Chapter 5 History

N gripped Touko's arm even tighter. He could see that she was annoyed, part of him hoped that is because she was not sleeping and not because of him. He just felt foolish and childish. Like he was a little kid again the castle with Ghetsis… Ghetsis. A shiver went down N's spine and he tried to coax Touko into a sitting position on the bed. Touko complied, but there was still a sense of frustration emanating off of her.

Finally N opened his mouth and the words started to pour out.

"When I was a kid… well I guess I should go a bit farther back. I told you I was raised by pokemon and Ghetsis found me in the forest right?" Touko nodded, unsure of where this was going. Though suddenly a sense of dread began to fill the pit of her stomach from out of nowhere.

N continued, "Well when Ghetsis found me he already had to girls, Anthea and Concordia. You met them, I think. You see; none of us are his biological children. I don't know Anthea's and Concordia's story but they too were adopted by Ghetsis.

"I was maybe three, give or take, when Ghetsis gave me a home. I had loved my home with the pokemon but Ghetsis, after many days of watching me, told me that I should live with humans since that was what I was.

"So I went home with him and met Anthea, Concordia and the Shadow Triad.

"Some time after that Ghetsis started doing some strange things. Creating Team Plasma and finding the other sages, I could not tell you why at the time. But he wanted me there with him. He said I was going to be the king of a world were Pokemon and Humans were separated but I would still be able to rule them both. I didn't get it. Truth be told I still don't get it, but it sound interesting to me. Like a game."

N took a breath giving Touko a chance to butt in, "My guess is you have not gotten to worst part yet." She stated. In fact everything N had said up till that point seemed tame and simple. She was not sure why the feeling she had in stomach was so strong.

N nodded, "Yeah, but back then I thought being king of both Pokemon and people was a cool idea. I was really excited about it. I wanted to show my father I was ready to lead this brave new world.

"I don't really remember when it all started to go down hill. I think he first came with injured pokemon for me to take care before he started to do bad things to me." N paused and looked gloomily at Touko.

"Bad things?" Touko whispered.

N looked away, saddened by his memories. "I guess should try to explain it as best as I can. Concordia and Anthea always said what happened to me was wrong but that was all they said.

"Well as time went by and I grew up Ghetsis seemed to get more… impatient. I know I was still pretty young when he beat the first time. He had said I needed to learn the meaning of suffering so I could better empathize with the Pokemon he brought to me. But he also did it when was drunk." N winced, Touko was mildly surprised N knew from drunks. Maybe the goddesses had told him that word and explained to N what it meant, "He was a nasty drunk. I guess now that I think about the first time he hurt me in… other places he was drunk too."

Touko seemed to choke on air. "Other places?" She managed to choke out.

N looked at Touko, his eyes watering up a little. "I don't think I was older the 9 or so the first time he really hurt me. I mean the beatings were bad but this was far worse. I don't really remember what happened that first time, except for the fact that it hurt to walk for days after and Anthea and Concordia had to try to muffle my cries afterwards. I don't even remember when I stopped crying.

"But he did that to me, again and again. At some points I would wonder what was so great about people anyway. They cause so much pain to each other without even needing to try. I would wish that I never left my family in the forest.

"Then it would stop and things would seem to get better. And being a king sound cool again… Touko?" N asked, suddenly noticing that Touko had turned away. There was a strange fire in her eyes. It was the same fire he had seen there when she had first faced Ghetsis.

And she was softly crying. Through sniffles she asked, "Is that why you don't like beds?" She said through muffled tears.

N blushed a little in the dark, glad the night gave off so little light, "Yeah… He would always take me to another room and do it to me in a bed. That was the only time I would sleep in a bed, actually."

Finally Touko turned to N, after she was sure she could say what she wanted to say without making a mess of her words, "He raped you? Ghetsis, the man who is your father, raped you?"

The word did not quite register in N's head. Then he remembered something Anthea and Concordia had told him about that word. What they said now seemed to fit with what he had just told Touko. Up till now he thought he had only been abused, a form of training to make him empathize with Pokemon, but now he knew it had been much more than that. After a moments pause N wanted to say again that Ghetsis was not his biological father so it was all right but instead said, "Yes… I guess he did."

Touko wrapped arms around N, "Oh N, I'm so sorry. I should have known, or guessed or… something. I don't know. I sorry. You must have been having flashbacks in your sleep and it is all my fault."

N tried to look Touko in the eye but it was hard, considering the way Touko was hugging him, "You had no way of knowing Touko, really it's alright. You couldn't have known. Now please stop crying."

Touko pulled away for just long enough to look N in the eye. She wiped away a tear and nodded. "Alright, I guess your right." She did not however remove her arms from around N's neck. "Is there anything I can do tonight to make it easier for you, now? I don't want you to have any more nightmares."

N considered Touko's offer. He knew the unselfish thing to do would be to tell Touko that he would be fine now and that she should just go to bed. But deep down he had a feeling that those nightmares would just come back. So reluctantly he asked, "Could you stay with me for the rest of the night?"

Touko could not help but notice that N seemed to become a bit more childish as he asked the question. She smiled. "Alright."

N beamed brightly at Touko. "Thank you." He said and slid over to give Touko some space to slide in next to him.

After a few moments of adjusting Touko finally asked, "Comfy?"

"Yeah," N whispered in reply, sounding like he might about 7 years old. Touko was struck by the innocence of this all.

Finally Touko said, "Good night," and N replied with a yawn and a "Good night," right back.

End Chapter 5

Yeah so I know a bunch of you were wondering how the Harmoinashipping was going to happen; now you know. I was thinking of making it more graphic but my mind does not work that way. Besides this is supposed to be a story about healing not a story about incest.

Also if anyone wants to Beta for this story please PM me, I don't do that stuff the normal, mostly because I am scared of trying things I don't understand and I don't want to mess it up. So yeah, I am sure someone may want to give this a try for. Thanks.