Yeah, don't kill me. My friend has me doing all this romantic stuff today for kicks. No, I am not going to become a romantic fanfic writer. Yes, I will continue Confinement. This is just "i'mboredandhungryandcan'tthinkofanythingtodoatthemoment" fic. So excuse the randomness. ;)
Not my characters, etc.
I was made for you.
I existed so that you might exist.
I lived so that you might live.
I protected you so that I might protect myself.
I was foolish.
I did not understand.
How could I?
You were everything to me, everything that made me.
Without you I would die.
With you I die still more painfully.
The agony of existence without you is impossible to bear, yet to live with you hurts more.
I cannot bear this agony of helplessness and self-denial.
I cannot bear this torture of eternity.
I cannot love forever.
It hurts too much.
I cannot give you my all, it would leave me vulnerable.
I cannot protect you and it kills me.
I do not want to feel weak.
I do not want to feel helpless.
You bring me to my knees, and I am meant to stand!
I would kill for you!
I would die for you!
I have killed for you.
I have died for you.
I cannot live for you.
I cannot allow myself to feel more, to fear more.
I must be safe.
I must be alone again.
Safe in my own cold darkness, away from the blinding, burning light that kills me.
I hate it.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you!
I hate you for hurting me again!
You hurt me just like my mother!
You ruined my life, you despicable bitch!
I hate you…
I hate you…
I wish…