Tales of a Journey
By: Rogue White Dragon
Disclaimer: I don't own TOS
Authors Note: Sheena's POV
Chapter 20 – Why?
"Hmm, Lloyd? What was that?"
I rolled over onto my side, to face the smilling swordsman
"I said, we've been seeing each other for quite some time now, right?"
Smiling at him, I gave a nod of my head
"Well, er…"
Lloyd looked a little flustered, He tried again
"Well, what would you think of, uh, starting a family?"
A family? I frowned at him slightly
"We're still young, Lloyd, what's the rush?"
He grimaced slightly, and replied
"Well, it's just that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and with you living in Mizuho and all…"
He looked at me quietly, waiting for my response. I sighed, and replied
"Lloyd, I can't stay away from the village that long. You know that. I have duties there. I'm the granddaughter of the Chief."
Lloyd sighed, looking a little sad
"Can we talk about this later, Lloyd?"
He looked at me and shrugged.
"Sure."
He didn't sound very enthused about it, and sat up, pulling the blankets off of him as he got out of bed.
"You want eggs?"
I smiled at him
"Sure, with cheese?"
"And coffee?"
I smiled again, as he left the room. He knew me so well.
I sat up with a start, glancing around the small room. That was a strange thing to dream about. Zelos was sleeping in a chair by my bed, facing me. I smiled at him, before getting up, and placing a blanket over him. He really was a sweet guy.
"Sheena?"
I glanced towards the door to see Lloyd standing there, looking a little tired. Well, he should be. He's stayed up most of the night so far.
"Yeah?"
I walked towards him, lowering my voice so that I wouldn't wake Zelos.
"The doctor said that Lan only needs a little rest, and he should be good as new."
Lloyd replied quietly, sparing a glance towards the Former Chosen. I sighed with relief. That was good. When we had arrived at Flanoir, Lan had passed out, and his wound had opened again.
"I just thought I'd tell you before going to sleep."
He sounded about ready to fall asleep where he stood. I gave him a grateful nod, and asked
"Has he woken up at all?"
Lloyd grinned
"For a little while. He asked for something to eat, and fell back asleep by the time we got him some food."
I smiled in reply, and Lloyd stretched with a yawn.
"Well, g'night."
"Night, Lloyd."
He left my room without another word, and I walked back to my bed, falling on it. We were currently all resting in an Inn, except of course for Lan, who was at the doctors office still. I pulled the pillow closer, resting my head on it, as I fell back asleep.
Impossible, this couldn't be happening. I glared at the old woman in front of me, and hissed
"Try again."
"I'm sorry, Sheena, but there's nothing else for me to do. I'd only get the same results back."
I glared at her, before turning my gaze towards the window in my room. This couldn't be happening. Not now. I was far too young for this, and Lloyd…
"Are you sure?"
I asked quietly.
"Possitive."
"Don't tell anyone, alright? I'll deal with it."
"Alright, but don't wait to long."
I got up to leave, but she asked
"If you don't mind my asking, who's the-"
I slammed the door behind me.
"Awake?"
Zelos was standing by the bed, grinning down at me.
"I am now."
I said, sitting up and stretching at the same time.
"Well, everyone else is getting ready to have breakfeast, you want to come?"
I gave a nod, and stood up. Zelos left the room a head of me, and I grimaced towards the door. Maybe I had acted to rashly when I left Lloyd. He was doing better now, so why couldn't I?
I sighed quite loudly, before following Zelos out the door. Maybe I just found it difficult because I was the one that left. I mean, I still cared about him, but since he was the one who got walked out on, maybe it was just easier for him to come to terms with the break in our relationship. Maybe I should stop thinking about this, it's beginning to give me a headache.
Besides, Lloyd was over it, shouldn't I be, too? He had Collette now, and I had Zelos, shouldn't that be enough? Maybe if I didn't feel like it had been a large mistake on my part to just leave him, it would be.
Hearing everyone at the bottom of the steps (my room was on the second floor) I stopped at the top and looked at our small group. Lloyd was talking to Kratos, and Zelos was trying to join the conversation, to no avail. I smiled sadly, before continuing down the stairs.
"Sheena? Lloyd's not here right now."
Dirk said while looking over his work table at me. I grimaced a little, and replied
"When do you think he'll be back?"
How could I tell Lloyd that he was going to be a father? I could barely imagine Lloyd being one, he was still so…immature.
"In an hour, maybe? He's training in the woods somewhere. You could always go and find him."
Training. Lloyd just loved it. If he found out I was pregnant, he'd have to stop that. Well, for the most part at least. I knew he'd want to get married, then. He had said as much just a few weeks ago. How would I tell him that for us to be married, he'd have to move to Mizuho? His entire life was here, in Iselia. He had grown up here, his friends and family were here, so what would it do to him to make him move to Mizuho?
"Uh, no, I'll just leave him a note."
Great, Sheena, now your acting like a child. I walked up the steps to Lloyds bedroom, and looked around for a pen and paper. What was I going to say? 'Sorry Lloyd, I'm pregnant and I think it would have negative effects on you if we started a real family?' Oh, he'd take that well. I finally found the desired objects of my search, and sat down on his bed. He'd want to talk about it, I'm sure. So what would I tell him?
What if I didn't tell him anything? What if I just ended it? I could go on living in Mizuho with our child, and he would be free to live his life, train…find someone else. Yes, that's what I'll do. I'll leave him alone. He doesn't need this right now, we're both still so young.
Why did I have to make such a foolish choice?
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Yikes, I am so verrryyy sorry. I've been kind of flooded with homework. Stupid
school…anywho, I'll try to update more, but I won't be able to for the next week, week and half, cause my bro's getting married and such.
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