So 16 will be my last chapter in this series…. I will probably leave with a tearful goodbye… me being the one who is crying. I will miss these characters a lot.. but I have run out of ideas. Time to move on to the next story which will be Supernatural as well… but a new one. It wont be up for at least a week because school and all that. But I won't say goodbye just yet since there are 2 more chapters to be read…

This is all from Annie's POV, but everyone else is in it as well…and it is very very long…

Chapter 15: The Uncertainty

(A few months later)

My job should have been Gabi's job. But no, I got stuck with it. Ok I liked it, but I wasn't nearly as good as she was at it, but I needed to work, and this paid a hell of a lot more then hunting… which paid nothing.

I was an events coordinator. I planned parties for rich people. Sounds fun right? Not so much. They wanted everything so precise and then would change their minds at the last minute. And I was not a patient person.

But I had my outlets. Dean and music. I would say Sam and Gabi… but they had their own problems so why worry them with mine. And I didn't really have a problem, except this whiny twenty one year old girl who was making her parents throw her a huge and outrageous birthday party that got shoved on to me. But was making like five hundred an hour, so I could deal with the whiny almost twenty one year old.

Music was really helping me though. I had started writing again, and playing. I had missed it so much and was glad to be doing it again, and if Dean would quit being such a damn distraction I may be able to finish it once in a while. But I didn't mind his distraction techniques, they were actually rather fun.

Today I was exhausted and pissed. That girl could seriously do a person damage.

"Dean are you here?" I yelled as I came through the door. He came out from the back.

"Hey, what's up?" He asked. I just waved my hand at him and he got the point. I didn't want to talk about it. So instead he came up closer to me and wrapped me in his arms.

"I can not wait until this party is over… after that I am quitting. Well ok I'm not quitting, but I am never doing a birthday party for anyone under the age of 30." I told him. He kissed the top of my head.

Even with four inch heels on I still only came up to right under Dean's chin. This seriously amazed me.

"God I'm short." I muttered absent mindedly as I stepped out of my shoes. "These are actually pointless for me."

He just laughed and looked down at me.

"Yeah but if you were tall I don't think you'd be half as hot." He said. I laughed a little. "Seriously though… then you'd be scary. I mean you are already intimidating as a little person, so if you were bigger I might have to run and hide or something."

I narrowed my eyes and hit him on the arm.

"Hey can we by any chance go hunting soon? I need to kill something." I said as I started walking back to our room to change.

"I am guessing you mean demonic forces of evil hunting?" He asked as he followed me.

"Do I do any other kind?" I replied from the closet.

"Annie I thought we were going to quit that? Or try to unless it was necessary, we don't want that realm place to get any idea of where you are." He said.

"I know… but I just feel right doing that. After everything we have done and seen, anything else just seems like a huge joke." I said emerging from the closet in pink sweat Capri's and a black tank top.

"I understand trust me, but there is no way I am letting anything take you away from me again." He told me softly and seriously. I looked up at him and his eyes had some kind of darkness in them. Something that told me just how serious he was about protecting me.

"Dean, can I tell you something?" I asked.

"You always can…" He replied. I stood on the tips of my toes so that I could reach to kiss him. I pressed my lips to his briefly and pulled back.

"I love you a lot." I said smiling. He laughed a little and lifted me off the ground and started carrying me to the living room.

"I love you a lot too." He said.

"Why are you carrying me? I can walk you know." I said staring him down.

"Yeah I know, but I am going to have serious neck problems if I have to keep looking down at you, so I figure this is easier, plus I get to touch you and that is always a good thing." He explained.

"But if you keep carrying me you are going to have serious back problems." I pointed out. He looked at me like I was insane.

"Don't even joke about that. You haven't even gained everything back that you lost while you were in the realm…" He said as he sat us down in a huge chair.

But he was right. When I had gotten back everyone was worried about me so Gabi took me to the doctor. She told me I had been kidnapped and found a way home. It was elaborate, but still kind of true with out the Supernatural part. Apparently I had weighed only eighty three pounds at that time, which was dangerous. And I hadn't gotten back to my normal one hundred four yet, which still wasn't anywhere near average, but I was fine with it, and I was somewhere in the nineties.

But still, a girl never felt little enough, not even me.

So I just sighed and looked up at him. He was serious. I know what happened to me back then scared him, but it had been almost a year. I decided we needed a subject change.

"I know something important that happens next week." I said smiling. He clamped his eyes together.

"It isn't that important…" He said. I laughed.

"Yes it is, since it is the first one we have ever spent together. Plus I owe you something incredible." I told him.

"Yeah but that was back before I was going to be…." He didn't want to say the last part.

"Twenty-nine?" I asked. He cringed.

"Don't even say it… it sounds bad." He replied. I laughed and decided that it was time to give his ego a boost instead of a hit.

"I don't think you have anything to worry about. You are still the most attractive guy I have ever seen." I told him. He smirked.

"Well I know that, it is just now I am going to be an attractive old guy." He said mocking himself.

"Don't worry babe, you aren't old until you hit thirty-five, so we still have about six years before I need to start looking for someone to have an affair with." I teased. He shook his head and smirked again.

"You really are not funny." He said smiling.

"But you still love me." I replied, matching his smile.

"Yeah, more then that guy you are going to have an affair with ever will. If I ever meet him I am going kill him." He joked.

"Oh so you are dangerous now? That is hot…" I said laughing.

"I have always been dangerous; you just aren't scared of anything…" He replied. I laughed even harder. I loved our joke times, they were fun.

"You're right I'm not… well except my husband getting old…" Ok now I was in for it.

Dean started tickling me and before I knew it he had me pinned underneath him and was holding both of my hands over my head.

I suddenly had a flashback of something important, something from the second day we knew each other in that small inn in Blooming Valley Pennsylvania. It was our first kiss…

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"What, so you're saying you don't want to leave us?" He asked. I think I blushed a little.

"Yea, that is what I'm saying." He smiled some.

"Well I can see why you wouldn't want to leave me, I mean come on I am only the best looking guy you will ever meet, but why you want to be around my brother is something I don't think I will ever figure out." Dean joked. I laughed and hit him with a pillow.

"Shut up Winchester." I said laughing.

"Shut up? Oh no you did not just say that to me." He replied.

"Oh yea? What are you going to do about it mister?" I asked. Then he got a mischievous look on his face and had no idea what I got myself into. Then in and instant I was pinned underneath him and being tickled.

I don't think I have ever laughed this hard in my life.

"Ok, ok" I said through laughing. "I take it back!"

He had my arms pinned over my head. "You serious?" He said grinning. I stared into his green eyes and lost myself there.

"Yes, I'm serious." I whispered as I caught my breath.

He kissed me. And I did not want this to end. When he let go of my wrists, he moved his hands to my waist and started to gently trace them up my sides. This gave me shivers.

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"This seems familiar…." I said quietly. He must have been thinking the same thing.

"I think I liked what happened as a result…" He replied.

"Well, maybe we could relive the memory… of course with out your brother walking in with bagels and coffee…" I whispered smiling. Dean didn't need to think twice before kissing me. It was soft and heated, one that could have lasted forever…..

But we were wrong about one thing.

"Hey guys, I just wanted to….." Sam didn't need to have a key. Dean and I broke apart and looked up to see him laughing.

"This seems a little familiar…." He said. I couldn't contain it anymore and started laughing.

"What do you want Sam?" Dean clearly wasn't as amused as we were. We got off of the floor and walked over to Sam.

"Just wanted to give you these, they are papers on something Dad has been looking for, he wanted me to give it to you and told me not to worry about it." He told us as he handed Dean the papers.

"Yes! Something to kill! Where?" I asked as I literally jumped.

"Annie, are you having some anger issues?" Sam asked, still laughing.

"Yes and I would love to take them out on some kind of creature or demon or spirit. It would make my day!" I exclaimed. Dean flipped through the papers and then handed them to me.

It was a Wendigo. I never liked these.

"Last time we dealt with one of these it wasn't so great… We got everyone out, but it wasn't easy…" Sam said.

"Yeah and we had to go in the freaking wilderness. I hated that…." Dean muttered.

"I'll go…" I said. Dean looked at me as if I had lost my mind.

"You are crazy… you think any of us are going to let you go alone?" Dean replied. I looked up at Sam… he had the same look.

"Annie, seriously, not a good idea…" He told me. I rolled my eyes.

"You guys seem to get I had four years of practice on my own before you came around." I said, still looking through the papers.

"But there could be more then one, and we don't even know for sure if that is what it is yet. They are just leads… not facts." Sam told me.

"I just want to kill something…" I muttered quietly. They both laughed at me.

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The week went by and I had two things I needed to get.

One, Dean's birthday present. Two, my thoughts collected. And I knew the person to call.

"Gabi? Hey can you meet me for lunch today?" I asked on my phone as I walked to Starbucks.

Wait, I didn't need to go there. Shit, what was I going to do… oh well it couldn't do to much harm right now… and I needed to be calm.

"Yeah sure, what time?" She replied.

"Like an hour? At that café across the street from your studio." I said.

"K, I'll be there." She said. We hung up and against everything I had been told, I got a Venti Caramel Macchiato, because I needed it.

The hour passed and I went to meet Gabi, she was there waiting for me.

"Oh my god I need to talk to you…" I said as I crashed down in a chair.

"Woah, sweetie what's wrong? You look like you have been through a train wreck…" She said. I was rather scattered looking.

"I'm stupid. I am a stupid, stupid woman…" I muttered realizing what I had just done the hour before, I really screwed up now. She just looked at me.

"Care to elaborate Annie?" She asked.

"Gabi I'm pregnant." I said just as plainly as if I was ordering a cup of coffee. Her eyes widened.

"Annie! That doesn't make you stupid… I know it is scary but…" I stopped her.

"No Gabi you don't get it. There is no way I can keep this baby." I told her.

"What? But you and Dean are so great and will be good parents…" Ok I knew I wasn't explaining myself and I needed to before she drew her own conclusions.

"That isn't it. It's not because I don't want to… but physically I can't!" I exclaimed. Her eyes questioned me and I knew I had to get to the bad part.

So I took a deep breath and began.

"I already had a miscarriage, remember? You actually told me… and that damaged everything… and on top of that my doctor has diagnosed me with borderline anorexia, he wanted to admit me into the hospital, but I…." I made sure no one was watching or listening.

"You what?" She asked.

"I kind of used magic to stop him… but I was not about to go into a psych ward for something like this. I have been trying to gain my weight back but I've just been so stressed out…" I told her.

"But what does that have anything to do with you having a baby?" She said.

"I am not strong enough to do it… physically… and there is no way I can gain that strength in enough time. Either the baby will die or I will having it." I said as the reality of the situation hit me. Gabi looked at me sadly and I began to feel the tears in my eyes.

I didn't deserve this, not after everything that had happened.

"Is there anything you can do?" She said, unsure of what else to reply with.

"I can either have an abortion, or let the baby live and me die…" I said. And I didn't know what to do.

"What about Dean? What would he say?" She asked. I looked down.

"I can't tell him Gabi… after all this when things were going so amazing, and his birthday is in two days and… I just can't…" I said honestly.

"Annie you have to! I mean what are you going to do? Just get rid of it and not let him? Or go through the whole thing and then just…" She couldn't even say it.

"I know… but I don't want to…" I whispered.

"Keeping secrets from him has never turned out good in the past… you remember that right?" She asked. And I did. So I knew I had to tell him. And sooner was better then later.

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When I got home Dean was in the office looking up stuff on what we assumed was a Wendigo. I just stood and looked at him for a second and wrapped my arms around my waist. I didn't hesitate to let my eyes fill with tears.

Dean must have sensed I was in the room. He turned around and smiled but the smile quickly faded.

"What's wrong?" He asked as he hastily walked over to me. I shut my eyes and let one tear fall down my face.

"Let's go in here…" I said as I led us to the living room. We sat down and he tried to catch my gaze but I couldn't look at him.

This was my fault. If I had taken care of myself when I had gotten back this wouldn't have happened. But I was too consumed in what Memorian had done to me that I didn't. I actually made myself worse and now I had to punish myself, and Dean and some unborn thing inside me.

"Annie… come on what's wrong?" He said as he traced my arm with his hand. I sighed and let it out just like I did with Gabi.

"I'm kind of… well… pregnant?" I said it as if it were a question. Because it was in a way. I could feel the smile on his face.

"Don't get excited, it isn't a good thing." I whispered. I looked up and saw his confused expression.

"Dean, this really sucks because you don't deserve this, and neither do I, and it is a huge decision. But here is what is going on… After what happened before when I was in this situation it damaged me, I mean that kind of thing does that to a girl… and also I am apparently borderline anorexic and not strong enough to live through any kind of delivery and I don't have time to get my strength back. So in short… I can have the baby, but if I do… don't expect me to live." I said quickly.

"Come here…" He said as he pulled me into his arms.

"What are we going to do?" I whispered into his shoulder.

"If you are asking me to make a decision between you and it… my decision is you. Hands down and no second thoughts." He told me.

"This just doesn't seem fair." I said.

"That's because it isn't…. but I have gotten used to the fact that things can't go perfect for us for long periods of time. The world is always testing us… now why it won't just leave us the hell alone I don't understand. But if I can just be with you then I am always going to be ok." He said sincerely. I looked up at him and saw the tears in his eyes.

"Yeah… and maybe once I get my strength back we can actually do this right… you know, not as a surprise." I said. "I'm sorry… this has to be the worst birthday news ever…"

"Don't worry about it… my birthday isn't for two days, but I am expecting something amazing by the way." He joked, trying to lighten the mood. I smiled a little.

"You will get it, I promised remember?" I asked.

"I was just kidding though… I have to most amazing thing I could ever want already… and she is in my arms. Now unfortunately she is crying and I wish I could make all of that pain go away…" He said. I smiled a little more and relaxed.

"Hey Dean…" I said.

"Yeah babe?" He replied.

"Thanks for choosing me."