Disclaimer: Les Mis belongs to Victor Hugo
AN: This entry was "written" at the time Javert was returning from Coming from Arras to M-sur-M after denouncing Valjean to the prefect of Paris.
April of 1822
I have disgraced myself. Nay, not just myself, but also the law. I who alights without leniency upon those who dare sin have committed the gravest of transgressions. In anger, I arrogantly denounced Monsieur the Mayor, a man of the highest standing, to the prefect as the criminal Jean Valjean without a shred of evidence. I have been blind; I let my own fancy and imagination take hold of me. How stupid. How could I have mistaken such a respectable man for a convict? They were right to laugh at me.
This Champmatheiu is clearly Jean Valjean. I did not wish it to be so; to be found wrong, but this trip has proven it to be true without a doubt. He could not be otherwise. With my own eyes I have seen him; it is he. Even his fellow convicts know his face. A lowly vagabond still bearing the ragged appearance he wore in the galleys. It's disgusting. The only thing he's managed to do for himself was to change his name and not even intelligently at that. Using his mother's name, how predictable. How foolish. His trail was so easily read. And he still has the gall to profess that he is innocent?
We are approaching M-sur-M. Soon I must reveal my despicable act to Monsieur the Mayor that he may dismiss me; I am not fit to do my duty. It is only just. I am no better than imbecile, assuming myself to be someone else, someone better. I do not deserve forgiveness nor do I wish for kindness. The same standards that I have upheld for others must be used against me and I have erred. I must be punished. Such an act of insolence cannot be pardoned or forgotten. Now if only he would realize that…
AN: I gave Javert a bit of a inferiority complex... hopefully its not too off the mark. And in case anyone is wondering, Javert wrote the first entry as a way to mock his superior officer but this second one was a form apology for doubting monsieur Madeline. He writes the next few entries because his pride was injured by falling for Valjean's tricks. He wants to record how he will capture him so that later he can show the journal in Vajean's face and laugh in his face, and prove he had been right all along.
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