A/N: Alrighty. Right after I finished watching the season premiere, this popped into my mind. Speaking of the season premiere, I don't know what I'll do without Olivia for the next six weeks. Elliot's face when he found out Olivia was gone was priceless and basically what inspired me to write this. It's very rare for me to be proud of my writing, but I'm actually quite proud of this (I cried while writing it xD). Oh, since I never posted any stories right after the Emmys, belated congratulations to Mariska for her win and Chris for his nomination. One last thing, "Hurricane" is by Something Corporate. Okay, I'll stop blabbing now. R&R, kiddos :)

Summary: "You make my heart numb, you know that? I never even knew that could happen to a person until you left." EO. Songfic. PostInformed.

Disclaimer: Why hello there, my name is Dick Wolf and I do, indeed, own Law & Order... Dick Wolf mask falls off Dammit! Ugh, no, I'm not Dick Wolf, and I do not own Law & Order :(

Hurricane

Shake down you make me break
For goodness sake
I think I'm on the edge
Of something new with you

Gone.

You're gone and I didn't even get to say goodbye. As I wasted my time lying in a hospital bed, you were leaving. You left and you didn't say goodbye to me. Now I can't help but pray that you're not in danger. Cragen couldn't tell me if you were still working on the eco-terrorist case, but I know you are. I know you're risking your life. I could handle you risking your life on the job because I was there. I could watch over you, I could protect you. I wanted to protect you, Liv. I still do. I just wish you would be here to let me.

Shout out don't drown the sound
I'll drown you out
You'll never scream so loud
As I want to scream with you

What hurts me the most is that you didn't even say goodbye to me. After all we've been through, you couldn't even pay me the decency of a simple goodbye? Somehow I think this is my fault. Maybe if I treated you better, if I'd paid more attention to you, you wouldn't have agreed to keep working on the case- or maybe you would've at least said goodbye to me.

What'd I do wrong, Liv? Please, just tell me what I did wrong so I can fix it and you can come back. Oh, that's right, you can't tell me what I did wrong because you're not here. I keep forgetting that.

Standing there with your smile blinding
Your eyes from seeing
My face as I'm dying
To figure out a girl

Actually, that's a lie. I haven't stopped thinking about you and that you are, in fact, gone since I got back to the precinct. I distantly hear Fin telling me to "go home, man", but I can't. My legs are numb, my head is numb…my heart is numb, Liv.

But she drifts so far away
I'm on her coast
So maybe I should stay
And map around your world

You make my heart numb, you know that? I never even knew that could happen to a person until you left. It first happened when you left after the Gitano case, now the same feeling, the same numbness, is there again- only stronger.

So don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into your hurricane

When you left after the Gitano case, I knew why you had left; I knew I had pushed you to leave- me and my stupid temper. I also knew that there was a good chance of me seeing you when cases had to be taken to computer crimes- I hoped every case would have to be taken to computer crimes.

Stand up don't make a sound
Your ears might bleed
There are sweet fluorescent enemies
That live inside of me

But now? I can't see you now, Olivia. I don't know where you are, what you're doing, or who you're with. I don't even know if you're thinking about me. Maybe you forgot about me? God, Liv, I hope you didn't forget about me. I think I'd shoot myself if you came back and didn't remember me.

The world moves faster than I knew
Not fast enough to not creep up on you
And the space we put between
So pull me under your weather patterns
Your cold fronts and the rain don't matter
Because a sun burn's what I needed

I want you to come back, Liv. I need you to. I know you're doing this for the safety of millions, but you do that on a daily basis here…with me.

So don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into your hurricane

My hands are drenched in tears, Olivia. I've tried to hold them back, but I can't. I can't do it anymore. I can't keep pretending that I'm fine whenever you leave because I'm not, I'm not fine at all. Hell, I even get afraid when you leave the room and I don't know where you're going. I just wish I knew where you were.

You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Now I count the hours 'til you wake
With your baby's breath
Breathe symphonies
Come on sweet catastrophe

I don't know what it is, but I have a feeling you won't be back any time soon. It might be because when I asked Cragen if I was getting a temporary new partner, he shrugged, or it might be because you haven't forgiven me for pushing you away. But that's just it Liv, I don't want a new partner. I don't want to work with anyone else. I just want you.

Maybe this time I can follow through
I can feel complete
Stop paying dues
Stop the rain from falling
Keep my oceans calm
This time I know nothing's wrong

I wish I hadn't been in the hospital when you made the decision to keep working this case. I could've stopped you. I could've kept you here. I might sound selfish Liv, but I need you here. You're all I have left. I love you, Olivia.

So don't say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into your hurricane

A/N: You know what to do :)