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Chapter 8

Confession

Paige had orbed home a few hours ago, and she sat in the living room watching television quietly. A steaming cup of hot chocolate sat on the table in front of her next to a bowl of mini cookies and she had her keepsakes diary on her knee, the small padlock that kept all her secrets safe was next to her on the couch and she was tapping the pen lightly to the rhythm of the music on the television. Her diary had almost everything she kept inside in it, since the death of her parents - foster parents - she had started keeping small memoirs, such as pictures and gradually she had gotten to the stage where she began writing about her feelings. Past boyfriends numbers, old friends photos, family pictures and many paragraphs worth of feelings and emotions had gone into many different diarys, she made sure she bought one every year so she could look back on things, some she kept and some she threw away not wanting to remember, she knew a psychiatrist would have a field-day analysing her diaries, but she didnt want anyone to find what she wrote in them. She curled her feet up underneath her, knocking the padlock to the floor, unrealising of what she had just done she reached over and lifted a cookie to her mouth before moving the pen to paper. She concentrated and she wrote with the blue ink, the words came easily to her about her experience with Cole. She glanced up at the television and noticed that the commericals had come on, she sneered, why commercials had ever been invented she didnt know they were a waste of time and money, she looked back at the paper and smiled slightly, recalling back to her few hours with Cole always made her smile, and putting her feelings down made the happiness stick. She re-read what she had wrote and realised that it made sense to her, and every bit of it was true. Yawning shortly she closed the diary and put it onto the table next to her food, she lay down on the couch and closed her eyes determined not to fall asleep, it was only twenty minutes ago she was wide awake and didnt think she would sleep again, but soon enough the lack of sleep took over and Paige fell asleep on the couch curled up tightly.

Phoebe's ringing alarm in the early hours of the morning woke the groggy writer up. She reached out a tired hand and slammed her palm on the 'mute' button, she moaned quietly to herself as she realised she had to get up, one of her articles was due to be printed today and she wanted to proof-read it to make sure it sounded right she pushed the covers from her body but stay in a laid down postition. She waited for the cold chill of the bedroom air to make her sit up, she brushed her hand over her eyes and looked towards her window, the sun was just starting to make the sky brighter and she smiled to herself slightly things in her life were also starting to look brighter. Quietly she got up and out of her bed and walked to her closet taking out her clothes she had planned to wear that day, keeping the noise down she got herself dressed, made up and tidied so she looked presentable for the day ahead, she gathered her things together what she needed and made sure she grabbed her cell-phone just in case of a family emergency which wasnt a uncommon occurence whilst she was at work. Walking downstairs she noticed a small shape on the couch, she made her way over and the shape formed into her younger sister Paige, Phoebe laughed quietly to herself. Paige must have worn herself out last night she figured, placing her things down she grabbed a small blanket that was folded over the chair and covered her sister with it, she saw the television was still on and she took the remote from the side of Paige and turned it off, Paige moved gently and sighed in her sleep. Phoebe put the remote back onto the table, glancing over she noticed Paige's diary, letting her curiosity grow she let herself pick it up and look at the front of it. Small doodles covered the red diary, some were her name in different types of lettering, some were small pictures of the triquetra, Phoebe smiled coyly at the corners of her lips Paige's doodles showed her artistic side. She ran her hand down the side of it and noticed it wasnt locked like it normally was, thinking about what she was doing Phoebe paused before opening it to the first page, it was Paige talking about something witchy she had done, and the magic she had preformed. She flicked the through the pages and found the most recent entry, Phoebe sat down in the chair and looked at the first few lines and smiled, it was almost criminal what she was doing but she was curious and wanted to know what her youngest sister was up to. She started to read, letting some words stick in her head whilst she read past the others, when she came to the end of the extract Phoebe shook her head, it couldnt be right, she had to have read it wrong. Her breath became harder and she felt dizzy, she looked over at Paige her heart fast she moved her attention back to the diary and read it again making sure she had read it right, the words almost making her sick,
Dear Diary,

Yes it's me again, writing in here about something or nothing. I have my happiness sorted now though, I think I may have finally found the person who can make me smile genuinely and makes me feel good inside without me having to fake it. His touch makes me feel so warm inside, he always seems to have his arms around me and its such a safe feeling to have. I know being with him is wrong in so many respects but how can I stay away from him, when he isnt around I feel so lonely even with people there and I just want to see him and when I am around him I never want to let him go. He is the last person in the world I should be with, but isnt that all the more reason to try it out with him, after all opposites attract and me and him are definatly two of the most opposite people around. He is bad to the bone, he dosent care about the great balance of things he just wants to live his own life, he has done wrong in the past but who hasnt? I might be a being of light and goodness but not everybody is perfect, although when we are together I could say he is, nothing seems impossible when I lie in his arms. Being with him makes me happy and I can tell he is too, sooner or later somebody is going to find out, but not for a while I hope because I dont want this feeling to go away. Anyway I'm going now, theres nothing else to say except I am sure glad I hawve found the true Cole Turner.
Paige xxx

Phoebe sat up straight, she had read it right her sister who was laid in front of her innocently was with her ex-husband. She had been seeing him behind her back, the tears that had formed in her eyes left the bitter reminder of the words written down in Paige's handwriting, she blinked and let the tear fall she wasnt sure if it was from sadness, betrayel or anger but either way she wanted to hurt Paige as much as she was hurting now. She stared at Paige, who had her back to her, and let out and disgusted laugh the idea of her thinking she was clever made her sick, she raised the diary and threw it at Paige's back, Paige jumped lightly and woke up, she turned over and saw Phoebe, the tears glistening on her cheeks and she sat up quickly. A small bump on the floor made her look down and she saw her diary face down on the floor, the pages bent from falling openly, her mouth dropped and a hollow feeling filled her stomach, 'Phoebe knows' she realised and moved her gaze back to her sister whose face was straight but filled with a disappointed rage.
"Phoebe" was all she could get out she spoke softly and carefully she didn't know how to approach this, Phoebe didnt reply, her expression on her face and the silent anger she was emitting made Paige feel tight inside her stomach. Phoebe could feel herself wanting to cry, the feeling in the back of her throat and her eyes made itself known she licked her lips,
"How could you?" she hissed "How could you even think about doing such a thing?" she linked her fingers between her legs and looked away from Paige, confronting her was harder than she thought a few minutes ago, Paige pushed the blanket off herself and moved her feet off the couch so she was sat up straight
"Im sorry" she said quietly, she heard Phoebe laugh which sounded watery with her tears
"No your not" she told her "If you were you wouldnt have done it...wouldnt be doing it" she looked at Paige and stared straight into her eyes so she could see the truth "How long?" a sharp knot formed in her stomach as she asked, she wasnt sure if she even wanted to know the answer
"Not long, a few days" Paige admitted, she watched Phoebe close her eyes in emotion
"Be more pecific" Phoebe continued her interegation on her,
"Does that even matter?" Paige asked, instantly regretting asking it when Phoebe snapped her eyes open and looked at her the anger in her face made Paige wince
"Yes it does matter God damn it. When I find out my sister and my ex are having an affair I want..no i deserve to know, so Paige if you like it or not your going to answer all my questions that I ask you and you are going to ask me none. Now tell me, when did it first start?" Phoebe tried to keep her temper under control, but this was too much to take, everything was starting to look better and she was getting back on track but this had thrown her off, her head span and she felt sick but she needed answers.
"When the demon attacked you left me and Cole to make the potion" she looked at the floor as she answered Phoebe's question and sighed quietly, Phoebe waited for her to continue "We kissed while you went to find out about the demon, but that was all and then we decided it wouldnt happen again, but it did and I'm so sorry Phoebe the last thing we ever wanted was to hurt you. I wasnt even going to continue seeing him because of you, but I did and thats my fault and you have to know how much I want you to forgive me" she moved her hands so they were on Phoebes, she felt how cold her older sister was but she pulled her hands away
"Sorry is just a word Paige it dosent make this feeling go away" Paige swallowed hard and pulled her hands back away from Phoebe, "There is nothing you can say to make this go away". Tears formed their way into Paiges eyes and she blinked trying to make them go but they quickly formed again and Paige let them fall. She had been through many hard experiences, but this was more painful, she had hurt one of the most important people in her life for a man, Paige always told herself it was family before men but she had let herself down more than anybody else. Phoebe stood up and wiped her eyes, she kept her hands on her cheeks as she composed herself again, she took a long, deep breath and straighted herself, "Take me to Cole" she said no emotion in her voice,
"I dont think he's there" Paige replied looking up "When I left he was getting dressed like he was going out, probably to the underworld" Phoebe shook her head,
"He will be there. Take me to Cole Paige" she kept her voice stern and steady, Paige sighed and stood up she put her hand on her sisters shoulder and felt her flinch slightly she ignored it and orbed to Coles apartment with her.

Cole stood at his drink counter pouring himself a quick drink before he was going to shimmer to the underworld, and find some information that could make his reputation better. If the underworld found out about his antics with Paige he knew it would be over for him down there for good. He brought the glass to his lips, the ice clinking against the crystal clear glass and took a sip, the familiar sound of orbing filled his ears and the grin which always appeared when Paige orbed into his room took over, he walked forward and put his drink down looking at the cabinet, he waited for the light to disappear,
"Cant keep away can you" he finally looked up and wished he hadnt said anything, the anger on Phoebes face and the pain in Paiges pushed all his desires away. Both sister's face's were filled with sadness, Phoebe's of betrayal and hurt, Paige's of embarrasment. He felt fear rise inside him, not the fear of death which he had felt on many occasions but fear of hurting someone he cared so deeply for, Phoebe looked at him but it was too much for her to believe and she looked at the floor shaking Paige's hand off her shoulder, "Phoebe hey" Cole said quietly glancing over at Paige
"Dont hey me Cole, why did you do this?" Phoebe was becoming more stern, the hurt from her voice although still there slightly had gone and it had been replaced by anger, Cole looked at Phoebe making sure she could see his sincerity
"We never wanted to hurt you Pheebs believe me" he said solemly, Phoebe smiled slightly
"You always seem to hurt me Cole, I'm numb to your kind of pain now. But this takes it all to a brand new level" she looked him in the eyes "The only reason I came here was for you to confirm it was right and to see for myself - all I want to know though is why? And dont say sorry, or how you didnt want to hurt me, just explain why you got together with her" she moved from looking at Cole and looked at Paige "And the same question to you, why did you get together with him?" Paige and Cole both were taken aback neither knew the real answer, to them both it just happened something that was a thrill to do. It wasnt as though they were in love with each other, they just like one anothers company and being together. Paige took a deep breath and folded her arms,
"I guess...I was attracted to him, I dont know I saw a different side to him and it attracted me" she admitted, she flicked her eyes up to Cole quickly and saw him smile slightly to himself, not only had she admitted why she like Cole to Phoebe but now he knew aswell, which made it easier. Phoebe moved quickly on her heels and shot a look between them,
"Oh great you fancied my husband" Phoebe spat "Your turn Cole" he opened his mouth to answer but was cut short
"Ex - Husband, I didnt like him when you two were together" Paige interrupted, Phoebe shrugged and motioned for Cole to continue
"Why did I get together with Paige? Because of the same thing, I started to become attracted to her a few days ago" he replied calmly, Phoebe shook her head
"How do I know your not with her because you want to secure your place in this family again" Phoebe pointed out, Paige looked up she realised Phoebe had made a point, how did she know for sure Cole wasnt using her like he had used Phoebe so many times before? It was possible, Phoebe had told him he was forgiven, by getting close with one of them again would make sure he could stay in the family and stay close to the power of three,
"I'm not" he defended himself against Pheobes accusations, she had every right to ask these types of questions but he knew what he felt, and Phoebe couldnt change that with what she was saying, but he could make Paige believe it.
"Whose after Paige then Cole? Piper? Is that your plan to go through us all?" Phoebe became more confident, being hurt so many times toughened her against this "You slept with her yet?" Paige's eyes widened, and Cole looked away "In the diary it says you lay in his arms...that dosent have to mean..." she saw the guilty faces that looked away from her "You have havent you?" her voice was filled with disgust, she watched as Paige nodded slowly, Phoebes knot in her stomach returned "I have to go" before either Cole or Paige could stop her Phoebe walked out of the room and rushed out of the front door slamming it. She stood outside letting the cold air hit her face, it was a shock the mixture of her tears and the snap of the cold made her inhale deeply, she ran her hands through her hair trying to gather her thoughts together, the fact Cole and Paige had kissed behind her back was hard for her to take in, but how could she have had been so stupid, so niave to think for even a second that they wernt sleeping together, it was obvious. Paige had actually said she had slept with someone, how she couldnt have realised it was Cole was beyond her, the anger had clouded her judgements and made her see things only she wanted to see. She walked down the path, the stinging feel of bitter tears returned and she wiped her eyes quickly, stubborn not to let the tears of betrayel fall down her face. She was going to beat this, no matter what it took, she couldnt believe either of them could be so hurtful, but she was stronger than this. To her neither were family anymore.

((Ok so Yeah I know didnt make much sense but I was bored and I decided to write something, but ahwell hope ya liked. Please review as always ) and chapter 9 is on its way ))