Chapter Three- You Bleed to Feel Alive
After Poppy left Severus was able to look at the small body with out feeling like a pervert.
"Harry she did not heal all of you." Severus said with a sigh. Harry blushed bright red, Gryffindor red.
"I didn't want anyone to see." Harry said quietly. "I am ashamed." Harry lowered his head.
"Harry you need not be." Severus went and gathered the boy in his arms. He sat him down on the bed. "I want to heal you." Harry nodded, but it would be painful. He gripped the sheets of Severus' guest bed, his bed. Severus walked over the table where Poppy had left the balms. "So your Uncle did this to you."
"Yes. But after he came he shoved something thinker up inside me." Severus spread the balm over the opening. "Stop! That hurts." Harry begged.
"Shh. It is torn. I need to get inside to heal it."
"No." Harry covered his ass. "Please just let it heal naturally."
"That will take a way. This is faster." Harry shook his head.
"Please." Severus leaned over Harry's body.
"I will be gentle. Please Harry. Let me in." Harry shuddered at the potion master's voice. But he nodded. Severus slowly entered. Harry was biting his lip to try not scream. "How much bigger than your uncle." Severus asked.
"I don't know. Really big. My uncle is big to begin with."
"I wonder if he is as big as me." Severus said before he could catch himself.
"I would like to know that too." Harry said, slowly breathing. Severus pulled his finger out of Harry. The boy turned over. He was extremely aroused. His member was sticking out.
"Harry." Severus breathed.
"How long until…"
"About two days them you can…um we can…err."
"I would love that." Severus went in for a kiss. Harry pulled back a bit.
"Oh I am sorry." Severus said.
"Don't be. I am just scared. Even though I am with you." Harry moved to sit up and kissed Severus. Severus pressed his lip to Harry's. It was a sweet kiss with just a hint of passion.
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"When did your Uncle start your punishment." Severus asked. He was holding Harry, now clothed, close to his body.
"I was the day after my fifth birthday. He started raping soon after." Harry held onto Severus. "I thought that was punishment. But I got to Hogwarts and found out it was not."
"Then why did you not tell anyone."
"I was ashamed."
"What are these?" Severus noticed the marks on Harry's wrist.
"These are from the ropes that Uncle Vernon would tie me up with. And these…" Harry went silent.
Flash Back
The blood ran down Harry's pale skin. He just could not cut deep enough .
"Bleed, Dam it." Harry cut deeper. He felt it, he was alive. But he wanted to be dead.
End Flash Back
"Harry." Severus' voice came back to him.
"Oh they are from the times I have tried to kill myself."
"Harry." Severus picked up one of the wrists and kissed hit. "I wish I would have known. I would have taken you away."
"Don't blame yourself. I liked cutting. It made me feel alive."
"Oh Harry." Severus cried in to Harry's shirt.
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