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Chapter 2: July 1st 2002

July 1ts 2002

Um…hello? I feel kinda stupid writing in this diary, but Hermione told me that it's better than suppressing my emotions. I suppose that is why so many girls do this kinda thing…. Moreover, Hermione is usually always right…well there is not much to say, or write about other that it's the fist day of the holidays sigh and it sucks! I have to stay at the Dursley's until I turn 17! So I get to sit here writing whilst Voldemort is out side killing heaps of innocent people until he finds me. I wonder how long that's going to take after all I am basically a sitting duck just waiting for Voldemort to come and blow me up! I can't wait. That's enough with the sarcasm. Wow Hermione was right I do feel better writing about my troubles. Maybe I'll write about the year that has just been instead…

Well it was my sixth year and not much happened apart from the fact that I went out with Ginny. Yeah I know Ginny… Anyways im over her now, um… I learnt from Dumbledore that I have to find these horcruxe things before I can destroy Voldermort, some few hours after we destroyed once Snape had to go and kill Dumbledore didn't he Bastered! It's just not fair! Why does every one who I love have to die? First my parents then Sirius, then Cedric (although I didn't actually love him…) then Dumbledore. Who is going to be next? Ron? The Weasleys? Hermione? God if it's Hermione I will kill that son of a bitch named Voldemort and I will bring him back to kill him again. Yeah I know I'm going over the top with this but that's how I feel. Speaking, or should I say writing about how I feel. I feel so lonely. I feel as tho I am different to every one else (yes, I already know that I am different but this is different…now I am confusing my self…) ok what I ment to say is that I feel as tho I can't be normal. That I can't have a normal life with out having to save the wizarding and the muggle world. I wish that I had a normal family, not one who hates seeing me every summer and then ignores me as tho I don't exist! I never asked to be famous I never asked to live with my aunt and uncle and to tell you the truth I HATE IT! I feel somewhat better now. But back to school. Hm… what else happened…oh! Hermione and Ron got together on the train… every one was real happy for them. However, let me tell you how it happened.
I was sitting in my seat by the window, (with Hermione sitting next to me) staring out of the window thinking of the best escape plan to get out of going back to privet drive when Ron sat up wringing his hands nervously.

"Er…Hermione… could I ….um… talk to you outside for a sec? There is something I have to say to you." Ron said. Hermione nodded and followed him out of the compartment. Ginny, who was sitting with Neville turned to me.

"Do you know what is going on?" she asked me. I simply shook my head. As Hermione and Ron came back, each had a huge smile on their face. I wondered what was going on. I didn't have to wait long because as soon as Hermione sat down next to me she burst out

"Ron and I are going out!" she squealed. I rubbed my ear, feeling my heart sinking at the same time. Them? Going out! I thought to myself. No there had to be a mistake. At the news Ginny jumped up, ran over to Hermione, and gave her a huge hug.

"It's about time." I heard Neville say to Ron.

"You two make the perfect couple." Ginny told Hermione. I suppressed the urge to laugh. I mean come off it they would not last. They were always fighting. They were not right for each other. I pretended to be happy for them, but inside I knew I wasn't.

So as you can see every one was happy for them every one except me that is. Don't get me wrong I love them both. They are both great people, but they are so wrong for each other in so many ways. My only hope is that they realises this some time soon. I already miss them so much. I had better go my aunt is calling me for dinner. Be back soon...
OK dinner is finally over, although I am still rather hungry. You would think that if my uncle and aunt wanted to live through the second war they would feed me more…but no stupid bastereds… its not like they care. They probably think that nothing 'abnormal' could do anything to them… oh well as I was saying I really do miss Ron and Hermione so much. I swear I would have never had made it this far on my own and if. No. When we win this war I am not going to take all the credit. I am giving them heaps of it too because I don't think I would be here now if it wasn't for them. I probably would have given up ages ago. Wow I have written a hell of a lot more than I had originally planned. I really must thank Hermione one day; she is a real lifesaver. Well there is not much more I can say so I am going to bed… maybe I will write to Hermione and Ron first to let them know I am all right….

Harry

Hermione looked up from what she was reading. She had no idea that Harry had felt that way about her and Ron's relationship. Although it did explain why he had seemed somewhat distant that day. But he had been right, some three months later both Ron and Hermione had come to the conclusion that neither of them were right together. She glanced at her clock that now read 8:00am. Hermione stood up and stretched before head to go and make breakfast and get ready for the day.

A/n: I no its not the best chapter, but it will get better, i promise.So good,bad, terrible,ok? Please R&R cos I love them!