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ChiChi's Note: Ah, it was fun while it lasted my dearest readers. I am proud to present to you the last chapter of Black Butterfly. I'm sorry for not updating sooner, but I've now become somewhat dedicated student heh, yes that means no more sitting in the back of the class doing nothing and magically pulling off a crazy average that makes me seem like I'm copying off of someone. Anyways, enough with the excuses. Enjoy!
Last Kiss
Tomoyo understood. She had felt the pain of being alone for so long, but it all went away as soon as she met Eriol. She held the shard close to her wrist, her hand trembling. She was facing her worst fear… death. All these years, she could have committed suicide, but was too afraid of what could possibly happen to her when she died. Would she be sent to Hell for all the sins in her life, or would the God she worshiped possibly forgive her. She looked up at Eriol, but did not meet his eyes. He looked away with his hand partially covering his mouth. He seemed uncertain of something. That look on his face gave Tomoyo an uneasy feeling. She looked down at the jagged object in her hands. If she applied just a little more pressure, her skin would break and she would start to break. She stared down at her flawless pale skin; just imagining blood on it made her scared. She shut her eyes tightly and bit her lip. "Just breathe… breathe…" she whispered very quietly.
Finally she took in a deep breath and adjusted her grip on the mirror shard. She positioned it at the edge of her wrist and quickly moved to cut it. She gasped, completely terrified of what she had just done, and waited for the pain sent from her arm to reach her brain… but something didn't feel right. She opened one eye to gaze upon what she expected to be a gory mess. Her eyes widened as she looked upon Eriol's hand wrapped tightly around hers, bleeding from the mirror shard being torn from his ring finger to the end of his hand. His breathing quickened as his senses began kicking in, but he tried to slow it down to hide his weakness. "Eriol! Are you okay? Why did you do that?" Tomoyo shrieked.
Eriol gave a weak laugh, "I have no idea… I guess I felt it wasn't your time to die."
"But I finally gathered enough courage to do it!" Tomoyo argued, "Just let me and you won't be alone anymore."
Eriol opened his mouth to protest but a slamming noise from downstairs interrupted him. "Tama, are you here?" a boy's voice shouted.
There were a few murmurs that were hard to make out followed by a girl shouting out, "Tama! Come out!"
"Oh no, not them again," Tomoyo mumbled, recognizing the voices, and sliding closer over to Eriol for protection, "What do they want with me?"
Eriol sighed and placed a kiss on her forehead, "To protect you."
Tomoyo tilted her head. That seemed like an odd thing for him to say. Wasn't he there? Shouldn't he be the one protecting her? She held on tightly to his uninjured hand and looked into his eyes, trying to figure out the meaning of what he just said. Finally she gave up, "From… what?"
He had a sudden pained expression on his face, but it was quickly covered up by a smile, unfortunately it wasn't quick enough to hide from Tomoyo. He looked towards the door, completely ignoring her question. "Eriol, from what?" she urged on.
The door burst open and Syaoran stood at the door panting, his glare fixed on his cousin. He looked around the room and saw the mess, he then saw the shards on the ground and the shard Tomoyo still had in her hand. "So that's what you've been planning to do?" Syaoran asked in a furious tone, "How selfish are you?"
Syaoran marched over to Eriol and grabbed him by the collar. He pushed the boy against the wall and trapped him there by leaning against him, "I thought you said you loved her. I thought you said you'd kill anyone who tried to hurt her. Isn't that what you wrote in every one of your damn letters to me?"
Eriol look to the ground, "Indeed I did write it, and I intend on keeping that promise."
"Brave words for someone who's already dead," Syaoran spat, "I'm protecting her now so you can forget what ever is going on in that sadistic head of yours."
Tomoyo grabbed Syaoran's arm and dragged in away from Eriol, "What are you doing? Stop it! Eriol, what is he talking about? What's he protecting me from?"
She went to move towards him, but was stopped by Syaoran. She frowned at him then returned her attention to Eriol. Eriol smirked and leaned against the wall, "Me."
Tomoyo's eyebrows rose. How could he say that like it was so simple? She didn't want to believe it. She refused to believe that the person that she was closest to would ever be dangerous to her. Sakura ran into the room and gasped, "E-Eriol! So it's true, you are still alive!"
Eriol laughed, "Yeah, sure," he said sarcastically, "So you're here to take her away from me again, right? Just get it over with then my cute little cousin."
Syaoran glared at him, "Shut up."
He tightened his grip on Tomoyo's arm and pulled her out of the room. "Let me go! Eriol can't be bad, he just can't! He's all alone, please let me stay with him, no one deserves to be lonely!"
She looked back at him desperately for help but he just smiled at her, "Don't throw away your life for me. I don't think I'm worth it."
Right at that moment, she felt so betrayed. How could Eriol give up on their love so easily? How? She pulled her arm away from Syaoran and stared at Eriol. She had no idea what she was going to say to him but she knew she was going to have to say something. She felt so hurt from what he said that it was starting to make her cry. She finally smiled at him causing a tear to roll down her cheek. "Eriol… you're still the one that I hold dear," she finally said in a hinting tone, "My love for you will never die..."
It sounded unfinished, as if she was expecting him to end it. She could see hints of tears starting in his eyes. He saw that she noticed and looked away. Automatically, she knew that he wasn't going to answer. No matter how much she wanted him to, he just wasn't. She continued to smile and turned away from him. She left the house with Sakura and Syaoran. The smile she had on slowly faded and she wiped her tears away. They stepped outside and Tomoyo shielded her eyes from the light of the sun. "Um, Tam… Tomoyo, are you alright?" Sakura asked.
Tomoyo shook her head, "He didn't answer…"
She sighed and took a step off the porch. Suddenly hundreds of black butterflies came flying out from the tall, overgrown grass. Tomoyo stared at them in complete awe. She had never seen so many black butterflies in one place. The pure black butterflies fluttered around her causing her to giggle. She looked down at the ground just for a second and noticed something written on the cement in charcoal. There was the drawing he drew her, completed, on the cement and right underneath it in cursive English writing it said:
"…I love you my black butterfly."
She smiled and looked up at the window where her room was. Through the glass, she could see Eriol staring back down at her with a smirk on his face. She tugged on her locket and smiled at him. She mouthed, "I hate it when you smirk." She blew him a kiss then walked off with the couple, who were still amazed at the bugs all around.
Syaoran had sent Sakura off to get ready for their wedding and walked Tomoyo to the cabin. "I'm sorry for not telling you everything when you still had amnesia," Syaoran began guiltily.
Tomoyo tilted her head to the side, "What do you mean? Tell me what?"
"When I first saw you, I immediately knew that you were Tomoyo," he looked away trying to look at her, "Eriol described you perfectly in his letters to me while he was in England. Ever since he first saw you he couldn't stop writing about you to me. You were exactly like the girl he described in his letters. I couldn't say anything though. Everyone believed that you killed him and I didn't want to put you in danger, so I kept it a secret. When you began to mention his name, I panicked. I was angry with myself for not getting rid off all evidence of him, but I took my anger out on you. Luckily you didn't catch on to the fact that I knew, so I thought that maybe, you'd never know as well. That's what Eriol would have wanted."
"So… you knew," she stated, trying to get the facts straight, "And you did everything in your power to stop me from remembering."
He nodded. Finally they stopped at the beginning of the field. "The cabin should be twenty minutes from here. Just follow the trail," Syaoran instructed.
"Thank you," she smiled at him then waved as she continued down the trail.
"Wait! Tomoyo!" he shouted. She turned and waited for him to say something. He sighed and bowed to her, "I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble."
Tomoyo laughed, "You don't have to worry about it. I don't mind at all. You were only doing what you thought was right."
Once again, she turned and went down the trail.
Tomoyo entered the familiar cabin that Syaoran gave her directions to and looked around. It was so cold in it. She yawned, feeling incredibly tired and starved. It felt like she hadn't slept or eaten in days. As well, she noticed for quite a while she had been feeling a pain in the left side of her chest, but she had been to occupied with everything that had been going on to pay any attention to it. She went over to the kitchen cabinets and opened it. She rolled her eyes once she saw only hot chocolate powder. "What was I thinking?" she asked herself, "Man, I wish I had something to eat." She pulled out two cups from the cabinet and grabbed a teaspoon from the drawer. She filled up the kettle and placed it on the stove. She put two teaspoons of powder in one cup and one and a half teaspoons in the other. She paused for a second staring at the cups. "Huh?" she tilted her head staring at the cup with the least chocolate in it, "Why did I make one the way he likes it?"
Suddenly two arms slid around her waist, "Maybe you were expecting him?"
Tomoyo jumped causing that pain in her heart to grow. She kept a neutral expression, trying to hide the fact that she was in pain and turned around. "Eriol, how did you get in here?"
"Isn't it obvious?" he asked, tipping his cup towards him to check if it was the correct amount of chocolate.
She laughed and reached out to grab her cup. She had a sudden feeling that she was going to fall over. She swayed slowly from side to side. Her hand gripped the counter top and she collapsed. She leaned on the countertop and already felt Eriol's presence right by her side. She continued to laugh weakly, "You know… it's weird. It feels like my heart is racing."
Eriol stared at her with a confused look on his face. She pushed herself up with her right hand and leaned against him. She mumbled something that sounded like the word "tired". He held her close, her head resting on his chest. She couldn't hear his heart beat. She didn't feel any heat being emitted from his body. Eriol gently stroked her hair and guided her to a chair. He sat her down and returned to the stove to remove the kettle. "Are you alright Tomoyo? You look paler than usual," Eriol said with a concerned tone in his voice.
Tomoyo nodded her head and made a confirming noise, "Yeah, I think I just need some fresh air. That's all."
Eriol's eyebrows rose, "Are you sure? You just collapsed and-"
"Eriol, I'm stronger than I look. I can manage," she stood up, appearing newly energized, and held her hand out to him, "Come, let's go."
Eriol didn't move at first. He continued to give her an incredulous look. He could tell that something was wrong with her, but she was always good at hiding her problems. It was almost impossible for him to figure it out this time. He reluctantly took her hand, ignoring his better judgment to send her right to bed. They went outside and walked around the enormous field that separated Tama's old cottage from the village. The grass was high, but flowers still grew in small patches in random places. Tomoyo ran over to one of them excitedly and stood at the centre of a patch of flowers. The small flowers all had five pale blue petals surrounding a golden centre. "Aren't they beautiful?" she exclaimed, crouching down to smell them.
Eriol walked over to her and sat beside her, "They're called… forget-me-nots."
"They're so marvellous. I wonder how they were able to withstand the cold weather we had lately," Tomoyo said, lying down.
She tugged on Eriol's sleeve and pulled him down next to her. She snuggled closer to him and stared into his dark blue eyes that sparkled in the moonlight like it did that night they spent together so long ago. She smiled and let her hand travel down to hold his. "I'll never forget you again," she whispered.
Finally a genuine smile was brought to Eriol's face. No pain was masked beneath it, just pure happiness. He moved his head closer to her and touched his lips to hers. Tomoyo kissed him back, feeling sudden warmth coming from his mouth. She gave a small squeeze around Eriol's hand, knowing fully well that nothing would ever stand in the way of their love again. Nothing was strong enough to come between them; not even death. She pulled away, and simply stared at him. He tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear placed a small kiss on her forehead, "I love you Tomoyo."
She closed her eyes and took in those words, memorizing the sound of his voice when he said it. Slowly, she felt herself drifting off into a deep sleep. "I love you too," she managed to say before losing consciousness.
Dong… dong… dong…
The church bells rung loudly, reaching the far ends of the town. It signalled the start of a very happy day, where two lovers would be united for the rest of eternity. The sun has just risen completely over the horizon and the faint blue-grey sky began to brighten. The morning was once again cold, but nothing could ruin this wonderful day for the two lovers. Everyone went about their business, excited about the change in the town's atmosphere.
Meow
A black cat walked ever so quietly around the field in search of food. It came to a stop at a patch of flowers and sat down to observe the scene. A boy and a girl laid in the flowerbed, their fingers laced together. The two bodies remained close together as though they were dear to each other. They seemed to have fallen asleep there the previous night; their bodies were cold like the morning frost that covered them. They boy was already dead before, but the girl could have died from sleep deprivation or starvation. The cat recognized the two as its masters and curled up in ball at their feet, soon to be forgotten by all.
Forget-me-nots: A symbol of true love and memories.
ChiChi's Note: Okay, thank you for reading. Edits will be done soon or when I get the time. Also check out my deviantart!!!! I drew a fanart of Eriol and Tomoyo yay! Okay, so I hope I didn't screw up this ending like I did in White Rose II (cries at the memory of my failure story). Review!!!
