Chapter Six: Broken

We are bruised and broken masterpieces

Ellie

"I'll call you by the end of the week to let you know," Dr. Sullivan said. I shook his hand and thanked him. At least I got it over with.

"How'd it go?" Emma asked as I walked out into the waiting room.

"Fine I guess," I said, shrugging. "He'll call me by Saturday."

We walked out of the clinic and down the street to the bus stop. As we rode it back home, we talked.

"Have you thought about what you're gonna do? You know…if you are pregnant?" Emma asked me.

"Not really," I confessed. "I just realized it was possible today. I could never get an abortion…" I trailed off, looking out the window. I'm no fan of it.

"What about adoption?" I shrugged again, tears forming at the corners of my eyes. I never thought this would happen to me. I can't blame Sean for all of it, but he played a big role by leaving. If he hadn't left, I wouldn't have gotten drunk that night. And I most definitely would have never slept with Jay.

"I don't have the money to have a baby," I cried. Emma hugged me and let my head rest on her shoulder. "I guess I should give it away. And give him or her a better life. With my dad gone all the time, I don't know how my mom will handle this. But I do know I have to tell her," I said, going into a different subject.

"I could come with you to tell her. Or maybe even have my mom come too. She knows all about this you know," she pointed out. "But, then again, you might not be pregnant at all, you know?"

"I most likely am. Either that or something is really wrong with me."

Spinner

I confessed what I did to Mrs. Hatzilakos. She kicked me out of school. I don't know why I did it, but I kept my mouth shut about Jay and Alex. I told her that I did it alone. I don't know why I'd protect the idiot that got me into it; but it's just as much my fault as it is his.

What am I going to do now? I can't live off of my paychecks from The Dot. I have absolutely no one left. No girlfriend, no friends, not even a school to go to. If I had school then I'd at least get to see the people I care about the most.

How am I going to tell my parents? They didn't even show up at the school when the shooting happened. They're too busy for me, but I know they'd notice if I didn't go to school at all. I asked Mrs. H not to call them. I told her that I'd tell them. But how?

My mom works out of her office at home. She's an accountant or something like that. And my dad is one of those guys who sits on his ass all day. He doesn't work at all, and he barely ever speaks to me. Apparently he didn't want kids but my mom did. If she really wanted them so badly, why doesn't she pay any attention to me?

I walked into my house and threw my bad down on the couch. There's good old dad, watching football.

"Hey dad. I got kicked out of school today. You know that shooting? I planned the thing that set the kid over the edge. My best friend ended up paralyzed and now I'm a complete outcast," I said. He never even looked at me once.

"That's nice," he grunted, scratching himself.

"Did you even hear what I said?" I protested.

"I'm trying to watch the game. Come back later."

Yeah, later. Love you too Dad.

One down; none to go. There's no way that I'd tell my mother. I'll just pick up more hours at The Dot and work full time. It's the only thing I can do.

In the meantime, the ravine sounds like a good idea.

Manny

"So what was that all about?" I asked Jimmy after we ate lunch. I waited to ask him until he cooled off, but now he was just staring off into space. We were sitting at The Dot. "Hello? Jimmy?" I said, waving my hand in front of his face.

"Wha…oh sorry," he said, looking down at his empty plate.

"You wanna tell me what's up?" I asked again. "You don't have to if you don't want to," I added.

"I'll tell you, but not here." He motioned to the waitress for the check.

"I got it," I said, pulling my purse out.

"No, it's fine, really. A thank you for coming with me today," he told me, putting money on the table. "Let's go."

We walked out of the restaurant and headed towards Jimmy's house. His parents would be at work until way after he got out of school, so we were going to hang out there for a little while.

"So, what happened?" I asked for the third time, as soon as I was sure there was no one around.

He sighed, stopping and looking up at me.

"It was all Spinner's idea," he said.

"What was?" I asked, confused.

"This." He pointed at his wheelchair and frowned. I could tell he was trying not to cry.

I stared at him in disbelief, my mouth hanging wide open.

Jimmy

"You want anything to drink?" I asked Manny as we entered the house. She shook her head and slowly sat down on the nearest chair. "You okay?" I asked her.

"I just…can't believe he would do that," she said, finally speaking after the rest of the walk home. "I thought he was your best friend."

"Yeah, the key word there is was," I told her.

"I'm sorry Jimmy," she said.

"Don't be sorry, it's not your fault," I pointed out. "Besides, I don't want to spend the rest of the time dwelling on Spinner. I've put it behind me."

"Jimmy there's no way you could have put it behind you!" she protested. "You just found out like two hours ago."

"I'm stronger than you think. I've learned to deal with crisis," I said, somewhat coldly.

"Well so have I, but that doesn't mean you can get over something this big so quickly. Do you want to talk about it?" she asked kindly.

"Manny, look, just drop it okay?" I snapped. "I don't want to talk about it."

"You don't have to be such a jerk about it. I was trying to help!" she said, standing up and heading towards the door. "Sorry I tried!" she yelled, slamming the door behind her.

There I go again, driving everyone out of my life.

Marco

"You need to move on you know," Craig said.

"Please don't give me relationship advice Craig," I said, rolling my eyes. "It's weird. And you're not exactly an expert in the area…"

"Ouch," he joked, rolling his eyes. "I know, but…all you do is sulk about Dylan. Forget about him and find someone new."

"Like you? That kiss was just…" I trailed off, looking into his eyes.

He stared back at me, his mouth wide open.

"Chill Craig. I was joking. You're not my type." We both got a laugh out of that.

After the shooting, I had been a little shaken up, so I went to visit Dylan. I found out that he was partying harder than I thought…and getting with other guys. He wanted me to share him with them. There was no way that was going to happen.

To make him jealous, I kissed Craig. And it was weird. I really do not like him like that. So, we broke up.

That was two weeks ago.

And now I have no one.

Degrassi sucks.

Emma

"Where have you been all day?" my mom yelled when I walked into the house.

"At school," I said calmly. "Why?"

"Emma! Don't lie to me. Your dad said that you weren't at school at all. You didn't show up for any of your classes. And I had to leave work to pick Jack up from daycare because you never even went!" she yelled.

"News flash Mom! I have my own life; it doesn't revolve around Jack. And he's not my dad!" I yelled that as soon as Snake walked into the house. I saw his face drop.

For a long time I've thought of him as my dad, and called him 'Dad,' but it was just something that came out. I was horrified that I said it. He was really upset.

So I did the only thing I could do. Wiping tears from my eyes, I ran past him, out of the house, and down the street.

After all the pain that place caused me, I went straight back there. It was the only place I had to run to. The ravine.

A/N: Okay, I know nothing at all about Spinner's parents, so I made it up. I'm not gonna change it though, sorry. And more characters were put in this chapter. Did you like it? What was good and what was bad? They lyrics at the beginning are from "The Economy of Mercy" by Switchfoot and they own it.

How terrible am I that I forgot to update yesterday? Sooooorrrrrryyyyy