Desires
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By: svakee2000
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One, two desires, I'll tell them all. Will one day be enough? In my dreams, I've dreamt, is this forbidden love? Old stories, tales, memories, it hurts. I've crossed boundaries, broken souls, just to watch your eyes. As you come from afar, my heart storms with a burning rage. –I'm yearning for your presence, I yearn, I hope, as memories of you flood my heart. Where are you? I've stayed here, in this spot, willing to wait an eternity, waiting for you. You're behind me, in front of me, beside me, above me, under me, everywhere, and nowhere. My heart aches, it hurts.
I didn't want to. I had to. You used to whisper in my ear. You whispered sweet nothings. "I am you. You are me. We are one." But never words I wanted to hear. Never something that satisfied me. I couldn't let you go. I couldn't let you stay. No one other than me could have you. No. I was yours. You were mine. You held my hand, smiling, laughing at everything…for me. But now I stand in this spot thinking… how come you couldn't just say what I wanted to hear?
You would've been here right now, telling me about your day. But it's too late. Too bad. Now I see you. You lay upon the ground. I'm done waiting. How come you wouldn't get up? I wouldn't have pulled the trigger; I wouldn't have to hear your scream echoing in my head again and again. If only you would just say the words. Now I see red. Warm red. You betrayed me. You left me. So now you're dead. Weren't it all desires, wasn't it? Just one desire. You. But you never said what I wanted to hear. It was entirely your fault. Not mine.
I lay in your arms. No warmth. I kiss your lips. No feeling. I lay my head on your chest. No life. It was all gone. So now what do I do? I sighed and closed my eyes waiting. Maybe you'll get up and say those words, but it never happened. We never happened. I reach out with my trembling hands at the gun that lay there. You are mine. I am yours. The trigger was pulled. It was irreversible. My vision blurred. I'm coming to you, maybe, just maybe. One desire? Yes. All just one desire.
I Love You