, she wasn't expecting this. Alison avoids eye-contact, she doesn't want to see Samara into the eyes…
Alison gulps. – "She fucked me in the classroom and I let her…" (Sad chuckle) "I always let her to fuck me whenever she wants… I wonder why…"
Samara takes a deep breath and says. – "We accept the love we think we deserve…"
Alison chuckles with sadness because Samara couldn't be more accurate…
(Silence)
Samara asks with a little of fear. – "Can you tell me how it happened?"
Alison. – "Do you really want to know?"
They look at each other into the eyes and the blonde replies…
Samara. – "I need to know…"
Alison takes a deep breath and talks without stop and Samara just listen. After so much talking, Alison imagines Samara is thinking the worse of her and she doesn't blame her for it but, when she looks at Samara, the other blonde just looks at her with so much tenderness that Alison doesn't understand why…
Alison. – "I'm a horrible person…"
Samara. – "You did a terrible thing. It doesn't mean you're a terrible person…"
Alison snaps. – "How you can act so cool about this?! You're no angry with me?! You…"
Samara cuts her off. – "I believe sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you've to make a big mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to find out who we really are… and I really believe in you Alison…" (She looks at her into the eyes and says) "I believe in you, even if you don't believe in yourself…"
Alison looks down and mumbles. – "Why you're so nice with me…?"
Alison was staring at her hand which was gripping on the towel and Samara softly puts her hands over Alison's hands when she confesses…
Samara. – "Because I have feelings for you…"
Alison looks in shock. – "What? Why?!"
Samara shrugs
Alison. – "Even after everything I told you today? Even after all the bad I've done, even…"
Samara cuts her off. – "Even if you think you're the most terrible person in this world, in front of my eyes you're just a wonderful human being. A human who wants more than just to survive, you want love, you deserve love but Ali…"
Alison looks at her into the eyes…
Samara. – "You deserve a great love, an unconditional love… you deserve a better love than this…"
Alison takes seriously Samara's words and she smiles a little when she leans her head over Samara's shoulder…
Alison mumbles. – "I like you too… more than a friend but I'm a complete mess right now…"
Samara nods. – "I know… I can wait… I'm not going anywhere…"
Alison smiles and looks at Samara when she says…
Alison. – "Would you like to order some Chinese food and get really fat with me?"
Samara chuckles and nods. – "Off course… " (She teases) "But this time, you'll order 2 box of noodles for you… I'll no share with you my noodles…"
Alison. – "Why?!"
Samara smirks. – "Because last time, you ate them all! Seriously, you've a great Appetit, I'll no stay hungry another night because of you…"
Alison chuckles and Samara helps her to stand up…
Alison smiles. – "Thank you…"
Samara. – "Wherefore?"
Alison hugs her and says. – "For being you… just you…"
Samara hugs her too and smiles, feeling that she's just getting closer and closer to the blonde…
*** Alison's narrative ***
We screw up, we lose our way. Even the best of us have our off days. Still, we need to move forward because we don't have time to fall apart…
(In Emily's house)
It's very late but Emily is still outside her house. Sitting in the stairs of the porch, she looks up, trying to find any answer in the stars…
Emily says to the sky. – "I mean, what the hell is going on? What's the point? I mean, is there a reason for this? Because if you can think of a reason, any reason at all, why the universe is so screwed and random and mean, now would be an amazingly good time to tell me, because I really need some answers…"
The brunette prays for answers and what she gets it's an angry blonde…
Alison. – "We need to talk…"
Emily shakes her head and replies. – "No now, Ali… please, no now… I can't… I…"
The brunette stands up and tries to get inside her house but, Alison stops her when she yells…
Alison. – "If you walk away now, tomorrow will be too late. There's too much mess under us and, I'm done with just ignoring it, so here I'm, because is now or never…"
Emily stares at the blonde and stays speechless since she has never seen so much determination in Alison's eyes.
Emily nods. – "Ok… let's get inside…"
Alison takes a deep breath and walks inside the house, ready to have the conversation which will define her fate…
*** Alison's narrative ***
Judge me all you want, but at the end, I choose to have memories without regrets… so, here I'm… this is it… what happens after this, it will be her choice…