(I Don't Love You!)
Inuyasha was floating, his body giving in to the warmth that softly padded his every turn. Was this what it felt like to die? Was he dying? He felt absolutely certain that there was no other explanation and felt himself sink lower and lower, how long would it be before his soul reached Hell, surely he would not be permitted to enter gates of Heaven.
Inuyasha smiled in the darkness and rolled over, enjoying the painless sensation, wait, that had hurt! Slowly he felt himself accelerate upwards, rising out of his dazed state.
One amber eye opened delicately to the sunlit chamber of the mossy shack at which his group had been stationed during the storms.
"Inuyasha! You're awake! Thank the heavens!"
Inuyasha turned his silvery, dazed head to the figure coming over to him, blocking the sunlight. a small smile flitted over his lips as he realized who it was. There was only one girl in the whole world that had that annoying little voice, and he couldn't have been more grateful for it.
"Hello Kagome." He said, wincing slightly at the pain in his chest, "What happened?"
"Don't know." She said plainly as she sat down next to him on the wooden floor that had been tidied in the past few days; Sango really had a thing for clean housing.
"You don't know!" Inuyasha said slightly annoyed, "How can you not know unless you passed out too!"
Kagome smiled as the trees outside the door blew in the breeze, causing the bamboo door shield to sway slightly.
"I don't know because I don't really remember, as far as I know nothing happened, all I can remember is that Naraku came and that you got hurt, and then…," Kagome's eyes went slightly blank and day dreamy as she seemed to try and recall what happened next.
"…And then?" Inuyasha asked.
"I don't really remember, there's like a big white spot where that memory is supposed to be."
"Keh" Inuyasha sputtered in annoyance.
The young girl sitting beside him gave a slight frown as she bent to her right, picking up a wet sponge from a wooden bowl of water.
"Don't do that!" Inuyasha said wincing slightly as he lifted himself off of the ground.
"But you're hurt!" Kagome said frowning a little trying to push the hanyou back to the ground.
"I'm fine! I don't need you trying baby me with this crap, my body's a lot tougher than your's and will heal itself in due time!"
Inuyasha sat up and thrust the miko's hand aside in protest.
"I said stop!"
"Sit Boy!"
Slam! Inuyasha felt his sore body set on fire and his mind go blank for a second as he tried to sort through the many beads of light that fluttered through his eyes. Slowly Inuyasha came to his own senses again and picked himself up off the ground.
"I'm sick of you and you're games!" He spat towards Kagome who looked more shocked at his calm comment rather than a torrential outbreak. "Don't talk to me! I don't love you, I don't even like you, so just stay the hell away from me!"
Inuyasha moved his feet slowly, carrying his swollen body towards the door and out of the room, leaving a very shocked Kagome sitting with a dumbfounded expression on her face.
Had he just meant what he said? She thought diligently as she tried to make sense of what had just happened. It was only one "Sit", Right? It's not like it hurts or anything right? Slowly Kagome reflected upon all the times she had "Sat" the hanyou. Each time he had made an impression in the ground slightly, how could she have missed it? Now the she thought about it, it must have hurt a fair amount, otherwise it wouldn't subdue him.
Kagome felt a feeling of self realization wash over her. What have I done? What have I been doing! Ever since he had those beads put on him! How many times have I done it just to get my way! She wanted to apologize for it but knew that it was too late, the hanyou had just told her himself. She had ruined it, every chance she could have ever had with him had probably just disappeared into thin air. God! What have I done!
Inuyasha pushed the bamboo curtain aside slowly and squinted in the sunlight slightly as a pleasant breeze blew past him, sending his hair into a frenzy all around him.
"So, if you don't love her Inuyasha, Who do you love?"
Inuyasha spun around and found himself facing the figure of Miroku sitting perfectly on the wall of the shack, just outside of the entryway, his staff positioned perfectly over his shoulder.
"Who says I need love, monk!"
Miroku raised his eyebrow slightly and slowly helped himself up via his staff.
"Well Inuyasha," He said staring off towards the woods in front of him as another stronger wind blew, sending both men's hair flying, "Everyone has someone."
Inuyasha slowly noted the beautiful serene scene that had seemingly been conjured up by the monk's presence. It was like he was magical, like someone he had known a long time ago. Someone like…
"Love does nothing for me but hurt me, don't even try to tell me otherwise."
"Is it because of her?" Miroku said dashing his eyes towards the doors entrance.
Inuyasha shut his mouth. He knew very well who had sealed his fate of love. There was no returning to the way things used to be with her either, because Kikyou was actually dead. The Kikyou that still walked the earth was nothing more than a toy that Naraku used against the hanyou to control his emotions, but Inuyasha had put a stop to that quite a while ago.
"Look Miroku," Inuyasha said calmly as he looked at the figure in front of him only to focus his glance elsewhere, "I know you're trying to help and all but, it won't change for me."
Miroku grinned slightly in a way that almost looked sad.
"It will Inuyasha." He said warmly evoking a small light within Inuyasha that his own dark mind never even knew existed. "Never give up hope of being happy and always look at everyone with trust and hope."
"Keh." Inuyasha spat turning and walking away.
"Inuyasha…"
Inuyasha turned his head over his shoulder to face the monk.
"Believe me, change is nothing good for me who changes every new moon."
With that Inuyasha took a few steps and vanished in a flash, no doubt headed off towards the field for sanctity. Miroku simply shook his own head and gazed up at the sky, which was slowly growing cloudier.
"Trust me Inuyasha when I say that change is all you need…"
(((T)))