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Chapter 7: Jack –
"Sir, just leave."
"No!"
"I care about her. More than I should."
"I remember feelings."
"Feelings?"
"I remember feeling feelings."
Carter caught his eye.
She was motioning towards her left.
A jaffa was trying to flank them.
She motioned that she was going to stop him.
She moved from behind the rock she'd been using as shelter.
A staff weapon blast hit her.
"Carter!"
Jack sat up in bed, dripping with sweat. He hadn't had these nightmares in almost two years. Jack cursed under his breath as he threw the covers off. Sitting on the edge of the bed, he rested his head in his hands, as the images flooded his mind's eye again.
Getting up quickly, Jack threw on sweatpants and a t-shirt and ran out the door.
An hour later, his mind clear, Jack quickly dressed to head to the SGC. Suddenly he stopped in his tracks. She was there. That was why the nightmares were back. She'd gone into a catatonic state after their debriefing. Jack struggled for a minute with the emotions that coursed through him.
His head knew that this was not the same Samantha Carter. Sure she was a Samantha Carter, but she wasn't his Samantha Carter. Despite this fact, Jack felt like the rest of him was betraying his mind.
He was afraid. Afraid of letting her in. Afraid of getting hurt again. Afraid of losing control again. Just as he felt that he was finally getting on with his life, she appeared and turned his world upside down. The way that Teal'c, Daniel and Janet were acting, one would never know that she had ever been gone or that the last 3 years hadn't happened.
Jack suddenly became angry. Angry at Daniel, at Teal'c, at Janet, and at Colonel Carter. Had they no respect for the dead? No respect for what this was doing to him?
In one swift movement, Jack grabbed his keys and headed out the door, ready to face yet another day at the SGC without Major Samantha Carter.