Flower Tears and Marauder Fears
Chapter 5: Unexpected Happenings
Lily and James excited Dumbledore's office in silence both still shocked at what had happened. Shaking his head James allowed Lily to step on to the moving stairwell before him. Lily (still in minor shock) never acknowledged the rare show of chivalry.
"Lily?" James asked slowly, waving his hand in front of her face.
"What?" Lily said seeming to come back to reality at the sound of James voice.
"Lily" James started, taking a deep breath "I'm – we – you – you could have got out of this" James said stating the obvious "You didn't have to be head girl"
"Don't remind me" Lily suggested darkly, annoyed that James was voicing her thoughts; "Why didn't she refuse?"
" Why didn't you say no?" He asked as if this was the most obvious thing in the world.
Lily looked at James for the first tine during the conversation and James saw that she was not happy. "Why didn't I say no?" she repeated furiously, James had seen Lily mad many times before (most of the time he was the reason) but he had never seen her this mad. Her beautiful emeralds eyes were devoid of the happiness they usually held had been replaced by rock hard anger. "If looks could kill…" James thought.
" I didn't refuse." Lily said now overly furious, Lily couldn't understand what was making her so angry. "Why am I so angry?" Lily asked herself "Is it because he sounds as I f he wanted you to say no?" a smug voice in her head asked "Impossible. Why would I care what he wants or thinks of me?" Lily asked herself angrily "Unless your falling in love with him…" At this realization Lily's voice became a little shaky but no less angry.
" I will not let an inconsiderate, arrogant PRAT to influence my decisions!" Lily yelled loudly, stalking off the stairs when they came to a stop. Just as she was about to turn the corner to McGonagall's office, James caught up with her. Grabbing her by the arm he whirled her around to face him.
Lily could see hurt disguised by anger and felt a small twinge of guilt.
"I'm a prat?" James asked angrily, he had rarely had anyone say something offensive to him having it be Lily who did it hurt more than it should have "Than what does that make you? You won't even give me the time of day. If I'm a prat than you're a…a…" James thought fruitlessly for a word to describe his thoughts.
"an insignificant TEACHER"S PET!" James finished cruelly
Just than a door opened down the hall Lily turned toward it, but not fast enough to hide the deep hurt in her eyes from James as she freed her arm.
Professor McGonagall stepped out of the room, wearing a Gryffindor house coat and slippers.
"Goodness Gracious!" she scolded "What's all the noise for?" she asked sternly, while coming towards them "No problems I trust."
"None at all" Lily said quickly surprising James for the second time that evening. Lily was smiling but it didn't quite reach her eyes. Eying them suspiciously McGonagall lead them down the corridor. Lily and James followed in silence, after passing a few twisting hallways and Nearly Headless Nick they came to an ancient looking arch that rose from the wall. Where an opening to walk through should have been there was simply brick.
"Now it will be up to you too pick a new pass word. You do this by picking a word you both agree on and tapping the wall 3 times with you r head badge. Your temporary password is "Draco Dormiens". As soon as these words left her mouth the brick disappeared leaving a space that one could walk through.
"I'll leave you two to explore. Goodnight!"
Lily stalked past James without looking and went into their new dormitory. She found her self (James followed her in and closed the door) and James in a common room finely furnished with deep red carpeting, comfy furniture, and a fire place. Finding a door to the right of the common room, Lily walked over to it. Placed on the door was a gold plaque with the words "Lily Evans" written in flowing script.
Opening the door easily Lily gasped quietly at what she saw. The room she saw was a light sky blue, fairly large, had a canopy bed and pictures of her family had been placed nicely on the dressers. Walking over to her bedside table Lily picked up the picture sitting there. Two people sitting in a blooming garden smiled back at her, her mother's blond hair spread out on her fathers shoulder her emerald eyes sparkling, her dad's startling red hair and laughing blue eyes as he swung the garden swing.
Placing the picture back on the table with a smile Lily noticed someone had placed a vase with a single pink rose on her dresser. Lily immediately stiffened, if there was something she hated more than being talked to like a child, or even Potter himself it was the color PINK.
Preparing to discard the flower Lily was momentarily shocked when a white hot pain was suddenly in her arm. Gasping loudly, Lily looked down and saw that an extremely large thorn from the rose had cut her wrist where the vein was, and was currently imbedded in her skin. Blood was starting to seep on to the floor from the cut but Lily did nothing to stop it, and just stood there. "Yet another reason to hate pink" Lily thought bitterly.
Just then James came darting through the door he had come when he heard Lily's gasp of pain.
"What's wro – LILY!" James yelled sprinting over to Lily he caught her just as she collapsed to the floor. James gently took her to the bed and sat her there. Looking into her eyes he saw they were clouded and she seemed dazed; pulling out a handkerchief he placed it over her wrist to stop the bleeding.
"Lily?" he asked softly , tilting her head up to him me repeated: "Lily? I need to take this thorn out. I need you to think of something else for a minute." Seeing her nod slightly as her eyes cleared he gently began pulling out the thorn.
Lily looked away from her wrist, the skin that James was touching was tingling. "It doesn't mean anything. You hate the sight of your own blood, you're in a bad position. You don't care if he purposely messes his hair up, or that you could drown in those chocolate eyes of his or …" Lily stopped suddenly when she realized two things. One: that she had just been thinking about James romantically and two: that James had finished and was staring at her. Their eyes met, Lily looked away embarrassed and ashamed. James picked up the soiled handkerchief (he had put a new one on her wrist) picked up the bloody rose and threw both in the garbage. He came back and sat beside her , both remained quiet; busy with their thoughts.
"Here he is helping me out and I've just called him a prat" Lily thought furiously ashamed with herself "He can be one sometimes but he can also be sweet… like now" resisting the urge to bury her head in her hands she turned her guilty eyes away from him.
James caught the look in her eyes though "Why is she guilty?" James wondered than he remembered the fight "She called me a prat but I was, when I asked her out but not when I asked why she refused… If anyone should be guilty it should be me! I called her an insignificant Teacher's Pet!" James thought quickly "Maybe I should apologize"
"Lily…" James started
"James …" Lily said at the same time she had finally looked up.
Searching her face James said softly –
"I'm sorry"
"Your sorry? I'm the one who called you a prat and now after helping me…" Lily blushed lightly.
"Your sorry!" James asked unbelievingly " I am a prat most of the time. What I called you…" James took Lily's chin so she was looking directly into those chocolate eyes she had thought about. "Your not"
They remained trapped in each others' eyes until –
"Thank you" Lily said softly slowly lifting her wrist, she made as if to get up and found her hand caught in his.
"Why do you always say no?" James asked softly rubbing his thumb gently across her palm.
"What?" Lily asked although she had heard him, the tingling sensation in her hand was rather distracting.
"You always say no" James said tugging Lily gently towards him he waited until there was only an inch between and looked directly into her bright eyes. "Why?"
Lily took a deep breath "You ask me out all the time along with many other girls (most of which you break up with within a week or a day even) giving absolutely no reason I'm not added to your already too big ego." Lily said she was getting angry again with every word. "You prank innocent people and treat other people like they don't exist." Lily finished furiously.
James had listened to every word Lily had said but was focused on the fact that she wanted to know why he asked her out. As he tried to put words to his thoughts Lily got off the bed and started to walk away barely managing to hide the hurt feeling on her face.
James jumped up also, forgetting his search for words he put a hand on her arm and held in there . When she turned around with eyes blazing with anger James only smiled and leaned forward.
"Here's why." He gently pressed his lips against hers.
(A/N: Hello! I have two things too say.
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