Disclaimer: I don't own Lost, I don't own Kate, and I don't own Sawyer… If I did though…. whistle

"Do you feel anything at all?

Do you hear steps at the door?

Do you reckon the smell of...?

It's life-the the dark that binds you"

In Flames

Chapter One: All the Things She Wish She Said

From the second I opened my eyes, I knew it was going to be a bad day. It was overcast, and the winds were absolutely atrocious. I threw my blanket back over my head, but my growling stomach made me take it off again. God, why couldn't I just be like a bear? Eat, get all fat, and sleep for months. I thought bitterly.

I opened the flap of my tent and crawled out. I got to my feet and walked over to the "grocery store". I opened a bag of Dharma crackers and ate a few as I surveyed the beach in front of me.

"Find anythin' interestin' out there Freckles?" A voice behind me caused me to jump. I turned around and glared at Sawyer.

"As a matter of fact, no. Not that it's any of your business mind you." He gave me one of his arrogant looks back. God, he should patent those things.

"What, Doc in the hatch on button duty?" I rolled my eyes and turned back around to face the beach.

"How would I know where Jack is Sawyer? Actually, the better question would be why do I care where Jack is?" Sawyer snorted.

"Oh don't flatter yourself sweet cheeks. You may be good at runnin' and hidin' from the pigs, but you're a terrible liar." He chuckled at his own statement. I kept quiet, not really knowing what to say to that. I just stuck another cracker in my mouth and chewed it up slowly. "See sweetheart? Told ya you weren't any good at it." He whispered in my ear. I had to fight with my body not to shiver.

"What do you know Sawyer? Nothing, that's what. For all you know, I could have made up everything I have ever told you and you would never be any the wiser." I felt proud of myself for turning the tables on him.

"Ahhh, excellent point Sassafras, but you see that's a lie too. I can read you like a book." Again, I rolled my eyes.

"Oh yeah?" He nodded. "Fine. What am I thinking about right now then?" Sawyer squinted up his eyes and acted like he was concentrating real hard. After a minute of this, his faced brightened and he smiled.

"You're thinking about me naked. In a hot, steamy shower." He grinned as I shook my head.

"Oh yes, I want you, I need you, ohhh baby, ohhh baby." I put the box of crackers down and started walking back to my tent, intending to end that conversation. My intentions were thrown down the drain though, as I heard the sound of his approaching footsteps.

"Hey now Freckles, no need to get all moody on me. I was just teasin' with ya."

"Well goody for you Sawyer. Now if you don't mind, leave me the hell alone." I stalked away and back into my tent. I just wanted to go to sleep, wake up, and find myself back in civilization. Sure, my actuality of civilization would either be me sleeping on the side of the road, or sleeping in a jail cell, but I like to think that if I was back there, I would have real freedom. I sighed as I turned over on my side, jammed my eyes shit, and fell into a fitful sleep.

A/N Thanks for reading! What do you think? Is it realistic or no? Cause my dad says he thinks it is, but I don't know if he's just saying that or not. Stay tuned for the next chapter!

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