Tales of a Journey

By: Rogue White Dragon (aka Dragoness)

Disclaimer: I don't own TOS

Chapter 13 – I'm your father

After Siena and I had arrived back at the Renegades base, I thought I'd tell Lan I was his father before I lost my nerve. Like some sort of idiot, I suggested we go train. When I was about to tell him, I realized he was not only holding two swords, but still had his daggers on. I didn't exactly want to be filled with small blade-caused wounds. He'd either be happy to find out I was his father, or he'd be quite angry. So, I chose to tell him later that night.

Our group had been gathered in Regal's room. We were discussing random things. We weren't quite sure what we were going to do, so we had decided to wait for Yuan and Kratos to get back. No one spoke about the Elder, which seemed to suit Siena just fine. It wasn't till Lan said that he was going to bed, that I stood up, and asked him, nervously, if I could speak with him. He looked a little puzzled, but shrugged with a nod of his head. I followed him to the door, and glanced back at the rest of our group. They were all giving a thumbs up. Did they think that was encouraging? I glared at them, and then followed Lan.

"So…"

I began a little nervously. Just how was I supposed to go about doing this?

"I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier like I did."

Lan said, sparing me a glance. I gave a shrug in reply

"No problem."

I replied. Crap, I could fight monsters no problem, had no difficulty putting my life in danger, but when it came to telling my first born I was his father, I was a complete and total coward. I cursed inwardly, and tried again

"So, uh, about your father…"

I trailed off when he stopped and turned to stare at me. He frowned slightly, and replied

"I thought you didn't know who he was."

Lan said, sounding slightly annoyed. I winced, and replied

"Actually, I never said that. My father did."

I waited for him to say something, but he didn't. Instead, he continued walking towards his room, which was actually only a few steps away. He opened the door, and glanced back at me, frowning

"Are you going to tell me who he is, or keep it a secret from me like the rest of them?"

He demanded coldly. Siena was right. If I didn't tell him soon, he probably would end up hating me. I gulped, and shifted my feet a little nervously.

"Well, uh, I could tell you…"

He waited silently. I forced myself to gather my courage to tell him. No wonder Kratos never told me, this was harder than it sounded.

"Uh, as you know, I've known you mother for quite some time. We go way back, so it's uh, only natural that I know who your father is."

I felt like such a chicken, I wanted to kick myself. Tell him already! I growled inwardly.

"And?"

Lan asked, looking a little confussed, and a little annoyed. Ok self, just blurt it out. That's got to be the easier way, right?

"Lan,"

I said, taking a deep breath

"I'm your father."

There, I said it. Lan blinked at me a couple times, staring at me as if I'd just hit him. He turned around, opened his door, stepped in, and calmly closed it behind him. Well, that wasn't such a bad reaction, right? Moments later, I could hear him scream some inaudible words angrily, followed by smashing sounds of objects being thrown around in his room. I winced, wondering if I should go in and try to talk to him. I paused, looking down the hall towards Regal's room. The rest of our group was standing in the door way, staring at me. Siena rolled her eyes, and Sheena broke away from the others, and jogged down the hall towards me.

"I'll talk to him."

She said as she stepped into his room. The door muffled what ever the two were saying, and then objects being thrown could be heard again. Sheena came running out of the room, slamming the door behind her.

"Maybe he just needs to be alone for a bit."

She said, laughing nervously as she stepped away from the door. I stood there quietly. Maybe it would have been better if he hadn't known. Or at the very least, it probably would have been better if I'd told him after Arkus was taken care of. This was just complicating things. I turned around, and walked away. Fresh air sounded really good just then, so I headed towards the nearest exit, and stepped outside. I really wished I could be home with Colette and Mattrim right now, I was beginning to miss my family. Things here were just getting complicated.

(Siena's POV)

Everyone was walking back towards their rooms, while Lloyd left. What kind of an idiot was he? If ever there could be a more pathetic man, I think I'd cry. What did he think Lan would do? You don't just blurt something like that, you have to ease it into the conversation. For all Lan knew right now, Lloyd could've abandoned Sheena when he found out she was pregnant with him. I didn't know the entire story, but Lloyd didn't seem like the type of guy who would do that, and seeing as how Sheena was still talking to him, that couldn't have been it. So, I obviously had to be the voice of reason, right now. What on earth would humans do without us elves? Bah, they'd be wondering how another war broke out.

I strolled up to Lan's door, stepping inside while Sheena tried to stop me. Seeing her wince slightly when I closed the door, I rolled my eyes. He couldn't very well do anything to me, I was an elf. If he tried to throw something at me, I'd just incinerate it with some fire.

"What the hell do you want?"

Lan growled, glaring daggers at me. I grinned. Glarring daggers was so ironic. His actual daggers were currently laying beside him, and when I didn't reply, he turned and began cleaning the blades. I wondered briefly what happened to his swords, but that was answered quickly enough when I saw the said blades stuck in a wall by the door. I frowned at him. He hadn't thrown those at his mother, did he? Idiot, jerk, moron. I turned and grabbed the twin blades from the wall, and stalked up to him

"You wanted to know, didn't you? If you were going to react like this, why'd you want to know if the first place?"

He turned around to glare at me, opening his mouth to shout out some angry words in reply, but I lifted both of his swords to his throat. I'd have my say, whether he liked it or not. Humans needed to have some sense knocked into them once and a while.

"You didn't even give him a chance you explain anything. What are you getting so angry about? You even chased you mother out of here. Just who the hell do you think you are? You wanted something, and you got it. So what if he turned out to be one of the guys in this group. You should be so lucky as to have a father like him!"

I was angry at him, I realized. I had such a crappy relationship with my own father, that when I think of Lan with a father like Lloyd, who obviously must care about him at least a little, and Lan gets all childish about it, it just really pissed me off. I threw the swords to the side, fully intent on continuing my lecture, when he stood up, glaring at me, and said

"Just because you don't get along with your father, doesn't mean you have to fix other peoples problems!"

I stared at him for a moment, whatever I'd been about to say was completely lost. So what if I thought he should give Lloyd a chance. He didn't want to be in some hateful father and son situation. So, I slapped him. He deserved it.

"I almost pitty him for having a son like you. You're nothing more than sniveling child, who's upset because you didn't get the happy ending you wanted!"

He raised a hand, lightly touching his cheek where I'd slapped him. If he wanted to argue about this, he chose the wrong elf to have a verbal bout with. Lan looked away from me for a moment, before saying

"He already has a family."

He looked down, avoiding eye contact. Is that was this was all about?

"What do you mean?"

I asked, wondering what he meant. I hadn't been the group that long, but…

"Back in Iselia, he's got a wife and kid. Where would my mom and I fit in?"

His shoulder's slouched slightly, and he sunk back into a sitting position on his bed. I sighed slightly. Humans were so emotionally fragile, it was kind of sad. But who was I to talk? The other elves all considered me insane.

"If he didn't want you to be part of his family, he wouldn't have told you."

I said, trying to make him feel better. Not that I cared, he was just a human, after all. It's just that, uh, well, whining humans got on my nerves. That's it, they got on my nerves.

"Yeah right."

I stared at him for a moment. Had he have seen Lloyd's facial expression when he'd slammed the door, he wouldn't be feeling this way. He'd hurt his father, doing what he did. I felt the sudden urge to slap him again, but restrained myself.

"Maybe you should talk to him."

I said sternly. This journey wasn't over yet, and I'd be damned if I let this twit ruin it for the rest of us. Not that it was supposed to be enjoyable, but no one needed this kind of stress right now.

"No."

Lan said, still refusing to look at me.

"Fine. Be that way."

I got up, and stalked towards the door.

"Maybe I'll try talking to you again when you've gained a little sense!"

I stepped out of his room, slamming the door behind me. I turned to stalk back to my room, when I saw Sheena standing in front of me, staring at me curiously. I glared at her, and said

"He's not throwing anything, so I guess it's safe to talk to him now."

Ha, talk to that idiot, good luck.

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O.o…well, I updated, and Lan finally knows that Lloyd is his father. Hope you enjoyed the chapter. I'll try to update again soon. Please review!

Thanks to those who did review: Hemi – Rose, Yukashi Tenshi (O.o ur name was underlined because I had coppied and pasted it from the review page, I didn't want to spell it wrong, and I didn't realize it was still underlined…sorry .) and Fan Fan Girl

Thanks for the reviews, I'm always looking forward to them. Hope this chapter wasn't a let down with the whole 'Lloyd telling Lan' thing.