I AM SO SORRY! I know its been forever, but what with the holidays and all the annoying homework I had, and I was in New York for a weeks, I'm sorry! But here is Chapter 9! Ok, I wrote this a week ago, and I'm sorry, my internet has been down. :( poor ex use I know, but it's so true! I mean, I have not been able to contact so many people! So I' sorry, and I hope you enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts. I will never own Kingdom Hearts, so I don't get why I'm bothering to write this.

Me and Riku

No one's going to love you

I love you Sora

Your beautiful

Best friends forever

Smack

Get away from me

I love you

Forever

Love

One.

The brunette slowly opened his eyes. He saw white, all around him. He smelled a scent that could only be described by one word, clean. He tried to lift his head, but everything was so heavy. What had happened. He tried to recall the events that had taken place last night. He didn't remember anything. Where was he? How did he... who was he? He tried lifting his head again, and this time he succeeded. He saw that he was definitely in a hospital room. He looked to the side. Two shapes were there, but he couldn't write make out any details. Silver and blonde... He looked at his hands, they were bandaged, his head was too. He tried to speak, but no sound escaped his lips. Suddenly, they eyes of one of the shapes snapped open. Nice aqua eyes. He liked those eyes, they looked kind.

"Sora! Oh Sora!" Sora? Who was Sora? Was this guy talking to him? The injured boy tried to speak, but he still couldn't talk. "Oh, I'm so happy! I thought that... it would happen again. And, it would be all my fault... Tidus! It's Sora! He's awake." The blonde haired figure rose. He smiled. The boy in the bed looked at him, he looked kind to, but those eyes, that smile, they were meant for someone else.

"Sora..." was all he could say. The brunette wanted to ask who this Sora was, but he couldn't talk. Finally, a rasping voice emerged from him.

"Who?" the two didn't understand him

"Don't try and speak! The doctor said that after such a massive panic attack, your voice might not function right for a while." said the silver haired boy. The littlest of the three had yet to hear his name spoken. "Here, write everything down on this," and Riku handed him a pen and paper. The brunette's bandaged hands clumsily grasped the pen and tried to write, but all his letters came out squiggly. He tried again, and finally something legible emerged. Who is Sora? The silver haired boys and the blonde haired boys grew slightly alarmed. "Sora? Don't you know me? Riku? And your Sora!" I don't know any of you. I can't be Sora. Sora isn't me. Riku stepped back." It was all my fault, all again..." Tidus went off to find the doctor. The brunette, who was beginning to assume he should just call himself Sora for now because he didn't exactly have anything else he would like to be called, though he did like the name Chad, just looked blankly at Riku. He started writing something down again. He shoved the paper at Riku. Whatever happened to Sora, I'm sure that its not your fault and that he'll forgive you. Riku almost started crying when he read that. It made Sora feel bad. He had wanted to help Riku not hurt him. Please, don't cry. Riku smiled. Even if he didn't remember he was Sora, he still acted like him. In a couple minutes Tidus came rushing in followed by a man of about 25, He had thick black hair and black eyes. His skin was chalk white. He had a name card that read Dr. Vincent. He leaned down and shone a light into Sora's eyes. He took Sora's temperature, he took his blood pressure.

"Everything is normal. His concussion is gone. What did you say was wrong with him? Memory loss?" Riku and Tidus nodded eagerly. "Hmmm... little boy, do you know who you are?" Well, they say I'm Sora. I like the name Chad though too, but not as much as Sora. Maybe I'm Chad. Dr. Vincent laughed at this but then grew serious. "So you are ok being called Sora?" Sora, or maybe Chad, shrugged and nodded. "Do you know who these two boys are?" They say their names are Riku and Tidus. I don't know them from before though. Their eyes are familiar though... Dr. Vincent thought for a second. "Well, it looks like he just has a classic case of amnesia. Nothing rare there, he did seem to have slight trauma to the head," said Dr. Vincent indicating Sora's bandaged head, "It should go away in a week or too." and he walked out of the room. Riku and Tidus sat down exhausted. Sora found the remote to the TV and surfed channels, completely unaware of the remorse around him. He was wagging his tail, he wanted to do something, like whistle or sing, but his voice wouldn't allow it. He felt... free for the first time in years.

Riku and Tidus headed home with heavy hearts. "Amnesia. Sora has amnesia." said Riku every now and then. Tidus was silent and sullen. They were bringing the news back to everyone. Including Hiro. It had been him who found Sora that fateful night 3 days ago. Him who had saved Riku's beloved. Riku was still mad at Tidus. Not as mad at him as he was at himself, but still mad. Tidus had barged in, Tidus had been mad at Riku. For what? For loving Sora? Should Riku be mad at Tidus for also loving the one person in the world it was impossible to love in some manner? NO, that's not why he was mad, he was mad because Tidus had pushed him, to go over the edge, and take Sora with him. Finally they arrived at Riku's house where everyone was waiting anxiously. Kairi looked up.

"How- how is he?" Riku sighed, a long heavy sigh.

"He can't speak, eh can only write, and... he has amnesia. He doesn't remember who we are, who he is, nothing. Dr. Vincent said he would send his mom a full report, and us one too... Hiro?" The auburn headed male got up, "I just really want to thank you, again, for finding Sora in time. If you hadn't-" Hiro gave a kind smile.

"Don't worry about it. And I'm sure Sora will be fine." Riku sighed again and sat down in a chair. Tidus sat down in one next to Wakka. Wakka was not speaking to Tidus, and Tidus was not speaking to Wakka. Wakka blamed Tidus, Tidus blamed Wakka and Riku. No one else really cared who started it, they just wanted it to end. Eventually they started leaving... one by one. Until only Hiro and Riku remained.

"Hiro? You seem... you seem like you give good advice, lord knows your helpful, I need to ask you something." Hiro shrugged and sat down opposite of Riku. "What do I do?"

"What do you mean?"

"I think, Sora got hurt because of me. I- I could've stopped Ansem. I could've invited Sora over to my place. And Sora's mom. Claimed she never knew him. Which was a lie because they were legally married. But for some reason, she didn't know him. She'll still say she didn't know him. Its like, she forced him out of her mind. But, I had always had bad vibes coming from Ansem. Granted I thought it was probably just that he would steal Saria's money. But no, he raped by best friend. I knew it was coming too. I had heard him, I had seen him looking at Sora. I had heard whispering on the phone, looking bad. So, I went to their house one day and- Sora was practically dead. It looked more like the scene of an axe murderer than of a "small" rape the policemen put it. So, I saw Sora, and he was half naked..." Which you were lusting after a small voice in Riku's head said. "I felt so... dirty. A million possibilities sprung up in my mind for as to how I could've helped Sora. And then when i saw him, all I wanted to do was run away and never come back. But, instead of getting punished, of being rebuked, he only loved me more. Then now, I had been avoiding him for a week or two and it was tearing him apart. So, I told him the truth, I loved him. I kissed him." Oh but you were getting ready to do more than kiss. Said that voice again, "And when Tidus came he accused Sora of knowingly liking each other, I- I got so mad I punched Tidus and we ended up fighting. I think, I think it threw Sora over the edge, because like, even before that he was slightly mentally unstable. So I have landed Sora in the hospital twice now!" and Riku ran out of breath. Hiro blinked.

"Wow. And you really blame yourself for all of this? For someone attacking Sora while you were somewhere else, for fighting a guy who challenges you, for Sora cutting himself, for all of that?"
"YES!"

"Lets say that I had a pet mouse, and lets say I had a pet cat. I could've done something like set up a cage around the mouse, over his original cage to keep the cat out, but lets say I warned the cat and just put the cage hi up. Now, is it my fault the cat got into the cage and ate the mouse?"

"Hiro what does-"
"Just answer the question.
"No."

"Now, say that cat had a girlfriend, and say another old Tom was eyeing the girlfriend. Is it the cat's fault that he wants to protect the she-cat?"

"No."

"Then I would say, those are not the ways you hurt Sora."

"So I still hurt him?"

"I think all of you did, you, Kairi, Tidus, Cloud. I think you all hurt him unwillingly and unknowingly."

"How?"

"Its how you treated him."

"Ummm..."

"You just wanted Sora to stay the same. You wanted to pretend like he never got raped, like his step dad never became a wanted criminal, as I assume he is because I saw a newspaper article about him. Ansem La Mort right? Anyways, you wanted him to be the same sweet lovable kid he was. So in order for you to feel safe and secure, you made Sora stay something that he wasn't anymore. He never became the fine strapping young men you and the others are, he never cared to developed an interest in girls, or should I say boys, like you did. He stayed Sora. And I think, that more than anything, he didn't want to be Sora. But I also think that maybe you, sometimes, treated him more like an adult. I think because your envisioned him and yourself, together, married maybe, in society, you maybe secretly wanted him to change. So I think you ended up helping him most of all. Maybe that kiss, maybe it was what he needed. And when you found him and, I presume, called the cops and the hospital, you helped him. Granted, maybe you should also not have fought because though I compared you to the cat, your a human and are more civilized, you still can't really be blamed." This is what Riku needed to hear for the past 3 years.

"So, you don't think its my fault?"

"No, and you shouldn't either," said Hiro as he was getting up to leave.

"Thank you," whispered Riku to him, but he was already out the door.

Sora sat in his bed in the hospital playing the video game the pretty red headed girl had brought him. What was her name again? Kari? Kaya? Whatever. She had kept calling him pups and puppy for some reason. He thought his name was Sora. One by one his "friends" had visited. Or they claimed to be his friends. He thought the blonde and brunette were especially funny. The way they play fought and were so open about their relationship. He wished he could kiss someone. Whenever he thought of stuff like that, his mind sprung to that boy Riku. There was something in the boy's eyes that said 'I love you.' Sora had had his medical condition explained to him. A long time ago, something bad had happened to him, and he went into a state of trauma, maybe now that he wasn't even vaguely traumatized anymore was why he felt so good and free, and just recently, he had had a relapse and had a bad panic attack. He had been cut, pretty badly, so the fact that his heart stopped for a few seconds didn't help. That still didn't explain quite well why he had amnesia, but they said it must be because he "bumped" his head.

Ok, sorry again it took so long and I hope you like it because I wrote several different dialogues with Riku and Hiro, and a completely different ending originally. Who thinks Ansem should come back? Please tell me because I'm not sure if he should or not. Also, all the medical conditions, I have no idea if they can happen (A lost voice from a panic attack?) But I needed them for my story so…. Oh well… Yeah, thanks and bye.