But he won't give up.
Draco lifted his head
and looked at his tearstained face. His pale face had once had a glow
of superiority but now it was just pale. He felt drained and the dark
circles under his eyes showed that he had not slept well. He didn't
understand. He should be proud, chosen as Voldemort's heir. Instead
it was the worst thing he had ever experienced in his life. He had to
kill. He always had wanted to but now that he had to he couldn't.
What was worse was that if he couldn't kill Dumbledore Snape would
have to. Snape had watched over him too long. He knew that Snape was
a double agent for Dumbledore. It was easy to see. He knew that this
was why he would tell Snape exactly went on at the meetings and what
Voldemort had said and what was being planned. In his own way Draco
was a double agent too. He looked at the faucet and once again looked
to the mirror. I hate my reflection, I hate my face, I hate myself, I
hate my father, I hate my friends, I hate the Dark Lord, I hate my
house, Draco thought. What didn't he hate? He hated that he would
have to go home during the holidays just to be beaten by his father
and watch his mother be beaten to the almost death. Sometimes, as
blasphemous as it sounds, he wished he was a Muggle and didn't have
to deal with this. He wished his mother was so naive. Her name,
Narcissa, was true to her. Narcissa, its latin root being Narcissus
which meant unrequited love, seemed to fit her. No matter what Lucius
did to her she would still love him. What blinded her? He knew she
loved him, her son, but why would she love Lucius? She tried so hard
to make Lucius love her but everything she did for him he countered
it by making it seem as though she had done something wrong. Now she
was slowly dying, crumbling inside from this disease called love.
Could she not see that Lucius couldn't love anyone? He can't even
love his own son. He only loves the Dark Lord and his power.
"Why
doesn't he just go marry him and leave us alone!?" Draco
shouted at his reflection. What if he had been in a different family
with a different house and with different friends? Would he be like
this? He raised his fist and punched the mirror hard. It shattered
into a million pieces. Love, Power, Life. These were things Draco had
had enough of. He raised the piece of mirror. I'm giving up, He
thought. He dropped the piece of glass. Why am I giving up? I can't
die. If I die it won't matter. No one irreplaceable. I have to stay
alive. Stay alive and defy my father. I have to try to do everything
I can to defy them. I have to help the right way. Perhaps I could be
a double agent like Snape. When the last battle came he would cross
over and laugh in both of their faces. He might not be able to kill
Voldemort but he would kill his father. It would be enough.
Draco
went to bed and fell asleep. When he woke up he had forgotten his
plan to defy the Dark Lord and all he stood for. It was almost as if
the plan had been erased from his memory.
Draco walked into the
Great Hall searching out Pansy. Ugh, Pansy. He had to marry her, who
else would he marry? They had been engaged since birth. Sure Pansy
was pretty and rich but god was she annoying. He put on his smirk as
he walked to the seat his "dear little Pansy" had saved for him.
"Morning, Draco!" Pansy cooed batting her
eyelashes.
"Good morning Dray." Blaise said in monotone
while eating an enormous pile of pancakes.
Draco merely nodded at
Blaise and didn't acknowledge Pansy. He pretended he didn't see her
hurt look. Draco took some bacon strips.
"Don't eat bacon
Draco darling!" Pansy said shrilly. Draco examined her plate. It
had a pancake on it.
"Why ever not Pansy Parkinson?"
Draco cut the bacon into little bits and stabbed three pieces with
his fork.
"Think of the poor little pigs who were killed to
make the bacon! Think of the torture and think of how they squealed!"
"And think of my poor stomach which is empty and wants to
be filled by bacon!"
"Oh" Pansy fell silent. She
remained silent for the rest of the meal sitting there eating her
pancake and veggie sausage.
"Blaise? What do we
have next?" Draco asked his friend.
Draco felt just like his
father then.
Draco's arm burned. It
was in the middle of Transfiguration. What the heck could Voldemort
want? How should he deal with this? If Draco ignored it there would
be a great punishment, but if went to Voldemort's side the secret
would be out and he wouldn't be able to kill Dumbledore. The pain in
his arm made him sick.
Sick.
Draco ran up to Professor
McGonagall and squeaked "I am sick!"
"Alright
er...you may go to the nurse," Professor McGonagall looked
surprised at the squeaking voice of Draco. Then Draco did it. He
hadn't meant to but he did. He threw up right on Proffeser
McGonagall. He then ran out of the classroom. The Slytherins all
applauded at the fact that their least favorite teacher had just been
vomited on. Draco ran down the hallway to the cupboard that he had
fixed to let him into Honeydukes and looked both ways to make sure no
one noticed him and then he lifted up his sleeve and saw his mark. He
touched it with his wand, closed his eyes, and he felt a rush. When
he opened his eyes he was standing in front of the Dark Lord. They
were at Tom Riddle's grave site. Lucius had told Draco about how the
Dark Lord had risen again and Draco knew this was the place. Draco
immediately knelt and kissed Voldemort's robe.
"My heir,"
Voldemort hissed.
"Yes, my master?" Draco said, still
kneeling in front of Voldemort.
"Get up." Voldemort
said with an air of impatience.
"Yes, master." Draco
stood up.
"Draco, you as my heir must know something of
great importance. Tom Riddle is my father. He was no wizard."
"Sir,
are you-
"Yes Draco, I am a half blood, impure." Draco
gasped at this. Voldemort who led the Crusade against the Mudbloods
was half Muggle himself. Voldemort continued.
"My father ran
out on my mother when he learned she was a witch. She was then led
into a life of poverty and died giving birth to me. It was because of
him, the filthy little muggle, that I went to an orphanage and was
unnecessarily tortured by the muggle children who knew nothing. I
then learned I was a wizard. I went to Hogwarts during the winter and
fall and during the summer I lived at the muggle orphange. I had no
friends there. I hated all those children. I began to think that all
muggles were like that and at school I began a cult against those of
impure blood, convincing people that Salazar wanted us to get rid of
these Mudbloods and Muggles. It was I who thought of the term
Mudblood. Now, Draco, I know that this is wrong but it's gone to
far and I must continue the crusade. Draco, I chose you because I
know you don't really believe in this. I know you wanted to kill your
father. I know you hate me and I hate myself. I hated my father as
well and I killed him. I loved my mother but my father destroyed her.
We are so similar Draco. That is why you will be the next Dark Lord.
Because you will destroy this Draco. Don't disappoint me.
Draco
traveled back to school.
That was when Draco woke up in the middle of the night. It was all a dream. The Dark Lord did want to kill all the mudbloods. Draco was tired of all this battling against people. It had started fifty years ago and he felt it would never stop. Why couldn't they just ignore the Mudbloods rather then try to round up a gigantic army and kill them all. He would never have any say in it until he was The Dark Lord. He thought of all the Mudbloods he knew. Immediately he thought of Hermione Granger. She wasn't terribly ugly but not pretty enough to tempt anyone. Her monster hair that probably ate people was a major turnoff but other than that she had an okay complexion. All she had to do was get that hair under control and she could get with better people than the Ron Weasel creature with the ghastly hair and freckles. When Draco thought of it all the family had those nightmare features, except for Ginny. Blaise was practically in love with that red head. If it hadn't been for his parents Blaise would probably kidnap Ginny and marry her. But his parents would never let him ten feet near Ginny for any reason, even to hex her. Knowing Blaise, he probably talked to Ginny regularly and went to Hogsmeade somehow with her. He always thought Blaise as Romeo. Blaise always fell in love with someone else every week. Ginny defiantly held the record as the longest liked by Blaise, though. Now that he thought about it Ginny was unrealistically like Juliet. He could see Blaise and Ginny lying dead on top of each other on the Ravenclaw table in the Great Hall with Harry, playing the part of the Count, lay dead near the Gryfinndor Tables and Dumbledore playing the part of the Friar. He, Draco, would play the part of Mercutio. Draco laughed at this idea and almost went back to sleep but he saw the sun starting to rise and he didn't feel in the least sleepy. He got out of bed quietly and looked out of the window. He smiled as he thought of the common misconception that the Slytherin Dorms were in the dungeons. The Common room was but the rooms themselves weren't. He saw the sun. The pink rays stretched across the blue sky. Oddly his thoughts were only of Hermione and he thought of her eyes.
Hermione dreamed. "Oh
happy dagger this is thy sheath!" she heard a voice say. "Now
let me die!" She opened her eyes. It had been years since she
had thought of the play Romeo and Juliet. Hermione had gone through a
temporary Shakespeare phase in which she read all of his plays and
bought all the movies that she could of his plays. She had often been
called nerd because of her Shakespeare obsession. She guessed some
things never change. She sat up. Wouldn't it be so odd if there was a
Romeo and Juliet affair at Hogwarts? No doubt there would be with
Ginny's new romance with Blaise (although Hermione had sworn not to
tell). She just hoped no one would die. It would cause quite a
scandal not to mention the loss of her best friend and not to also
mention the loss of her only friend who was a girl. Harry and Ron
were good friends, however they weren't quite the ones you went to
when you had a crush or relationship problems. Hermione got out of
bed and got her journal. She had gotten it from Dumbledore's office
after she had been petrified
THE CAST FOR THE PLAY ROMEO AND
JULIET
Juliet- Ginerva Weasly
Romeo- Blaise Zambini
The
Nurse- Hermione Granger
Mercutio- Draco Malfoy
Friar Laurence-
Albus Dumbledore
Lady Capulet- Molly Weasley
Lord Capulet- Fred
Weasley
Lady Montague- Mrs. Zambini
Lord Montague- Mr.
Zambini
Count Paris- Harry Potter
Tybalt- Ronald Weasely
Benvolio- Neville Longbottom
Prince(ess) Escalus- Professer
Mcgonnagol
Sampson- Crabbe
Gregory- Goyle
Abram- Seamus
Rosaline- Cho Chang
Peter- Crabbe or Goyle again
The
Chorus- Luna Lovegood
Hermione laughed at the cast. It was quite
accurate if this were to happen in real life. She looked up at the
sun rise and wondered if Draco Malfoy would find this thought as
amusing as she did.
