As I've expected… My HITS breakdown shows that people here are starting to ignore my humble work huhuhu (starts to cry)… From 1000+ to 700+ then just 300+… Hnnn… Guess I have to improve my story…
So here's the 4th installment… Hope it'll do fine…
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"Sasuke? Why can't you concentrate on our training?" Kakashi-sensei asked me as I have tripped over a trap shooting lots of kunai towards my other teammates, Sakura and Naruto. I did not bother answering his question. I just walked out my way towards a tree and sat. I looked at Naruto who looks stupid as ever. He doesn't look troubled, perhaps he didn't notice that his diary is missing after the day I cleaned his room. Good for him… but now… I have to live with the memory of his diary…
Hmph…
Now I can't concentrate whenever his around!...
Damn it…
You're asking me why I can't concentrate? Well, just read on…
Tuesday,
This day has been a really weird day diary… I followed Sasuke all through out the day. Of course sometimes he notices that someone is following him so he keeps on running away! Damn! He was so fast… I can't follow him… Just where the hell is he going anyway? To train alone again perhaps?...
Eventually I ended up lost in the forest, I tried to find my way home but all the thick shrubs and tall trees just won't let me see the path home…
And then I found myself in a clearing… And there in the other side is Sasuke… I don't know but my heart skipped a beat.
He was there sleeping under a tree with some of the sun's radiant light flowing over his exposed white skin… I wish I could sit with him and chat with him like we were good friends… like… best friends.
Then he suddenly woke from his sleep and stood. He looked at me and I smiled back, I thought that he will also smile but he just smirked at me looking pissed out. You know diary, it had hurt…
Sigh… I just walked away from where I stood. Just why am I thinking things like this anyway? Sasuke is not a best friend material! He's just a jerk…
See? Big deal isn't it… I never knew that looking at him like that would hurt him? Perhaps I was too harsh on him. So now here I am looking at him like he supposed to do.
Then he caught my eye! I smirked at him again! Shit! What am I supposed to do? It seems innate… I tried to look at him again and he seems frowning a bit… I think I had hurt him again.
So what if I hurt him? He's just… Naruto.
And if he wants to be my friend then he should start getting used to my attitude.
But deep within me there is… a feeling of guilt.
I had never wished to hurt anyone.
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Wednesday,
I love eating ramen! This day I got a free meal stub from Ichiraku Ramen! Home of the most delicious ramen in Konoha!
Anyways, I also saw Sasuke today. I saw him at the swing in the academy where I had always sat. I can't sit there with Sasuke sitting in it! Can't he find his own space? Hmph… Sasuke looked sad today. I wonder why… I wish I could ask him what the problem is… I wish I was able to comfort him. But it will only be a dream… I can never do that.
Just what does he thinks of comforting me? He's creeping me out…
Who is he to comfort me?
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Thursday,
The final exam before graduation is nearing… I hope I can pass that one… I want to be a real ninja! Just who the hell doesn't want too? Sasuke? Yeah, he'll pass… He's like the most perfect student of the academy and adds the fact that he came from a well-known clan.
Me? I don't know… A while ago in the academy, Iruka-sensei asked me to do a shape-shifting technique of the 3rd Hokage and I sucked. Everybody laughed… well except for one… Sasuke. That's because he looked pissed-out again.
Why does he always have to look pissed-out when he looks at me?
Do I have a shity face? Hope not… Maybe because Sasuke hates idiots…
And I'm a total idiot… He'll never like being close to me…
He's correct about him being an idiot. But I don't hate idiots… Does Naruto think that I'm that bad? That I could hate people who doesn't do anything wrong with me? Reading this diary really gives me a feeling of guilt. My conscience bugs me… Perhaps I should start fixing my attitude. I should be nicer to Naruto.
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Monday,
Hello diary! First of all, I would like to apologize since I wasn't able to write some entries for a couple of days. I thought I had lost this diary forever…
Yeah… Lost forever in a pile of stinky underwears…
Okay, so today I became a Genin! I'm already a ninja! I thought I won't be able to wear this Konoha forehead-protector. Well… I owe Iruka-sensei my life now hehehe…
So yeah I attended the meeting for the newly graduates and there I came to know that Sakura, Sasuke and me are on the same team. And our Jounin is Kakashi-sensei.
I'm so embarrassed in that meeting!
Why? 'Cause I kissed Sasuke! Oh my! I didn't plan about that! It just happened… Now I'm really sure that we will not be friends forever. He will hate me more than he has ever had! Arrgghhh…
But at least he tasted good… hehe
(Blush)
Tasted good?
Damn that Naruto! He actually wrote something like that in his diary? Didn't he think that someone might eventually read it? Like what's happening now?
Yes I remember that time when we first kissed…
Damn! I can't believe that Naruto is my first kiss… Hmph…
I had always thought that I will save my first kiss for someone I really Love. Someone that I will live with forever…
Right… So Naruto says here that I had ruined his dream first kiss… As if it was my fault…
But now that I kissed Sasuke… It will never happen.
That guy really makes me think…
As if he thinks…
…I mean, we are rivals… but why am I like this when it comes to him? Why do I always want to fight him about whose better? Why? When deep inside me all I want is to be with him…
Arrgghh! I wish someone would tell me why this is happening…
Wait… Am I getting this right?
Does this mean that…
That Naruto is liking me?
Oh god! This can't be happening!...
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End of chapter…
TO BE CONTINUED…
Get those fingers to typing! I wish you still like this story… I'm starting to loose faith really…