Flower Tears and Marauder Fears
Dedication: To all the reader who waited eagerly (hides behind book) even though the author didn't update for months! So this for all you wonderful readers!
A/N: Oh, and Drama Queen I stole your saying. Maybe this will convince you to read the story…
Chapter 12: Unexpected Visitors
Standing beside the bed Remus helped Madame. Pomfrey by giving her some room. Walking over to Lily he placed a hand on her arm, she was still staring at the girl who Amber had reappeared as. Forcing a smile he picked the forgotten bottle off the bed and held it out for Lily.
"Unless you want to stay permanently Pink I suggest you drink this" He commented lightly, attempting to draw Lily's attention away from Amber.
Lily's head snapped back to Remus, laughing dryly she took the bottle from his hand. "You know, if I didn't absolutely despise pink…" Lily trailed off dryly. Lifting the bottle to her lips she closed her eyes and tipped it. Cold, slimy liquid slid down her throat and seemed to sit in her stomach. Every gulp tasted terrible – a mix of an earwax jelly bean and sour milk. Thinking furiously that if James wasn't such a prick she wouldn't have had to do this, Lily swallowed the last bit and dropped the bottle back on the bed.
"Disgusting" She commented distastefully, but didn't say anymore when the startling shade of pink on her hand began to fade. Looking up at Remus he saw that the relief he expected to see was undermined by the hurt and betrayal that showed dominate on her face. But what startled Remus the most was the ice that seemed to be layered on top of these emotions.
"I suppose you're going to tell me James isn't as bad as I think he is?" Lily asked coldly watching the pink fade from her other arm. A thin strand of pink – lighter than the original - was splayed across her wrist.
"Lily I'm not going to tell you what you think I am" Remus replied his brown eyes devoid of laughter; he looked at Lily with a deadly seriousness that startled her "I'm going to tell you to be open-minded." Pausing Remus spoke the next statement slowly and firmly hoping that Lily would listen to him "Maybe you should go talk to –"
"I never want to talk to James on a personal level again" Lily said icily the conviction in her voice strong, overwhelming any feeling except that; jumping off the bed she walked up to Madame. Pomfrey as she rushed to get a cloth for Ambers head. A few words were exchanged before Madame. Pomfrey gave a harsh nod and Lily walked stiffly from the hospital wing, her red hair starting too show through the hot pink.
Sighing Remus waited until he could no longer hear Lily's footsteps before walked over to Amber's bed. Her now flaming red hair was spread in tangles over her pillow, her cheeks flushed, and her eyes clenched. The stance reminded Remus of the pure fear he hand seen in her eyes.
"I would have had to tell her eventually" Remus thought in self disgust as he gently and hesitantly took her hand in his own when she shifted slightly and groaned in her half conscious state "She's to smart not to have figured it out on her own. Now I've ruined the first relationship I've ever had with someone I wanted to and could tell" Groaning quietly Remus buried his head in his hands while still holding amber's.
"The marauders are the only people – other than my parents - who know, and even then they figured it out on their own." He thought angrily while he lifted his head but closed his eyes "I know I could have trusted her. Why didn't I tell her?"
Remus opened his eyes slowly hating himself, but was distracted when he saw that Amber had begun to stir. The hand that Remus had been holding gently clenched as Amber slowly opened her eyes.
Moving closer to the bed Remus attempt to make it look like he was checking her temperature when really shielding her from the view of Madame. Pomfrey, he needed to talk to her before anyone else did.
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Lily stalked furiously out of the hospital wing, her steps echoing loudly in the empty, dimly lighted hall.
"That's the way it should be" Lily thought as she passed two or three dark corridors "Head Girls shouldn't have to deal with any of this stuff on the second day of school"
Thinking that if James made her any angrier she would dock points, even from the head boy, even if he was in her own house Lily didn't watch as she turned the corner and collided head first into someone coming in the opposite direction.
The impact of the collision threw Lily of balance and as she was catching it the person in question was coming closer in order to see her through the darkness. A hand reached out to help her get her ground back.
"… Lily" James said softly as he recognized the shining red eyes. The confused look fell from his face to be replaced by one of hope as his hand tightened on Lily's.
Lily stiffened as she felt James rough hand on her arm and the way he had said her name softly. "Bad Lily… you can't possible still like him after what he did" Lily told herself weakly but a small voice resounded in her mind "you know better than that".
James had just come back from pacing in the common room, after the incident with Sirius he'd gone to look for Moony and after checking the Library, Owlery, and great lake had thought that maybe he'd gone to see Lily. James had planned on looking there and possibly getting Lily to talk to him. Collided into her on the other hand had not been part of the plan.
"Lily" James repeated more firmly even though his heart was beating to fast for comfort. "You have to listen to me." He said quietly and took her other arm so she couldn't move away.
Lily eyes narrowed and James was astounded to see nothing but cold in her eyes. They were devoid of feeling – even though that was the exact opposite of how she felt.
"Potter I was completely correct about you" Lily said coldly, her heart was screaming furiously at him but her mind was telling her not to give him the satisfaction of knowing he hurt her. Her mind was winning as her heart broke painfully in her chest. "You don't care about anyone" Lily stated coldly the level of ice enough to freeze the planet.
James growled angrily and stared at Lily until her cold gaze met his furious one "I will only tell you this once and I have no intention of telling you again." The hardness in his eyes had Lily's voice hitched in her throat as he stared directly at her, but she held her ground and glared at him as he stared at her and slowly searched her face. His hands had tightened on her arms but Lily only stood as he angrily gestured to her pink bangs which were slowly turning their normal color. "I will never do anything to intentionally hurt you." His gaze softened and his voice lowered as he ran a hand slowly down her neck, tracing the linger line of pink there "I didn't do this to you"
Lily's breath caught slightly as James fingers slid down her neck, goose bumps beginning on her arms but anger was an easy excuse to run away from her crazy reaction to James. Even though inside she was boiling and tears were threatening to cloud her eyes at how simply James could lie to her, her eyes remained cold and unfeeling just as the tone of her voice did and her eyes remained dry. "Potter you would make an excellent actor. You've had your one time only speech so I will to." Even though it ripped her apart inside she removed James hand from her neck and stared coldly at his disbelieving hurt. "I don't want to talk to you ever again as more than a head boy" Lily's eyes wavered as James face creased into one of absolute shock. Refusing to back down she pulled firmly - surprised how different her voice sounded - but James didn't let go of her arms, if anything his grip grew firmer.
"I'm telling you the truth" James said after a minute his face blank as it hadn't been for awhile. He took one of his hands from her arm to angle her chin so she was looking at him. "I won't say it again. So you have to trust me"
"That's nice, Potter" Lily said coldly and lightly -as if they were discussing the weather. Even though she cringed at the look of finality on his face not able to take any more of James' eyes on hers she stepped back and watched as James hands fell to his side "I think I'll go to bed now, we'll have to meet tomorrow in the Library to talk about Head's duties. Good Night" As if her heart was coated in 3 inch deep ice, Lily walked away and left James standing in the hall. Lily resisted looking back knowing that if she did she would only make a fool of herself. "No" Lily told herself firmly "He's the one who's done something wrong – not me." As she walked back to the head dormitory she couldn't shake the feeling that she was missing something.
James stood standing in the hall until he could no longer hear Lily's footsteps, before he went and leaned against the nearest wall. He had never felt so determined and angry in his life. He was angry at himself, but was angry at Lily as well … she didn't – wouldn't trust him.
"I've never seen Lily like that" James thought astounded, and then he scowled realizing that it was his entire fault "The only time she even gets mad is when I bug her, or prank her. But this time it wasn't my fault!" James thought angrily as he buried his face in his hands. "And I can' even tell her. I shouldn't have told Sirius but I was upset. I won't break another promise, even if this one could… Well it doesn't matter" James thought bitterly thinking back on their conversation. "She wouldn't trust me even if I did tell her"
"Well" A painting of an elderly witch cradling a baby commented "From what I gathered she has quite a reason not to trust you an inch young man. You obviously hurt her really bad, if you just said sorry and apologized to your friends afterward for breaking that promise she might begin to talk to you with a voice that doesn't tempt me to move to Hawaii!"
James jumped up and stared at the painting as she clucked exasperatingly, and rocked the small child.
"You've been muttering to yourself for the last 10 minutes or so"
James scowled at the witch "Well thanks for the advice, but I don't think I'll heed it" he said coldly and after taking a quick check to make sure he was calm enough to continue to the hospital wing , James took off leaving the witch and child behind without saying goodbye.
"How rude!" The old with cried as placed the child back in her cradle "To think that nice elderly man was saying what an awful bunch of kids they are. Although he was rather young to be saying things like that. And cursing students no less…. What did he say his name was? Oh … that's right" The elderly painting said snapping her fingers as it came to mind
"Tom. Tom something" with a yawn the woman continued talking to air as she closed her eyes and leaned her head on he side of her daughter's cradle "Said something about taking care of a problem … a person. Opal or Jade…"
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The wind blew gustily as Sirius swerved through the goal posts on the quiditch field. His robes pulled tight and his hair falling into his eyes as the wind blew from in front of him. His eyes were murky with anger as he continuously flew around the pitch going higher with each lap. The sky seemed to follow his eyes and darkened as the sun grew lower and lower in the sky.
"James shouldn't have broken his promise." Sirius thought as he furiously made a sharp turn to avoid colliding into the goal post "And all I did was go on with it, his just making a bigger deal than necessary…" Sirius thought trying to convince himself even though he could still hear the calm finality in James' voice when he said that he should enjoy being immature "He shouldn't have yelled at me. The Flower wasn't that mad…
"He shouldn't have, He shouldn't have. What about YOU shouldn't have?" A familiar but unfamiliar voice – like the voice of someone long forgotten – asked.
"You're not my conscious are you?"
"No, I'm Lucious Malfoy. Of course I'm your conscious. Although you haven't dug me up for years…
"Okay… What do you mean 'you shouldn't have done'? I didn't do anything wrong
"Are you saying that turning Lily pink was right?
"No but – "
"But nothing. You got in a fight with James over it. JAMES, who's family you've been living with for the last year, James who was there when your father died. And what about Lily? She's been your friends for years, what about her?
"Well … It's not my fault … I can't believe I'm fighting with myself" Sirius thought, shaking his head. But the voice still nagged at the back off his head. Decided he'd fly to the astronomy tower and fly the feeling off. Sirius took off, aiming for the bright light on the highest tower of the castle.
As he flew he began to get drowsy and was almost flying into them before he realized there was someone else on the tower. He pulled up on the broom and attempted to make a sharp left to avoid the person but didn't quite make it and found himself sprawled on the ground -on top of the person. When his broom landed by his head a few minutes after he did he realized he pulled up too fast and slipped right off his broom.
A faint blush tinting his face he looked down to find himself face to face with a pair of emerald green eyes that looked familiar, and staring at a drop dead gorgeous girl.
"Well" Sirius smirked as he shifted to get up and held out a hand to help her "This isn't quite how I usually want to meet beautiful girls but what ever works…"
The girl however raised an eyebrow and crossed her arms over her chest. "What were you doing flying that fast at 11 o'clock at night?"
Sirius was shocked for a minute – no girl had ever resisted the 'Sirius charm' before – except lily of course – and he quickly replaced the opened mouth guppy expression with an unpleasant scowl.
"I could ask you the same thing…"He said drawing the end of his sentence out to indicate he didn't know her name.
Rolling her eyes the girl shook her head – causing her blond wavy hair to swing – and started towards Sirius broom. When she had it in her hands she looked back up and smiled. "Melinda Evans" She said tossing the broom back to him.
Sirius barley managed to catch it as his mouth dropped open again. "Your …. Your…" He stuttered.
"Lily's cousin"
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(A/N) I'm back! I know "E" your going to kill me but I had to do it! Sorry for the long wait everybody, I hope that I didn't lose any of you wonderful readers and reviewers. I'll update again soon … definitely shorter than next time. And I'll update Royal Feuds as well, and then Mirror Image. So … How did everybody like it? To tell me all you have to is push the temptingly close purple/blue button…
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