Chapter Two: You Need Him to Fly
Disclaimer: Don't own a thing except "You Need Him to Fly," and the plot line. "Goodbye My Lover," is James Blunt's, so not mine either.
Begin Chapter Two
I'm sitting at the studio trying to write a song. It's there, but not there if you know what I mean. Ugh, this is so frustrating. Come on…
Then hands cover my eyes, and "Guess who?" is whispered in my ear. I sniff the air.
"Hey, Tom." He pouts as he spins my chair to face him.
"How'd you know?"
"Your cologne."
"Darn…"
"Hey Tom? Can you help me on a song?"
"Sure, whatcha got so far?"
"Nothing." He grins.
"Situation."
"There's this girl. She's finally together with the man she loves. But she's not sure if it's not just dream. She's scared of rejection, and never seeing this man again. She's confused."
"Jude… Is there a problem? With us?"
"Tom, I love you. But I'm just afraid that if I look away… You're going to disappear." He grabs her hand.
"Jude, I'm not going anywhere. I love you."
She looks away. "Why can't I believe you…" She whispers.
He drops her hand, and takes a step back.
"Jude… You can't believe that I love you?"
"Tom, I'm just afraid that one day you'll take it back. That you'll leave me again, like you did when I was 17. I forgave you then. I'm not sure if I could forgive you again. I can't say I'm not afraid of you breaking my heart. There's just so many ways that our "love" could crumble. All those holes in the wall that one push could knock it down. I'm scared Tom."
He looks shocked, angry, sad, and heartbroken, all at once. His face then goes emotionless.
"Then I guess we shouldn't be together."
"Tom! I'm just trying to be honest!"
"Well so am I. Goodbye Jude."
He walks out the door, as I fall to the floor in tears. I never saw the tears in his eyes as he walked away, and I never would.
I walk into G-Majors the next morning, and into Studio A. I never expected Tom to be in there already, so I walked in then straight back out, without him knowing because of the headphones. I ran out into the alley with my guitar, notebook, and a pencil, and I wrote a song.
Apparently Tom didn't notice, so I was went back in after awhile, and knocked on Darius' door.
"Come in." I enter. "Jude! How nice to see you."
"D, I need a new producer." He looks shocked.
"But you and Tom work great together."
"Yea… But we had a bad… encounter… and I don't think I can work with him anymore." My voice cracked toward the end, as tears sprung to my eyes.
"What happened Jude?"
"It was nothing." I wipe my eyes. "I just can't work with Tom anymore."
"Ok, anything for my best artist. You're new producer will be here tomorrow." I went to walk out the door, but turned back.
"And 2 more things, D. Please don't tell Tom. And can I transfer to New York?"
"Sure."
"And remember, don't tell Tom." The door opened slightly.
"Don't tell me what?" Tom said, as he walked into the room. Tears sprang to my eyes, again.
"T, meeting later."
"Ok, D."
"I have one more song for now. Let's go record, T-" I stopped myself. "Let's go." I leave the room, with… him… following me. I smiled slightly, with tears threatening to fall. The last Jommy song…
I got into the Recording Booth. Tom sat down. I grabbed my acoustic guitar.
"5… 4… 3…" He counted the rest with his fingers. I started playing, a slow, sad, painful tune. Then I started to sing.
Sway to the music this way then that way,
Lose yourself in your lover's eyes,
Wait cautiously for another day,
Watch out for cloudy skies...
Decide when you're gonna pop the question,
Ask about what we are,
Prepare yourself for deception,
I guess you didn't this through that far...
Spread your wings,
And try to fly,
Or stay on the ground,
And try to get by,
Separate the good from the bad,
The happy from the sad,
And un-say your good-bye,
Cuz you need him to fly...
A dangerous path you tread upon,
Laughing your way through the pain,
Thorns and rocks, Countless stops,
Are only minor setbacks upon the way...
Be sure that you really love him,
Before you set out on this journey,
Be sure you recognize ever thing about him,
Before you go topsy-turvy...
Spread your wings,
And try to fly,
Or stay on the ground,
And try to get by,
Separate the good from the bad,
The happy from the sad,
And un-say your good-bye,
Cuz you need him to fly...
He's the air beneath your wings,
Your voice when you sing,
But can you know if he'll just leave...
He's the blood you need,
He's seen you at your worse, and stayed...
But now you're at your best,
And he just left...
What can you do now?... Now,
Spread your wings,
And try to fly,
Or stay on the ground,
And try to get by,
Separate the good from the bad,
The happy from the sad,
And un-say your good-bye,
Cuz you need him to fly...
Spread your wings,
And try to fly,
Or stay on the ground,
And try to get by,
Separate the good from the bad,
The happy from the sad,
And un-say your good-bye,
Cuz you need him to fly...
I saw Tom get up and leave, leaving, me to break into tears again.
I don't know how long I was in there, but then Tom came back in looking pissed off.
"You happy now Jude?"
"About what?"
"That Darius just fired me."
"What?"
"Oh, right, like you didn't know."
"Tom, why did Darius fire you?"
"Because you asked for a new producer."
"But you have other artists."
"Not anymore, girl." The way he said girl, with so much venom… I almost started to cry. I walked out.
A Week Later…
I walk into the studio, after having a hard week. I had a song. And I knew Tom was here, so I could record it. I walked into Studio A.
I tapped Tom on the shoulder. He turned around, saw me , and glared at me.
"What do you want?"
"Can I record one last song?"
"Whatever." I walked into the Recording Booth. I grabbed my acoustic with shaky hands.
"5… 4… 3…" He counted the rest with his hands. I started playing. Another slow song. It was about my goodbye. I started to sing.
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
He walked out again, only this time he didn't come back. I went to Darius, and he said Tom was leaving. He had finished all that he had to finish, so he left for the States.
"Where?"
"I don't know Jude."
"Just go to New York, and forget about him."
"Thanks for everything D."
"No Problem."
And I walked out of that office, and out of G-Majors, never to return.
End Chapter Two
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