11: Realisation
Mamoru awoke slowly, the bright light streaming in from the open curtains hurting his eyes something terrible when they fully opened. However, he was much too content to stay where he was, to move even an inch. His arms were still possessively wrapped around Usagi's waist, her blonde hair falling in between their heads. Usagi turned, snuggling further into Mamoru's embrace, pretending to be asleep, but in honesty, she just didn't want this morning to end.
"You know, we're going to have to get up sometime," Mamoru commented, his voice rough from sleep, "No matter how much we want to stay closeted up like this."
Usagi only mumbled, pushing her head further into Mamoru's chest, "Don't wanna…" Mamoru had to smile; now there was the Usagi who hated mornings and he… loved? Was that what you were really thinking, boy? Because that would be… ridiculous? Insane? And talking to myself isn't… hah. The dark haired male took a deep breathe, I can't love her… I can't. I mean, I could like her, but I can't love her, can I? She doesn't even know who I am! Do you want to be any more delusional! So, that leaves only one option, tell her who you are.. What and ruin the moment? Knowing that the instant you tell her, she'll scream, and cry and run away, uh-uh, not happening. Well it has to be done sometime! Too soon, too good a moment! Fine, but promise yourself it'll be today. Fine.
Mamoru had to sigh, what he had to do was not going to turn out well, he knew it; why, oh, why, had he chosen to say 'goodbye' in the way he had? He couldn't even remember what his true reasoning was, it was something about wanting to get her out of his thoughts. But even that didn't work properly. I spent a whole fucking year and a half just thinking about the girl I left behind... It's my fault she's this way… What the hell was I thinking! About her, obviously. Shut up you. Let me live my own life.
I feel so vulnerable, Usagi thought disconsolately, The last time I felt so vulnerable was when Mamoru was around, with his constant, incessant tormenting. I thought this feeling was banished, but it seems as though it was only hidden beneath layers and layers of my attempted strength.
Usagi pulled herself closer, groaning against the cruel intrusion of Darien's voice, "Don't wanna..." She almost sniffed, feeling close to tears, What's got me so unhappy all of a sudden? Its like… like something's back in me that hasn't been here for a very, very long time. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing…
There was a long silence, both happy to hold, and be held, for the longest period of time they could get away with. "Do you want to go visit Rei?" Darien asked, "I'm sure she'd be happy to see you…"
Usagi's head snapped back, her blue eyes staring into his, "What on Earth makes you think that!"
"Well, considering the reaction you had to her being injured last night, I figured you know her, also the fact that you know her name." Darien paused, hoping this little snippet wouldn't get her to suspecting him, for knowing more than he should.
But Usagi's eyes never moved, they stayed affixed upon his own, "I've just seen her around, heard some of her friends calling out to her. And who wouldn't be upset at seeing someone shot, before their eyes?"
Liar. Mamoru thought, You little liar. How the hell do you expect to get past this if you don't talk!
Thank god I've become such a good actress over the past year, I have no idea how I'd deal with this if I didn't know I could get away with this. Usagi was almost relieved, but then a whisper came from Mamoru: "Liar."
"What did you call me?" Usagi was outraged, she pulled away and sat up, glaring angrily.
"Liar." Mamoru made no move to elaborate upon this statement. Usagi could only stare at the dark haired man, unable to talk. There was a tense silence, broken only by a change of position by Mamoru.
"You know Rei, because she was once your best friend; one of your four best friends, although, secretly, you were closer to her than you were the others." Usagi bristled, her inability to talk almost broken, almost shattered.
Usagi came to herself, "How the Fuck do you know that! There's only one person, aside from Motoki, who knows that, and he's not even in this damned country."
There was another silence, "Are you sure?"
"Sure about what?"
"Him not being in the country."
There was another staring contest, then Usagi's eyes suddenly dropped, looking closer at the rest of 'Darien's' face.
"You." She breathed, "YOU!" Usagi's faced turned red, her voice cracking with anger, "GET AWAY FROM ME!"
Hey, alright, now I know you're all moaning at the shortness of this chapter, but I couldn't think of a way to make it longer without making it cliche and ridiculous.. so there will be more soon, and hopefully it will be longer and better. So please, feel free to whinge about it being short, because i totally agree :P Hows about some review responses eh?
CharmedSerenity3 - There will be conflict, as there always is with these two, but it'll resolve :)
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Shan - Of course they'll be together! Otherwise I wouldn't be writing this!
Koldy - Shanka! You're such a consistent reviewer!
Tenshi Bunny -I'm sorry this took so long, I hope you liked!
Secretguest - hehehe she knows now!
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artemis366 - Yeah, we're getting back to the angst riiight about now! Thanks!
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xx Usa! love you all!