Chapter 19
Putting Gabriella in the ground had to be one of the hardest things for Lily to do and defiantly the hardest for Remus. It seemed as if Lily and James dragged funerals their way. Lily was honestly getting sick and tired of everyone around her dying and having to wear the same black dress over and over again.
Alice and Lily cried throughout the entire ceremony and when they laid Gabriella's body to rest. Remus let silent tears fall down but other than that he was as stiff as a board and would not talk to a soul. James, Sirius, and Frank felt horrible for losing another close friend. Amelia felt really out of place as she had barely known Gabriella and Amelia knew Gabriella, Alice, and Lily all hated her. Peter, well that dirty rat sat there on the outside looking mournful, but inside he was laughing and feeling very good about himself.
Life eventually moved on and although it was hard to go on with life and know that both Cassidy and Gabriella would never come in and brighten the room up, the friends moved on. All except one.
Remus Lupin disappeared two days after Gabriella's funeral.
Everyone had their own thoughts as to why he just left out of nowhere. Remus did not let any of his friends know, did not contact them afterwards, or leave them a forwarding address.
Alice figured that Remus was so grieve stricken that he had to get away from all of them and their happy lives, and Sirius agreed with Alice's suggestion. In fact most of the friends agreed with this too, and that was what everyone just began to say.
To the friends, it felt as if they had lost another friend. Now not only was Cassidy and Gabriella gone, but Remus had left too. Of course Cassidy and Gabriella had been murdered and Remus just up and left.
At the end of November, Alice and Frank decided to have a party at their house. It was not a big and fancy party like they had attended for the Ministry Ball, but just a small enough party for all of their closest friends to come and enjoy each others company.
Lily, James, Sirius, Peter, and Amelia were all of course invited. Alice had asked Lily's opinion on inviting Amelia. These days you really did not know who you could and could not trust anymore. Lily assured Alice that since Sirius and Amelia were still together then she had to be one of the good guys and not the bad. Nothing past friendship had gone between Sirius and Amelia, which made everyone happy but a discussion started one day between Lily and Alice with all the what ifs?
"Would you be mad at Sirius if him and Amelia ended, you know, hooking up?" Alice asked as she was knitting some little green booties.
"If you would have asked me a month or two ago I would have told you bloody hell yes, but now I think I would be more happy for Sirius to move on then to be miserable for the rest of his life."
"I think I agree to that too," Alice nodded. Then putting her knitting down on her lap, she turned to Lily. "Have you or James heard from Remus?"
"Nope," Lily said sadly.
"Us neither, but do you think Sirius has?"
"If Sirius had heard from Remus we would have heard about it."
Alice nodded, "I guess you are right. It is just so weird without the three of them here with us."
"I know what you mean," Lily nodded.
"Lily?" Alice asked.
"Yes?"
"Would you be my baby's godmother?"
"What!" Lily asked as she felt her face light up.
"Would you be my baby's godmother?"
"Of course!" Lily said hugging her friend tightly, "I would love to! Who is going to be the godfather?"
"I think Frank is going to ask James today at work."
"Oh James would be thrilled to be your baby's godfather!" Lily smiled from ear to ear, "By the way, why aren't you at work today?"
"I have a doctor's appointment about the baby later on today."
On the morning of December tenth, James awoke to a wrenching sound. James blinked and only saw blurriness, then realizing that he did not have his glasses on. Slipping his glasses on and James looked to Lily's side of the bed and she was nowhere to be seen.
"Lily!" James asked scared of where his wife was, he was usually up way before she got up.
The wrenching sound that had awoken James was coming from their bathroom, "Lily?" James asked knocking on the door. There was a grunt and James opened the door and caught Lily's flaming red hair before she vomited all over it too. "Are you okay?"
"Ek," Lily said laying down on the bathroom floor. "I think Amelia gave me that flu that she caught from work."
"The flu that she got from Sirius?"
"Sirius," Lily growled. "It is all his fault that I am sick."
James chuckled at her, "Calm down. Just owl your professor and tell him that you feel really under the weather and you are not going to be able to attend class."
"Okay," Lily nodded but then gave James her death glare. "Tell Sirius he is on my warpath."
Three days later, Alice Longbottom was walking through the apothecary and waved at Lily. Lily turned whiter then Alice had ever seen Lily all her life. That was when Alice looked up to see the aisle that Lily was on.
"Lily!" Alice hissed and ran up her friend. She then looked down in Lily's basket and saw what confirmed her first question. "Are you?"
"I do not know!" Lily whined.
"What is in the bag?"
"Muggle tests."
"James is not home is he?"
"No," Lily said shaking her head. "What are you doing away from work?"
"Took off for another sick day. James is at work, so your house is okay. Let's go do these tests at your house."
"Will you quit that," Alice snapped sitting on Lily's couch, knitting once again.
"Stop what?" Lily snapped back.
"That pacing you are doing."
"I can not help it," Lily whined. "How much longer do we have?"
"A minute and a half from the last time you asked," Alice responded back counting to make sure she did not go over on her little project.
"Another three minutes!" Lily yelled pulling at her flaming hair, "These tests take longer than the muggle ones!"
"Ug," Alice said putting her hand over her mouth again. "Do not remind me or I will throw up all over you."
"What pissing on a stick?"
"Lily!" Alice growled as she was gagging too, "That is not funny."
"How much longer now?"
Alice checked her watch, "Now. So let's go check the cauldron."
Lily and Alice looked over the cauldron and Lily made an unsatisfied noise, "Why is the potion still yellow?"
"Still trying to find the miracle of life."
"Ug," Lily said looking at Alice as if she was gum on her shoe. "Miracle of life?"
"Yeah it sounded better before I spoke it."
"You are starting to sound more and more like Sirius."
"That is a total insult."
"It is changing!" Lily yelled changing the subject, "Blue…blue…what the hell does blue mean!"
"Positive."
"Oh Merlin," Lily said walking back to her sofa and falling down on it.
"Do you want to try another one?"
"After three muggle and four wizarding pregnancy tests, I would put it in your words and say that the tests found the miracle of life."
"Geez, that really does sound pathetic doesn't it?"
"Yeah," Lily half way chuckled. "Too much like Sirius."
"So you are pregnant."
"Yeah," Lily nodded starting at the ceiling above her and putting her hand on top of her abdomen.
"Is that a good thing or a bad?"
"I do not know yet," Lily said turning her head to Alice. Then Lily's face lit up, "I am going to have a baby!"
"I know," Alice nodded.
"I am going to have James's baby!"
"Yes."
"We are going to have our babies together!"
"Oh Merlin, we are!" Alice said beginning to get all excited with Lily as the both began to jump up and down together. "Just promise me one thing?"
"Sure."
"Never talk about the piss on the stick method again."
"Ek," came a voice from behind them. "Who would piss on a stick?"
Lily and Alice turned around to where they both turned ghost white, "I should shove that stick down your throat." Lily growled at her best friend.
"I should be going home now, Frank will be home soon. Goodnight Lily, James."
"Bye Alice," James said waving his hand as Alice Flooed to her home. "Lily?" James asked, "Do you feel any better today?"
"Um…"
"Why is this cauldron doing out?" James asked looking at his wife oddly.
"Sit."
"Why?" James asked starting to get really suspicious.
"I will tell you why I have been ill lately and why I have the cauldron out."
"And why you and Alice are talking about pissing on a stick?"
"I have some news that will change our lives."
"Now I do not know if I want to know this."
"What!" Lily asked baffled.
"If you are pissing on a stick it makes me wonder about your sanity."
"If you do not shut up I will shove that stick down your throat."
"Okay," James nodded.
"James what are you doing at the end of next August?"
"I do not know?" James shrugged, "You know I do not plan anything that far ahead."
"Then you better start planning for next August."
"What for?"
"James," Lily said biting her lip. "I'm pregnant."
James some how feel off of the couch.
"Are you okay?'
"Repeat that."
"Are you okay James?"
"No, the statement before that."
"We should have a baby by late August."
"What baby?" James asked still laying on the floor.
"Our baby!"
"You are pregnant?"
"That is what I have been trying to tell you," Lily said getting off the couch and sitting next to James on the floor.
"When did you find this out?"
"Before you got home."
"With Alice?"
"Yes."
"Why did you tell her before me?"
"I did not mean too," Lily said honestly. "Alice ran into me at the apothecary and saw what was in my basket. You are not mad at me are you?"
"Of course not," James said sitting up and taking Lily in his arms where they sat there quiet for a while.
James broke the silence and pulled back to look at Lily through those eyes of her he loved so much, "We are having a baby?"
Lily bit her lip and nodded.
"Are you positive?"
"I took three muggle and four wizard pregnancy tests."
"And?"
"I am late and I am never late."
"Oh."
"I am as positive as I can be without a confirmation from a Healer from St. Mungo's. I do not care how you feel James Potter, but I am keeping this baby!"
"No, no. I am happy."
"You don't seem like it."
"I am," James nodded. "Just a bit shocked, weren't you?"
"Of course."
"When can we go to the doctor?"
"We?"
"Yes," James nodded again. "I am going with you."
"Tomorrow at two."
"I will take lunch late."
The Healer looked down at his clipboard and then back at the couple sitting in front of him, "Mr. and Mrs. Potter?"
"Yes," the spoke at the same time.
"I have some news for the two of you."
"Yes," the spoke again at the same time.
"Follow me," the Healer opened a door and the couple walked in and the Healer followed. "Sit."
"I would rather stand," James spoke.
"Okay," the Healer nodded. "Mr. and Mrs. Potter, congratulations on the addition to your family."
"Huh?" James asked stupidly.
"You should have a little boy or girl by next August."
"Lily is really pregnant!" James asked as his eyes filled with delight.
"Yes," the Healer said smiling at the young couple. "Lily was right to guess that you should have a little bundle of joy at the end of August. I want you to come back and see me in three weeks Lily. Make an appointment with the receptionist and I will see you in three weeks."
"Thank you," Lily and James said at the same time and were smiling from ear to ear leaving St. Mungo's hospital.
After their weekly Order meeting the friends, Sirius, Peter, Alice, Frank, James, and Lily met at The Three Broomsticks.
Alice was rubbing her belly lovingly as usual while her other hand was on her cup of tea, Frank was caught glancing at Alice every few seconds, Peter was twitching and nervous as usual, Sirius was rolling his eyes at how nervous Peter was being, Lily had a glow to her face that no one could quite put their finger on why she looked so happy, and James just looked so happy that Sirius kept telling him to wipe that goofy grin off of his face.
Madam Rosemerta brought everyone their food and Lily jumped up from the table with her hand over her mouth running to the bathroom.
"What is wrong with Lily?" Amelia asked as she walked over to the table to sit next to Sirius.
"She seems ill," Sirius said starting to stuff his face which made Alice now sick. Alice got up and ran to the bathroom after Lily.
"Alice is still getting morning sickness?" Amelia asked Frank.
"It is not morning," Sirius said stupidly.
"It is just a saying," Amelia laughed at Sirius in which he stuck his tongue out at her. Amelia then turned back to Frank and repeated, "Alice is still getting morning sickness?"
"Yes," Frank said looking exhausted by now.
Lily was walking back to the table and she looked paler than usual, but her glow was still there.
"Alright there Lils?" Sirius asked.
"I will be okay," Lily nodded and sat down next to James.
"Ugh," Alice said walking back to the table and leaned up against Frank. "I feel horrible."
"Me too," Lily groaned laying her head into James's chest.
"Yeah but I have morning sickness."
"Me too."
"What!" Everyone at the table yelled at the table except Lily, James, and Alice.
"So it was confirmed?" Alice asked.
"You knew before me!" Sirius shirked pointing at Alice with awe.
"Don't you point your finger at my Sirius Black!" Alice hissed as pregnant hormones were high and kicking.
"Contain your wife, Frank."
"Sirius!" Amelia said smacking Sirius upside the head.
Alice, Frank, Lily, and James looked at each other in awe.
"What?" Amelia asked wondering what was going on. "I did not really hurt him. I just do that when he is being a total arse."
"T…that was so funny," Lily said blinking and turning to Alice.
"Yeah that was."
"How?" Sirius asked with a total child like pout.
"I have not seen anyone hit Sirius upside his head or actually got him to shut up since…since…"
"Cassidy was still alive," Alice finished Lily's story.
Everyone got quiet and turned to look at Sirius.
"What?" Sirius asked as everyone had gotten quiet and had turned to look at him. "What?" Sirius asked again totally flabbergasted."
"Sorry," Alice apologized. "I did not mean to upset you Sirius or Amelia."
"What are you sorry about?" Sirius asked confused, "What is she sorry about?" Sirius asked Amelia.
"Maybe I should not have hit you upside the head," Amelia asked a bit confused too. "I mean I know that none of you really care for me. Sirius is my only friend and…"
"That is not true," Lily said shaking her head and everyone was really surprised. "I mean at first I did not like you because I felt like you were taking my best friend's place but you are not. You are a very beautiful person, inside and out."
"I am sorry Lily."
"For?"
"Seventh year…you know when I was dating James and I was so mean to you…"
Lily shrugged it off, "That was a long time ago. A very long time ago and I have no hard feelings towards you. You started to like James and I can not blame you."
"I thought I did have feelings for James," Amelia nodded. "I found someone that means lots to me," Amelia turned to look at Sirius and smiled a thousand watt smile.
I sat five tables away from the 'dream team.' The majority of them were total idiots and morons. I could not see how she could put up with all of those losers. The Marauders, makes me still gag to this day, and I honestly do not know how she could put up with them all. I sit here staring at her, but none of them noticed me in my black cape and I was studying, as usual. It was a quiet night, for once, here in The Three Broomsticks. I can actually overhear the dream teams conversation.
As I am sitting here I overhear something, I then feel my whole body shut down. I feel very ill and I think I am going to die. I overhear her talking and that she and her new best friend were both pregnant. I could not believe the love of my life was pregnant. Not only had she married that prick but he had now knocked her up.
However she loved him and I knew now that she would never truly love me. All I know is that if he ever did truly hurt her, I would defiantly be the person that would cause his death.
"I still can not you are pregnant!" Amelia smiled at me, "It seems as if it is the thing to do now."
"Huh?" Alice asked having a blonde moment.
"Getting pregnant," Amelia repeated. "You are pregnant and now Lily is. Maybe I should think about the little pitter patter of feet too."
"What?" Sirius asked chocking on the Cauldron Cake he had been eating.
"Geez, I am just joking around Sirius. Take a chill pill."