Tales of a Journey

By: Rogue White Dragon (aka Dragoness)

Disclaimer: I don't own TOS

Chapter 21 – Confused

(Lan's POV)

Food. Must eat food. Need substance. Groaning just a little, I sat up in the bed I was in. It must've been morning, or close to noon. Light was coming in through the window, which obviously meant it was no longer night time. My stomach growled loudly, so I turned, getting my feet off the bed. Putting one hand on my healing wound, I got my feet on the ground, and winced when I stood up. The room spun, and I had to grip the side of the bed so that I wouldn't fall. How long had I been out?

"Lan, are you sure you should be up?"

I turned my attention towards the door. Kratos was standing there, with a slightly raised eyebrow. I frowned at him a little, and replied

"Well, I'm sure as heck not gonna stay in bed any longer. I need food."

"The doctor will take care of that."

Lloyd stepped into the room from behind Kratos. I frowned a little at my father, before saying

"Well, where's my food then? I'm going to waste away pretty soon."

Lloyd chuckled in a way that gave me the feeling they were going to tell me something I didn't want to hear.

"Lan, the doctor says that it will take a while yet for your wound to fully heal."

So that was it. He was going to tell me I was going to slow them down, wasn't he? I found myself sitting back on the bed, and looking up a Lloyd, still frowning

"So we've decided that you're going to stay here until we've found Colette and Mattrim."

I glared down at the ground, and didn't respond

"We won't be gone long, but we're leaving today."

"Fine."

I bit out. He could just come out and say it, that I was going to be a nuisance.

"Lan, we'll come back as soon as we can."

Lloyd tried to reassure me. I gave him a scowl, then asked

"Where's my food?"

With a sigh, Lloyd muttered that he'd grab it, and left. Kratos stayed behind, and looked at me curiously.

"Lan? You don't have to be so mad at him. It's you fault for getting in her way."

Sighing in resignation, I replied

"I couldn't just let her kill him."

"Even though he would have killed you given the chance?"

"You don't know that for sure."

This time Kratos gave a sigh, and turned around to leave

"If you get a little bored, you might want to go searching for your friend. She looked quite, upset, when she realized what she did."

As he left, I stared surprised at his back. Siena? Of course! This was going to give me the perfect chance to find her, and tell her everything was fine. With her mental state, I wouldn't be surprised if she convinced herself that she'd killed me.

After watching everyone leave through my bedroom window, I grabbed my swords and daggers from on top of the dresser near my bed, walked carefully down the stairs and towards the door. Kratos had left me some Gald, which should help me long enough until I find Siena. Hopefully, they might have left my reihard behind. Now, where to start?

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(Siena's POV)

Crap, Crap, oh shit, how I could I have done that? Lan could be anywhere near death, cursing my very existence, and wishing he'd never met me. I collapsed near a tree, leaning against it, and trying desperately not to cry. I was an elf, pure blooded at that, I wasn't supposed to cry. Or have emotions according to my father. I scowled darkly, finding it easier to be angry than being close to panicking. Next time I saw that man, I'd kill him. For sure.

Shit, I can't do that. Lan was…

Stifling back another sob, I brought my knees to my chest. Lan was the first person who actually treated me like an equal, and not some half mad teenager. I rocked back and forth, trying to calm myself down. Raine wasn't with them, so there wasn't anyone who could heal him, right? I didn't know the others very well, so maybe one of them knew some small amount of healing. Desperately hoping it was so, I stood up again, and continued running. I had to go somewhere far, far away from here. Somewhere where I couldn't hurt anyone. Maybe I was mad? Sanity is such a small thing, it's so easy to loose.

"No, I'm not mad, I'm normal, I'm sane."

I had stopped running, and found myself panting for breath, leaning against another tree. Why were there so many trees around here?

"Haha, right, I stab my only friend, sounds like craziness to me."

"You're my friend, Siena."

Was I really, Lan? Friends don't stab each other. I clutched my head in both my hands, and let out a moaning sound. I was a horrible, horrible person. Why did he even tolerate me? I was just some giant nuisance to him. Bothersome, insane elf that I was.

"Lan, would you ever forgive me?"

If I ever see him again, maybe I'll ask.

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(Sheena's POV)

I couldn't believe the traitorous thoughts that kept going through my head. I was in love with Zelos now, wasn't I? Why did I keep thinking about Lloyd? Crap, after this is all over, it would probably be best if Zelos and I stayed far away from Lloyd after we were married. I might just fall for him again. But, as I think about it, maybe I never fell out of it?

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Soooo, what'd you think? I haven't updated in a while, again. My senior year, too much homework, and then I started watching DNAngel, and a friend lent me Final Fantasy 2, and Chrono Cross, which I'm trying to beat, so I guess I just kind of…forgot about this fic…again. Hmm, I'm gonna see if I can write another update tonight, just to make up for the lack of updates I've been doing. So, hope you enjoyed reading the newest chapter

And thanks to those who reviewed!

JKaitz – I'll get more into how Lloyd took Sheena leaving later on, though, I guess I've mentioned him being upset about it already…I think. Haha, thanks for reviewing!

InuDani – lol, thanks for reviewing for chapter five

Sieg15 – Well, I have an idea on how to make it end with a Shelloyd, but that would mean that a few characters would be very, very, very sad/depressed. Thanks for reviewing!

H2O Athlete - Glad u enjoyed the flashback. I think I'll add another one from Lloyd's POV. Thanks for reviewing!

Fan Fan Girl – Sheena's not acting 'amorously' towards either of them, because she's kind of confused at the moment. Or, at least, that's what I've been trying to get across. Maybe I should work harder on that part…any who, thanks for the review!

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Haha, I'm always surprised by how many reviews I get. Thanks tons to everyone again! And I apologize greatly for the lack of updates lately.