It's all about living life Chapter 36, a janet evanovich fanfic

Chapter 34: Songs, feelings and memories from the past that come to haunt you...

Warning: smut.

2 months later…

I'm at my house and I've got a little surprise for her. She went out to go to the mall, but she doesn't know that I am back early from a business trip to Boston and did some shopping of my own. I know that she is back because the security system beeps when she is at the gate. She realizes something is up when there is a note stuck on the door.

Surprise in the bedroom

She runs up and squeals with delight when she finds the dress that I bought her. There's a note next to it.

Prepare yourself for a night out and put this on and then go downstairs

A quick shower and hair/make up session and 45 minutes she is standing in the living room, reading the next note.

Go to the garage

She finds me there, leaning against the Porsche Turbo, in tuxedo. We take our time leaving the garage to go to the club. It's a club that plays sexy jazzy and Latin songs. I'm a big fan of this type of music, I like the emotion in it. After our first drink, I nod to the owner and soon the song that I want her to hear is being played. I pull her in my arms and whisper 'listen to the words. I love you.' We slowly dance closely together, looking deep into her eyes to show her I mean it.

You are the tiger burning bright
Deep in the forest of my night
You are the one who keeps me strong in this world

She might not always realise it, but she helps me to go on. When I think that a day is utter crap, I think of her and I find new energy.

You sleep by the silent cooling streams
Down in the darkness of my dreams
All of my life I never knew
You were the dream I'd see come true
You are the tiger burning bright

She is my dream come true. There really are no other words for it.

I was the one who looked so hard I could not see.
Now I could never live without the love you give to me.

I know I lived without her for years, but now that we are together, I don't think I could live on if anything happened to her. She makes me feel human and loved.

I lived like a wild and lonely soul,
Lost in a dream beyond control.
You were the one who brought me home down to earth.

She doesn't know half of the things that I have done to complete a mission or even just to survive. But now that is all in the past, I have left that behind to be with her.

For you are the tiger burning bright
Deep in the forest of my night
All of my life I never knew
You were the dream I'd see come true
You are the tiger burning bright

After the song is over she gives me a deep kiss and whispers 'thank you. I love you too. Now wait here.' And I see her talking to the owner and soon hear the intro of a jazzy song. I realize that he is the same singer as in the song I heard in the plane so many months ago, when I thought I had lost her for good. However, this song is quite different. Stephanie comes back to me and pulls me close. She whispers in my ear 'this is how you make me feel,' and then kisses me. The song starts slow, but soon turns into a sexy, jazzy song. I listen to the lyrics and soon a smile spreads over both our faces while we dance together.

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

I like the lyrics and Steph is positively sparkling tonight. Lots of things have changed for her as well in the last 6 months, and I'm glad that it makes her feel good. That I make her feel good.

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom on a tree
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

She moves with a sexy ease that catches the eyes of every man in the club. Still, she only has eyes for me. She sparkles just for me. And I feel very proud.

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That's what I mean
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

I suppose being with me was the biggest gamble of her life, because she left life as she knew it behind. So did I. But it has only improved our lives.

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good

After that song we go back to our table to have another drink and chat, but after a while I suddenly remember another song that I like and I also associated with Stephanie. I make my request and pull her with me to the dance floor. Soon our hips are swinging with the Latin rhythm. Steph is a very good dancer and when she recognizes the words, she gives me a dangerous smile and then grinds her hips to me, making me feel I'm about to explode. She is drop dead gorgeous and very attractive. And sexy as hell.

She's into superstitions black cats and voodoo dolls.
I feel a premonition that girl's gonna make me fall.
She's into new sensations new kicks in the candle light.
She's got a new addiction for every day and night.

I fell for her, hard. Right from the day we met.

She'll make you take your clothes off and go dancing in the rain.
She'll make you live her crazy life but she'll take away your pain
like a bullet to your brain. Come On!

She is better than any painkiller or drug I ever had.

Upside, inside out she's livin la vida loca
She'll push and pull you down, livin la vida loca
Her lips are devil red and her skin's the color mocha
She will wear you out livin la vida loca Come On!
Livin la vida loca, Come on!
She's livin la vida loca.

Her life is not standard, and it's dangerous. But it's hers and she wants to live it that way.

Woke up in New York City in a funky cheap hotel
She took my heart and she took my money
she must've slipped me a sleeping pill
She never drinks the water and makes you order French Champagne
Once you've had a taste of her you'll never be the same
Yeah, she'll make you go insane.

After our one night together, I was hooked. I know I sent her back to Morelli, but that was because I was afraid of the strength of my own feelings.

She'll make you take your clothes off and go dancing in the rain.
She'll make you live her crazy life
but she'll take away your pain like a bullet to your brain. Come On!

She's made me do some crazy stuff she doesn't even know about. The guys were laughing their asses off when they found out who had me running in circles.

After 4 minutes of this 'torture' I can see she is reviewing songs in her mind and I see her eyes lit up when she remembers one that she wants me to hear. She almost runs to the owner to organize it. I almost laugh out loud when I hear which one she has picked. I have seen the movie and know she is playing with my ego. Which is big enough to take it, mind you.

One eye on the shadows, protecting his fellows,
From sun up till the moon on his back.
Send the villains to Hades, a hit with the ladies
a stallion, in the sack.

She licks her lips after that last line and I feel good about myself. The lovemaking is phenomenal.

You can't get your life back, when right follows left Jack,
The more you see, the less you know.
When others would leak it, his service is secret.
Plays God when it's your time to go.

I've always wondered if she knew how close that last line was to the truth not that long ago…

Queen and country safe and sound, with villains six feet under ground.
And no one knows cause no ones found any trace of a man for all seasons.
Loves 'em and leaves 'em alone...so alone
And you and I wouldn't have a clue, whose doing what, why, when and who, up the creek with no canoe,
watch out for the man for all seasons, loves 'em and leaves 'em alone...so alone (but safe at home)

From the House of Lords saving Norfolk broads,
Commoners and land a gentry.
His word is Bond with a brunette or blonde, baby it's so elementary.
For the man never ends, stop your life with one stare,
See the film you'll know how it goes
This ain't no fiction, just check the diction, with pro quo, a pro's pro.

Glad to see she thought I ranked right up there with James Bond and the likes!

Hey fellas, don't be jealous, when they made him they broke the mould. So charismatic, with an automatic,
Never prematurely shooting his load.

Queen and country safe and sound, with villains six feet under ground.
And no one knows cause no one's found any trace of a man for all seasons.
Loves 'em and leaves 'em alone...alone
And you and I wouldn't have a clue whose doing what, why when and who, up the creek with no canoe,
watch out for the man for all seasons, loves 'em and leaves 'em alone...so alone (but safe at home)

I do like to know that she is somewhere safe when I leave the house for a takedown. It's one less worry, I suppose.

But safe at home X6

Queen and country safe and sound, with villains six feet under ground.
And no one knows cause no ones found any trace of a man for all seasons.
Loves 'em and leaves 'em alone...alone
And you and I wouldn't have a clue whose doing what, why when and who, up the creek with no canoe,
watch out for the man for all seasons, loves 'em and leaves 'em alone...so alone (but safe at home)

I have to get even for that one, and while we are having another drink, I'm trying hard to think of a good song. Suddenly I know a good one. I give her a sexy look and walk over to Javier, the owner and good friend of mine, to put in my request. We walk to the dance floor again, and I think we are both having x-rated thoughts as soon as this song starts.

Spy on me baby use satellite
Infrared to see me move through the night
Aim gonna fire shoot me right
I'm gonna like the way you fight

Now you found the secret code I use
to wash away my lonely blues
So I can't deny or lie cause you're
the only one to make me fly.

Chorus:
Sexbomb Sexbomb you're a Sexbomb
You can give it to me, when I need to come along
Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on.

No don't get me wrong ain't gonna do you no harm (no)
This bomb's for lovin' and you can shoot it far
I'm your main target come and help me ignite
Love struck holding you tight.

Make me explode although you know
the route to go to sex me slow
And yes, I must react to claims of those
who say that you are not all that.

2x Chorus:

(Break)
You can give me more and more counting up the score
You can turn me upside down and inside out
You can make me feel the real deal
And I can give it to you any time because you're mine

Chorus:
Sexbomb Sexbomb you're a Sexbomb
You can give it to me, when I need to be turned on

Sexbomb Sexbomb you're my Sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on. 8x

A lot of the people in the club and the entire staff has realized what is going on by now, and they are loving every moment of it. They are watching Steph to see how she will 'retaliate' after my last song. It's getting late and Javier approaches us to tell Steph that if she wants to request another song, she'll have to do it soon so they can play it as the last song before closing. I can see her mind going into overdrive and then she jumps up and runs over to Javier to give him the last song for tonight. I can see he is smiling at her request and seems to agree with her choice. He asks her something and she looks at him in surprise. Javier looks at me and then to Steph again and seems to try to convince her about something. Steph looks at me again, eyes liquid with desire and then seems to agree with him. He gives her a quick hug and she comes back to our table, smiling. After the current song has ended, Javier gives Steph a nod and we move to the dance floor again. The staff and some of the guests are laughing and cheering at Steph, saying 'you go, girl'. It seems to me that they know which song she requested, and I'm getting even more curious now. Steph gets this devilish look in her eyes and I know I'm in deep trouble, but only of the good kind. Javier grabs the microphone and walks on the little stage in front of the dance floor that is used for live performances.

"Ladies and gentleman, the next song will be the last song for tonight. Now, as all of you have noticed, Carlos and Stephanie here have been playing songs for each other all night. This last song is a song that Stephanie requested, so I would like to ask her and Carlos to come on stage. Everybody else, I'd say grab your partner and enjoy this last song for tonight. I thank you for coming, hope you had a great night and see you again soon." He clicks off the microphone and sets a chair up on the stage. Stephanie is dragging me to the stage and we climb on it. She pushes me in the chair and then Javier hands her a black hat that she puts on. It looks really good on her. She is wearing her hair up tonight, and the hat adds a touch of masculinity that is very attractive. I swallow and try to relax. I see a lot of men looking at her with desire in their eyes and feel a surge of pride and possession going through me. Yep guys, she is stunning and sexy and she's going home with ME.

As soon as I hear the first notes, I recognize the song. She gives me a sexy smile and starts dancing around me, hips moving suggestively. I can't do anything but looking at her in admiration. She is amazing and I love her completely.

Baby
take off your coat
real slow.
Take off your shoes
I'U. take off your shoes.
Baby
take off your dress
yes
yes
yes.
You can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on.
Go on over there
turn on the light
no
all the lights.

Steph is still dancing in front of me, but when I make a move to get up, she puts her hand on my chest and pushes me back down. I groan. It's going to take all my self control not to jump her right here, right now. No matter who is watching. She turns her back to me, and leans forward, her fine ass at eye level. I reach out to touch her, but she moves away from me with a stern look. No touching. She is torturing me and enjoying every minute of it. She knows exactly how much I like to touch. Then, slowly she bends her knees, swaying hips side to side and parks her lovely behind on my lap. My hands rest on her hips, but she grabs them and leans backwards, hanging my hands behind the chair. Another firm look. Really no touching, really torturing me. I know I will find it hard to keep my hands to myself and I clasp them together behind the chair to restrain myself. Then she starts to move and oh my god do I think I will explode. But every time I think I'm going to come, she will stop for just a few seconds. She knows my body well enough already to keep me on the edge, but not allowing me to go over. I lean my head back and swallow, taking deep breaths to calm myself down a little. Oh, who am I kidding, nothing but a dive in an ice bath will cool me off.

Come over here
stand on that chair
yeah
that's right.
Raise your arms in the air
now shake 'em.
you give me reason to live - you give me reason to live -
you give me reason to live - you give me reason to live.

Suddenly she is up again, turns and then puts her right foot on the chair, in between my legs. She is wearing super sexy black high heeled FMP's as Steph calls them. I look at her foot so close to my throbbing desire and swallow. The visual is very powerful. She moves her hands under her short dress and I'm going nuts wondering what she is doing. Then I see the top of her stocking. She is rolling it down, slowly, centimeter by centimeter. I swallow painfully. When it is halfway on her thigh she nods to me and I gently roll it all the way down. I take off her shoe and pull it off completely, then showing it to the crowd. Lots of cheers from the men. She puts her other foot between my legs and gently presses down with the tip of her shoe on my bulging pants. I grasp and let my head fall back. I open my eyes and look up at her face. She is so in control of this situation it almost scares me. You can put me in a war and I'll never feel overwhelmed. But add Stephanie to this equation and I feel like a school kid again. Good thing none of my men are here, because they would never be able to see Steph again without a hard on. After her nod I gently roll down her second stocking and show it to the crowd. More cheers. She presses her left food firmly between my legs before sliding it back in her shoes. I bite my lip to make sure I won't grab her.

Sweet darling - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on
baby - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on.

She walks to the back of the chair and grabs my hands, pulling them behind the chair again. Her hands slide down my front while she kisses my neck. I take in a shuddering breath, fighting the urge to touch her. Suddenly a woman from the crowd calls out loud:

"The guys got the stockings, now we girls want something too!" Steph looks her way and then tips the black hat that she is still wearing, indicating her agreement. Uh oh!

"Babe," I half groan, half growl.

"The lady is right, Ranger," she whispers in my ear and then starts to undo my bow tie. She holds it up to the crowd and the women cheer and shouting 'more, more'. Slowly, her hands slide under my jacket and she starts pushing it down. I lean forward a bit, so she can get it off completely. She shows it to the crowd and more cheers. Probably all the men whished they were in my seat and all the women whished they were in Steph's shoes, undressing me.

Suspicious minds are talkin'
they're tryin' to tear us apart !
They don't believe that it is love of mine -
They don't know what love is - they don't know what love is -
They don't know what love is - they don't know what love is -
I know what love is !

She looks at the woman who made the comment earlier on, and mouths 'more?' with a wicked grin because she can guess the answer and the woman nods enthusiastically, cheering and clapping. I can see Javier standing to the side, smiling broadly. Seems he likes to see me in this position for once. He has seen me with many women in my days, but usually they were all over me when I wasn't interested beyond sex. I suppose this is my payback for all those broken hearts I left. And let's face it, best payback I ever had. She is kissing my neck again, her arms over my shoulders and her fingers prying loose the buttons of my shirt, starting at the top one. The crowd gets louder with every button she opens, exposing more and more skin. Finally she gets to the last one, and she slowly slides it off my shoulders, her hands feeling hot on my skin. On one hand I never want this to end, she is so incredibly sexy! But on the other hand I want this to end because my control has limits and I am getting very close to those limits. I'm afraid I might come right here on the stage if this goes on for much longer. My heart is beating wildly in my chest and I feel sweat forming itself on my forehead.

There ain't no way - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on - you can leave your hat on -
Give me the reason to live - you can leave your hat on!

Steph flashes a satisfied smile at the audience and struts to my front again. She puts her legs at either side of my legs, facing me, and grinds her hips to me while she looks me in the eyes and I know I have a whole night of delicious lovemaking ahead of me. She's just warming me up… More like frying me alive… Her dress rides up her legs and another grind and my breath hitches. Two more of those and I'll be going over the edge.

"Babe…" I meant to say it in a warning tone, but it comes out all husky and breathless. She grinds again and I can feel myself being on the verge. One more and I'll finally get some release. I almost will her to move, but she stops again, leaving me trembling with desire and frustration. The audience is forgotten when our eyes meet again. Her eyes are large and deep blue. There is so much love in them that I fall in love all over again with her. She slowly moves one hand from my shoulder down over my chest and abs and my eyes follow that hand with desire. I lean forward and our lips touch in a deep and intimate kiss. God, how much I want her. How much I need her!

"Later, Ranger," she chuckles in my ear while trailing kisses alongside my jaw and my neck. She bites me in the shoulder and I can't suppress a shiver. I am sooo ready for her I'm afraid I'll come before we even get started. Finally the song comes to an end and the crowd cheers and applauds for our little show. Me, I just can't wait to get out of here. I grab our clothes and give them to Stephanie. She grabs them and then I grab her, lifting her in my arms. I look at the audience and smile:

"We'll be going now," and I jump down from the stage. The people let us through, laughing and applauding, while I quickly walk to the exit. My car is parked nearby and right now the only thing on my mind is to get home asap.

"In a hurry, Ranger?" Steph purrs with her mouth in my neck. When she bites me again I almost drop her. She knows how much I like that.

"Babe," is the only thing that I can get out of my mouth. We arrive at the Porsche and I put Steph in. Staying within the speed limits means we need about 20 minutes to drive back. I'm thinking today I will need half that amount of time.

Stephanie is looking at me and I can see her hand snaking down her dress. She knows I am watching her from the corner of my eye and slowly I see that hand sliding under her dress. Oh my god! She is playing with herself! When my right hand snakes out her husky voice fills the car.

"Nuh huh, Ranger. Remember, no touching." My hand hangs out in the air for a moment before I have enough will power to put it back on the steering wheel again. I grip the wheel in a death hold. It's the only way to keep me from pulling over the car and having my wicked way with her.

Steph POV

This night has been the best night ever, and it isn't over yet! I just love the way I can play with Ranger. I always thought that he had this unlimited control and everything, but since we are together I have found out that there are a few ways to break that control. And I happen to be very good at those ways! It is an incredibly sexy feeling. For some reason it empowers me and I dare to do much more than I had ever imagined. So while Ranger is driving home with record breaking speeds, a wicked idea pops into my head and I slowly move my hand down my dress. I can see him watching me from the corner of his eye, and smile inwardly. This will be one of those nights that we ruin each other for any other person on this world. When I tell him to remember the rules I can see him fighting for control. I have him on the edge alright! I slowly pull my dress up a little and let my fingers roam. I am just as turned on as he is, and I know it won't take long. It is evil to give myself some release and make him watch it, but I secretly suspect Ranger likes it that I push his limits. Must be a leftover from his army days. I moan a little and see his hands grip the wheel even firmer, his jaw muscles working hard. I am close now and I move my fingers a little faster. Oh yeah, this is really great. I feel the delicious feeling built up from deep inside me, taking over and filling my whole body. I gasp and moan out his name while my orgasm rips through my body. Ranger tries to watch the road between hot looks. His whole body is tense. By the time I am coming down to earth again, we are home. He drives the car in the garage and we both get out. Before I can turn around he is at my side, picking me up again and carrying me into the house and up to the bedroom. He strips my dress off me and tosses me on the bed while quickly stripping what is left over from his clothes off his body. He almost dives on me and we kiss frantically. I roll on top of him and start kissing his chest. He tries to pull me up, but I look at him and say:

"No touching, Ranger." He groans and drops back on the bed, his arms spread out, hands clawing at the sheets. A lesser man would have already said something along the lines of 'fuck the no touching' but Ranger is the type of man who will push himself to the limit. You remember, army and all. While I continue my trail of kisses down his chest and abdomen I can feel his muscles tremble in anticipation. I kiss the inside of his muscled thigh, and he jumps a little. His hands come up and I stop my movement. I watch his eyes and can actually see the fight going on in his head between giving in to his desire to grab me and fuck me senseless versus letting me continue my little torture without him touching me and then drops his arms to the bed again. I resume kissing his thigh, then moving up, low across his abdomen, coming close but just not touching him and then move to his other thigh. Ranger growls low in his throat.

"If this is going to take any longer you better tie me to the bed, Babe, because I can't control myself much longer." Hot desire pulses through me. I know he says this because he thinks it means that I will move up and let him come inside me, but he has actually planted in image in my mind that I want to see in real life. So my answer surprises him a little.

"Then I'd better cuff you, because I intend this to take much, much longer," I purr. I reach in the bedside table on my side and fish out 2 pairs of cuffs. Lula had hinted to me about amazing sex and cuffs, especially because it meant that the Merry Man for once didn't have the power. Not that any of them would actually abuse that physical power at any time, but seeing them UNABLE to use it was something else entirely. At least that's what Lula said. I had thought about it and liked the idea, so I had put 2 pairs of cuffs in the drawer of the table on my side, but so far the right moment to try it hadn't come up yet. Tonight, however, was perfect. There is only one possibility with our current bed, and that is to cuff his hands together and then to use a second pair of cuffs to attach them to the bed. I first attach a handcuff to the bed and attach the other end of it to the chain between the second pair. Ranger seems so surprised that he lets me move his arms above his head without protest when I grab them. Then I click the second pair around his wrists. The cold metal on his wrists seem to make him realize what's going on, because he tries to move his arms away and the cuffs stop him with a snap. For a split second I can see an emotion in his eyes that almost looks like fear and panic before he tries to put his blank face in place.

"Steph…" He sounds unsure. I have wondered if he would allow me to restrain him because Ranger is a man that is always in control and that likes to be in control. Sometimes I think he is so used to being in control that it scares him to relinquish the power to someone else. And there is something else. When he is cuffed to the bed, he won't be able to do much when something goes wrong. And this is a man who is so security conscious that nobody can get to any of his properties without at least being on camera. I suppose for Ranger it feels very unnatural to give up his freedom of movement when it isn't necessary so to say. On the other hand I think that it will give him an even greater rush if he does, exactly because of that. And of course there is that little thing of me being extremely turned on by seeing Ranger loose control, in more ways than one. So I try to persuade him.

"Do you trust me, Ranger?" I ask him. He nods, but I can see his arms are still straining against the cuffs.

"Really trust me, Ranger?" He closes his eyes for a moment, takes a few deep breaths and then looks into my eyes. I try to show the love that I feel and after a long moment he slowly nods again, this time relaxing his arms a bit.

Ranger POV

When she grabs the cuffs from the bedside table I'm very surprised. My mind immediately goes back to Tanks words a few weeks ago: 'it is so good, you should try it'. Steph is attaching the cuffs to the bed while I'm still contemplating this issue. She grabs my arms and pulls them over my head and with a snap I feel the cold cuffs close around my wrists. Whoa, hang on! I pull away, but the cuffs are already secured to the bed and I'm trapped. For a moment my worst nightmare flashes in front of my eyes, where a person that I love gets close to me before hurting me or killing me. It has happened before, and Steph knows nothing about that. It was one of the major reasons why I vowed never EVER to get close to anyone again…

I tell myself to calm down and that Stephanie isn't going to hurt me, but I feel very uncomfortable anyway.

"Do you trust me, Ranger?" she asks me. I nod, but the memories of the previous time I was in this position flash back and I feel panic deep inside me. The need to be free is overwhelming.

"Really trust me, Ranger?" she asks. Guess she's seen my discomfort. I close my eyes in an effort to calm myself and to get my mind to function again. I push the images from the last time I was in a position like this with cuffs on me to the back of my mind and take a few deep breaths. I'm not sure if I should tell Stephanie anything, maybe warn her about the possibility that I might freak because of memories of… I open my eyes, to make sure it is Stephanie who is in bed with me and not the woman in my nightmares. Steph is looking at me with large blue eyes, full of love and lust and I slowly relax a little. I do trust her and when she looks at me like that I can't refuse her anything, even if it scares the hell out of me. I slowly nod 'yes' and she gives me a smile that sends hot feelings through my body and I'm right back on the verge again.

"Then all you have to do is lay back and enjoy the ride," she whispers in my ear, softly kissing a pulsing vein in my neck.

I suppose I'm about to find out if it is really true that love, lust and a touch of fear combined give the best sex ever…

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The next chapter CAN be full of Ranger/Stephanie lovemaking, if you guys are interested that is… So let me know if you're in for some serious smut!

Songs used in chronological order:

- KATIE MELUA: "Tiger In The Night"

- MICHAEL BUBLE: "Feeling Good"

- RICKY MARTIN: "Livin' la Vida Loca"

- ROBBIE WILLIAMS: "Man of all Seasons"

- TOM JONES: "Sexbomb"

- JOE COCKER: "You can leave your hat on"