I let myself out of the shower and wandered back to Jade's room. I get into my bag and put on some newer body spray I bought. I slip on my boots then go to put the laundry in the washer. I walk outside and wait by her car. I hear the front door open then shut, looking up I see Jade setting some stuff down then locking the door. I smile to myself as she turns around, "Hey catch the keys and unlock the trunk please", as she tosses me her keys. I walk to the back and pop the trunk before I walk over and lean in the driver's side to start it. I walk over to help Jade who shoots me a look so I turn back for the car. Jade giggles as she swishes her hips as she walks to the trunk. I slide into the passenger seat waiting for Jade to take me away.

I'm setting our picnic and supplies down in the trunk. I catch myself smiling as the thoughts of Tori flood my mind. I never knew what pure happiness felt until this moment. Tori makes me feel a way I've never thought possible. She gives me a sense of peace and calm against the storm that rages within my subconscious. I sigh contently and shut the trunk lid before walking to the driver's door and letting myself in. Tori gives me a soft half smile and I wouldn't be too surprised if you can't hear my heart pounding. I feel myself becoming flustered and confused. Tori chuckles softly, warmly which only fuels my inner battle. One part of me is saying this can't be true, she'll never love you to the capacity that you need or want and just forget everything and walk away. The other part is screaming to the heavens that you wouldn't feel this way if she didn't love you just the same. I know what I feel. I know what I felt with every touch of our skin against each other. There's just something about Tori that makes it so hard to get my mind off of her. My heart sings for her. My soul doesn't feel cold anymore. I don't feel heartless. I don't feel hatred. I want to be good for her. Her happiness is now in my hands. She has loaned me her heart and I must protect her.

Jade is driving. She's gripping the wheel tightly like she's lost in thought. I gently slide my hand on to her thigh, "Jade..is everything okay? You seem a little gone at the moment..", trying to offer help. Jade snaps back and looks at me, "Sorry I was just processing a few thoughts. I didn't mean to worry you..", swallowing slightly hard. She seems to relax a little, letting go of the wheel with a sigh. I leave her to her thoughts and self.

I can't believe that I just caught Tori checking me out. I know she must've been because we made eye contact then she got really nervous and her face started to redden. I raised my eyebrow at her, because I'm really confused. Tori looks back at Andre who happens to be the one talking. I smirk to myself and start to wonder what she was staring at. I almost instantly knew she was checking out my rack because she can't see my ass from this angle.

Fuck, I'm mentally cursing and yelling at myself for getting caught by Jade. I didn't think anyone would notice my eyes wandering away from the conversation. I was hopelessly distracted by Jade's nice rack in that corset top, they're practically screaming to be let out. I felt someone watching me. That's when I realized Jade was looking at me smirking. I just can't believe I let that happen, now I have two problems going on. First off I can't get Jade or Jade's body off my mind or out of any of my thoughts or dreams. Second off Jade knowing I might be attracted to her or girls in general.

Tori is looking at Andre but her eyes are screaming in panic. She doesn't need to worry too much, her secret is safe with me. I'll never tell what I just witnessed, nor do I really mind. I like when I get checked out, it just means I'm still hot. Just never thought I'd catch Tori of all people checking my boobs out, much less me. Hm, wonder if she really is hiding something from us..

I make the last turn that takes us up the hillside. I park and let myself out to grab our stuff from the trunk. I motion for Tori to come help me. Once she's next to me I have her grab the cooler with our food in it. I shut the trunk and walk the direction that has the best view from up here. Tori steps next to me, "Wow Jade this is beautiful..", she says as she looks out across the way. I chew on my lip before I chose my words carefully, "I always thought it was the most beautiful site in L.A. when I was a kid..now that I'm older I realize the most beautiful things are usually right in front of you..usually something you see everyday..", I feel my heart racing and my face redden a little.

I hear Jade talking to me and I'm slowly realizing what she's saying about her thoughts on seeing me every day. I'm sure what to say at first. I take a pause, inhaling and exhaling softly, "I'm not really sure what to say in return to that..", looking at her questionably. Jade's eyes soften slightly, "The year after I met you is when I realized that you really are beautiful. You have a beautiful mind, heart, and body. I love how much you care about me even if I didn't want you to. I love how you've always let me lean on you and never let anyone know my weaknesses. I love how you've always let me cry and never ask questions. How you've let me come and stay the night when I couldn't sleep and just wanted someone to hold me..to love me..want me..", her voice softens into nothing. I'm lost for words at this point, I would never have thought that Jade could be this human, this loving. I don't even say anything, I just grab her and kiss Jade softly but with passion.

Tori grabs me and kisses me, I can't help but smile and lace my fingers with hers. She exhales through her nose as she presses against my lips harder. I groan softly as I pull back panting softly, "Mm we can't. We can't keep letting that happen..", my voice softens slowly. Tori looks at me slightly confused as her brow furrows. I sigh deeply, "It's not that I don't want to..because trust me I do. Having sex with you is so different. I've never gotten off so hard with someone before you. I love how just your touch sends a rush of adrenaline through my body..", I have to stop before I reveal too much as my face is already reddening.

"C'mon Tori we need to finish this project. I've let you play piano for a minute but I'm going to start getting cranky..", I give Tori a pleading look. Tori doesn't even respond as the music pours from the piano. Man..she's really gotten good thanks to Andre. She's just playing a random melody, it's simple but kind of pretty. Maybe if I just sing to her that will catch her attention. I wandered closer to the piano and sat on the stairs behind her. I take a deep breath before letting the lyrics flow, "I wish that I could make you understand. I never meant for myself to take a path unplanned. My love for you is growing day by day. It's melting the gray away. You happen to be the person I need. You make me wanna be the person you crave. Ba da dum dum..I know you're scared..I know I scare you..deep inside you'll find the upper hand. Ba da dum..help it grow, take it slow..dum dum da..", I stop because the music has faded away and I open my eyes to see Tori looking at me amazed. I feel my face growing kind of hot, "Yeah can I help you?", I quip at her quickly. Tori blinks once, "You have such an amazing voice..that was just perfect..", smiling at me. I chuckle, "What you liked that..", seeing the twinkle in Tori's eyes.

I'm just playing the piano, I'm trying to help myself refocus on our project. I hear Jade carrying on before she says she's getting cranky. I just keep playing then suddenly I hear Jade's voice singing random lyrics to the music. Lyrics full of a fear of loving someone but feeling unsure of the feelings you have. I start to think about my feelings toward Jade and things start to make a little sense. I panic internally thinking, "Is Jade singing to me..is she trying to speak to me..trying to tell me her true feelings and show herself to me..", it causes me to stop playing. I turn around and look at Jade. I'm so amazed and confused right now.

Jade is just talking away. I don't even know how to get her to just relax so I grab her quickly. I pull her in close and kiss her roughly. I smash my lips into Jade's just before I push my tongue into her mouth. Jade tries to fight me a little. I don't let go of my control, Jade moans into my mouth. I cup her face to hold her tight and close. I'm pressing my tongue against hers as I take away Jade's dominance. I inhale sharply then pull away, "There will you just relax for me..", I pant out quickly. Jade chews on her lip and nods her head yes. She turns away and lays out a blanket for us so we can settle down.

We settle onto the blanket just before I start pulling out food. I'm not even sure I'll be able to focus on food when all I can think about is Tori being my dinner instead. I hand her a sandwich and try to focus on my own food. I hear Tori make a soft noise, "Jade I can't sit here in silence. We both know how we feel. I know we want to take the relationship part slowly. But I can't help the craving I have for you. I don't care if we ever become an official couple as long as it means that I can give sexual intimacy every day. You are the one thing I could never give up..", her eyes are speaking volumes to me. I swallow my bite of food hard, feeling myself becoming very flustered. I chose my words carefully, "As much as I love hearing that. Can we at least finish our dinner..", chuckling softly. Tori's smile fades as a deep blush sets in. All I can do is smirk and shake my head at her.

Man what am I going to do. I've known I was gay since I slept with Danny..that's why I tried to date Ryder. Then when he broke my heart and everyone banded together to come to my side. Yeah Jade was right for saying I felt stupid because at that point I did. Then she wrote those lyrics for me. After that she ordered me to her car and took me to her house to get me dressed. I was freaking out by that point being in the car. We got to her house and she actually was genuinely nice to me and gave me great advice. Jade sat me down briefly and told me it was okay to feel hurt by Ryder. Then she told me if I wanted to stay the night after the song I could. She didn't even expect an answer right that moment which was a shock.

I don't know what has taken over me but I feel compelled to help Tori. I get her to the school and get her ready to go on stage. I go settle in next to Beck and Robbie as they await to help Tori keep Ryder on the stage. Tori is saying something to Ryder with a smirk on her face. Hm someone has been taking notes, smirks can be so devious but attractive. Suddenly Tori calls for Andre to start the music and she gives him a smiling smirk before she starts to sing. Let me tell you she's rocking out pretty good and Ryder looks very annoyed. I can't help but dance as she's telling him off. Fuck..why is this so attractive. Tori is kind of a turn on right now. I love her showing this fiery Latin sass, she definitely took my tips for the singing and moves.

I'm looking out in the crowd and I catch Jade getting down and having a great time. It makes me smile just before I hit the soft, sadder note. I turn my back and walk away before turning around and hitting a very big note. I see Jade cheering me on when I open my eyes which excites me because I know I've beaten Ryder. I finish the song and Ryder storms past Rob and Beck as Jade pushes her way to the stage. She grabs me and pulls me into a squeezing embrace. I grunt, "Easy girl..got..to breath..", as she loosens but doesn't let go, "C'mon if you let go I'll stay the night..but in your bed this time", I end up using a tone I'm not used to. I feel Jade freezes for a moment.

Tori just seductively whispered something about her in my bed. I don't know what to do or say. I feel my core heating up. Thoughts start to race in my mind as my heart does in my chest. I swallow hard and pull away. I look at Tori briefly who must've realized she said something. I shake my head, quickly grabbing her hand to drag her to my car. I quickly route us to my mom's house. We get inside, I tell her to remove her shoes then I direct her to my room. I shut the door quickly, locking it behind us. Tori looks at me a little confused. She seems flustered, "Why the look Vega..", I clear my throat trying to give some dominance.

I hear Jade's voice as she gives her sound of control. I can't let her know. She must not find out that when she speaks this way all I hear is sweet seduction. I use acting techniques and calmly voice my opinion, "It's not important. Just forget about it. Let's just sit and watch a movie of your choice. I'm your guest tonight West..", offering a sincere smile for comfort. Jade clicks her tongue, so I'm not sure if she's buying it or not.

I don't know what to think. I shrug my shoulders, "Fine, let me find you a change of clothes then you can go in my bathroom to change..", as I point to the door in the right corner. Tori is smirking as she says, "Why do I need to leave the room..you've seen me change before even to change undergarments for period costumes..so no West. I'll change right here..", as she swiftly grabs the clothes from me. I'm taken back by the sass this Latin girl just gave me. I panic mentally, but smoothly say, "Well first I need to go take my nightly shower so here's a remote for the TV, DVD player, or Bluetooth speaker, there's also video games if you're interested..", giving her a daring smile. Tori laughs at me, "Didn't you know you were a gamer West. This could be a fun night. I'll get myself warmed up then we can play..OH sweet you have Resident Evil..yess 5..boom..", I look at her shocked. I clear my throat, "Alright well just knock if you need something. Or if you have to pee..", rolling my eyes and heading off to the bathroom. I close the door, quickly turn on the water so it's steaming then sit on the floor quickly to process my thoughts.

I pick the game and get it set up. While it loads I strip myself naked and then pull on the shirt and shorts Jade handed me. I settle into a moon chair and get ready to tear up this game before I let Jade join in on the fun. I get kind of thirsty and remember where the kitchen is. I set the controller down and wander upstairs. I grab a few drinks and a bag of chips off the counter. Jade can just deal with it because I'm the guest.

I hear the video game music playing so I undress. I don't know why I'm nervous and feeling clumsy. I pull the curtain back feeling the soothing warmth. I climb in the shower letting the water sting my skin. I use it as a reminder that Tori is probably a little more innocent than myself and possibly our friends. She is so smart and talented, but sometimes too sickeningly sweet and sincere. I loved seeing that different side of her that shows that she's boss and in charge. I sheepishly let my hand guide itself to a forbidden place. I spread warm and wet areas to explore what they have to offer. I try to not let loud noises escape considering I have Tori just through the doorway. I touch my sensitive bud as a soft whimper escapes my parted lips. I get lost in swirling thoughts trying to keep myself quiet.

I return to Jade's room and think I hear a soft thud or two with maybe a gasp. I softly pad to the door, I hear another gasp realizing Jade isn't in pain. I almost trip and hit the door but I'm trying to be quiet. I quickly sit myself down trying to ignore the need I have. I pick up the controller engrossing myself into the game. I'm definitely kicking ass at this point when I hear the water shut off. Panic starts to set in a little so I keep pushing through the game. I hear the door open as Jade walks out. I swallow hard but softly, a few beads of sweat forming on my forehead. Jade settles in the bean bag chair next to me, "Something the matter Vega", hearing the smirk in her voice. I can't even speak, much less think. Jade scent is overwhelming all of sudden and it's making my head fuzzy.