Chapter Four- No Matter What It Hurts

AN: I noticed that my last chapy was not going along with the whole story. I go mixed up when someone made me mad. But I have rewritten the chap. It still has some the same stuff, but it is diffrent. Sorry about that.MRLV

The next day Severus took Harry to go get all this supplies for the next school year.

"Did you know that Remus Lupin, a friend of your fathers, is going to be teaching at the school?" Severus asked as Harry picked out some new robes.

"No." Harry smiled. "Maybe I can meet him. He can tell me about my father." Harry found a maroon shirt that caught his interest.

"I could tell you about him, the ass hole." Severus thought to himself. If the boy thought his father was all mighty then so be it. The boy had been through to much to know that his father was an ass.

After the clothing they went to get books. Harry picked out all of his that he needed. But a book caught his I. He looked around to see Severus looking at a different section. He picked up the book and began reading

Sadomasochism - Is the term combining Sadism and masochism. Both terms describe people who eroticize pain. A sadist enjoys giving pain, and a masochist enjoys receiving.

Harry flipped a few pages.

Domination and submission is usually termed together as a Power Exchange. The submissive releasing their power to the Dominant whom uses that power to combine with their own to bring the submissive to a satisfying power experience.

Two examples can be, the Sadomasochistic session of spanking. The submissive "submits" to the Dominant's hand and through their moans and movements explains what is going on with them. They release power and the Dominant takes that power and uses it for mutual satisfaction.

Another can be the simple act of a Dominant requesting that the submissive not wear underwear. The Dominant gains pleasure from the knowledge the submissive is naked underneath their clothes and accessible, and the submissive gains pleasure in serving the Dominant's request and feeling naughty…

"What do you have there?" Severus asked.

"Nothing." Harry hid the book behind his back but Severus pulled it out.

"BDSM Newbie Guild." Severus read out loud. Harry thought he would die from humiliation. "Are you interested in this, Harry." Severus tilted Harry's head up.

"I don't know." He answered, honestly. The memories come rushing back.

Flash Back

"You maybe a freak. But you feel so good. So tight." His uncle grunted as he slammed into Harry. The poor eleven year old had to take it. His hands were being held above his head.

"Please uncle, stop! It hurts."

End Flash Back

"Harry." Severus shook Harry.

"I'm ok. Lets get the other things. I am tired."

"Of course Harry." They visited the other shops and stopped by the pet shop and got Hedwig some treats and headed back. Severus stopped looking at a poster out side of one of the shops. Have you seen this man? It was a poster of Sirius Black, the tradee to Harry's parents. HE looked to see Harry staring into space beside him. He appreated them back to the house, and Harry went to take a shower. "I will fix dinner. What do you want?" But Harry didn't hear him.

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The hot water hit his skin like darts. Why did his uncle torment him still? He was rid of the old man. But since the book in the store he had flash backs of his childhood. He was glad that only three hours after Harry went to live with Severus his uncle was arrested. But the flash backs keep coming back to Harry. He could feel the pain as if it were yesterday, from memories years past.

"Severus." He whispered. "I hate you, uncle."

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Severus sat the food on the table. Harry had yet to return from the wash room. Severus was getting a little worried. But the boy came into the room as soon as Severus had decided to go look for him.

"Harry." He breathed a sigh of relief. "I thought you would not return. Sit down and let's eat. I made your favorite." Harry looked that the food but was no longer hungry.

"I think that I will go to bed." Harry turned but was stopped but Severus' voice.

"You had another flashback in the alley. I know you did. That is why you were not all there." He stood next to the Gryffindor and put his hand on Harry's shoulder. "You need not keep it from me. I want to know so that we can heal you." He turned and hugged Severus, crying into his robes.

"I want to be with you. But every time I have a flashback to a time with my uncle did the same, only worse."

"Harry I will never hurt you. When you are ready I will be here. Now go and sleep. You need it. I can see that you are tired." Harry yawned and wiped his eyes.

"I love you, Severus." Then he left, leaving a stunned potions professor in his wake.