"Tell me about your relationship with Seth." Irene requested, staring down the blonde who was once again staring out the window. The therapist had done her research over the past week, discovering the very little of her personal life that was on the internet. The most important and obvious factor was her relationship with fellow wrestler Seth Rollins. He probably had a huge impact on CJ's emotions and she possibly wasn't even aware of it.

"He's my boyfriend and I love him. We live together." CJ stated, almost as if reading off an imaginary list that was on the window, making Irene shake her head as she made a note of it.

"What is he like?" Irene asked, noting the shrug and look of uncertainty on the blonde's features.

"He's funny, fun to be around, great in bed, attractive, loyal. Seth is one of my best friends." CJ mumbled, sighing when all she heard was the scratching of pen on paper.

"And he loves you?"

"He does. He's loved me longer than I've loved him."

"Did your heart once belong to another?"

"Ah- yeah. I guess you could say that. Currently my heart belongs to him and his best friend, but first it was wrestling."

"Wrestling?" Irene repeated, meeting CJ's gaze. The blonde simply nodded, a small smile on her face before she looked back to the window.

"Wrestling. At first I hated it, because it was why my dad was never home. Then I grew to love it once I realized how beautiful it was. I couldn't give up wrestling for a man, since I've seen so many careers ruined over crumbled relationships within the business, I just couldn't allow myself to get involved and then lose everything." The blonde elaborated, dropping her head to stare at her boots. Irene could tell that there was more to it, but she wasn't going to push just yet.

"What about Seth's friend that you say you also love?"

"Dean? He's... An interesting one. If you think I'm a tough patient, you should try an hour with him." CJ laughed, and for the first time CJ looked like she actually wanted to have a conversation about one of Irene's suggested topics. "He was my protector for a while, we ended up spending a lot of time together as a result, and he says he loves me and I feel like I love him. He makes me happy, he's- what's that word Cole likes to use? Eccentric. I've never met another man like him, and I doubt that I ever will."

"Something tells me that you're leaning more towards Dean than you are towards Seth."

"Yeah, I know I am. But things happened a certain way and I can't break Seth's heart again. I love him too much to hurt him again." Her voice dropped to being barely above a whisper, smile gone, and her feet set to kicking at the floor. "But when I have Dean, I want Seth. When I have Seth, I want Dean. I can't figure it out and it drives me nuts that I can't."

"You want to be with them both even though you feel that you can't have both."

"I know I can't. They're both too possessive to share me, regardless of the circumstance."

"You won't know until you try." Irene said softly, not budging from her seat. "Now, let's address your depression concerns before we get into anything else."

"It's weird really. When I'm alone, I'm so mean to myself. Like, verbally. I've never tried hurting myself, but I just get this really low self esteem and I feel like I'm worthless. But when I'm around other people, namely Seth, there's nothing like that happening aside from the usual pregnancy hormones."

"You're pregnant?"

"Yeah."

"Congratulations."

"Thank you." CJ said softly, tucking her hands into her zipup hoodie. "It's weird though. I've never really understood what I was feeling or why I was feeling what I was, being pregnant just scrambles my brain more with these fucking hormonal mood swings and- I just want to be in control again."

"In control?"

"I used to be independent. Ever since I got hurt back in January, I've been dependent on everybody but myself and I'm losing control of the situation and it's driving me crazy."

"Christina, look me in my eyes." Irene demanded, her suddenly strict tone surprising CJ into obeying. Upon seeing the tears falling down her cheeks, Irene stood and retrieved the box of Kleenex from her desk and gently dabbed at CJ's cheeks. "Listen very closely. You do have control and you are still that strong independent woman. You come to me alone, and I doubt that anybody knows you're here. That's independence. You came to me for help, not because you were forced to, that's having control of yourself. Your boyfriend is traveling a lot, leaving you at home, there's independence. You are carrying a child in your body, you control how you take care of yourself and that child. You may feel as though you've lost control, but you have not." She emphasized those last three words, trying to drive her point home to the young blonde. When CJ nodded, sniffling a bit, Irene smiled before going to sit down in her chair.

"What do we talk about now?"

"Whatever you'd like to speak about, Miss Copeland."

"You're going to be the death of me, Dr. Thompson."

"I certainly hope not." Irene mumbled, small smile still on her face as she wrote in the notepad. "I want you to try journaling your feelings. I know that you say you're never sure of what you're feeling, so I want you to record the time, what you think you're feeling, and what you feel triggered this feeling. All this week until you see me on Monday."

"Oh, uh, alright."

"And before you ask, there's no way you could possibly mess this up. It's how you feel about the situation, not how you think you should feel. When Seth comes home, hug him and let him know how much you love and care for him, and don't be afraid to tell him that you want to try being around both him and Dean romantically at the same time. Don't push, just suggest. Same time next week?"

"Uh, yeah. Thank you, Dr. Thompson." CJ mumbled as she made her way out of the office and Irene made her final notes once the door was shut.

'Emotionally challenged and conflicted. Closer observation necessary.'

"I'm going to figure you out, Christina Copeland."

'Our world is about to change for the better babe.'

When CJ got the text from Seth, she wasn't sure how to take it. Obviously he had good news, but was it news pertaining to Evolution backing off? Was his mom agreeing to be nicer? Did he finally tell his mom? She hated that he had been so vague, so she decided to call him.

"Hey, babe."

"Hey, Sethie. I got your text and it confused the hell out of me. Care to explain?"

"You'll see on raw. Its one of those 'always darkest before the dawn' things, but the sun is coming up and she's lookin' beautiful."

"Alright. I went to the doctor today."

"Is everything fine with the babies?"

"It was just basic medical history bullshit. Nobody in your family has history of genetic problems in birth, right? I said no, but-"

"Nah, we're good there. Anything else?"

"I've got some blood tests and screenings in a couple weeks to see if they have birth defects of any kind, and yeah. We're good."

"Awesome." Seth breathed, chuckling a bit. "I love you so much, CJ. I'm doing this for you."

"Doing what?" CJ asked, concern flashing across her features as she tried to figure out what he was talking about. "Don't do anything stupid like you did last night, Seth. I still haven't recovered from that heart attack."

"You'll see on Raw tonight. I just want things to be better for you."

"Things are good for me, Seth. I don't understand-"

"You will. I gotta go. I love you, baby."

"I love you, too. Tell the guys I said hi."

"I will." Seth assured before hanging up, leaving CJ to look down at her phone in confusion.

What the hell was he talking about? She asked herself, grabbing the mail key off the hook and letting Kevin follow her outside. The Yorkie stayed in the yard and let CJ cross the street by herself, but yipped happily at Michelle as the brunette tended to her flowers.

"Shit. Shit. Shit. Seth's paycheck. My paycheck. Bill. Shit. A letter from Adam? The fuck?" CJ mumbled to herself as she sorted through the mail while making her way back across the street.

"Oh, CJ!" Michelle called, successfully startling the blonde and grabbing the her attention as she stepped in the grass. "Are you always jumpy as hell?"

"Surprisingly, no. What's up?"

"Tonight I'm hosting a dinner-slash-wrestling-slash-baking night and I was wondering if you'd like to come?"

"It's not going to be a lot of people, right? 'Cause I don't think I can do-"

"It's just us two, Mikaela, and Sierra who just moved in across the street."

"Well then, when should I be over?" CJ asked with a smile, not at all mentally prepared for this but knowing that she was in desperate need of female friends. Michelle looked more than excited about her attendance, and CJ mentally prayed that she didn't have to autograph anything while she was there.

"Seven thirty. Don't be late."

"Wouldn't dream of it. C'mon, Kev."

"Wear pajamas. It's one of those parties." Michelle called after CJ, who waved over her shoulder as she made her way to the front door. She wouldn't admit it out loud, but she was pretty excited to be invited to something. She just hoped that whatever happened on Raw wasn't so major that she'd be speechless. That would be bad.

Why did Adam write me a letter? CJ thought to herself as she tossed the other mail onto the counter and worked on opening the letter. How does Adam even know where I live?

'Chrissie,

I know you're probably pissed that I wrote you a bullshit letter just to mail you a Subway gift card and a Babies R Us gift card, but fuck it. I'm bored as hell anyways.

I'm proud of you for making the decision to be with Seth and stay with him even though you don't want to lose him or Dean. You've learned the final lesson: take a chance even if it means risking it all. You probably won't lose anything, because Seth is so in love with you it's crazy.

I yelled at Dean after you called. I don't know if he snapped into shape or not, but I think I might have made him cry with that comment. Oops. He's lucky I didn't hunt his ass down. Talk to him and get things right between you two. Your babies will need their fathers, and hopefully they won't be at each other's throats around them. I know you'll figure that one out.

Be safe in Iowa. Don't don't go cow tipping or do anything else that people from Iowa do for fun that sounds stupid sober but great drunk. Chances are, it's always a stupid idea. You shouldn't be drinking anyways. If I find out that you've been drinking, I'll kick your ass.

Call or text me soon, kiddo. I'm never too busy for you and if you feel lonely I'm only a phone call or video chat away.

Much love,

Adam.

P.S. Beth and Lyric say hello. For some reason Beth thinks I'm giving her credit for the gift cards.

P.S.S. I'm not.'

CJ wasn't sure why Adam's letter made her cry, but tears were dropping on the lined paper and she had to fold it up before it got completely ruined by her emotions. Next, she took note of her crying, why she felt like she was crying and recorded the time before taking the gift cards out of the envelope and taking a selfie with them and sending them to Seth.

'Guess what Adam and Beth sent?'

'Babe that's so awesome. I love subway and I can't wait to shop for baby supplies with you. How much?'

'25 for subway, 200 for BRU.'

'Awesome. When you call later, tell him that I said thanks, too.'

'I will. Be safe out there.'

'I will. Love you'

'Love you too.'

"Who said I was sharing?" CJ laughed to herself, setting the gift cards on the counter and heading up the stairs to dig out some pajamas.

Seth couldn't fight the smile on his face as he looked at the picture of her with the two gift cards. He could tell that she had been crying, but he wasn't going to ask why. She probably wouldn't tell him the truth about it anyway, since she lived in a world where she wasn't allowed to show weakness or let anybody into the inner confines of her mind if she felt they wouldn't understand(which was almost always). Boyfriend or not, she hardly ever let him in. He couldn't even begin to fathom the things she kept from him and, being perfectly honest, he didn't want to.

"Hey, Seth." Hunter called and he sighed, looking down at his phone one last time before turning it off and slipping it into his pocket and mentally apologizing to her before shit hit the fan for The Shield later in the night. Dean was probably going to call her and demand answers, and she wasn't going to have any for the eccentric blonde. CJ wasn't going to be able to contact him until he came home Thursday morning. He'd have answers for her by then, but until then she needed to be as in the dark as possible until he knew how to explain it so she would understand. "How's that girlfriend of yours?"

"She's good."

"I almost hit that, y'know." Orton commented from where he lounged on the couch in Hunter's office wearing only a tshirt and his wrestling trunks.

"You weren't anywhere close, but okay." Seth laughed, taking a tentative step back when The Viper tensed up.

"Calm down, guys. Randy you've got a girlfriend, Seth you have a girlfriend, and I have a wife. There's no competition in that category and if we're all going to work together, we need to push the matter of CJ Jericho aside and deal with the problem that is The Shield." Hunter quickly tried to defuse the tension between the two and Seth nodded. "Does she know, by the way?"

"No. Nobody knows, and nobody will see it coming."

"Good boy." Hunter laughed, patting Seth on the shoulder before gesturing to the steel chair in the room for Seth to sit down before leaning against the desk in the room and getting down to business. As much as Seth's mind was on the matter at hand, in the back of his mind he was worrying about CJ's reaction to all of this. He could only hope she'd understand that it was what he had to do, or hear him out at the very least.

I wasn't the only one completely blindsided by Seth last night, right? Right? Like, I swore my heart started to break when he hit Roman that first time, and then it continued to gradually break until the curb stomp to Dean. My apartment was dead quiet after that because nobody knew what to say about that. Nobody expected Seth to be the one. I certainly didn't. I'm not ready to change my Words With Friends username yet.

Anyways, onto less saddening things... I'd like to thank TaijiaK, AshleighxAwsome, UntilNeverDawns, ChelleLew, angelsdee327, ArtisticLullaby, Sarcastic Nightmare, and MulishaMaiden for reviewing the last chapter! I appreciate it!