Hi you, I know I said that I was done with this book, but, after seeing emison divorce in the spin off of pll, this chapter came out...
The perfect way
*** Alison's (voice-over) ***
Let me tell you a secret, no one is perfect...
Emily mumbles. - "She signed the papers..."
The brunette was the one who put this in motion, but, it's Alison's signature that's putting an end to it. The twins were sleeping in their beds, too young to know what was happening. Will they ever understand? Will they ever forgive Emily for putting an end to their family? The brunette is consumed by some many questions that she's ignoring the only person who has been at her side all this time since her wife, no sorry, her ex-wife left town...
Pam says with a bitter, angry voice. - "Well, I hope you're happy now, Emily..."
Emily rolls her eyes again, she doesn't want to argue with her mom, so, she stands up and, walk away, but, Pam is not ready to let this go...
Pam says angry while she walks behind Emily. - "Don't walk away from me, Emily!"
Emily snaps. - "Then, stop looking at me like that!"
Pam. - "Like what?!"
Emily turns around, she looks at her mom in the eyes and says. - "Like if I was such a disappointment to you..."
It hurt to say it out loud, but, it hurt more what came from Pam's mouth...
Pam looks at her in the eyes and says. - "Well, I can't, because I'm! I'm very disappointed with you..."
Emily gulps hard, tries her best to contain her tears, so, her chocolate eyes get just wet, ready to let go a waterfall of tears...
Pam holds Emily by the shoulders and shakes her with so much force, when she asks. - "What the hell are you doing?!"
Emily doesn't reply, she just looks down and, takes a deep breath...
Pam. - "Your father and I, we didn't raise a quitter!"
Emily looks up and says. - "I'm not a quitter!"
Pam. - "Oh really?! Then why in the name of God, at the 1st struggle in your marriage, you opt for the easy exit..."
Emily replies angrily. - "Easy?!" (tears and a wrenching voice) "Do you really believe this is easy?!"
Pam. - "It's easier than stay and fight..."
Emily yells. - "I stay, she's the one who left!"
Pam says louder. - "She left because you pushed her to do it! She left because she wanted to prove you something!"
Emily frowns, not ready to accept her part on this damage...
Pam. - "Your insecurities, your mistrust... recognize that you're also to blame in this..."
Emily. - "She lies, she..."
Pam. - "She's a human being, Emily! We are humans! We make mistakes! Or, tell me, have you never made a mistake in your life? Have you never hurt someone by mistake...?" Have you never lied to someone you love before...?"
Emily sighs deeply, she can't argue that...
Pam says with a calmer voice. - "We're not perfect, Emy. We're far to be perfect. And, sometimes, with the best intentions in the world, we are capable to do the most awful things. But, just because we're imperfect, that not make us unworthy of love, unconditional love..."
Emily takes a deep breath, she rests her hands against the table, where the divorce papers are; the brunette looks at those papers, her heart twists in pain, and, even then... she's willing to go with it...
Pam softly touches the divorce papers and says while she looks at the two signatures. - "She called me..."
Emily looks at her mom and says in shock. - "What?!"
Pam says sadly. - "She wanted to apologize to me, for not fulfill her promise to me..."
Emily mumbles. - "What promise...?"
They turn their head, their eyes meet, and, the old woman shares with Emily the day when Alison and she met in the lobby of the hotel to talk about the engagement ring, Pam said how Alison promised that she would always be there for Emily, that Emily would always have family, and, Emily's tears drop while the brunette feels a lump in her throat...
Pam. - "You promised her to love her, and, stay at her side, for better and worse, Don't you remember your own vows...?"
Emily. - "Please mom, stop..." (Tears) "I just... I..." (She says with a defeated voice) "I... I can't..."
Like a soldier who has lost a battle, Emily has a defeated look on her face. And Pam had seen that same look, several times before... in herself...
Pam. - "Let me tell you something, more than once I got tempted to give up on my marriage with your Dad..."
Emily. - "What?!" (She shakes her head and says) "No, you're lying, it can't be. You were perfect together, you had the happy ending, you..."
Pam. - "We had our up and downs. You might be too little to remember their 1st tours, and, how we struggled with his PSD each time he came back from the war..."
Emily gulps hard
Pam. - "It wasn't easy, it was hard as hell, scary, so scary that more than once, I tried to walk out from that door..." (She points out towards the front door of her house, and says) "But, each time that I got tempted to quit, your Dad would stop me..." (She puts her hand over Emily's hand and says) "He gripped on my arm, he asked me not to leave. Your Dad stopped me so many times, so, I want to ask, why you didn't do the same...?"
Emily gulps hard, she closes her eyes one moment, recalling the day that Alison left for Oregon. The blonde took hours on getting ready, she was hesitating, anxious, the blonde stood a long time in the door, waiting for the taxi to come, but, true be told, she was waiting for Emily to say something, Alison was waiting for Emily to stop her, but, the brunette never dare to do it...
Emily. - "This is the best for us. We were having problems, we weren't having the happy ending I thought we would have..."
Pam. - "Emily! A happy ending is not the goal!"
Emily frowns. - "What?!"
Pam. - "A life full with up & downs, a life full with memories, with mistakes, with lessons learned, with friends, with family, and, mostly, with love. An imperfect life without regrets is what you should wish for..."
Emily mumbles. - "I... I don't understand what you're trying to say. All my life, all I ever wanted is to have my fairy tale, my happy ending..."
Pam. - "And, if that's what you want. Why you're giving up now...?"
Emily frowns. - "What do you mean?"
Pam. - "How do you want to get the happy ending if you're not willing to fight for it...?"
Emily gulps hard, she has no words...
Pam. - "In every fairy tale, there is a struggle to overcome, maybe more than one struggle, but tell me something, Emy, does the hero quit? No, he doesn't, and, no matter how painful, how hard it might be, the hero always keeps going till the end..."
Emily sighs deeply
Pam. - "Emily, you need to realize that the magic moment in the fairy tales, it's not the happy ending, it's the journey of the characters to get to the happy ending. The magic, it's to always fight, to always stand up and keep going, no matter what..." (She cups Emily's cheeks with her hands and says) "So, fight, Emy! Fight for you! Fight for your kids! Fight for your family! Fight for your happy ending!"
They look at each other in the eyes, and, Pam hopes that her words will reach her kid. She expects some kind of reaction, but, she gets nothing...
Pam. - "Say something, Emy, please..."
The old woman expects Emily to say something, but, she gets nothing, just silence. But the thing is, no matter how hard people try to let go of the whole fairy tale dream entirely, a small bit of faith and hope might stay, even if anyone is ready to admit it...
Pam walks away and says. - "This is not the perfect way to end your story with Alison, Emy..."
And, even if Pam leaves, her words stay with Emily...
At Beacon Heights...
Mona. - "You're still sad for your divorce...?"
Alison doesn't bother to reply, she was in front of the chimney, seeing how the flames were devouring each one of the pictures that she dropped on it...
Mona asks. - "You'll really not regret to burn all your pictures with Emily...?"
Once again, the blonde says nothing, she just fills her glass of wine, one more time...
Mona. - "It's your 8th glass..."
Alison snaps. - "And?!"
Mona. - "Geez, Ali, I was just trying to be nice..."
Alison drinks her wine and says. - "We're not nice, so, you better go..."
Mona takes a deep breath, she's not in the mood of getting into a fight with the blonde, at least not tonight. Without saying more, the little brunette takes her things, she's ready to leave when she opens the door, but...
Mona frowns when she opens the front door. - "Emily?!"
Emily frowns. - "Mona...?"
Both brunettes are shocked to find each other here, but, someone else is more shocked to see what it's happening...
Alison mumbles. - "Emily..."
Their eyes meet, and, Emily smiles till she looks at Alison's hand, and realizes that the blonde is no longer using her ring...
Alison. - "What are you doing here? I already sent you the papers..."
Emily feels a lump in her throat, the blonde's voice is harsh, with a sad pitch. Alison DiLaurentis never shows her pain, but, looking at those blue eyes, Emily sees Alison's pain, and, once again, it's all her fault...
Alison asks harshly. - "I made a question, Emily! What the hell are you doing here?!"
The brunette is feeling insecure, she's out of words, but, she's not alone...
Emily. - "I..."
Pam gets inside the house with a box in her hands and says. - "She's moving in..."
Mona & Alison say at the unison. - "WHAT?!"
Pam ignores the shocking faces and says. - "Ali, be kind and give me a hand with the boxes..."
Alison mumbles. - "But... I..." (she stares at Emily and mumbles sadly) "We signed the divorce papers..."
Emily gulps hard, she looks down, ashamed of the actions she put in motions, but...
Pam gets from her bag the divorce papers and says. - "These papers...?"
Alison looks at it, and, nods. And, her blue eyes get bigger when she sees Pam Fields throwing the papers into the fire of the chimney...
Pam looks at the two girls and says to them. - "There, no more papers..."
Emily says in shock. - "Mom!"
Alison says in shock. - "Ms. Fields!"
Pam. - "I don't see any divorce papers..." (She looks at Mona and asks her) "Do you see any divorce papers?"
Mona shakes her head. - "No..."
Pam. - "Exactly, because there's no divorce papers..." (She turns her head towards Emily & Alison, and, says) "And, I really don't want to hear ever again about any divorce papers! Am I clear?!"
Alison & Emily nod, like two little kids, scared to be scolded again...
Pam smiles. - "Good. Now, everyone gives me a hand with all the boxes..."
Everyone follows Pam's orders without hesitation, and, while Emily was hesitating of following them. The view of seeing Alison with the twins, it pushed away, any hesitation that the mermaid could have...
Alison kisses the twins and says with tears. - "I've missed you so much..."
It's a long travel, so, it doesn't take too long for the little kids to fall asleep. The blonde put them in her big bed, and, when she was coming back from upstairs, Mona says...
Mona mumbles to Alison. - "It's really a good idea letting Emily and the girls move in, with all the crazy things that are happening here...?"
Alison looks at Pam in the distance and mumbles back to Mona. - "I'm not sure, but, try to tell that to Pam Fields, and, let's see how that goes..."
Mona smirks, she can't believe that the Queen Bee of Rosewood is afraid of a kind woman like Pam Fields. Mona's not afraid to talk alone with Pam and tell her that Emily shouldn't move in now, so, they get apart from the others, and, the little brunette starts talking, trying to imply that Emily shouldn't move in...
Alison sees Mona walking back and asks. - "How did it go...?"
Mona mumbles. - "She's staying tonight with me. So, you and Emily can have some time to talk alone..."
Alison. - "What?"
Pam approaches them, she hugs Mona from the shoulders and says. - "I'm too tired to go back home today, and, I'm pretty sure that you and Emily have lots of things to talk about, so, I'm staying with your friend who offered to take me in..."
Mona mumbles. - "I didn't offer..." (She looks at the serious look of Pam, and, gulps before saying) "Yes I offered..."
Pam smiles. - "Good..." (She drags Mona with her and says) "Now, Let's go..."
Alison. - "But, I..."
Pam. - "You should get inside, it's getting cold. I'm going back to Rosewood tomorrow, so, let's have breakfast tomorrow morning before I leave... okay?"
Alison nods, not sure, if she's okay with what is happening...
Pam hugs her daughter and whispers into Emily's ear. - "Don't screw this up, again..."
Emily nods, she stays under the front door in silence, Alison just stares at her in the distance, and, she was looking at the brunette when Pam hugs her and whispers to her ear...
Pam. - "I might be asking a lot. But, could you please give her another chance...?"
Alison looks at the old woman, at the woman who has been more of a mother to her than her own mom. And, with those sweet eyes, looking at her, begging her to do this, all that Alison can say it's...
Alison. - "I'll try..."
Pam smiles. - "That's enough to me... thank you..." (She pats Mona's arm and says) "C'mon, let's go..."
Alison sees how Pam orders Mona to do things, and, Mona follows, like a soldier, and, the blonde laughs with such view...
Emily smiles. - "I forgot how much I enjoy hearing you laughs..."
The brunette said it without thinking, the words came from the heart, something that caught them off guard, both of them. And, now that they are alone, with the twins asleep, Emily is not sure of what to do or what to say, but, the blonde knows exactly what she wants to say...
Alison. - "You gave up on me..."
Emily. - "Huh...?"
The blonde looks at the brunette, with tears rolling over her red cheeks, and, maybe it's all the alcohol in her blood for all the wine she drank tonight, but, the blonde has this need to speak the truth of her heart...
Alison says with a wrenching voice. - "You gave up on me, and, It hurt... it still hurts a lot..."
Emily looks down, she can't look at Alison's tears, not when she's the cause of them...
Alison says with pain and anger in her voice. - "So, how you dare to come into my life again, just like that?!"
Emily mumbles. - "I'm sorry..." (She starts walking towards the road and says) "If you want, I'll leave..."
The brunette passes by the blonde. And, before Emily could make another step, the blonde says very loudly...
Alison. - "What I want? What I want... I... I want... I want love, respect, trust... " (She looks at Emily in the eyes and says) "I WANT THE WHOLE THING! I deserve the whole thing, God damn it, EMILY!"
Emily gulps hard, Alison has raised her voice before, but, never like right now...
Alison. - "I deserve being loved, I deserve being trusted, even if I'm a pathological liar, even if sometimes I'm a bitch. I deserve betten than you, turning the back on me, the 1st moment I do something wrong..."
Emily looks down because Alison is right, she's constantly testing her, and, it's not fair...
Alison. - "So..." (Deep breath) "If you're not willing to trust me, then..."
Emily looks up and asks. - "Then what...?"
Their eyes meet, they stay in silence for a brief moment till...
Alison. - "Then you should really go..."
Emily gulps hard...
Alison walks towards her house and says. - "Go back to Rosewood, and, this time, it will be me, who will send you the divorce papers..."
The blonde walks into the house, and, Emily looks at her, without being able to say a word...
*** Alison's (voice-over) ***
No one is perfect. We're a work in progress, we're never sure of what it's the perfect choice, but, success is about learning from our mistakes, life is about trying, fail while we're trying, but, keep trying anyway. And, fairy tales...? Well, everyone has that smallest bit of faith and hope that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true... everyone... even me...
Alison was laying down with the girls, tears still falling down from her eyes, and, she was already closing this chapter of Emily in her heart when...
Emily. - "Ali..."
The blonde looks up, she doesn't leave the bed, but she sits over the edge when she sees Emily, kneeling in front of her...
Alison mumbles. - "What...?" (She sees Emily showing a ring and says in shock) "What the hell are you doing...?"
Emily. - "I'm sorry, and, I've no right to ask you this, but, even then, I've to do it because I love you..."
Alison mumbles with tears in her eyes. - "You love me...?"
Emily smiles with tears in her eyes. - "I don't know how to stop it. And, I don't want to stop loving you..."
Alison. - "But you..."
Emily. - "I'm insecure, I'm weak. I'm not the perfect knight in shining armour I thought I was, but..."
Alison. - "But...?"
Emily. - "But you're right. You deserve love, trust, respect. You deserve the world, Ali, and, if you let me, I want to be the person to give you the whole thing..."
The blonde looks at the brunette who's trying to redeem herself, and, even if she wants nothing more than hugs her and kiss her. She's still hesitated to leave Emily in, once again, because the brunette hurt her bad, really bad...
Alison. - "I don't trust you my heart, Emily..."
The brunette gulps hard, what was she thinking? That Alison would receive her with open arms? Of course not... so, will Emily walk away? Defeated... alone...?
Emily stands up, she puts the ring on her pocket, and, says. - "In that case, let me stay around to show you that you can trust me your heart again..."
Alison mumbles. - "Okay..." (She lies down with her kids and says) "You can take the guest room that's at the end of the hallway..."
Emily nods, she grabs her things, she's once again in square one, but...
Alison falls asleep with a smile and mumbles. - "Good night, Em..."
Emily smiles. - "Good night, Ali..."
But, it's okay...
*** Emily's (voice-over) ***
And the fairy tale, it may be slightly different than what you imagined. You might not get a castle, you might not be 100% sure to get the happily even after. But that doesn't matter, what matters, it's how happy you feel right now. What matters is that you keep fighting to get that happy ending...
Some time later...
Pam runs on the hallways of the hospital, more than once, people tell her not to do it, but, she can't avoid it, she's late to...
Pam opens a door and says very loudly. - "Emily!"
Emily. - "Ssshhh! Mom... you'll wake them..."
Alison groans. - "Too late for that..."
The blonde woke up, and, with her, a newborn baby too, a little baby who starts crying, and, Emily holds it into her arms, she tries to calm him down, but...
Pam. - "Let me try it..."
Emily passes the baby to her mother, and, Pam smiles, happy, holding for the 1st time her 3rd grandchild...
Alison. - "It's a girl..."
Pam. - "Really?! I thought that the doctor said that it was going to be a boy..."
Alison. - "I guess they got it wrong..."
Pam kisses the baby and says. - "Well, it doesn't matter, the important is that she's here with us..."
Emily. - "Yeah, she's very healthy and, who knows, maybe the next one will be a boy..." (She feels Alison hitting her arms, and, whines) "Auch! That hurt, Ali!"
Alison crosses her arms and says with a serious look. - "Next one?! I'm not going to give birth again! I'm not going to labor for a 4th time..."
The blonde is very sore for all the motions of the day, and, Emily can understand that it's very painful, but, she will keep trying to get that little Wayne she wants so much.
Emily mumbles. - "You said that you wouldn't marry me again, and, you did it anyway..."
Alison rolls her eyes. Emily smiles, she hugs her wife and even if Alison pushes her away, she doesn't leave Alison' side. And, Pam smiles because after all. She really didn't raise a quitter...
Emily kisses Alison on the lips and smiles. - "I love you..."
Alison smiles, she kisses her back, and, maybe with lots more kisses like this one, she might consider the 4th child...
*** Alison's (voice-over) ***
And like I told you before, no one is perfect. But, once in a while, people will surprise you. And once in a while, you might get the ending you need... just in the perfect way...
THE END
Hi, after episode 4, I stopped watching the spin off, but, I really hope that Emison will keep alive, even if just in fn fiction. Have a great day...