Title: It Should Have Been Me Instead

Summary:Lorelai dies and Rory must continue to live life but it seems impossible for her will the support of her friends get her through it or will she go over the edge. Rory moves in with Luke for a while and then Jess moves to town. Story is much better than the summary. Also this takes place in the beginning of the second season.

Rating:PG-13 (It might change due to content later in story.)

Author:GilmoreBuffyFan13 a.k.a. Rebecca

Author's note: Ok I cried when I wrote this but it had a really bad dream about this happening and I couldn't get it out of my head so tell me what you think. Also I think I read some one's story similar to this a long long time ago I don't remember. Please R&R! Also I changed some things in the last paragraph so please read it.

Things about the story: Luke's apartment all ready was remodeled and he owned the space next to the diner. He took Rory in to watch take care of her since she was like a daughter to him, she is still going to Chilton. I will add other stuff later maybe.

Chapter One – The Prologue

She was alone now with no one there for her. She had no one to pick her up when she fell down. She wondered why the world had turned on her what she had done to deserve this, she didn't know, but all she knew was that she had lost her mother and best friend all in one day, one later afternoon it had happened so fast. Most of it was just a big blur to her except for hearing her voice. Hearing her mother's voice for the last time she would ever hear it. Rory Gilmore was only 16 years old and now alone in this world. Her mother had left this world as fast as she had entered it. The sheltered and happy life that Rory had once known was dead to her now. Every day seemed the same to her. Every little thing reminded her of her mother looking in the mirror made her cry even.

The day that Lorelai Victoria Gilmore died her daughter Lorelai Leigh Gilmore seemded too have died as well or so it seemed. All of Stars Hollow had mourned for at least a month. It was on a Saturday night November 16th, Rory and Lorelai had just gotten done watching Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory and headed towards Luke's when it happened. No one expected it. Most were in shock. Lorelai Gilmore had seen a drunk driver passing through the street as Rory was walking and she had jumped in front of the car to save her daughter and lost her life while doing that. They had only celebrated Rory's birthday the month before and now they would never be able to again. They wouldn't be able to annoy Luke for coffee or go into town meeting late and talk through the whole thing. Have a movie night together get to talk about boys or about Rory's wedding and when she would have kids. They would never get to do that because of a stupid guy who chose to drive was he was drunk.

Everything had seemed to freeze and time seemed to stop. The five minutes it took to get the Hartford Hospital was the longest five minutes in Rory Gilmore's life. They had entered the ambulance and Lorelai had told Rory she loved her and she loved everyone and were the will was and the her last words were, "Never give up and I will always be with you in your mind and heart I love you Rory." And with that Lorelai Gilmore was announced dead before they even got to the hospital. Rory's last words were 'I love you mom.' Right there in front of Rory, both holding each other's hand. Rory knew she was losing Lorelai when the grip on her daughter's hand started to loosen and she knew she lost her mother when she let go of her hand and the monitor flat lined.

Rory thought it was her fault that her mother had died. Thinking, 'It should have been me, why did she have to save me she should have lived it's all my fault.' That's what the only thing that Rory had said right after her mother died.

Rory hadn't had anything to eat since then and it had been almost three and a half weeks. Sure she would eat a little here and there but Luke was worried because she wouldn't eat a full meal she would eat bites and pieces. They had already had a funeral and Rory spent a lot of her time at the Stars Hollow cemetery now days. Lorelai had left everything to Rory the car, the house. Rory was going to be sent to live either with Christopher or move in with Richard and Emily but Rory refused and she was now temporarily staying at Luke's. She would still go back to her and Lorelai's place at times. She hadn't changed anything. She would cry herself to sleep in Lorelai's bed her pillows still smelling like her. Some days she would stay there all day and even miss school now days.

Everyone in town knew Rory had changed she had broken up with Dean and she now wore darker shades of shirts and dark blue jeans. Her hair was always down and her book bag was now black she had black and white converses. Her ears were pierced in the correct place and they had silver crosses on them and she had a silver cross pendant necklace that no one could see. She didn't know how to act anymore all she wanted was for the pain to go away and stop. She really doesn't talk to anyone except Luke, Sookie and Lane basically. At school she still does good but she had blocked everyone out. She had changed. The Rory Gilmore that everyone had grown to love had died or at least that's what Rory thought. But little did she know she would meet someone who could help her move past her grief and on with her life.

Author's Note – So what do you think? GOOD? BAD? What please R&R I need feedback otherwise I won't continue writing the next chapter because I already am but I want at least five reviews before I post it. Also ask me any questions if you want and tell me your ideas too.

P.S.This was also inspired by a Evanesance song but I can't remember the title.

-Rebecca