"Thanks Chandler." Ross said as he took the coffee cup from him. He looked down at his watch and they still hadn't heard anything. He remembered what the doctor said about if the surgery took longer what would be happening. He walked outside to check his messages and noticed he got a call.
"Hey Joey, no she isn't out of surgery yet. I am worried , but there isn't anything I can do right now. I 'll call you when we know more." He turned around and then he saw his brother in law next to him with a cigarette in mouth as he lit it.
"Do you think that is going to help?" Ross asked as Chandler took a puff. "I needed to get out of there." He said between puffs.
"It is my wife, not yours, your wife is in there playing cards with our kids while my wife is having a surgeon chop away her body You have no right to worry about her at all." Ross ranted . "I mean your wife is perfectly healthy." Then he started to break down. "Your wife doesn' t have cancer." Chandler took him in his arms and let the cigarette hang out of his mouth. He just let the bigger man cry as much as he wanted.
They had been gone for quite a while and Monica knew they needed time to be alone, so she didn't go and look for them. Phoebe and Mike arrived and took the kids for Happy Meals and so they could play . Sandra Green came and sat down as she also waited to see how her daughter was.
Ross and Chandler came back in. At that moment , Judy and Jack arrived as well. "Oh Mom." He sobbed . "She is still in surgery." Judy held her son like he was a little boy and not an almost forty year old man. "There , there ." she said . Jack gave his daughter a hug. "It's been hell here all morning , and we still haven't gotten any word yet." Monica griped.
A surgeon came down the hall with the mask hanging down from his face around his neck. "Geller?" he said as he looked around. Ross broke away from his mother and ran to him. "How is she?" The surgeon put his arm around Ross and guided him to another room, then he stopped. "That is my parents , that is her mother, and they are all family, what you say can been said in front of any of them." The doctor stopped and sat down. "Well it was malignant , and it was pretty deep as well. We had to go ahead and take her right breast." Monica put her hand to her mouth and Sandra started to sob. "We will have to discuss the protocol at a later date, what treatment we will use. Rachel will have to have reconstructive surgery at a later date after the cancer is gone. She is still very drowsy and in a lot of pain so we have her hooked up to a morphine drip . I suggest that only two of you go at a time, but Dr. Geller , you should go first." The surgeon had said his piece and now wanted to unwind with a cigar . "Follow me." Ross got up and walked to the elevator. They arrived back on ten.
Rachel 's eyes were closed as she slept with the beeping of the iv , her chest had a large gauge bandage on it. There was also a catheter out of her side that was leaking into a large bag filled with blood and puss. Ross kind of tried to ignore that. Ross came over to the side of the bed and carefully so that none of the apparatus would be disturbed, took her hand and squeezed it. "Rach?" he said softly.
Her eyes drifted open slowly as she couldn't make out the lights or the shapes clearly . She heard a voice and to her it was the sweetest sound she could have heard. "Ross?" she whispered hoarsely.
"Sssh, you just got back from surgery and you are going to be fine. It was cancer honey, but they took care of it . There is a whole bunch of people downstairs who want to see you , so I am going to send them up and then I will be back later." He leaned down and gave her a sweet kiss . "I love you." He said as he walked out the door. Rachel closed her eyes and went back to sleep.
Since she was out of it because of the medication . no one stayed long and then just as he had done when she had the babies, he walked down to the gift shop and bought her a bouquet of lilies. Emma came with him and picked out a mylar balloon in the shape of a heart. The doctor allowed her to visit , since oncology had different rules then the rest of the hospital.
"Sweetie." I brought you some flowers. Ross said when he came back in the room. Rachel was now awake and aware of what had happened. She had felt down to the gauze bandage where her breast was. The nurse emptied her drainage bag and she literally got sick when she saw it. Now her husband was here , hoping that a little bouquet of flowers would make up for all of this. She turned to him with all her might, and said. "And that is supposed to make everything better?" she said tearfully. "I am a fucking freak. " she cried.
"Mommy, this is from Izzy and me." Emma said after she witnessed the display of emotion. "It is a heart because we love you and want you to get better." Rachel was so touched , she had Emma come over to the bed so she could hug her. "Mommy is so sorry about that," she kissed her head, so she wouldn't pull out any of the tubes. "And what is that?" Emma said as she pointed to the iv.
"Mommy is hurting very bad right now, so this makes her feel better." Ross explained the morphine drip. "See that, that is her boo boo." He said as he pointed at her bandage and the drainage bag. "But sweetie, mommy is very tired, so we aren't going to stay long."Emma kissed her mother on the forehead ."Night , night." She said .
"Rach, I am going to let Mon take the kids, I will come back later and I am going to have them set up a bed for me, okay?" Ross hoped she wasn't going to protest too much. Rachel actually didn't want to be alone right now. He leaned down and gently tapped her lips. "We are going to get through this, after all we got through that whole we were on a break mess." He had hoped that would make her laugh , but instead she drifted back to sleep. "I love you ." he whispered.
As she drifted off, she was in the middle of a room in one of her sexiest gowns. Dressed with diamonds dripping off her and face done to perfection. Her husband was wearing a tuxedo and then he took one look at her and started to make out with a girl half her age in a low cut gown.
The girl had silky black hair and brown eyes and she was obviously a model. Actually she was a model for Lauren, and he was so totally in lust with her. He was biting her neck , like he did before with her and then he was running his fingers through her hair.
Rachel started to run her own fingers through her own hair and then noticed something . It was a wig. Underneath was her bald head covered with a bandanna. She pulled down the straps on the gown to see that her right breast was gone.
Ross was enjoying this girls breast and it was obvious too. Rachel looked over and screamed . "Ross look at me." It was too late , he and the young model were walking away. She got down on the ground and said. "You said you would love me forever!" as he ignored her. She started crying over and over , "You said you would love me forever!" she bent down to the ground and continued to cry.
It was so real. Then she looked over at the special chair bed that they fixed for her husband. Her young , handsome husband who had a great body and a kind heart. She thought of him being around young college students every day. Little girls with perfect bodies, perfect little breasts like she had. He would stand and lecture about his boring dinosaur crap and then see these little bimbos with their braless boobs poking through their tiny tank tops. Then the bimbos would see him and picture him going off on all these adventures like that dumb Katie from the baby store. Hot and sweaty digging through the dirt, looking for fossils and bones. Dark and tanned, with no shirt on , because of the heat.
She couldn't lose him, she just couldn't . she thought as she watched him sleep . He looked so adorable with the drool dropping from his mouth and his mouth wide open. No they had been through too much, trips across the world to tell each other they loved each other, a baby, and then how he declared his love at the airport. She looked down at the gold band on his hand and sadly smiled. She had gotten her closure.
"Mrs. Geller., time to check your bandaid." The nurse announced waking up Ross. "I thought you came to a hospital to get some rest." He moaned. "Sorry, have to check through the night." She sang out. Ross stretched and then tried to sleep as the wound was checked and Rachel turned her head away. He thought she just wanted to ignore it and that bothered him. "It is perfectly natural, " the nurse whispered as she gave Rachel some more medicine and then she went back to sleep. "She will deal with it , when she is ready." Ross looked over at his sleeping wife. Would they ever be able to deal with it?