A.N. I just want to thank Lexie and Saskia for their help with this story 'cos they have given me some ideas, thanks guys and another thanks to Saskia lol for all ya reviews. This chapter is kinda all over the place….sorry.

Disclaimer I don't own Charmed; if I did it wouldn't have gone so bad. But I don't. So stop rubbing it in, Kern!

Chapter 12

The Reason and Realisations

Cole shimmered home, what the hell was Paige's problem? And elder orbed in behind him, making Cole spin around he rolled his eyes. Just what he needed,
"What do you want?" He grunted, he didn't want to be around elders or whitelighters at the moment, which was strange because all that was on his mind was Paige, the elder smiled at the corner of her lips
"Just to do this" The elder threw a small potion at Coles feet, Cole snapped his head up and waited for the pain of being vanquished when it didn't come his eyes fixed upon the elder again,
"What the hell was that?" He snapped taking a menacing step forward towards the elder,
"Just something to prove that we are right and to prevent what should not happen, from happening" The elder replied before orbing out. Cole looked around confused, he didn't feel any different. He walked to his room and lay down on the bed he closed his eyes and rubbed his forehead with his fore finger and his thumb, a headache was forming and he could see flashes in front of his eyes.
"Ok something is defiantly going on" He mumbled to himself, he sighed slightly and sat up, dizziness came over him and he fell back down into the pillow "Paige…" He called out, the first name out of his mouth, he knew she was mad at him for breaking his promise but he needed her at this moment in time.

Paige sat up in bed, something was wrong she could sense it somehow. She could feel herself believing something bad was happening to Cole, she got out of the bed quickly no matter how Cole had broke his promise she loved him and those thoughts of hating him earlier flew out of her head and she grabbed her dressing gown and pulled in on hard, she reached out to get her phone just as Hannah orbed in, being a close friend of Paige, Hannah orbed to her the first chance she had to tell her what she had heard,
"Paige" Hannah said slightly short of breath, Paige's eyes looked up and met her in a silent answer "It's the elders, they have a plan I don't know what it is but all I know is that they want Cole to realise his true identity…being a demon" Paige's eyebrows knotted
"What do you mean?" She asked, worry creeping into her voice Hannah walked towards her
"Some sort of spell to…" Hannah paused, Paige looked at her expectantly,
"What is it…its bad isn't it"
"It's to make him demonic, making him leave you and go back to evil, Paige I swear I didn't have anything to do with this" She replied putting a hand on Paige's shoulder as a comforter
"I know you didn't. How am I going to save him?" Paige asked looking at Hannah opposite her "What are they scared of?" Hannah sighed, she knew the truth but didn't want to say what they were trying to prevent in case it would alter what was to happen,
"I don't know" She replied, "You should go to him Paige, make him realise he isn't a demon and that he shouldn't accept it" She demanded gently, Paige nodded and without a goodbye orbed out to Coles apartment, Hannah stood in the room for a moment, what she had just done may have jeopardised her future as a elder but she knew deep down Cole and Paige had something even if the elders thought it wrong.

Paige orbed in to Coles room and saw him on his bed, his fist was clenched hard around his bedding sheet, slowly she walked towards him,
"Baby?" She whispered as she approached the bed, she saw his eyes were closed tight but he moved his head to the sound of Paige's voice,
"Hun you have to go…now" Cole said, in a voice Paige didn't recognise his breathing was heavy and sweat lined his neck and face
"Cole, I know what's happening, I'm not leaving you" She looked down at her boyfriend in distress, she could see he was fighting something and she couldn't do anything to stop it, his body was twisting and turning as though a unseen force was pushing it,
"Please Paige, I don't want to hurt you, I've done that once before don't let me do it again"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

Paige stared down at him, she knew how sorry deep down he was for hurting her as a demon, when they hated one another
"I couldn't live with myself if I hurt you again" he opened his eyes, his once sparkling eyes had become dull and grey as though they weren't his own, they looked almost lifeless and as though they had taken on a new identity that wasn't Cole "Paige let me fight this, I love you too much". Cole took a deep breath as another flash of his past faded in and out of his mind, trying to make him that that he would be evil or even try and go back to that and enjoy it. Paige started to breath deeply, she could tell she wanted to cry, but only because she felt as though there was nothing she could do for him. Cole, her boyfriend,was laid on the bed fighting a force that only he understood and only he knew how to fight off and she couldnt lift a finger to help him. What use was it being a powerful witch when she couldnt even help him fight off his inner conscience?

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

Paige felt the tears in her eyes stinging, desperate to flow, she reached forward and grabbed Cole's hand, it was cold and clammy. Another tightening force threw Cole back into his bed pinning him back, Paige let out a choked sob she couldn't just stand there and let evil take over her boyfriend, they had come over their obstacles and she wasn't going to lose him, not now. Flashes of demonic killings of Coles past forced their way into his mind; Cole shook his head trying to get rid of them but they weren't leaving, tears lined his eyes as he saw himself, in the past, throwing Paige into a wall, enjoying the feeling of hurting her. Paige watched Cole fighting with himself, trying to push the images away, she stroked the top of his hand with her thumb
"Cole please, don't give up you can fight this" Her voice was watery she knew it was from the tears, Cole looked up at her slowly, he saw her expression and raised his hand to her cheek wiping her tears he shook his head,
"I cant Paige, its too hard…I have to embrace who I really am" He spoke quietly and slowly, his eyes scanned Paige's face as she registered what he was saying "I'm a demon, I'm supposed to be evil"
"No" She said sternly "You're my boyfriend Cole that's who you really are, I'm not losing you" She sighed and put her hand on his "You're going to fight this, and everything is going to be fine"

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

Cole nodded slowly and tried to sit up, but failed, his head hit the headboard behind him and he closed his eyes, Paige moved closer to him quietly, putting her hand on his head, stroking his hair gently,
"But I hurt you" he sighed "So many times. How can you forgive that?" Paige lowered her eyebrows. Wasn't it obvious?
"I love you Cole, with all my heart and soul. What happened in the past is over with; I want to concentrate on the future with you" She whispered close to his ear, Cole listened to the words and let them register inside him. Paige was him. He was Paige. There wasn't anything that could change that, he was in love with her and he would fight anything to be with her, and if that meant fighting his evil side again, like he did with Phoebe, then he would with all his strength. He just wanted to know why this was happening now, just when he was finding out what his life was about, people had to interfere. He opened his eyes again and turned his head looking at Paige, her lips formed into a small smile at the corners as she saw his sparkling lights back in his eyes,
"I love you too". Cole shifted across on the bed and waited for Paige to lie next to him, she obliged and cuddled her body close to his, and she breathed deeply as he wrapped his arms around her tightly, she could feel all the sadness that had almost taken over her before lift away "I'm sorry Paige" he told her as he kissed the top of her head, Paige played with his shirt
"Hmm, what do you mean? Why are you sorry?" She questioned moving her head and looking up at him.
"For scaring you, making you cry…doing those things in the past" Paige put a finger on his lips and shook her head
"Everyone makes mistakes baby, and everyone can forgive. I've forgiven you Cole; you just need to forgive yourself" She kissed him gently on his lips before resting her head back on his chest; she closed her eyes and felt herself slowly starting to fall asleep. Cole looked down at her and smiled to himself,
"What would I do without you Paige?" he said quietly, not really asking her a question. He closed his eyes also and as sleep began to take over his body he knew he could fight anything that life threw at him. He pulled at the covers but realised both him and Paige were laid on them, he opened his eyes and looked at the top of her head and shifted slightly, Paige moaned in her sleep and moved onto her side. She wasn't going anywhere.

I'm not a perfect person, I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show, a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that I do, and the reason is you

Paige found herself slowly waking up, she looked around the room, a light was still on in the corner but outside she could see see the sun had risen, flooding the room with a bright light, bringing in the day light to the usually dark room. She sat up in the bed and brushed her fingers through her hair as she adjusted to the light and being awake. She looked to her right and saw Cole was asleep next to her, she smiled, he looked almost childish, he was laid on his stomach, one arm thrown out to side and the other tucked neatly under his slumbering head, she moved her hand and put it on his arm, gently stroking it underneath her fingers. She couldn't believe how quickly she had fallen for him, they had only been together a week – maybe less – and yet she was madly in love with him, she would do anything just to be around him nobody could take him away from her, she was happier than she had ever planned on being in her life, being with Cole was like being in a dream as though nobody could hurt her, sometimes she would find herself looking at him during the night and count her blessings she had found someone like him. Quietly Hannah orbed into the room, Paige turned around and smiled softly as she saw her,
"I helped him, Hannah, he's not going anywhere" Paige whispered, her finger still stroking Coles arm, Hannah nodded smiling
"I can see that, now I need you to do one last thing" She said, reaching into the bag that hung loosely over her shoulder,
"Sure, anything" She watched as Hannah pulled out a rectangular white box, Paige gently got up off of the bed as not to wake Cole, and went to Hannah "What's that?" she questioned, Hannah sighed slightly before holding the box out in front of her
"It's a pregnancy test" She told her, Paige let out a low laugh before taking it loosely in her hand
"Why do I need this?" She smiled "I mean come on me and Cole have been dating a week maybe, I don't need it" She looked at the serious expression on Hannah's face "Really. I don't need it…I mean I cant be pregnant" She lowered the box to the side of her leg
"I just want you to make sure" Hannah said tenderly
"No, because I'm not"
"Paige, just do this for me ok?" Paige shook her head, but found herself agreeing anyway. What harm could it do just to check? She rolled her eyes and glanced over at Cole before walking into the bathroom. Hannah sat down on the chair next to the bed and watched the minutes pass by, waiting for Paige. Cole moved quietly where he was, he started to wake up and reached over to put his arm around Paige and found she wasn't there, he didn't open his eyes though 'Probably gone toilet' he told himself and sighed gently, letting himself wake up in his own time. Paige finally emerged from the bathroom a few minutes later, gripping the test tightly in her right hand, Hannah looked up from her seated place and saw Paige's ashen face,
"It's not right, it's a false test" Paige rambled as she walked into the bedroom, Hannah knew instantly what the test had predicted
"You're pregnant?" She asked carefully, going to Paige and putting an arm around her shoulders, Paige took a deep breath
"Yeah, I am" She started "But I don't know…I don't think I'm ready, I don't know if I want this child" Her voice was shaky and she bit her bottom lip lightly. Was she even ready to be a mum? Were her and Cole in a serious enough relationship to have children?
"You're what?" Cole voice ripped through Paige's many thoughts and she looked up at her boyfriend who was now sat upright in the bed "What did you say?" He looked shocked and confused, his tone was demanding
"I'm…pregnant"

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

A.N And I'm done lol, its not that long hehe it just looks it because of the song. Anyway please leave a review, since I enjoy reading them lol. Oh by the way, do you want Paige to keep her baby or get rid of it? Tell me and I'll write it in.