The bag of medicine hung on the machine as the beeping continued. The lethal poison coarsed through the hose into her veins.She was finally getting used to this part of her life . The burning sensations she was feeling made her uncomfortably scratch as she reclined in the brown vinyl chair. Rachel looked over at her watch as she spent another afternoon in chemo.

"That Jack is so funny. I love him and Karen." Chuckled Chandler as he sat next to his sister in law. "More cheesecake ?" he asked as he took another mouthful.

"Yes please." Smiled Rachel. "Chandler, I am so glad that you came with me today."

"Well it was either this or an exciting afternoon of hearing Monica tell me what needs fixed." He said in his droll way. "Plus we haven't spent time together in a while. " Rachel looked over at her friend and closed her eyes as she let the cheesecake slide down her throat.

"I am amazed that you and I don't spend more time together. This is really great." Rachel spirits were being lifted . She had spent the most enjoyable time in her session today. And he had also cracked up several of the other patients as well.

"I know we both have so much in common. We are both married to people in the same crazy family." He laughed. "I got the neat freak and you got the dinosaur geek." Rachel had to laugh at that one, but she wouldn't give up that geek for anything and had made up her mind she was going to fight for him . She was beginning to feel a little dizzy now and her eyelids were twitching. Something was going desperately wrong.

"Nurse , oh nurse." Chandler got up and walked to the desk. "My friend is having an adverse reaction to her medicine. She is twitching and …" before he could finish the sentence the nurse ran to Rachel and then interrupted her session. She pulled out the iv and then laid her on a bed. Rachel was having a full blown seizure.

"I want you to get her to a room, now ." the nurse commanded the orderly as he rolled the gurney to another floor. Chandler had no idea what was going on , but he knew who he had to call. Suddenly there was a whole crowd of people in white coats pushing machinery into Rachel's room. He couldn't hear anything but a person screaming and then he heard something else. He heard the room completely silent and then he heard something he had only heard on television. "Clear." Poking his head in, he saw his friend connected to a series of wires and tubes. Now there was about five ivs hooked up to her , and the incessant beep of the heart monitor .Another device was hooked to her finger . The doctor saw him there and motioned him to the lounge.

"She had a seizure . It was a reaction to the medicine .Her heart also stopped and we had to start it again. Right now is a very critical time for her. This protocol is very new and some of the effects haven't been tested yet." Chandler almost started to get mad . Not tested. "We'll just have to wait and see." He looked down at the helpless woman who was now unconscious and he didn't know for how long.

"I know it is against policy, but can I use a phone. I would like to call her husband and tell him what happened so you can explain things to him." Chandler said. "Sorry , she has too much equiptment. You can go to the nurse's station and use the phone there." The doctor said. Chandler looked at Rachel and then he took a breath. Picking up the phone , he rubbed his temples.

"Hello, may I speak to Dr.Geller, it is about his wife." He said somberly. Waiting a few seconds, he stood shuffling his feet. "Ross, yeah I am at the hospital. She is not doing well at all."

"She just lays there." He said sadly. He took his hand and tried to shake her. "Rach, Rach?" he said softly. "Don't leave me hon. Please you can't leave me." Monica stood next to him and she put his head on her shoulder as she embraced him. The two of them were both sobbing and Ross returned to his seat next to the bed. Monica had left the kids with Chandler when she got there and Sandra had come earlier to take care of Emma and Isabella. Ross had been there for hours and he wouldn't drink any coffee or anything. He just sat by the bed waiting for Rachel to wake up from this. He would hold her hand and then he would kiss it.

When Chandler had called., he grabbed the first cab he could and then headed for Sloan Kettering. Chandler had been out front, waiting for his arrival. "The chemo caused her to have a seizure and then her heart stopped and they revived her. Now she is unconscious and they don't know what is going on." The two men started for the doors and then straight for the elevator.

He couldn't believe it , there she was surrounded by a sea of wire and monitors. Wasn't she supposed to be getting better? Monica met him at the door and then he just collapsed in her arms. Phoebe then put her hand on his shoulder and gave him a hug as well.

That was hours ago, and still nothing. She had a look of contentment on her face. It was like a dead sleep. A look of peace. Her chest was still moving up and down .

Medicine was part of science. And science was a part of his life . Yet this was the one time that his precious science failed him. Phoebe and used to fight about evolution and gravity. What did he really have to base his beliefs on? As a little boy , he went to temple and celebrated the high holy days. When he turned thirteen , he had a bar mitzvah, but religion was never really a big part of his life. He had learned to make science that religion. Science explained so many things that conventional religion had no explanation for except for the Torah or the Bible, both seen as pieces of literature. Science was now his religion.

She started to stir . The cord on her stomach started to twitch as he felt in under his hand . There was definitely movement and it had startled him as he laid his head on her stomach. Next he felt a hand brushing the five o clock shadow on his face. Hours had turned into days . Hearing a sigh, his head popped up and he tore himself away from her to run to the nurse's station.

"It's my wife ! She waking up." He screamed as the gang all jumped up and surrounded him. The doctor went into the room and shined a light into Rachel's eyes. She was looking around as she noticed all of the tubes and monitors. She had no memory of this , she could just remember how she was laughing with Chandler and then she blacked out. She also spotted Ross' bag and knew that he had been there , even though she had no idea how long.

"Chandler ! Ross?" she called . Immediately Ross ran into the room and smiled. "You are going to be just fine. I was so scared that I had lost you." He started to run his fingers through her hair . This time it felt a little different than before. He pulled his fingers out and then noticed the long brown blondish strands tangled in his fingers . He reached his finger in again and another handful came out. He licked his lips and then he held the hair up. Rachel put her hand to her mouth and then she started to hold the misplaced hair in her hands.

"No ." she whispered. "No." it was happening . Her hair was starting to fall out.