"What happened tonight?" he asked as he pulled the vehicle to a stop in his driveway. I sat in silence with tears silently running down my cheeks, I kept my mouth closed for fear that I if I opened it I'd crack and become as hysterical on the outside as I felt on the inside.

"Ok let's go inside" He nodded accepting that he was not going to get any information from me for now. Without a sound I climbed out and moved towards the front door with Adam only a step behind me. Every step was an effort, my legs felt so heavy that it took every inch of energy I had just to make the few steps from the front door to the cinema room. I threw myself in to one of the recliners and again replayed every moment of the argument we had had earlier in my head over and over again. I checked my phone hoping that Gavin had tried to contact me, to tell me everything was ok and he didn't mean what he said and to say something, anything that would explain away what I had seen between him and the mystery blonde. Adam sat on the recliner next to me and grabbed my hand, stroking my knuckles gently. I closed my eyes and tried to pretend that everything was ok, Adams'stouch was gentle and left me with a feeling of reassurance and safety in the short time we had known each other I had come to know that Adam would always be there for me no matter what.

"It'll work out" I opened my eyes and looked at the forced smile on his face.

"Yeah, because that's what you want" I scoffed pulling my hand away.

"Jay this isn't about me and what I want. Yes I would love for you to kick him to the kerb and pretend he never existed, but that's not going to happen anytime soon is it?" He shrugged "The main thing I want is for you to be happy and if he makes you happy then so be it" He added.

"I thought I was happy" I sighed "We've spent a lot of time together recently" I admitted looking over at Adam. His jaw tightened and I could tell he wasn't happy with my admission.

"Both Katrina and John have been away this week so he's been staying" I added "I thought spending time together would be a good idea after everything" I sniffed wiping my nose with my sleeve.

"Why do you keep letting him do this to you?"

"Like I'd fine someone else" I answered "I'm hardly a head turner"

"Don't say that" His grip on my hand got tighter "You're gorgeous".

"You don't have to lie" I rolled my eyes and sniffed "I don't exactly look like Beth"

"What?" Adams face filled with horror "Jay don't compare yourself to her" He shook his head "She works out a lot and spends a lot of time on her looks" I shifted awkwardly in my seat "You don't even need to do any of those things to look the way you do…You're beauty never fails to shock me" He admitted, I looked over at him in complete and utter alarm at what he was saying "Any guy would be lucky to have you"

"Whatever" I scoffed wiping my eyes.

"What happened tonight?" He asked changing the subject slightly.

"I just wanted to talk about the affair" I sobbed "Maybe I shouldn't have pressed the issue" I took a deep breath trying to stop the tears "If I had kept my mouth shut he wouldn't have gone to that bar with that girl" I took in a deep breath to steady myself "He's right if we want this to work we can't keep talking about the past" I grumbled.

"You have every right to want answers" Adam argued "And nothing justifies what he has done tonight… You didn't deserve that"

"Some of the things he said in the argument were awful" I told him, Adam shifted in his seat so he was facing me, urging me to continue "It doesn't matter" I shook my head.

"Tell me" He said softly.

"I need to sleep" I told him.

"Spare room" He gestured towards the stairs where the room was I had stayed in before. I heaved myself out of the recliner and walked up to the bedroom. Adam wordlessly followed me in and pulled me out one of his old t-shirts I bit my lip as I held it out in front of me with a small smile. I looked up at Adam who raised his eyebrows at me "Not the time" He whispered shaking his head and laughing slightly as he exited the room. I stood dumbfounded for a moment but then it dawned on me that I had bitten my lip after all this time I still couldn't understand what the problem was with me biting my lip. I sighed and took my clothes off leaving myself wearing nothing but my bra and underwear, I turned towards the tall mirror in the corner and began inspecting my body and comparing it towards the blonde girl in my mind. I silently began to cry at all the imperfections I could see staring back at me.

"Hey, I was thinking…" Adam began as he walked in "Woah?" He stood with his mouth open in shock "Sorry" He said his eyes observing my body, although he had apologised he made no effort to move. I stared back at him in the mirror, he had taken his shirt off whilst he was out of the room and I couldn't help but stare. I had seen him without a top on before, but it never ceased to amaze me how perfectly sculpted his body was with his tattoos and the hair on his chest in just the perfect amount. I stood waiting for him to say something or leave.

"Is everything ok?" I finally broke the silence between us as I tore my eyes away from his perfectly sculpted body.

"Shit…Erm…Yeah…I" He stumbled over his words and ran his hands through his hair, his biceps rippled as he did "I'll…leave" He eventually said as he turned around to leave. I grabbed the t-shirt he had given me and pulled it over my head.

"What did you want?" I asked sitting on the bed with my legs out in front of me.

"I can't remember" He chuckled sitting on the end of the bed "I should let you sleep" He said leaning over to kiss my forehead for the second time in an evening, I closed my eyes getting lost in the feeling of his lips on my skin. I wrapped my arms tightly around him buried my head in his neck, his strong arms pulled me close to him tightening the hug.

"Thank you" I whispered.

"What for?" He asked pulling away and laying down on the bed next me.

"Being there for me" I told him laying down on my side next to him.

"Always" he said pulling me close to him, so we were spooning, his arm draped over me. Slowly we both drifted off to sleep. A while later I slowly came round from a deep sleep, it was still dark so I knew I couldn't have been sleeping long but Adam was gone, I could no longer feel his presence behind me. Tundra had must have joined us in the time we had been asleep because he was asleep on my feet snoring away every few moments. I heard a low whisper from the hallway, the door was cracked open slightly and I could hear small snippets of conversation.

"What do I do man?" Adam whispered "I'm sure…how do I even tell her?" his voice was low but the frustration in it was clear "What if she doesn't?" Tundra suddenly sat up and left the room "Yeah thanks" He grumbled as he entered the room, I quickly rolled back over and closed my eyes pretending to still be asleep. He threw his phone on the bedside table and began pacing the room, I slowly opened my eyes and watched him for a moment.

"What's wrong?" I whispered into the darkness as I rolled over.

"Nothing kid" He replied laying down next to me, our faces were inches apart.

"I'm not a kid" I told him looking into his green eyes. I hated it when he called me kid it reminded me of the massive age gap between and made me feel completely inferior, I wasn't a child at all. It made me feel helpless and pathetic and that was the last thing I wanted to be to anyone, especially Adam.

"Yeah I know" He replied his hand resting on my thigh, his thumb gently rubbing the bare skin, shivers ran down my spine at his gentle touch.

"Gavin didn't mean what he said" I explained.

"Let me decide that"

"He said she was more beautiful than me, more fun and a better shag" I sniffed putting my hands over my face, Adam's hand suddenly moved from my thigh and he grabbed my hands away from my face.

"Jay don't listen to it" His face was only inches from my own and was serious "You have no idea how beautiful you are and he as your husband he should be reminding you every day" tears spilled down my cheeks "There's no way there's anyone in this world more beautiful than you Jay" He put his hands either side of my face forcing me to look up at him "You're so amazing" He smiled "I could look at those eyes every day and when you smile….and I mean really smile I can't help but smile with you because it's so contagious Jayme" I laughed in between sniffs and sobs.

"Stop it" I sniffed rolling on to my back.

"I mean it" He pleaded with me to believe him as he propped himself up on his elbow and looked down at me.

"Adam what?" I asked as he hovered above me in complete silence. Slowly his head began to lower closer and closer to mine and I couldn't help but to bite my lip. A low growl escaped his throat as he stopped and sat up straight.

"Sorry" I mumbled sitting up next to him.

"Don't apologise" He smirked "I like it and that's the problem" He chuckled turning to face me again. "I promised myself I wouldn't…" He whispered. Before I could even respond Adams lips came crashing into mine. Every nerve ending sparked into life as the kiss deepened, Adam placed his hands on my hips and lowered me back on to the bed, so he was on top of me, I placed my hands around his neck and ran them through his long blonde hair. I had been with Gavin for 10 years, but not once had it felt like this when we kissed, Adam pulled me closer by my hips, he let out a low growl as his hands began to wonder up my shirt. "Jayme" He groaned between hot steamy kisses; he pressed his hard erection against me shocking me with the sheer size of it. Eventually he pulled away and rested his forehead against mine whilst we both caught our breath.