Thank you all reviewers!

This time is a little bit special, originally this was supposed to be one chapter but it became way too long so I split it into two parts this being part a. There are also two versions of this part, this one which is shorter and another longer version which contain a lemon that I put on my newly made homepage (well I made it specifically for this). If you want to read the lemon-version there is a link on my profile page.

This time I'm going to be a little selfish, as you may have understood the second part is already finished so I can upload it whenever I want. When that will be will depend on you my dear readers, in other words, if you want to read the next part, review. I honestly put some effort into this and I feel like I don't want to continue if I don't get any response. Of course this might be so bad that nobody wants to read the next part but that is a different story, in that case I won't update anymore on this story of course.

Enough, let the story begin:

I'm Only into This to Enjoy

"Why do you look so disappointed?" He whispered in her ear. She could feel him smiling.

"What are you talking about?" She feigned ignorance.

"Why do you look like you're expecting something from me? You didn't like to be treated indifferently?"

"I really don't know what you're talking about." She swallowed hard, she didn't dare to move a muscle. What was he doing?

"Oh, I think you do." He said and placed a kiss on her neck that made her shiver. Apparently he noticed because he chuckled.

"But I'll say it in your place…" he kissed her again and she could feel his lips and even his teeth lightly press against her neck.

"You want me…"

"Wh-…" She was going to protest but he hindered that by a kiss. She didn't even have time to be shocked and as if it was the most natural thing in the world she opened her mouth and their tongues met. She remembered this from dreams she had, but reality was something completely different. But still there was a feeling of unreality, unwanted fantasies had become true. But he was right, she wanted to kiss him. There was no use of denying it. Inescapably her breathing gradually became heavier.

"You were saying?" He said smirking.

"Oh, shut up!"

"Hmm, maybe I misjudged the situation, if you don't want to I won't force you?"

"…" Cagalli mumbled and tried to hide her embarrassment by avoiding his eyes and staring at the floor.

"Huh? I can't hear you."

"I didn't say that!" She looked up and spoke too loud. Noticing her mistake she immediately turned down her eyes again.

Seeing her behaviour Athrun satisfactorily chuckled and continued, "So you want to kiss?"

"…"

"Again I can't hear you."

"Yes…"

"In that case why don't you kiss me? If you want it you should come and get it yourself."

"Eh?"

"If you won't do anything I won't either."

So he was testing her, she thought a little bitterly. But sadly she felt he had a point, maybe it was a good thing too: he cared about what she wanted.

She bit her lip and fiddled with her fingers, not knowing what to do with her hands. Then she hesitantly put her arms around his shoulders. She was surprised how broad they felt, he definitely was pretty but his body was without question that of man. That slender figure but still surprisingly muscular, this was the difference between a woman and a man? A little irritating but she could sense that he was much stronger than her, she had faith in her fighting skills but she probably wouldn't stand much chance against him if he got serious.

She looked up at him and slowly moved her face toward his, he was taller than her so she had to tiptoe the last bit because he wasn't helping her at all. She closed her eyes and softly placed her lips on his, trying how it felt. She felt her cheeks get warm, she moved away a bit and opened her eyes again and looked him in the eyes. She couldn't read his countenance, but since he didn't say anything she decided to try again. She closed her eyes again and kissed him again. This time she dared to do a little more tightening the grip around his shoulders pressing her lips against his. She felt his arms folding around her waist. She opened her mouth and let the tip of her tongue slip into his. She stopped again, waiting for some kind of sign perhaps. She felt his hands move up her back, she kissed him again. Their tongues met, they stopped. She could hear him draw a heavy breath, it trembled a little. This seemed to be the limit, he drew her closer. The next kiss was almost violent, their teeth hit against each other but neither of them seemed to care. She pressed herself against him and his hands moved along her body.

He placed a hand on her breast feeling the outline of it through the shirt. Unconsciously she moaned a little, he smiled amusedly. She suddenly felt awkward and hesitated but he wouldn't let her get away. He kissed her again his hand never leaving its spot. He moved his lips to her neck. He moved his hands up her skirt grabbing her bum with a firm grip and lifted her up on the bench. Then moving them inside her underwear, she froze again and lightly pushed a hand at his chest. At first he chose to ignore her but when she pushed harder he stopped, "What?" He said irritated.

"Not here." She said weakly. He stopped and looked at her a little then smiled a wicked smile, "Well somewhere else then?"

"…"

"If you don't want to do it here, come over to my house tonight and we'll continue…"

She answered with a simple nod looking down at the floor. Zala kissed her on the cheek and whisper in her ear, "7 o' clock tonight, my place. I'm looking forward to it." And with that he left.

"W- wait…" She called out but it was too late, he was already gone. "Jerk, I don't even know where you live." She mumbled to herself but something caught her eye, her notebook laid open on the desk. She looked closer and she something written in it and not in her handwriting. It was Zala's address along with a note saying "Here is my address, just don't go tell anyone, ne." That hentai, when did he had time to do this? And by the way, fat chance she would tell anyone, don't write unnecessary things. She sighed and stuffed the notebook in her bag.

When she got home she took off her shoes and immediately walked to the wardrobe. There they were, her bags from that shopping day with Fllay and Miriallia still untouched. She had honestly thought that she would never wear those clothes, but now the day seemed to have come. She smiled a little sadly, they would probably be very surprised if they learned for whose sake she would be wearing them. Truthfully she wouldn't have believed it herself but there was no helping it, maybe it was against reason but she wanted to go to Zala's place tonight and she wanted him to think she was pretty. It was painful to admit but she cared what he thought about her, she wanted him to notice her. It had somehow felt so lonely when he had treated her like a stranger, when he treated her like he treated everyone else: with indifference bordering to open contempt. She wanted to be special to him but at the same time she knew she might just be one in the long line of girls that she had seen him with, and that only during two weeks time! And it made her feel insecure but in the end she knew she had to follow her instinct, perhaps it would lead her the wrong way but she had no choice. She sensed that he was interested in her, and anyway why would he have gone through all that trouble the last weeks if he truly wasn't interested in her. Another source of insecurity was that she had no experience of dating before and she was hopeless with all that cute girly stuff that all girls seem to know from birth almost. Up till now hadn't had any interest in it for that matter, so she was a little at loss. Though she thanked Fllay and Miriallia in the back of her mind, with their help she could at least do something.

She took a shower, put on the skirt and a sleeveless tight shirt. With some effort she put on mascara for the second time in her life and she tried to fix her hair. She looked in the mirror not fully convinced, again she thought such a cute outfit didn't fit her because she wasn't a cute girl like Fllay or Miriallia.

Was she only kidding herself to think she could pull this off? But it was too late to back out now, he might laugh at her but it felt like it was out of her hands now, she was moving as of some other will than her own.

She decided to take a taxi because she didn't trust herself with finding the way, she arrived 15 minutes too early. And in the end she waited with a tightening chest for 30 minutes, both because it would look as she was too eager if she came early and because she was afraid of what was coming. Eventually she felt she couldn't put it off any longer so she pressed the button on the entryphone and after a little while she heard a cool voice, "Yes, this is Zala, who… Oh it's you, you're 15 minutes late. Get in." he said and she heard the lock to the gate open. Hesitantly she opened it and walked into the world behind the walls surrounding the Zala property.

Athrun looked down at the creature that had appeared outside his front door and he felt a little superiority complex. She had obviously tried her best to look nice for this, even though it was a little clumsy done he had to admit it was cute, just as you would expect from Yula. Her simple innocence was one of the things that attracted him, for one thing it made her different from him. But it also provoked him and somewhere he felt like he wanted to destroy that innocence.

Yula looked nervous on the verge of being afraid. "Don't look so scared, it's not like I'm going to eat you… Ops, on second thought I might just do that." he grinned.

"D- Don't be stupid why would I be scared of you!" she screamed angrily.

"Hai, hai, if you say so. By the way, why don't you come in or are you planning on standing there all night?"

"No, if you just move your ass out of the way I might come in." She continued her aggressive attitude. Athrun just chuckled, this Yula was so much more fun than the badly acted cold and reserved Yula he had had to deal with for the last weeks. He felt in a really good mood, tonight he would make her scream but for a totally different reason.

"Certainly, please do come in." he said and made room for her.

She seemed to hesitate a little when Athrun helped her to remove her jacket, but apparently changed her mind and quietly let him take it.

"So do you want anything to drink? I've got beer."

"Beer, alcohol?" She looked surprised.

"Of course it's alcohol, don't tell me you've never drunk before?" He raised an eyebrow.

"O- Of course I have, beer is fine, I'll have beer."

She was obviously lying, this should be interesting Athrun thought. He guided Yula to the kitchen where he handed her a bottle and took one for himself. She took one sip and grimaced, his guess had probably been right, she didn't look like she was used to the taste. She took another sip and asked, "This place is really huge. Do you live here with your parents?" she had wondered where his parents were since it seemed like it was just the two of them who was there right now.

"I live here with my father but he is seldom home, my mother is dead." He said in a rather unconcerned way.

"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't know."

"It's not particularly something you need to apologise about, like you said you didn't know. And besides it was a long time ago so I'm pretty much over it." He answered while he looked intently at the label on the beer bottle he was holding.

"Pretty much over it? How can you say that? She was your mother for God's sake!"

"That is none of your business." He looked up and said in an icy voice. He wished that she would stop talk about this, she wasn't here to be his psychologist, she was here to get him laid.

"So you practically live in this huge place by yourself, don't you get lonely?"

"No, not really. I'm used to it." He answered shortly. She seemed to notice his irritation and didn't ask anymore and began drinking the beer with amazing speed instead.

They became silent for a while but soon Athrun decided to break it, "Never mind that let's go to my room." he decided not to give her any more beer, it wouldn't be fun if she passed out or if she threw up in his bed.

"…un." She nodded nervously.

When they walked up the stairs she stumbled but seemed to manage to keep her balance.

"Are you alright?" He asked.

"I'm fine… just a little dizzy."

He chuckled a little at her behaviour but he guessed it was to be expected if she never had drunk alcohol before.

"Here we are," Athrun said while opening the door with one arm and lightly pushed Yula into his room with the other. He quietly closed the door and turned to her, "Now where were we, Cagalli…" he said and placed a lonely kiss on her neck. One kiss but it made her tremble, she felt oddly relaxed, was it the alcohol? He had called her Cagalli and somehow it was incredibly sexy. She was weak against his voice she knew that from before but now it hit her with renewed force.

Well he if he called her by name she didn't want to be worse, "Athrun…" She said and placed kiss on his lips and started unbutton his shirt. He looked a little surprised at first but soon smiled as usual again. She couldn't claim she did it perfectly but one by one the buttons got free. She didn't know were she got the courage from, shouldn't she be scared to death right now? But somehow her feelings were imbedded in thick fog, in the back of her mind she thought it was strange but it wasn't only the alcohol she could sense that. Because she had experience this feeling before, the feeling of wanting to touch him and wanting to be touched by him.

She looked so cute and clumsy while she was trying to open his shirt, drunk perhaps but innocent. He could feel waves of desire coming leaving him almost without composure. He was surprised much her saying his name excited him, how much she excited him. Earlier in the classroom today he would have screwed her right there and then if she hadn't stopped him. But it was better this way, now they could take their time and keep going all night long… In reality he just wanted to fuck her immediately but that was being too hasty. Oh no not yet, not yet, he wanted her to beg for it, he wanted her to scream, he wanted to humiliate her, he wanted to control her.

Carefully Cagalli started to move her little hands over his chest and he was a little surprised of how forward she was. He smiled and grabbed her wrists and pushed her down on the bed straddling her, pressing down her wrist over her head. "So what to do now, maybe help you remove this…"

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(This is where it happens…)

x

"Wait here and I'll go and get bath towel for you." Athrun said and sat on the bedside fumbling trying to take off the condom discreetly, he searched the floor looking for his boxers, found them put on them before he got up and went to the bathroom.

Cagalli just lay dead still, waiting for Athrun trying not to think too much about the dull pain she felt in her stomach area. He came back with the towel and she thankfully wrapped it around her. There was blood on the sheets and as she got up from the bed a thin trickle of blood ran down her leg. It didn't escape Athrun's eyes but he didn't say anything.